Escobar's most powerful msg: Rejoice in the Lord always, at all times, all situations no matter what you're feeling.

just came back from christmas celebrations at soteria. woah, i felt like scolding and WHINING to whoever i was going to meet when i found that place. ah gong knows how irritating i am when i whine. i think i irritate myself too. i took super long to figure out where sgh is from outram mrt and only found the place after that. well, all thanks to christopher's WONDERFUL directions =) u rock kor. anyway, as what escobar said, praise Him at ALL times! so yea i started singing in my head(darn i shld have thought of that while i was walking) n just praising the Lord! actually i was just quite light hearted. i mean, i tried not to be too angry cos i've no one to blame but myself. i was so screwed up man. i thought we were supposed to meet at 11 when the meeting time was at 10. so i was all aloonee on a lonely long stretch of rd. well, praising the Lord really worked! cos i found the place, like finally. i really cant express the joyfulness and calmness i had when i heard the voices of my fellow siblings singing beautiful carols to the Lord while approaching the room. anyway, to all the people that gave me presents/cards/wishes/hugs/etc: Thank you! =)
i felt so happy just receiving presents from my loved ones! (yea i'm deprived of receiving stuff) but i felt so much happier just giving out the cards i wrote to them. i slept at 2am just writing them and even got scolded by my mum for staying up too late. the joy of giving. i finally understood it. n it's just scribbles and my heartfelt words i wrote on POSTCARDS. u know, those cheapo cards where u can take for FREE on the stands? yea those. i wonder the amount of joy that wld be brought to my heart if i were to give them real hard solid presents with my own hard earned cash(more like, hard painful savings)

CRAP! there's trg tmr!!!!!!!! oh man oh man oh man!!! i've to write... 27 letters! wait, minus 1 cos i'm not gonna write to myself! but, there's joei, esther and mr ng too. so it's 29. gosh that's quite a terror. i totally suck at doing that. ok man, i'm setting the dateline on FRIDAY =) sigh.there's trg tmr. at MACRITCHIE! (booms) (echos) yea we had those goal setting stuff but i guess it's making me more anxious. okok how abt this. WHOOPIEEE! we're gonna run 10km tmr! aren't u guys excited? oh yea! oh yea! boy.this is horrible. well, rejoice in the Lord! yea man. oh boy oh boy! how abt doing smth different!for a change =D like running northern route 1ST b4 duno the 1km in and out thingy. i think it'll be BETTER and fun-ner man!!! but it's gonna be difficult to break my excitement to rachie. i find rach and jen more of the traditional type of pple. like those that wldnt really like too much of a change. but hey man! if u guys ever come, it has it's pros! =D

anyway, abt ytd, rmb that my mum scolded me. yup.. when she started walking ard in my room, i rushed to the toilet and my tears started flowing. she did not scold me la, actually. more like tormented, criticised, looked down, agitated my christmasy feelings(i was writing christmas letters to my church frens), bothered and confused me. am i that useless? i rmb she said something abt me being the capt in cross. like, they wanna give u a chance or smth. i dont rmb. well! i dont rmb such stuff that brings down my happiness. ok so i was in the toilet and crying. and haha, come to think abt it. it's so chinese drama. i was looking at the mirror with my tears streaming down my face. so naturally, i started rinsing my face. and each time i splashed water on my face, i told myself : Rejoice in the Lord at all circumstances. and i think that calmed me down a lot. i was debating with myself A LOT. like, walao! mother criticise daughter. what an ass man. still want me to rejoice!?! but i guess the Lord calmly repeated, Rejoice in Me. ok so ya, i just started reminding myself of happy things. then i went out and my mum scolded me, lightly. then she lefted and i went to bed. this morning, she forgot everything and was happy again! arguements in my family are always like that. she even offered to send me to outram mrt when she found out i was late =)

after church was really a real debator. 1 part of me wanted to go out with the grp of guys and just have fun bowling or whatever. but a really small part of me asked me to stay with shern, rach tham, evan and bevvy! i'm glad i made that decision. though i didnt talk much, i still learnt a lot more stuff la. ok i didnt talk much prob cos of the topic! grr. i rock and dont get myself so involved in that. i'm still single, available and atracktiff.

but one thing that impacted me a lot was what rach said.

life is super unfair. rmb 2000 yrs ago. Jesus died for us, the horrible, bad etc pple, so that we may have eternal life. God was a good man when he came to earth. he did not do anything wrong. men on earth even insulted him. yet he humbled himself and died for us. no one goes to our father through jesus. (i forgot the exact words and verse)

i really wanna go on but i know people will get bored and might not see anything below what i'm gonna say and it MIGHT make a difference to them. but going to ccmc on christmas day was really, well, enriching. oh yea, AUSTIN!!!!!!!!! if you ever see this, COOL HAIR man! =) i shant talk abt ur brother or he might feel insulted..cos i'm not as close to him than u ok! i dont mean i was ever gonna insult him.

ok then. i shall mark my ending here. and and and! do write me a christmas letter if u haven't! =) i accept late stuff..i'm a late-r.

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary

Rock on, crossies.

oh yes. my relatives were singing christmas carols on christmas eve during our gathering! i was so touched =) i saw my, newly saved, aunt singing the carols with her whole heart n it was so touching. almost all my relatives were just singing and though they might be singing for the sake of it, i still felt the presence of the Lord. they used to skip dinners my dad arranged for them to go whenever amc has any evangelistic dinners. but, that night, they were just singing all the carols with lyrics proclaiming his love for us without any hesitation!

REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS!

keep rocking till the saviour comes! (learnt that from angie =) )