i hate using hte computer. so difficult to use
Saturday, January 31, 2009
28 Jan 09, 08:36
dingyue: last part - "how can I hav someone love me w/o affecting freewill"..sounds as though God has spoken to you and said tt there will be someone that will love you but it is God's will and he is unwilling
i've no idea what you 're trying to say.. i dont get your meaning
28 Jan 09, 02:07
loong: lol. i now own your tagboard. ahahaa. sorrry =\
NO. YOU DON'T. NOBODY WILL EVER WIN ME. I OWN.
28 Jan 09, 02:07
loong: run/own/invented things/companies that we know/use/heard of. yep. oh yea. the actress' name is jennifer
28 Jan 09, 02:05
loong: oh and fyi, Jews apparently don't believe Jesus was the messiah and are still waiting for Him-that's for some. oh and jews are a race, my dear. a race. there's so many of them who actually
28 Jan 09, 02:01
loong: booya! hello. foudn your blog again. lol. happy niu year!
happynewyear. jews still waiting for 'Him' -who is Him?the messiah? if jews are a race, so jews aka israelites? why alvin and audrey?so random..OH YA.caijing is leaving this week...marley and me sounds....weird. hahaha wth is marley.
27 Jan 09, 00:54
tricia: eh i was at vivo on sat too! but for like 1hour only. happy cny tiff (: did you go anchorpoint
tricia. i've decided i won't take the 5bucks job. she wants to chase me away, that's what she'll get. ill not go. not go jacks place that is. ill still go to your japanese kamate! restaurant =D you had btr treat me properly .be a good waitress if not i complain abt you t boss
26 Jan 09, 16:09
JANELLTAN: *:|
26 Jan 09, 16:09
JANELLTAN: what was that........................... :
?!???
23 Jan 09, 01:19
tricia: (ie i actually dont really know how to ans your qn =/) but good to know youve started ! (:
23 Jan 09, 01:16
tricia: go overseas. take car safer ah. train got theif one lol im just giving crap answers.
23 Jan 09, 01:16
tricia: well firstly, i dont really know many ppl older than me who dont know how to drive. and say oneday your friend gets drunk leaving a car at a certain place you can drive that friend home OR... when you
wth tricia you are super full of shit hahah. beneath that intelligent facade... drunk then take your friend's money and cab home lah. so easy. i really hate all these driving shit man. the lessons and all that. i only passed evaluation by 1%. some more i mug before the test leh. everybody else ard talk to their friends .act cool. this is not acceptable
21 Jan 09, 22:16
st: i dont think its possible for time to treat you differently from anyone else :s either way, its good for you to not be you usually over busy self for awhile i thinks
i'm not busy. i dno why i appear busy to people. maybe it's exactly because of that reason that i'm so free.
21 Jan 09, 09:44
no
i must talk a bit about work. one guy kaobei ed me because i was stupid and had to keep going back and forth to change his orders cos what he ordered was out of stock.
1 why are there so much out of stock food
2 the aircon almost shut down
3 water is chargeable
.:. might as well not operate. he asked us not to operate alr. walao...
two, i cheated a really really sweet looking lady. some more she was all alone. i feel damn bad. i made a 21bucks meal of hers to an almost 40bucks meal. SOME more no nice desert and nice soup tt i've always been looking for chances to kope :( i'm such a kuku. OHYA.SOME MORE she gave tips. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh. i must stand up for my customers next time and be nice to them.
50m.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnsCeQAXwwA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtGOY7OPaHg (watch the first 10s ONLY.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r71sA9GXnsI&feature=related go to Anfield.
men look best in red.
ill give eg. compare
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeRP59WrKxw Unbeautiful -Lesley Roy
Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable
When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable
[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[verse 2] I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable
[chorus]
[bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
[chorus] x2 ... made me unbeautiful
listening to the radio now transports me back to uniform days. since for most part of uniform days i took fang's radio mp3 thing.and only won the zenstone in my last crosscountry race recently :D ( it hasn't been a year yet)
that song caught me when i heard it on the radio one fine recent day. but it sounds better on the radio. on the computer it sounds a bit hoarse..
i like the youtube video so much. stewart issuper pretty... i dont know the situation in new moon but it seems just so tragic.falling in love, having everything but approval. it's so painful to watch :( (ohyeah i watched twilight. hahahah which was really quite awkward because fang and i were stoning in vivo-i bet i was following her while she shopped-then suddenly eh lets go watch twilight lah.jan told the story till qte interesting.) maybe stewart isn't really that pretty but her character really strikes me.
and she reminds me so much of doc tancredi in prison break. both of their character roles are so strong yet gentle
.like yelena in poison study.
and to an extent, i guess, mulan from mulan too.give extra bold fonts.
ah! lily from hannah montana too.i bet she can join this grp of very pretty, strong, gentle girls.i say i bet because HM dont have such dire situations to showcase her character but i can see it in her ...... ^^ hahah wth am i saying.
