superly uberly bubbly stressed now. and just thinking abt the things i have ahead of me...oh man. it makes my head spin. i just want to say thank you to all those people who have been by my side these few days, listening to my complains and just smiling tell me it's alright. some of you guys might think you've not done anything but i feel so relieve just seeing you guys smile. i feel so blessed already having so many friends to complain to. having so many of you all just to listen to me whine and whine. i keep repeating myself cos i'm just trying to let it out and really, thanks everybody. thanks rach for that card too. i love it. ok i've no time to yak anymore. still got 3 zhoujis to do. blah. but anyway, i love you guys. every single one of you :) ohyea, personal note: while i was doing my zhouwen today, (topic: ma ma de shou), i was so stressed cos i didnt know how to continue. suddenly i heard my mum's voice calling out for us. when her voice reached my ears, i was filled with her love for me. i just felt like breaking down and hugging her. imagine the love God has for me.sigh. i want my childhood love with her back. i want my childhood innocence back. i want my childhood level of thinking back, where life is so carefree and i didnt know how to use the &(@*#)@*@ COMPUTER. but u know what. forget it. i'm quite happy with my life.and esp my friends :):) and i'd be super happy after 30th july. WOOHOO. even with exams approaching, life will still rock. after 30th july :D i've been too held up by proposals and more assignments. but there's nth i can do. there's nth no one can do. unless of course, you cancel that event, which is impossible.
"Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and i will give you rest." matt 11:24
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
i can't wait for 30th july. woooo. i feel so messed up and confused. i've no time to even revise and eoys are in 3 mthss. i've spent so much time on the computer for the past few days i'm so sick of hearing the songs on my computer. oh no. it's 12.40am. and i sense the craziness in rachel erupting. "ploops" HAHA. stupid rach xp
Monday, June 27, 2005
Thursday, June 23, 2005
The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box
"There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "Before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."
"One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand.""
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil."
"Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make."
"Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside."
"And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write."
The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.
Now replacing the place of the pencil with you. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.
Two: You will experience painful sharpening from time to time by going through various problems in life, but you'll need them to become a stronger person.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make. Learn from it, and correct them.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.
And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.
Allow this parable on the pencil to encourage you to know that you are a special person and only you can fulfill the purpose to which you were born to accomplish. Never allow yourself to get discouraged and think that your life is insignificant and cannot make a change. You can and I know you will !
"There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "Before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."
"One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand.""
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil."
"Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make."
"Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside."
"And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write."
The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.
Now replacing the place of the pencil with you. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.
Two: You will experience painful sharpening from time to time by going through various problems in life, but you'll need them to become a stronger person.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make. Learn from it, and correct them.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.
And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.
Allow this parable on the pencil to encourage you to know that you are a special person and only you can fulfill the purpose to which you were born to accomplish. Never allow yourself to get discouraged and think that your life is insignificant and cannot make a change. You can and I know you will !
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
back from camp.wanted to write a memorial incident for self remembrance before camp but no time (who am i kidding. i took hrs to complete a simple proposal)
was talking to a friend one night and requested him to give some personal testimonial. and so he told me those "not-so-private" encounters like praying and asking God a qn which he gets an answer in return the next day. and,according to him, the way God responded to his qn seems very small, to me. it was through conversations with friends. i respect him a lot in the way he says it's a response from God and not coincidental.
personally speaking, when i have an "inner-self" qn, i do get a solution through these things too. but i nvr wanted to think it's from God as doh. it's just a coincidence that it's like that. i didnt want to give in to God because..haha i dont know why. i'm so strong minded in my self belief that I could handle my own life. so anyway, i thought that since my friend could think that way of situations happening in his life, why not give a shot at it? it wldnt hurt trying to live a "God-centred" day for 24 hrs. so yup. it happened to be a sunday and woo. it felt great :) i saw things more openly. when something 'coincidentally' happens, i took it from the Godly perspective. there were a few pointers i'd like to raise
1) "A promise kept is a relationship treasured."
That was on the front pg of the church bulletin. impactful. the week before, i made a convenant with God to abstain from something for a week. it was difficult and there was one time i was really tempted to indulge in it again. i was in such a challenging state. i talked to my sis about it (she's just to listen, not do anything else, and make me feel impt xp) the amazing thing was that my sister replied in the midst of her attention grabbing drama show. she reminded me that a promise made with God is far more impt than that matter. shes only p6. so in the end, with much hesitation, i restricted my actions. really glad God brought me through it and reminded me that worldly posessions are nth compared to the heavenly treasures he has in stored for me.
