just a short post, if i blast myself off at you or give you snappy replies, ignore me. dont get affected or OFFENDED by it. really. either you're being really irritating or stupid(aka asking stupid qns) cos

firstly, i've decided to begin serious studying! xD so i'm getting more intellectual and can't really associate myself with childish things anymore.

secondly, my social life has been greatly destructed resulting my socialising skills to deteriorate tremendously

thirdly, my life is so screwed now (gosh i sound so sec1). i'm getting into those myliferevolvesardmybooksandi mood.

so, i'm not gonna curse myself if i find myself speaking less to people. or if i'm becoming more hostile. wait till after exams lah ok.

sorry i cant be purrrfect(his pronounciation damn good ah) dont blame me; blame MOE :)

oh yesohyes. happy 15th birthday meloser!
happy onedayearly birthday to me :D
happy twodaysearly birthday to russ and yuliang
happy threedaysearly birthday to kelong kia aka celestine!

Keep Swimming

Two frogs fell into a deep cream bowl. One was an optimistic soul.But the other took the gloomy view."We'll drown," he lamented without much ado,and with a last despairing cry,he flung up his legs and said, "Goodbye."

Quote the other frog with a steadfast grin,"I can't get out but I won't give in, I'll just swim around till my strength is spent, then I'll die the more content."Bravely he swam to work his scheme,and his struggles began to churn the cream.
The more he swam, his legs a flutter,the more the cream turned into butter.On top of the butter at last he stopped,and out of the bowl he gaily hopped.

that's how i'd want all my 12 chosen members to run in the cross country race next yr.

oh yeah, just wanna encourage anyone of you out there. if you feel that God isn't answering your prayers though it's very important like...getting a revival of His spirit or smth, dont give up! :) i had to wait for close to two yrs to get one persistant long-awaited prayer answered. the waiting was worthwhile. and i'm kinda, no, VERY glad God made me wait so long for the answer...though it was just a 'yes'. haha :)

i'm not feeling stressed but am just feeling very sick. especially during school...so maybe i might seem a bit frustrated over my work etc.

but anyway

sorry yvonne for snapping at you today. i felt really really really bad after that (though i played murderer with the rest soon after =x) i was very stressed over my LOST CHINESE PAPER =( cos i really did it! but i cant seem to find it anywhere in my file. even mel pok helped me mess up my whole file but to no avail. and when you suddenly came to me and told me that 'we dont have to do cip journal' i absentmindedly flared up. this was my first time losing control of my temper. i know i'm a very angry person inside and i know how to control it very well. i dont know what got into me today to lose my cool. i know a mere 'ah whatever lah' 3 word phrase may seem nothing from another person but i know very well myself i dont 'whatever' people. therefore, i'm really apologetic about today. (i know a lot of things eh =P) few nights ago, i already explained it to you i was talking about the other part of cip ! about writing a journal as a concerned friend/parent/etc. maybe you didn't read the qn paper well enough so you tried to argue back your point. but i had my paper right in front of me and told you the exact heading (lah). you just prob got confused. but anyhow. i just hope you forgive me.

on another note, DAMN IT. i forgot to find laoshi to get the paper and re do! now she's gonna hate me. and kou wu fen from my test!!!!!!!!! hope revision's been going fine for you guys cos it's not for me. wanna share with those non-b2 pple about this really nice passage the math king shared with us today:

Lord, grant me the right attitude towards my examination,
That even when I study, I want to glorify your name.

Give me the strength that i may press on,
Perseverance that I may endure,
Good health that i amy study effectively.
Help me to be single minded when I study,
Remove all other thoughts, distractions and anxieties.
Give me the power to concentrate,
the abiblity to understand and to remember.
Show me the way to study intelligently,
To know what is important and what is not.
Provide me Lord with quality time in my studies,
Remove all tension and fears within me.
Fill me with Thy confidence,
teach me to draw strength from you each day.
Let me learn to trust You in such times.

In the examination hall, be with me Lord.
Grant me the clarity and sharpness of thoughts
Let me not get distracted by things around me.
Give me concentration and calmness Lord.
Help me to gather the thoughts of what I've learnt.
Grant me discipline to space out time equally for all questions.
Most of all, help me to complete the question on time.

Despite examination Lord, continue to grant me quality time with You,
Let me not neglect You
Give me a balance diet between my studies and my services to You
I just want to commit the whole examination into Your hands,
Knowing that you are a God who cares and ansewrs prayers.
Thank You, In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and Saviour,
Amen.

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

Footprints
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."


"Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler."
Albert Einstein

what the ..?! Mr Einstein, are you not contradicting yourself RELATIVELY too much? what about your 'mind-boggling' rules of relativity? Mr Newton's laws are already as simple as it is for us to understand. people do remember that quote of us and yet you twisted all of Newton's easy to understand laws. bah. Einstein, you win.