O.O i just found out that karl marx and albert einstein were jewish! and the founders of Polo, coca cola, levi's jeans, google, dell computers, dkny, dunkin donuts etc.... i dno what is it about the jews (are they born jew like how malays are born muslims? or is it a race??? are israel pple aka jews?) except that they're God's chosen people.
and since i believe in the same god as they do, we're supposed to be friends right? but i rmb doing flag day for methodistwelfareservices 2-3years back and i approached this jew (i think. he got white beard) he was friendly, seemd like he wanted to help then when i said it's for methodist ws, he SUDDENLY fan1 lian3 , became cold towards me and dismissed me nastily.
"....how the Almighty God has a hand in the destiny of the Jews (God's chosen people)and also how Singapore is also blessed with what we are and what we have to day base on this bible verse (prohesied more than 6000 yrs ago).. as we have strong ties with Israel during our early independence yrs, and we still have., whereas our neighbouring countries are despising Israel and are still struggling. (Gen 12:3 And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee )"
"And considering the massive relentless attacks on Israel in the 60s, with the Six Days War, Yom Kippur, etc, Israel not only survived, but actually grew. This is amazing, given that they don’t even owe the land until 1948. Nations comes and go. But Israel is the only nation which started in prehistoric time, got scattered without a land for thousands of years, and come back again."
interesting.. i think all these history stuff and nature studies etc damn enticing man. and honestly, to each of his own. i respect every view layed down as long as it's logical. like how people debunk christianity.atheists ?yeah. and recently, ya i'm so outdated, recently i've been told of a 30min video telling us viewers that EH DUDE.we never made it to the moon!
so mind boggling. might as well just stay home and sleep all day .so i've two alternatives when faced in such dilemmas. 1) if the conflict doesn't bother you, like does armstrong actly touching down on the moon or not affect me at all?, screw it. 2) if taking one stand doesn't benefit you and the other benefits, like HOPING a God exists and will come to save the world one day against no one coming to save the world at all, take the hopeful one.
true or not,really, does it matter? just take the side which will make you happy.
OMG. WHICH REMINDS ME. i just watched bruce almighty! aaaaaaah. the lead female , known as the Friends actress to me, is sooooo pretty. i only watched the 2nd half but it was good.maybe ill consider checking it out one day... the Mask actor is super funny.but he can be such a bas tard at times.
How can I have someone love me without affecting freewill ?
Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable
When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable
[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[verse 2] I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable
[chorus]
[bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
[chorus] x2 ... made me unbeautiful
listening to the radio now transports me back to uniform days. since for most part of uniform days i took fang's radio mp3 thing.and only won the zenstone in my last crosscountry race recently :D ( it hasn't been a year yet)
that song caught me when i heard it on the radio one fine recent day. but it sounds better on the radio. on the computer it sounds a bit hoarse..
i like the youtube video so much. stewart issuper pretty... i dont know the situation in new moon but it seems just so tragic.falling in love, having everything but approval. it's so painful to watch :( (ohyeah i watched twilight. hahahah which was really quite awkward because fang and i were stoning in vivo-i bet i was following her while she shopped-then suddenly eh lets go watch twilight lah.jan told the story till qte interesting.) maybe stewart isn't really that pretty but her character really strikes me.
and she reminds me so much of doc tancredi in prison break. both of their character roles are so strong yet gentle
.like yelena in poison study.
and to an extent, i guess, mulan from mulan too.give extra bold fonts.
ah! lily from hannah montana too.i bet she can join this grp of very pretty, strong, gentle girls.i say i bet because HM dont have such dire situations to showcase her character but i can see it in her ...... ^^ hahah wth am i saying.
O.O i just found out that karl marx and albert einstein were jewish! and the founders of Polo, coca cola, levi's jeans, google, dell computers, dkny, dunkin donuts etc.... i dno what is it about the jews (are they born jew like how malays are born muslims? or is it a race??? are israel pple aka jews?) except that they're God's chosen people.
and since i believe in the same god as they do, we're supposed to be friends right? but i rmb doing flag day for methodistwelfareservices 2-3years back and i approached this jew (i think. he got white beard) he was friendly, seemd like he wanted to help then when i said it's for methodist ws, he SUDDENLY fan1 lian3 , became cold towards me and dismissed me nastily.