2) Psalms 8
i dont really rmb what this chpt is abt. during sermon on sun, teacher wendy made us recite it twice. first, straight from the bible. second time, putting our names in it and change the he to she where (and who) applicable. i wasn't really reading the 2nd time cos i wasn't as fast in changing the text and reading it off so quickly. guess my brain WASn't(past tense) functioning as well. just felt a sense of inner peace :)
3) Isaiah 40:26
can't rmb what it was abt. more like i chanced upon it but have yet to read it .
4) A dream my mum had
my family has been having this huge family problem that we've been struggling with, or rather, my siblings and i. more so my parents. aiyah. pray for me lah. my parents thought of separating quite a few times. and before i left for camp, the situation actually got worse and every other day my mum wld tell me her fantasies and how she wld lead her life. she seemed happier when she talks abt it so i just let her lah =/ i'm a bad daughter. i dont give gd advice. i dont whine and ask mummy to stay home. i dont shed tears, to warm their hearts, when these stuff happen. i shut up and watch my sister coax my parents when they quarrel. i just dont know what to do when my parents fight. i cant find the right words to say.my mum even called my maid, who was at home, and burst into great jubilance as my sister, check this out, got into the SEMI FINALS for interhouse bball. why? cos i was 'not as happy' to her expectations when she told me abt it. lol. i guess it's cos my mum 'coached' the team and put in a lot of effort to correct their skills. OKOK side tracked. so anyway the night before that sunday, she had a glimspe of how her life wld be without us, in the form of a dream. it cant be by chance that you'll have a dream like that right? right. on the way to church, my mum was talking abt her dream and how much she'll miss me. aww :P i could just feel the presence of God (i dont know what it's like but that's how i wld describe it)
i wanted to whip out a camera and set it rolling.
i wanted a recorder that wld record every emotion n word that came from her
i wanted to burst my phone and transcribed the flow of words. i was so relieved and happy for her. esp my family. the way she described her dream seemed very real. the setting was at a condo she'd love to stay at which the rest of my family doesn't. (i hate that place)
all in all, i wanted to capture every little detail in that scene
5) God will make a way
heard this song when i went up to the century(whatever the spelling) to look for my mum after my youth ministry service. the crowd, or rather my fellow matured brothersandsisters in christ were singing so beautifully. it has been long since i heard it n sometimes pondering on the lyrics, of any song actually, makes you think a lot. sometimes i feel as if God is speaking to me through these songs/
ooh. i just read an entry on why you shld not compare your life with others. how meaningful. if the person ever comes here, nice assertion. funny how God talks to each of us differently. hmm
was talking to a friend one night and requested him to give some personal testimonial. and so he told me those "not-so-private" encounters like praying and asking God a qn which he gets an answer in return the next day. and,according to him, the way God responded to his qn seems very small, to me. it was through conversations with friends. i respect him a lot in the way he says it's a response from God and not coincidental.
personally speaking, when i have an "inner-self" qn, i do get a solution through these things too. but i nvr wanted to think it's from God as doh. it's just a coincidence that it's like that. i didnt want to give in to God because..haha i dont know why. i'm so strong minded in my self belief that I could handle my own life. so anyway, i thought that since my friend could think that way of situations happening in his life, why not give a shot at it? it wldnt hurt trying to live a "God-centred" day for 24 hrs. so yup. it happened to be a sunday and woo. it felt great :) i saw things more openly. when something 'coincidentally' happens, i took it from the Godly perspective. there were a few pointers i'd like to raise
1) "A promise kept is a relationship treasured."
That was on the front pg of the church bulletin. impactful. the week before, i made a convenant with God to abstain from something for a week. it was difficult and there was one time i was really tempted to indulge in it again. i was in such a challenging state. i talked to my sis about it (she's just to listen, not do anything else, and make me feel impt xp) the amazing thing was that my sister replied in the midst of her attention grabbing drama show. she reminded me that a promise made with God is far more impt than that matter. shes only p6. so in the end, with much hesitation, i restricted my actions. really glad God brought me through it and reminded me that worldly posessions are nth compared to the heavenly treasures he has in stored for me.
