:)))

Ok as of ytd, i complete 2/3 of my projs for this sem. So first part of tdy was meant t be a celebration! :) and this day rly was a brillant one. Rly glad tt my expectations didnt kill it :) heres why :
1 watched a movie!
2 bought the BREAKFAST AT TIFFANYS cd o.o it was e first time i bought sth so quickly despite its price and wo mths of deliberation
3 drank eskimo!!!:)))
4 ate yami yoghurt! A whole tub ~
5 joannes bday present t meeeee :)))) ok i dont think many come here; its a nichkun poster <333 meltz

Went t meet egloo to do im. Nice hse!:) and i accomplished my goal of reading e courseguide&picking a company hahaha ; zara. O.o rly hope i dont change my choice...

HAD MY FIRST BIKE RIDE TOOOO. I think tht the worst part was putting on e helmet cos its BLOODY claustrophic. I can still feel e pressure on my skull x( was rly nervous before tt cos i thought thered be the rollarcoaster feeling. But all my fears were unfounded :) rly enjoyed it! It was a great way t end my wonderful day :)) ! I was thinking tt itd be rly nice for a couple to motorbike ard cos e feeling is awesome and itd be nice t go thru it w someone you love. Haha. #thinkdad&mumwhentheywereyoung. <3

Gdngt! :)))) got a great movie waiting. But a good few days of chionging proj first!!!

(oh and if not for rum, next thurs is my bday wld hv ttly gone by wo my knowing hahaha. Omg. Ttly didnt know tht it was approaching THAAAAT soon zz :( i hate it....)

The recent race

I dont intend to reflect now.. But reading all those stuff rly makes me reconsider my mentality tt day and what racing rly means.. This rly reminds me of sec sch days. All the emotional support and endless hours of conversations about the race before and aft it even.

Hahaha random photo taken oneday whn i was at nus

OMG. Blogger expanding to into the applr industry is AWESOMEEE. Love this!:))

I wish i nvr liked liverpool haha.... Yeah we had good times...but its been bad for pretttty long now :(

Im either being too sensitive or i really dont like being part of a rumour/gossip/scandal. Wtv you call it. Lollll

Errors are inevitable in races. So dont be disheartened if you feel tired halfway. :)

I like how he dismisses tiredness as a mistake. (Y)

Also rmb how squek wld remind us "fast and relax". An oxymoron but so indeed true.

And tng's pma. :)

Had a brillant trng session tdy ! :) was feeling strong whoopie. But my legs are aching nw. GD ACHE tho. Tired but happy :)

I wrote this t my sister once. I dont know rmb whr the hell it came from. Haha.

"dont worry for the race. You aren't being held at gun point, you aren't starving with four kids to feed, you arent running from a war stricken place. You are just running 2 laps of a track with a bunch of other girls to challenge your limits...for fun. So go out there, have fun and do your best. :)"

I was reminded of this aft seeing a friends fb post on taking every single trng as suicide and running as hard as you can like its the last run of your life. Haha.

For years ive been in the pursuit of knowing God's plan for me.. Knowing my purpose in life.. Finding out what God has installed for my life and what im meant to do/live for. It had gotten to the point where i was so desperate to know tht not possessing such knowledge broke me down and caused me to toss it away.

I was reading an article tdy abt The origins of humans (updated tdy) and was reminded of a segment of my 'heavy' conversation ytd w the lady. She mentioned tht a couple went to her house one day and told each indiv member of her family their indiv purpose in life. It was thrilling just putting myself into her shoes and thinking tht "omg. I KNOW my purpose in life. I know why God created me".

But this morning, i was struck with a qn : what wld i do if i knew my purpose in life? How wld my lifestyle change?

Then it occurred to me that maybe God hasnt told me my purpose in life all these years because : im not ready to know it.

Cos i told myself to jst accept any and everyone on fb, i feel tht my privacy has been robbed of me. Twitter wise to... Ok maybe not robbed, but i just feel so conscience typing anything there! Id feel like im trying t attract attention or sth.. :/ so therefore im back here to my ole trusty "rawkwivme" hahaha. Am trying to do a 2hrs nap, 2hrs read my stuff till tuition at 10 hopefully. 4 hrs of slp. Haha :( i dno... I feel so lost. I

feel so helpless. Maybe because of Lack of prac and unawareness, i might hv pushed things too much w a certain person. I was just checking the duration and the realisation shocked me!! I can be so irrational at times :( sincerely hope tht its jst over thinking on my part and our friendship isnt ruined!! #hesitates for the while. Haha.

Been thinking abt the meaning of life and existence qte a bit lately.. Always do when im chionging for exams or projs hahah :( i guess my upbringing in church has tweaked my mindset to associate the meaning of life with God. Which i dont disagree agnst...jst tht im trying to look for alt ans....?... Yeah :/ what am i doing lahhh. Hahaha zzz.

Made a new friend a work a while back. Whenever we talk, ill be late for trng WO FAIL. Hahaha. Shes rly bubbly and talkative so i jst sit thr and listen actly. Today, the topic was on her family. She was sharing with me abt the spiritual encounters her family members are gng through. Its really scary and intimidating just listening to her recounts. (this can open a door for a whole post of my opnions on this issue btw ahha). But she also shared abt how her family has overcame previous encounters and how optimistic she is abt this one. She spoke with such gusto and hope i actly felt like shuddering. Her faith and hope in God is jst so immense. I dont know whether its my neutrality twds God now, or the state i was in (the 'so tired tht i feel like im in another realm' state) or the "devils work" but even though i felt v encouraged and touched by her story, i was...feeling jst normal la. I thought such stories should convict my heart...

Ok my brain is emptied. I cant think of anymore words to say.

Oh, maybe tht.... If its possible, itd be rly cool if i cld bring sui and ronaldmac to ri for lunch!!!

i wish that i knew the words to say..