"....how the Almighty God has a hand in the destiny of the Jews (God's chosen people)and also how Singapore is also blessed with what we are and what we have to day base on this bible verse (prohesied more than 6000 yrs ago).. as we have strong ties with Israel during our early independence yrs, and we still have., whereas our neighbouring countries are despising Israel and are still struggling. (Gen 12:3 And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee )"
"And considering the massive relentless attacks on Israel in the 60s, with the Six Days War, Yom Kippur, etc, Israel not only survived, but actually grew. This is amazing, given that they don’t even owe the land until 1948. Nations comes and go. But Israel is the only nation which started in prehistoric time, got scattered without a land for thousands of years, and come back again."
interesting.. i think all these history stuff and nature studies etc damn enticing man. and honestly, to each of his own. i respect every view layed down as long as it's logical. like how people debunk christianity.atheists ?yeah. and recently, ya i'm so outdated, recently i've been told of a 30min video telling us viewers that EH DUDE.we never made it to the moon!
so mind boggling. might as well just stay home and sleep all day .so i've two alternatives when faced in such dilemmas. 1) if the conflict doesn't bother you, like does armstrong actly touching down on the moon or not affect me at all?, screw it. 2) if taking one stand doesn't benefit you and the other benefits, like HOPING a God exists and will come to save the world one day against no one coming to save the world at all, take the hopeful one.
true or not,really, does it matter? just take the side which will make you happy.
OMG. WHICH REMINDS ME. i just watched bruce almighty! aaaaaaah. the lead female , known as the Friends actress to me, is sooooo pretty. i only watched the 2nd half but it was good.maybe ill consider checking it out one day... the Mask actor is super funny.but he can be such a bas tard at times.
How can I have someone love me without affecting freewill ?
Saturday, January 24, 2009
WAH. THAT WAS SUPER LONG. HAHA. i didn't expect myself to be THIS BORED.
everyone's out shopping.
janell left her msn on. with few friends talking already when i saw the computer on so i just told her friends she's at vivo lest they get angry for not getting a response. one started telling me about cny shopping discounts and all.
i facebook ed to see if janell got more friends.
i went to youtube secondhand serenade song cos the one on windowsmediaplayer very whiny, i was wondering if he is really that whiny.
ah, so know everyone knows why the previous post so i dno.worthless or whatever. no sense
everyone's out shopping.
janell left her msn on. with few friends talking already when i saw the computer on so i just told her friends she's at vivo lest they get angry for not getting a response. one started telling me about cny shopping discounts and all.
i facebook ed to see if janell got more friends.
i went to youtube secondhand serenade song cos the one on windowsmediaplayer very whiny, i was wondering if he is really that whiny.
ah, so know everyone knows why the previous post so i dno.worthless or whatever. no sense
this acoustic version brings out his voice very well http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rgInHvW8Ic
i'm finishing the book.and i must say i already feel very accomplished :) it's always like that. the initial stage damn inertia.like just push through it and you'll come out of it.
next time i'm gna try not to read books with the protagonist as a man. for reasons i'm sure most know. it's rather disturbing esp if the man is 43years old and not married. (actly come to think of it, if hes married it's even worse)
today is saturday. okay, on thursday night, it was after a round of really thoughtful thinking that I had solid conclusions and theories. that then, you were the one bringing yourself down and all - that distracted me from the real truth.which is .it really is the opposite. i overlooked that and caused a greater downfall... i don't deserve such good things in life; i knew and should have taken it upon me. 'i need not' apologise but sorry. msymi
Be careful whose advice you buy, but
be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia,
dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal,
wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts
and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
i could go on but i shan't because i'm bored. i don't understand why. when i was in secondary school, people told me that when i grow older, i'd learn how to appreciate it; like you know, enjoy it. but i still hate shopping at 18. but of course when i'm out i swallow it down and tahan. especially with jan and rachel. it's fun to shop for ryan and with friends.laugh at them. but other than that, i'm kinda .....that i don't appreciate it because it kills one more few-things-to-do-in-sg past time.or bonding activity wtv. only one good one conclusion, i'm not old ^^
you do know that i am going to change right?
in j1, we had the adventure class camp to pulau ubin and the 2nd day we had a ,what norman'd call it, a therapy session. (wth, he called the 2007 j2farewell a therapy session. ahhahahah) i don't even remember whether our instructor was a girl or boy, much lest what was shared across the class. but from the session, what i took back was that events change our lives, whether it be ongoing or for a mere moment. and at this point of time in life, i'm going through one now.