2) Psalms 8
i dont really rmb what this chpt is abt. during sermon on sun, teacher wendy made us recite it twice. first, straight from the bible. second time, putting our names in it and change the he to she where (and who) applicable. i wasn't really reading the 2nd time cos i wasn't as fast in changing the text and reading it off so quickly. guess my brain WASn't(past tense) functioning as well. just felt a sense of inner peace :)
3) Isaiah 40:26
can't rmb what it was abt. more like i chanced upon it but have yet to read it .
4) A dream my mum had
my family has been having this huge family problem that we've been struggling with, or rather, my siblings and i. more so my parents. aiyah. pray for me lah. my parents thought of separating quite a few times. and before i left for camp, the situation actually got worse and every other day my mum wld tell me her fantasies and how she wld lead her life. she seemed happier when she talks abt it so i just let her lah =/ i'm a bad daughter. i dont give gd advice. i dont whine and ask mummy to stay home. i dont shed tears, to warm their hearts, when these stuff happen. i shut up and watch my sister coax my parents when they quarrel. i just dont know what to do when my parents fight. i cant find the right words to say.my mum even called my maid, who was at home, and burst into great jubilance as my sister, check this out, got into the SEMI FINALS for interhouse bball. why? cos i was 'not as happy' to her expectations when she told me abt it. lol. i guess it's cos my mum 'coached' the team and put in a lot of effort to correct their skills. OKOK side tracked. so anyway the night before that sunday, she had a glimspe of how her life wld be without us, in the form of a dream. it cant be by chance that you'll have a dream like that right? right. on the way to church, my mum was talking abt her dream and how much she'll miss me. aww :P i could just feel the presence of God (i dont know what it's like but that's how i wld describe it)
i wanted to whip out a camera and set it rolling.
i wanted a recorder that wld record every emotion n word that came from her
i wanted to burst my phone and transcribed the flow of words. i was so relieved and happy for her. esp my family. the way she described her dream seemed very real. the setting was at a condo she'd love to stay at which the rest of my family doesn't. (i hate that place)
all in all, i wanted to capture every little detail in that scene
5) God will make a way
heard this song when i went up to the century(whatever the spelling) to look for my mum after my youth ministry service. the crowd, or rather my fellow matured brothersandsisters in christ were singing so beautifully. it has been long since i heard it n sometimes pondering on the lyrics, of any song actually, makes you think a lot. sometimes i feel as if God is speaking to me through these songs/
ooh. i just read an entry on why you shld not compare your life with others. how meaningful. if the person ever comes here, nice assertion. funny how God talks to each of us differently. hmm
Sunday, June 19, 2005
I`ve been letting you down, down
Girl, I know I`ve been such a fool
Giving in to temptation , I should of played it cool
The situation got out of hand , I hope you understand
CHORUS:
It can happen to anyone of us, anyone you think of
Anyone can fall,anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break cos i made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail Say you will believe me
I can`t take
My heart will break`cos i made a stupid mistake ,a stupid mistake
She was kind of exciting A little crazy I should of known
She must have altered my senses As i offered to walk her home
The situation got out of hand I hope you understand
Chorus
a stupid mistake
She means nothing to me nothing to me
I swear every word is true.Don`t want to lose you
The situation got out of hand I hope you understand
Chorus
oohh i love that tune of the song x) the lyrics a bit grr though. stupid men. call me sexist.HAHA i was wearing the swift shirt for taekwondo today and when this girl asked what A.G.T. stands for(it was on my shirt) i didnt know what to say. oops hhaha. sir was super happy today! yay had so much fun today. ok fun is deprived during tkd.
teo's super funny. and my sister, i realise, is as goondu as me! HAHA. play golf, the club flies not the ball. i'm not as goon as her though.i'm going for ltc! i 'm in *clang* converse :) i'll be back on wed. miss me till then woo.
