tonight, i have the 'ok you can do it today!' ness to spam boysb4hua since i've nothing on tmr till 9pm =.= zzz. i shld go run tmr. argh.

but i'm not in the mood now.. which is weird. (after i finished Captivating-ok it started out as a good read but became kinda a chore towards the end), i must finish this show then i'll start picking up my econs notes)

aptly put, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HV9UWSawur0 this song is how i'm feeling so now.
you know, i'm not feeling down but there's still a slightness of it there. yet, still very fast paced, confused, though, repeated... ah, i'm gna stop. i shld just watch it to finish it up quickly.

i rmb when i opened ly called out to you, you responded, whether directly or indirectly.. and that was just what sufficed. to take away all the pain and confusion in my heart

http://www.mysoju.com/boys-before-flowers/

a quote from poison study : i felt like a lost child looking for something to cluth; something supple that wouldn't end up hurting me

life now is so aimless and pointless that i've resorted to redundant thigns to look forward to... so food! food is a constant. like a buffer in buffer soln. damn excited for kelong trip ^^ free flow of food whooo

ok sry i dno how to say the buffer thing.but i understood it last time

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i had a VERY VERY VERRRRRRY weird dream last night :O

and interesteing revelation on sunday. sometimes things are really not meant to be no matter how much it means to you

ok sad revelation not interesting .i am not morbid

last night pa taught me how to steal from fairprice.

but it was really not worth all the effort running down twenty story staircases because it was just for one loave of gar di ner bread and kongguan biscuits -.-

when we reached ground floor apparently we got another car also .maybe stolen as well =o so he took one and drove off. then cos i went for two driving theory lessons and SHLD HAVE PASSED MY BASIC THEORY EXAM since i mugged so hard, he ask me drive the other .but i started gng on reverse ,i dno how to drive up straight. then police confronted me and ask for my license. but . die. i cant show my ezlink card because i've 4 mths to becoming 18years .:. actly i'm not allowed to be driving! then i woke up. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhh i felt so sad lah. i hate that 'i must run like hell to save my sorry ass' feeling.

on monday night. =o guess what. i got scolded. hhahahaha. in that intense period, i wanted to just youknow say all the shit i ve been thinking and feeling .which will be excuse-able and forgivable because i can just ''attribute it to the anger and defense stance i was forced into''.
but i didnt. because ultimately i'll lose due to my 'when i am damn angry i cant think straight .:. i won';t be able to say anything'. but losing is not the issue. it's the next 2hrs talk.

on my nain61 journey tdy i made a realisation. i am not scared of commitment! when it is regarding something that is of interest to me, áctually the image of commitment doesn't even come into the picture.

HAHA janell if you come here. you rmb the story i told you abt the p3 boy talking abt marriage with me right. do you rmb our neighbour mark or whoever was 5 yrs old then and i was 15!!!! =o =o hahaha. i'M NOT A PEODOPHILE. it's them .i nvr do anything.

nice photo! ignore the words. she looks so natural. leaving aside the skeptism like shes a model and all that. it's nice. i want to go for a wedding :( how come when i was young there were so many to attend that i got so sick of it. now that i'm 18 and have started to appreciate this wonderful ceremony to signify two lives coming together for the rest of time... and it doesn't help that the only author i can think of when i go libraries is 'nicholas sparks' who is basically a writer taht writes abt the different ways different people eventually see pass everything and decide to you know, meet at the end of hte aisle.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love than to lose the one you love because of pride.

all these switch places words to try and sound cheem .i find them very act .but i think this one is

sensible .reminds me of the book i read , The wedding.(by sparks. it's niceeeeeeeeeee) whcih i think i read in lower sec but still strikes me as one of the best read.

actly.....i'm starting to see the value in being "bored".

shit sia. but everytime 'sooooon3sooooon1.com' comes to mind i feel like cursing all over again. i know i complain to a lot of people abt it alr. and OKAY I MUST BE CONFRONTATIONAL ABT MY RESOLUTION.

LEAVE YOUR ASS THERE, IGNORE YOUR "FEEL BAD" NESS, WARM THE SEAT AND COLLECT MONEY.

ooooh, i heard that the army market is near by. and i heard that the food is not bad.

i think tt i 'd enjoying doing whatever i'm doing if i'm good at it. but i dno what i'm good at.i.....like to OMG, go to ntu ^^ hahahahha. wow, okay, so i know that smu is like the city university and ntu is the countryside university. but seeing it in actuality is mcuh more o.o awestrucking. so much greenery. then ill get a bike and cycle ard school.

I ACTLY RMB IT. when i went past the dorms, it actly struck me :' i came here to help wayewayejiejie do sth before.' then 'i rmb coming down for joel too...visiting or sth.' after like 8years. i still rmb. I STILL RMB.

actually i rmb an incident in kindergarten HAHAHA. they like to pair girl boy girl boy. then i was right at the back with a boy. teacher said ,'ok hold hands and follow me' then of course you dont want to touch a disgusting boys hand. so i just walked. but he went to take my hand. then i make my hand until v 'lem-beh' hoping he'd GET THE HINT THAT I DONT WANT HIM TO TOUCH MY HAND. but he was grabbing my hand super hard-ly. aiyah, life so tough.

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i wanted to record down all the 'how he proposed to her' stories i heard. and start with my parents.

I LOVE SURPRISES .ma jan and rach bought dinner home to eat with me so i dont need eat alone.

bye

i miss training