i used to think that my future husband must be somewhat like janell cos we two click rather okay-ly. which is rare la , me being able to really click with someone for a few years running. (while on that point, i don't think it's my fault. people just keep leaving me. they start to have their own lives after say changing class and get so caught up in their 'new better life'. and that makes me shrink to a corner and not want to disturb you.) i can insult janell till i feel a little bad myself and she doesn't care.like me. or so i think lah. and as i said , i'm a little loud and embarrassing at times but she tolerates me. she goes 'and i live with her -.-' to her friends but i know she means it in a proud (in the good terms of course) way. and she shares with me a lot of things, too long in fact. but, good to share lah. AND she lets me spam her facebook acct.and talk to her friends on msn.i'm sorry if you find that invading one's privacy but i can't help it.i get a kick out of asking them young kids to guess my relation to her.but most are rather mature i must say. i rmb this one guy who's one year younger me and suddenly we started quarrelling.two of us were in a really foul mood. but when janell angsts me a bit, i get very affected.not in the sad way, but in the angry way.especially more so that she's my youngersister(i dno the purpose of this whole chunk. nor not caring abt my english .apologise) so therefore my future husband cant be somewhat like her. plus shes my sister lah, we're forced to be together.
anw on her facebook i added a legendary runner and fb says that ' - is not single anymore' !hahah
nyeh this aint working out. i'm almost very bent on taking a year off already. all i need to do now is to find something meaningful to do :)
( i was thinking if like in 7 mths i go off to uni and then study for the next 3-4years. get out of uni and look for work. get married HOPEFULLY. juggle kids. work some more. retire happily with my husband HOPEFULLY. spend next few years taking care of grandkids. go holiday....the rest is history....)
sorry, i've been brought up to...okay i dont know how i've been brought up. i can't think of any logical reason to justify this decision to you but who do i owe to in my life?so..... yup. this is something i must do. even if i don't take a year off, i must go to ntu. this is something i must stick to. i will admit that getting (somewhat) forced into rj was not a bad decision at all though it was not a personal choice.but aiyah, ntu.i need to study damn hard and do well in uni. make up for everything lost. wth my only good academic years were in p1 n 2 :(
i'm finishing the book.and i must say i already feel very accomplished :) it's always like that. the initial stage damn inertia.like just push through it and you'll come out of it.
next time i'm gna try not to read books with the protagonist as a man. for reasons i'm sure most know. it's rather disturbing esp if the man is 43years old and not married. (actly come to think of it, if hes married it's even worse)
today is saturday. okay, on thursday night, it was after a round of really thoughtful thinking that I had solid conclusions and theories. that then, you were the one bringing yourself down and all - that distracted me from the real truth.which is .it really is the opposite. i overlooked that and caused a greater downfall... i don't deserve such good things in life; i knew and should have taken it upon me. 'i need not' apologise but sorry. msymi
Be careful whose advice you buy, but
be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia,
dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal,
wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts
and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
i could go on but i shan't because i'm bored. i don't understand why. when i was in secondary school, people told me that when i grow older, i'd learn how to appreciate it; like you know, enjoy it. but i still hate shopping at 18. but of course when i'm out i swallow it down and tahan. especially with jan and rachel. it's fun to shop for ryan and with friends.laugh at them. but other than that, i'm kinda .....that i don't appreciate it because it kills one more few-things-to-do-in-sg past time.or bonding activity wtv. only one good one conclusion, i'm not old ^^
you do know that i am going to change right?
in j1, we had the adventure class camp to pulau ubin and the 2nd day we had a ,what norman'd call it, a therapy session. (wth, he called the 2007 j2farewell a therapy session. ahhahahah) i don't even remember whether our instructor was a girl or boy, much lest what was shared across the class. but from the session, what i took back was that events change our lives, whether it be ongoing or for a mere moment. and at this point of time in life, i'm going through one now.
i used to think that my future husband must be somewhat like janell cos we two click rather okay-ly. which is rare la , me being able to really click with someone for a few years running. (while on that point, i don't think it's my fault. people just keep leaving me. they start to have their own lives after say changing class and get so caught up in their 'new better life'. and that makes me shrink to a corner and not want to disturb you.) i can insult janell till i feel a little bad myself and she doesn't care.like me. or so i think lah. and as i said , i'm a little loud and embarrassing at times but she tolerates me. she goes 'and i live with her -.-' to her friends but i know she means it in a proud (in the good terms of course) way. and she shares with me a lot of things, too long in fact. but, good to share lah. AND she lets me spam her facebook acct.and talk to her friends on msn.i'm sorry if you find that invading one's privacy but i can't help it.i get a kick out of asking them young kids to guess my relation to her.but most are rather mature i must say. i rmb this one guy who's one year younger me and suddenly we started quarrelling.two of us were in a really foul mood. but when janell angsts me a bit, i get very affected.not in the sad way, but in the angry way.especially more so that she's my youngersister(i dno the purpose of this whole chunk. nor not caring abt my english .apologise) so therefore my future husband cant be somewhat like her. plus shes my sister lah, we're forced to be together.