(i do sleep well. i eat well...take fruits. everything. but i still woke up this morning with A COUGH. the phloegms(i nvr got the spelling right) stuck in my throat taste VERY weird. and I'VE A RACE TMR! :( i do hope my oral examiner(forgot her name) likes low voices :D =x

yay hello slackers. pls remind me to study if you see me online after this sun and shoo me off :D i think i'm gonna destruct my already destructed social life and study :) 12/10 12/10. yay. i'm gonna aim a MSG of b3 for end of this term! pray for me :D

aaah. i just got my first treat on thurs! he didnt have any loose change with him when i asked as his only possesion then was his cashcard. so he just passed me his drink and got another one! bad thing is...i think i forgot to say 'thankyou' . i was so excited over that free $1.10 1ooplus drink. i know i shldnt accept things from strangers but i was DESPERATE. plus i wasnt alone. he couldnt have done anything to me. also i'm taller than him and i could easily punch him back. hahahaha. ok TRAINING TMR X_X

"I am going to ask you to make that decision for Jesus right now. You need to humble yourself, repent and ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior. Please kneel right where you are. Can you sense God calling you right now? Is your heart pounding? You may have been baptized or confirmed, but something inside you is saying, "Be sure." Perhaps you have strayed from God and need to rededicate your life to Jesus now. Would you rather go to be with God or the lake of fire? You have that choice right now. God wants you to receive the gift of eternal life. Are you sure there is not a sin, there is nothing that stands between you and God? But you may know there is. The Bible tells us THERE IS A WAY WHICH SEEMETH RIGHT UNTO A MAN, BUT THE END THEREOF ARE THE WAYS OF DEATH. Jesus wants you to KNOW HIM, to have a personal relationship with Him. It’s not a matter of whether you think you know Jesus, but does Jesus know you?"

http://tseruey.blogpsot.com/

go check out this web sometime. it's like a sermon on the net and you can pause it anytime you want. it's very powerful and because it's on text, you can read through a certain line over and over. somehow, you realise that every sunday, you listen to propaganda regarding our religion, christianity. not that i'm against it or anything.

when i took my first step out of you
i thought i'd never think of you again
i thought i'd be happy and carefree
i thought my life would be saved from you

but now
memories of the times we had are revived
the laughter we shared
the tears we shed

all this time, i thought i could do without you
i wanted to be an independent individual
in this fast moving society
but i guess my life will not be complete without you

i miss turf city :(

thank you mgcrossie seniors for the memories so cherishable that i will treasure for a really long time. it is what you guys are made of that makes the team and it is definately the best team one could ever wish for in cross.

esp to rach, thanks for teaching me so many lessons as to how to lead the team. the initiative 'lil talks' we had... thanks.

some stuff to ponder over

I will say this about being an optimist; even when things don't turn out well, you are certain they will get better.
Frank Huhges

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

He wanted to have a steady career
She wanted to provide for her family
He is materialistic
She is sentimental

So different were the two of them
Yet they decided to give it a shot
Yea, a shot indeed
Piercing through their hearts

She lays helplessly on the floor
With him standing tall so arrogantly, not giving a shit about her
Abandoned, she wonders whether he'll ever turn back
But they've gone so far there's no turning back


mind my explicit lang. fuck the material things in this world and all materialistic pple. go to hell. yeah go ahead. strip me off my prefect student leader etc posts. kick me out of mg. what's the use of all these bloody stress. at the end of 10yrs i'll just get an O level cert, just like the rest, with only our sch names different. maybe mgs girls dont really seem to be having it down cos they will marry rich ac guys and live happily ever after. or prob the girl will be tortured interally. accidently seeing her richachusband at the bar making out with another freak. and when he goes home, he hurls violent curses at her just cos he lost a deal with some major bastard which can honour him with his next million bucks of his life.

get a life guys. money isn't the only thing in the world. there's still God to look up to; a wife, or girlfriend in this case, that is always by your side whenever you need her. all you guys want is just to earn loads of cash. but reconsider. what the hell ever for? you're here on this earth to live for God. ok yeah it's true God put us here to give us a choice of whether we want to follow him or not. fine then. go down the dark path and get obsessed with all the materialistic things in this world. and when you die and go to hell, my goodness. why isnt your car, bungalow or even your 6million bucks with you? i'm gonna follow him all the way though i dont even know if He exists. it's called faith.

ah whatever. i just cant wait to die and meet God. i've loads of qns to ask him.

(sorry to anybody that i have offended through this post. i'm just not myself tonight. let's just hope that when i wake up tmr, i'll forget all that has happened. and i'll be naive enough to let this deception of me having a perfect life seep into my brain. i'm genuinely apologetic abt this post. sorry God, sorry world, sorry tiffany.