Woke up wondering how different life'd be with you still ard... Just wish i reached sooner :(

They all said that youd adore me, and id love you so much...

isnt there some way to defy time?

I feel inadequate to make big decisions because ive yet to learn so much. Of lush/desolation, of extreme joy/pain. Im not ready but im willing.

(photo credit to cj's tumblr :) )

If the boy who draws
lets you look over his shoulder,
If the poet
smiles
and shows you her words.
If the girl who sings for the shower only
hums a song
in front of you,

Know that you’re no longer a person
but the air
and dust
that fills their lungs.

When the world perishes,
and all things cease to exist,
you’ll remain inside an ink stain,
a paint brush,
a song.
— Alaska Gold

sweet

Gotta save my thought-through words for other stuff hahaha

Awake cos of circumstances. Cld have gone back to bed but the chill air hit me when i walked out. And i was like , ok i shld go and run. The last time i ran in such a weather , actly much cooler, i was in two shirts, gloves, shorts (booya! Pwned the locals i saw those mornings ;) ) and perth.

That was a highlight of the trip. Those solitary, cold-biting-the-skin, painful runs-when i felt like i cldnt have things btr than they were. I rmb how i had less sleep cos of those runs, yet refreshing me more than the sleep compensated time cld provide me with.

And this phrase rung true to me, as to my unhealthy, cursed to make me age faster, late night endeavours - i feel the most alive because majority of my world is asleep.

Ok .NOOO sun hold up!!!

nth much, had dajie-brother time with ryan today.... had a lot of fun walking ard and looking at prettz stuff :) (i think i went a bit overboard at times and made ryan bored...) anyhow, someone asked a kid to call me 'auntie'..... x(( no wayyyyy. ggxx. i dont wna grow old!!!

must remind myself of this day next time if i decide to wear aunty clothes in future... hahaha

anyhow, it's so late and i shld slp but i think i will watch one more of mets! it's really really sad now though :/:(

but one thing i've learnt is, no matter how much hurt is inflicted upon you, life goes on. ...

in the process of learning, there are two points to be remembered : 1) arrogance in knowing the right answer 2) your prejudice in using your own norms to determine things.

a learning not from the answer itself but the deriving of it...

"I hope you find whoever it is you're looking for. And don't let go, once you do." -Zombieland (2009)

Sweeeeet. Somehow pushing away seems like a better option..maybe because it is easier. Less vulnerable

http://jonathanjarvis.com/crisis-of-credit

makes understanding of the financial crisis so comprehensible. jonathan jarvis! -thumbs up

Is it freedom or contentment or the <2 days to the end of exams happiness and comfort im feeling right now...? Hmmm.

ANYWAY. THIS IS GOOD hahahaha! :
"Sometimes in life, if you wanna do something good, you gotta do something bad first." -The Girl Next Door (2004)

itsumo
anata dake no basho ga aru kara

after jan introduced that jap show + memoirs of a geisha, oh and that brief connection over the whole list of countries, japanese doesnt seem like such a turn off anymoer

Gust of cool, cool breeze.. After a while, i just had to put down my notes because it reminded me so much of many overseas experiences. The chill air in perth, the sweet scent of possibilties in korea, a haste breath of humanity in nepal.

Though i was shivering and inappropriately dressed (damn! Missed a chance for pretty winter wear to go for a parade) , each gust of wind was a great reminder of hope and life. That there is so much to life than the microscopic view i currently hold. That life becoming better, it is possible.

If just for that moment... :)

Sheesh, im totally enjoying this insanely cold weather and bouts of rains and thunderstorms. Please dont make fall in love with you :( id be rlyyy sad if-no, WHEN-the sweltering heat eventually takes its rightful place again..

//anyway i watched shes out of my league ytd and damn, ttly enjoyed it!!! The awkward guy was sooo weird yet endearing.. :))) im wondering if i feel so much for him cos i ttly dig awkward guys or cos i see myself in him.. (I really am kind of difficult to talk with.. )

we all want that something to lay our hopes on.. condition: only after it has shown credibility and proven its worth. is that bad?

anyhow..............sm tmr. after that i MUST I WILLLLLL spend the day completing my exchange stuff

One more conversation :

Haven't you written to someone of the future? whether you two have yet to make acquaintances or not...

One day, you'll realise