anw on her facebook i added a legendary runner and fb says that ' - is not single anymore' !hahah
nyeh this aint working out. i'm almost very bent on taking a year off already. all i need to do now is to find something meaningful to do :)
( i was thinking if like in 7 mths i go off to uni and then study for the next 3-4years. get out of uni and look for work. get married HOPEFULLY. juggle kids. work some more. retire happily with my husband HOPEFULLY. spend next few years taking care of grandkids. go holiday....the rest is history....)
sorry, i've been brought up to...okay i dont know how i've been brought up. i can't think of any logical reason to justify this decision to you but who do i owe to in my life?so..... yup. this is something i must do. even if i don't take a year off, i must go to ntu. this is something i must stick to. i will admit that getting (somewhat) forced into rj was not a bad decision at all though it was not a personal choice.but aiyah, ntu.i need to study damn hard and do well in uni. make up for everything lost. wth my only good academic years were in p1 n 2 :(
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
i'm here to erase a former declaration. i am continuing the book. i am gna finish it.
http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/switchfoot-lyrics/you-lyrics.html
the roses intertwined through the bicycle.
http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/switchfoot-lyrics/you-lyrics.html
the roses intertwined through the bicycle.
16 Jan 09, 21:54 JANELL TAN: HAHA i cannot take it, your latest post was soooo funny la (not sarcastic), its like loser-fied x 1000 HAHAHAHA. salty cake mm |
16 Jan 09, 02:18 CaiJing: lol at the stupid book you borrowed. i think mine was alot better! talked alot bout life and relationships these days.caijing i think your life more interesting. eh, you all mocking me ah... ruth also said she found that post amusing...i....i dno what to say. too stunned for words.oh, pro english ppl call that phenomena: speechless. |
16 Jan 09, 02:06 tricia: i get tired and fall aslp alot more often too!!! and slping less hours. i give you something to do now: go learn driving, getfbk, work in anchorpoint (:ya lah. i got forced to go bukitbatok...actly i allowed myself to be coerced into it because i'm so damn bored now and next time i wna conc on uni studying next time so cannot be distracted by trafficrules studying... which brings me to a qn, why is driving made to seem like a social norm?or rather, made to seem more like a necessity, a survival tool or sth . |
7 Jan 09, 21:51 st: time is something that you always lack...time doesn't treat me well |
7 Jan 09, 02:02 tricia: tiff. too much time is more than 2 months of freedom which is what weve gone through so far. anw hanging out with friends means youre not free. dont worry (: cannot find job then do cip work lah hahai didnt hang out with a lot of them.. |
6 Jan 09, 18:52 romaine: okay, come to think of it, u wouldnt hav e time, cos u'd be SLEEPING, or lookin for a job XPPPPhi romaine.i've no idea what youre talking about but hello! i see that youre enjoying yourself in cedar... that's good. |
Monday, January 19, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zn9XKSQ6YIA
ow.
who wants jc stuff???physics chem math econs !!?! and sec4 books too, i still have them =/
yknow.. I'm so bored nowadays that I get tired and fall asleep rather often. Which i obviously try to avoid because not being able to sleep and lying in bed at night for 3 hrs can be extremely tormenting. And mind you, I am not stoning then. I remember sharing with some friends that when i get home after jc school, i'm so tired to do anything i'd lie on the bed (or floor when i feel extremely sweating and gross) for 1-2hrs staring at the ceiling. it was like therapy for me.
now it's a no choice.
OMGGGGGGGG #(@*)(@#* somebody give me something to do. somebody give me some life.
i really miss running so much. but i was running for something then. now it's just me and my passion. but this passion isn't self driven, it's.....motivated by a greater good ( hah ). friends who are more than friends. teammates. okay it's not entirely because of them. but it's initiated by the idea of that. you know what i mean? like one thing leading to another. now at this point of time, i find that 'slippery slope arguments' actually might hold some truth and concrete in it. cos one thing really might lead to another.no matter how random it is. then again, it ain't random, yes? who are we to judge.for all we know, in a person's mind the links are all in there. just that you are only told the start and end pts. i speak for myself.
as i told someone, i'm suffering from mid life crisis after two days of work. i wake up at 7.45am, send ryan to school. go back home, lay in bed. 930 get up to wash up. (ya i just wore my school jacket over to walk him to school) 10 leave for vivo. 1045 change to the pig shirt. 11 wipe the tables. 12 stand at the entrance and stone. 3 hear a cheery "okay tiffany. see you tmr!"
