/Yeah its not about just tahan-ing for the sake of the marriage certificate or children, but actually living out the commitments made and preserving the sanctity of the union. Tough luck man. I used to think that's the only thing that can make me leave my spouse. But over the years I have realised that him breaking his commitment to you does not nullify your commitment to him/

'through thick and thin'..

didnt see it that way

'My parents divorced when I was 12 and I was pretty upset when they divorced but eventually got over it. Like my mother, I grew up to be a strong willed and independent woman. But unfortunately, I also found out that like my mother, I also could not hold a relationship. When I hit 30, I hit a crisis and it was then that I studied myself and realized that I've had a long history of non-commital relationships stemmed from my fear of separation. My mother and I talked and worked through it and we definitely are stronger, however, she mentioned many times that she never knew. Hell, I never knew. I'm sure you're a great mother and I have much respect for single parents, but please don't assume that your daughter is ok because she smiles, and hugs, jokes around, is loving and says she's fine. Because some scars don't go away so easily.'

i shld talk about it excitedly right? such questions should get me all happy and woozy and excited.

definitely not exasperated... :((

This is gorgeous...

till then.... :)

'Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.'

-so apt... :) (if you do come here... love these stuff and just had to copy and put them here for log sake!) feel so hopeful every time after browsing (your) tumblr... :)

cos i'm so prideful, i initially took things very very negatively. was stubborn as hell not to listen to what he said and dismiss his words as insults (which i did feel insulted by... but lets just look past that because 'if there are many ways to interpret what i say, i mean it in the least harmful way ever'). but odd was so patient and soft with his tone, as compared to his initial harsher one, that i felt that i had to stop looking inward and look at him. am still so embarrassed by what happened to me that he had to offer his help but .i'm very grateful for odd.

when i looked at his face, a phrase he once said to me flashed across my mind:

'but i'm still here after all these while, am i not.'

not said lovingly as he was very frustrated with me then... but the way he said it made me realise how fortunate i am. that no matter what wrong i've done/i'd do in my life, this is one person that should not be a part of that.

ytd, fangka and i chanced upon a youtube video titled (something like) : tyra banks losing her cool on antm. the scenario was as such: a girl was kicked out of antm and gng ard giving her goodbye hugs. instead of the crying, defeated stance that kicked-out-girls usually display, she was cracking jokes in an obvious attempt to ease the tense situation. tyra was watching all the while and couldnt take that the girl didnt seem upset. she called her back to the stage and told her that she was disappointed. the girl spoke up in defence which angered tyra so much that she said :

the way i am shouting at you right now is like how my mother would shout at me. because she loves me; because she knows that i am capable of much more. we (the judging panal) were all rooting for you. dont give me crap about things not being in your favour. if you wanted this, you should have worked for it ,hard. then you'd succeed. the only reason you failed is because you didnt put your heart in this. we all know you are capable.  you only have yourself to blame.

was struck by the video cos firstly, cmon admit it: a person behaving out of anger is hilaaarioussss. we dont know what humour is present but the words,actions, posture employed...just so ridiculously funny. secondly, tyra struck me as someone who'd never lose her cool. thirdly, that scene was impromptu and the speech she gave was brilliant. so logical and meaningful and well put ... ok yknow what, just watch the video.