Girl, I know I`ve been such a fool
Giving in to temptation , I should of played it cool
The situation got out of hand , I hope you understand
CHORUS:
It can happen to anyone of us, anyone you think of
Anyone can fall,anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break cos i made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail Say you will believe me
I can`t take
My heart will break`cos i made a stupid mistake ,a stupid mistake
She was kind of exciting A little crazy I should of known
She must have altered my senses As i offered to walk her home
The situation got out of hand I hope you understand
Chorus
a stupid mistake
She means nothing to me nothing to me
I swear every word is true.Don`t want to lose you
The situation got out of hand I hope you understand
Chorus
oohh i love that tune of the song x) the lyrics a bit grr though. stupid men. call me sexist.HAHA i was wearing the swift shirt for taekwondo today and when this girl asked what A.G.T. stands for(it was on my shirt) i didnt know what to say. oops hhaha. sir was super happy today! yay had so much fun today. ok fun is deprived during tkd.
teo's super funny. and my sister, i realise, is as goondu as me! HAHA. play golf, the club flies not the ball. i'm not as goon as her though.i'm going for ltc! i 'm in *clang* converse :) i'll be back on wed. miss me till then woo.
it is said that if you repeat something 100 times over and over again with much sincere conviction, it'll be drilled into you. so i'm going to attempt it. 100 times. buahha kidding. 20 times lah. so late already. btw i'm not copying and pasting it. i'm sincere abt this.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things
The Lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
The Lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things.
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
The lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is MY STRENGTH i shall NOT stress over stupid things
the LORD is my STRENGTH i shall not STRESS over stupid things
the lord is my strength i shall not stress over stupid things.
the lord is my strength i shall NOT stress over STUPID things
THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH I SHALL NOT STRESS OVER STUPID THINGS
wooo yea baby. that felt great :) anyway see, when u stress on different words, it gives a totally different feeling altogether. i'm going nuts already. for this sports carnival project thing, i screwed up THREE TIMES. all to do with the blarrrDIIIEE computer.
1. i thought the deadline for my proposal was 13/6. so few nights before i was rushing like crazy. and great senior jen reminded me to take a closer look at my paper. it's actually 20/6
2. i sent an email with an 'attached' minutes to all the sec3s. at 2am when i was lying on my bed, i rmbed i forgot to attach the file
3. i'm to re do both the 'games' and 'publicity' proposals again, referring to an email from tricia. but when i was done with the games proposal, i happily deleted the email. so now, i cant do the pub pps until tmr.
yea man. i cant wait to advance to my next level of goonduness. whatever u call it. so before i leave for paradise ltc that's free from the freaking computer, my hw, and PROPOSALS ( x_x) these are the things i've to do
1. edit the pub propossal
2. come up with ideas for some ppt
3. help teo with announcement script
4. get the prices for food ( social day o.O)
5. contact yoon, charong, jen, rach abt some games thing
this is a glimpse of a prefect trainee+student leader+crosscapt's life. you get the limelight.you are being looked up to (I THINK) but theres crazy lots of work to do. and jen said it's gonna get tougher. BOOOOOOO.
btw xide if u DO EVER remember to come here, the poem is the entry below x)
now i'm gonna do my qt! referring to Purpose Driven Life. it's a cannot be missed thing. i discover things everyday x) woo. love it. but i dont apply it later in the day. sad. oh well. SHUCKs i think there's pcgm meeting at 8.30 am! oh well they nvr say anything wheee. father's day celebration tmr! ok i think i've enough of venting my anger on this. pointless entry :D
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things
The Lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
The Lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things.
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
The lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things.
The Lord is my strength, I shall not stress over stupid things.
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength, i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is my strength i shall not stress over stupid things
the lord is MY STRENGTH i shall NOT stress over stupid things
the LORD is my STRENGTH i shall not STRESS over stupid things
the lord is my strength i shall not stress over stupid things.
the lord is my strength i shall NOT stress over STUPID things
THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH I SHALL NOT STRESS OVER STUPID THINGS
wooo yea baby. that felt great :) anyway see, when u stress on different words, it gives a totally different feeling altogether. i'm going nuts already. for this sports carnival project thing, i screwed up THREE TIMES. all to do with the blarrrDIIIEE computer.