on monday i went back home, ko for 2 hours, had dinner, go back to sleep
tues, go ahma house, eat. sleep. eat. go home. read the damn boring book. sleep.
i'm like damn good friends with spiderman now. ryan's bedsheet cover.
on wed, to break the monotony i went back for rj openhse. THEN AT 12 I DUTIFULLY LEFT THE COMPANY OF MY TEAMMATES FOR VIVO(for another round of stoning). then i got a call on the way that oh i aint rostered for today. and tomorrow. come back on friday.
wth =.= are you trying to kill me??? i used to think that people bitching about their work lives are so lame. hah i sympathise now. and dude, i'm only part timing! i wanna go back to school............. if not for the free breakfast and friendlyness and nearby-lity.....aiyah i'm going for a change in april. i don't care.okay in april if i can last till that long. ah, this is an obligation.
this is not how i expected my January to be. and...I've stopped getting allowance.i'm only left w 7$. and what, pays only come at the start of the mth right?! AAH.okay i'm stopping.i am so disgusted at myself.
I'm so scared when my phone rings now.
i hate transitions. i hate rjc. i hated it so much i dragged myself to school for the first year. and i forced myself not to let myself be truly happy. then in j2 it got kinda better but .........i need to stop this rant :( regrets regrets...i know it'd get to me. i still rmb the tables and chairs and the naps....mid life crisis.everything will go back to normal when you give me stability, a routine. maybe i'm over-rating this 'mid lifecrsiis' thing but i don't care now.
k i promised to send ryan to school tmr and ask his teacher not to scold him. hurhur. i asked whether he was naughty, he said yes then 'you naughty of course teacher scold lah!?!' "....but. but can you just ask the teacher not to scold me?" you know, just to get into his good books, yeah that's what i'm gna do.
do i sound weird. i'm so pissed off i got scammed by a book summary thing .they talked abt a 43years man who was a runner but everything went downwards after school. (aah wth) he became freaking fat, sister went missing and eventually died. parents died in a car accident. then after all that hype, 'he picked up his bicycle and never stopped...' i gave too much credit to it and thought of it in the literature, got hidden meaning way. but no, it's literally. he cycled from his house to some farm, took a train to los angelos, bought a map and just randomly cycled here and there. okay the only part i'm attracted to is his spontaneity. that's it. because the author is describing the places he go to and the weird boring pple he meets. what the rooster is up with this man?! i'm gna stop at chapter 26/45.
i borrowed another so i'm reading that. on a guy and girl's thoughts in their 7th year of marriage. but they've a kid so it's mostly about parenthood... i heard of this phrase :" if this is your first, your second and third etc will come". it's my first time reading a book halfway and stopping. and it'll be my last. i shall prove that phrase otherwise.
i sound so angst. =/ wtv. i need to rant. but oh yes i need to sleep.
i was very disappointed and discouraged at my first attempt. a salty cake wouldn't suffice as a birthday gift...
ow.
who wants jc stuff???physics chem math econs !!?! and sec4 books too, i still have them =/
yknow.. I'm so bored nowadays that I get tired and fall asleep rather often. Which i obviously try to avoid because not being able to sleep and lying in bed at night for 3 hrs can be extremely tormenting. And mind you, I am not stoning then. I remember sharing with some friends that when i get home after jc school, i'm so tired to do anything i'd lie on the bed (or floor when i feel extremely sweating and gross) for 1-2hrs staring at the ceiling. it was like therapy for me.
now it's a no choice.
OMGGGGGGGG #(@*)(@#* somebody give me something to do. somebody give me some life.
i really miss running so much. but i was running for something then. now it's just me and my passion. but this passion isn't self driven, it's.....motivated by a greater good ( hah ). friends who are more than friends. teammates. okay it's not entirely because of them. but it's initiated by the idea of that. you know what i mean? like one thing leading to another. now at this point of time, i find that 'slippery slope arguments' actually might hold some truth and concrete in it. cos one thing really might lead to another.no matter how random it is. then again, it ain't random, yes? who are we to judge.for all we know, in a person's mind the links are all in there. just that you are only told the start and end pts. i speak for myself.
as i told someone, i'm suffering from mid life crisis after two days of work. i wake up at 7.45am, send ryan to school. go back home, lay in bed. 930 get up to wash up. (ya i just wore my school jacket over to walk him to school) 10 leave for vivo. 1045 change to the pig shirt. 11 wipe the tables. 12 stand at the entrance and stone. 3 hear a cheery "okay tiffany. see you tmr!"
on monday i went back home, ko for 2 hours, had dinner, go back to sleep
tues, go ahma house, eat. sleep. eat. go home. read the damn boring book. sleep.
i'm like damn good friends with spiderman now. ryan's bedsheet cover.
on wed, to break the monotony i went back for rj openhse. THEN AT 12 I DUTIFULLY LEFT THE COMPANY OF MY TEAMMATES FOR VIVO(for another round of stoning). then i got a call on the way that oh i aint rostered for today. and tomorrow. come back on friday.
wth =.= are you trying to kill me??? i used to think that people bitching about their work lives are so lame. hah i sympathise now. and dude, i'm only part timing! i wanna go back to school............. if not for the free breakfast and friendlyness and nearby-lity.....aiyah i'm going for a change in april. i don't care.okay in april if i can last till that long. ah, this is an obligation.
this is not how i expected my January to be. and...I've stopped getting allowance.i'm only left w 7$. and what, pays only come at the start of the mth right?! AAH.okay i'm stopping.i am so disgusted at myself.
I'm so scared when my phone rings now.
i hate transitions. i hate rjc. i hated it so much i dragged myself to school for the first year. and i forced myself not to let myself be truly happy. then in j2 it got kinda better but .........i need to stop this rant :( regrets regrets...i know it'd get to me. i still rmb the tables and chairs and the naps....mid life crisis.everything will go back to normal when you give me stability, a routine. maybe i'm over-rating this 'mid lifecrsiis' thing but i don't care now.
k i promised to send ryan to school tmr and ask his teacher not to scold him. hurhur. i asked whether he was naughty, he said yes then 'you naughty of course teacher scold lah!?!' "....but. but can you just ask the teacher not to scold me?" you know, just to get into his good books, yeah that's what i'm gna do.
do i sound weird. i'm so pissed off i got scammed by a book summary thing .they talked abt a 43years man who was a runner but everything went downwards after school. (aah wth) he became freaking fat, sister went missing and eventually died. parents died in a car accident. then after all that hype, 'he picked up his bicycle and never stopped...' i gave too much credit to it and thought of it in the literature, got hidden meaning way. but no, it's literally. he cycled from his house to some farm, took a train to los angelos, bought a map and just randomly cycled here and there. okay the only part i'm attracted to is his spontaneity. that's it. because the author is describing the places he go to and the weird boring pple he meets. what the rooster is up with this man?! i'm gna stop at chapter 26/45.
i borrowed another so i'm reading that. on a guy and girl's thoughts in their 7th year of marriage. but they've a kid so it's mostly about parenthood... i heard of this phrase :" if this is your first, your second and third etc will come". it's my first time reading a book halfway and stopping. and it'll be my last. i shall prove that phrase otherwise.
i sound so angst. =/ wtv. i need to rant. but oh yes i need to sleep.
i was very disappointed and discouraged at my first attempt. a salty cake wouldn't suffice as a birthday gift...
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
# triciachong. says:
thoughididntgettogooverseas@#$%^&*
now that shes said it :( ....
at the end of my sec4 hols i said nvm, anw now it's only just o levels, not big enough to celebrate... a's. a levels, ah that's big! i'll save up from now to go for a korea trip after a levels and eat all the good food............
one, a's wasnt a big thing to celebrate abt
two i totally forgot abt saving up whn i went rj. local food still best
three wth what's korea?
so this marks the end of my j2 hols. and the end of my real holidays in fact.... come to think of it, my school days, my uniform school days..... aaaah :( and they just banned shorts and shirt and slippers. aiya wtv. who cares.
eesh, i'm starting to think, what actually really matters in this life now? no more exams, no more competitions... ??? education really kills a person's brain if he succumbs to it, like how i did .in ways not the nerds do, that is. so i lose out. those 'nerds', they get a dead brain but with it comes many job offers .:. a secured future. (but seriously, what is a secured future man? a good steady job? a happy stable family?) i wonder whether it is human nature to think that in everything, you either give your all or not even at all -aka give it up. because i adhere to that.its in my nature...or is it in human nature to do so ? obligations are exceptions. but now, my school uniform days are over, i've no more obligations... or do i have them just that i'm unaware?
i read from somewhere that with too much time, a person can go psycho because with so much time in hand, his mind keeps thinking. with so much time for the mind to wander, it can cause a person's sanity. do you think theres a chance it's happening to me?
i dno how many hrs i spent at j8 but i promise it's the longest i've ever hung out for the whole time i've gone to rj. like wow, i'm hanging out with my friends at j8!! :) the library's not counted. i like the library. spending time with cj and tengteng is like living the desperate housewives story. hahaha.of course i only participate just to catch on their excitement and reciprocate... rich, handsome, never attached, strong, angmoh,.......................................? hmmm ,hahahaha they're too caught up in desperate housewives..... that's why i need to be there. they need someone mature, logical, stable, practical to stablise them, bring them back to singapore. aiyah they're all flying off also :( okay.i dont want to talk alr, everything leads to sth sad.
ah like tonight! wanted to eat but no eggs. when i get my own home, it's gna be constantly stocked with food man. AND FRUITS and food.
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
taht time you bet some 100m guy will win (OLYMPICS ah. you can check newspaper for the finalists)
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
then he nvr even get into finals
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
you the best
нυ∂ qυи says:
...
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
HAHAHAHA
нυ∂ qυи says:
that's a fluke
thoughididntgettogooverseas@#$%^&*
now that shes said it :( ....
at the end of my sec4 hols i said nvm, anw now it's only just o levels, not big enough to celebrate... a's. a levels, ah that's big! i'll save up from now to go for a korea trip after a levels and eat all the good food............
one, a's wasnt a big thing to celebrate abt
two i totally forgot abt saving up whn i went rj. local food still best
three wth what's korea?
so this marks the end of my j2 hols. and the end of my real holidays in fact.... come to think of it, my school days, my uniform school days..... aaaah :( and they just banned shorts and shirt and slippers. aiya wtv. who cares.
eesh, i'm starting to think, what actually really matters in this life now? no more exams, no more competitions... ??? education really kills a person's brain if he succumbs to it, like how i did .in ways not the nerds do, that is. so i lose out. those 'nerds', they get a dead brain but with it comes many job offers .:. a secured future. (but seriously, what is a secured future man? a good steady job? a happy stable family?) i wonder whether it is human nature to think that in everything, you either give your all or not even at all -aka give it up. because i adhere to that.its in my nature...or is it in human nature to do so ? obligations are exceptions. but now, my school uniform days are over, i've no more obligations... or do i have them just that i'm unaware?
i read from somewhere that with too much time, a person can go psycho because with so much time in hand, his mind keeps thinking. with so much time for the mind to wander, it can cause a person's sanity. do you think theres a chance it's happening to me?
i dno how many hrs i spent at j8 but i promise it's the longest i've ever hung out for the whole time i've gone to rj. like wow, i'm hanging out with my friends at j8!! :) the library's not counted. i like the library. spending time with cj and tengteng is like living the desperate housewives story. hahaha.of course i only participate just to catch on their excitement and reciprocate... rich, handsome, never attached, strong, angmoh,.......................................? hmmm ,hahahaha they're too caught up in desperate housewives..... that's why i need to be there. they need someone mature, logical, stable, practical to stablise them, bring them back to singapore. aiyah they're all flying off also :( okay.i dont want to talk alr, everything leads to sth sad.
ah like tonight! wanted to eat but no eggs. when i get my own home, it's gna be constantly stocked with food man. AND FRUITS and food.
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
taht time you bet some 100m guy will win (OLYMPICS ah. you can check newspaper for the finalists)
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
then he nvr even get into finals
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
you the best
нυ∂ qυи says:
...
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
HAHAHAHA
нυ∂ qυи says:
that's a fluke
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Rockin' Ruth says:
NO!!!
Rockin' Ruth says:
THIS CALLS FOR
Rockin' Ruth says:
AN EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN
Rockin' Ruth says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO NO
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN
Rockin' Ruth says:
EMOTIONAL
Rockin' Ruth says:
BREAKDOWN
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO
Rockin' Ruth says:
EMO
Rockin' Ruth says:
TION
Rockin' Ruth says:
AL
Rockin' Ruth says:
BREAK
Rockin' Ruth says:
DOWN
omg does anybody get the pun??? i did. but she didnt then she angst me..... somebody tell her theres a funny side to what she said!! happy new year to you too ruth :) thanks for the personal note to all of us. only at 14years can pple have such energy for as such. thanks again!
good morning last-teenage- year-for-you tiff. :(
NO!!!
Rockin' Ruth says:
THIS CALLS FOR
Rockin' Ruth says:
AN EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN
Rockin' Ruth says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO NO
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN
Rockin' Ruth says:
EMOTIONAL
Rockin' Ruth says:
BREAKDOWN
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO
dizzy with(sept2010) says:
NO
Rockin' Ruth says:
EMO
Rockin' Ruth says:
TION
Rockin' Ruth says:
AL
Rockin' Ruth says:
BREAK
Rockin' Ruth says:
DOWN
omg does anybody get the pun??? i did. but she didnt then she angst me..... somebody tell her theres a funny side to what she said!! happy new year to you too ruth :) thanks for the personal note to all of us. only at 14years can pple have such energy for as such. thanks again!
good morning last-teenage- year-for-you tiff. :(
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