1. i thought the deadline for my proposal was 13/6. so few nights before i was rushing like crazy. and great senior jen reminded me to take a closer look at my paper. it's actually 20/6
2. i sent an email with an 'attached' minutes to all the sec3s. at 2am when i was lying on my bed, i rmbed i forgot to attach the file
3. i'm to re do both the 'games' and 'publicity' proposals again, referring to an email from tricia. but when i was done with the games proposal, i happily deleted the email. so now, i cant do the pub pps until tmr.
yea man. i cant wait to advance to my next level of goonduness. whatever u call it. so before i leave for paradise ltc that's free from the freaking computer, my hw, and PROPOSALS ( x_x) these are the things i've to do
1. edit the pub propossal
2. come up with ideas for some ppt
3. help teo with announcement script
4. get the prices for food ( social day o.O)
5. contact yoon, charong, jen, rach abt some games thing
this is a glimpse of a prefect trainee+student leader+crosscapt's life. you get the limelight.you are being looked up to (I THINK) but theres crazy lots of work to do. and jen said it's gonna get tougher. BOOOOOOO.
btw xide if u DO EVER remember to come here, the poem is the entry below x)
now i'm gonna do my qt! referring to Purpose Driven Life. it's a cannot be missed thing. i discover things everyday x) woo. love it. but i dont apply it later in the day. sad. oh well. SHUCKs i think there's pcgm meeting at 8.30 am! oh well they nvr say anything wheee. father's day celebration tmr! ok i think i've enough of venting my anger on this. pointless entry :D
Thursday, June 16, 2005
think about it :)
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not shouting "I am saved."
I am whispering "I am lost."
That is why I choose this way.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I do not speak of this with pride.
I am confessing that I stumble
and need someone to be my guide.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not trying to be strong.
I am professing that I am weak
and pray for strength to carry on.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not bragging of success.
I am admitting that I have failed
and cannot ever pay the debt.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are too visible
but God believes I am worth it.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches,
which is why I seek His name.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I am loved.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not shouting "I am saved."
I am whispering "I am lost."
That is why I choose this way.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I do not speak of this with pride.
I am confessing that I stumble
and need someone to be my guide.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not trying to be strong.
I am professing that I am weak
and pray for strength to carry on.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not bragging of success.
I am admitting that I have failed
and cannot ever pay the debt.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I am not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are too visible
but God believes I am worth it.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches,
which is why I seek His name.
When I say "I am a Christian,"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I am loved.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
ohohoh! i learnt a new COOL word.
paradox:
Eg. The silence in the woods, apparently a paradox, screamed in my ears. woohoo! i love dictionary.com x)
and sorry for sounding so obsessed about the convo i'm having with shawn but to quote him:
-Dark Oblivion- says:
reminds me... gep is like gifted education ritez
-Dark Oblivion- says:
then they call those sch for down syndrome ppl special sch
-Dark Oblivion- says:
so gifted and special...
-Dark Oblivion- says:
hmm... juz a thot
-Dark Oblivion- says:
nitez
hahahah we were having a disguised conversation that people that do well in exams are stupid and the truly smart ones are...pple with results like ours. hahaha
-Dark Oblivion- ... says:
haha we smart ppl can communicate wivout spelling right
-Dark Oblivion- ... says:
its only among the lower intellects tht spelling is a necessity
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
yaa
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
cos they're too stupid to understand the pro lang
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
then need to stupidly one by one spell everything out
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
THAT'S WHY in physics we dont score too well
-Dark Oblivion- ... says:
exactly!
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
we see the qn know the ans straight away
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
then we think the examiner smart like us wld also know
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
then simplfy the steps. but noo. they want everything STEP BY STEP
hahaha. things exampaper-smart(mentally) challenged people talk about
paradox:
Eg. The silence in the woods, apparently a paradox, screamed in my ears. woohoo! i love dictionary.com x)
and sorry for sounding so obsessed about the convo i'm having with shawn but to quote him:
-Dark Oblivion-
reminds me... gep is like gifted education ritez
-Dark Oblivion-
then they call those sch for down syndrome ppl special sch
-Dark Oblivion-
so gifted and special...
-Dark Oblivion-
hmm... juz a thot
-Dark Oblivion-
nitez
hahahah we were having a disguised conversation that people that do well in exams are stupid and the truly smart ones are...pple with results like ours. hahaha
-Dark Oblivion- ... says:
haha we smart ppl can communicate wivout spelling right
-Dark Oblivion- ... says:
its only among the lower intellects tht spelling is a necessity
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
yaa
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
cos they're too stupid to understand the pro lang
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
then need to stupidly one by one spell everything out
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
THAT'S WHY in physics we dont score too well
-Dark Oblivion- ... says:
exactly!
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
we see the qn know the ans straight away
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
then we think the examiner smart like us wld also know
i'm just putting on a brave front says:
then simplfy the steps. but noo. they want everything STEP BY STEP
hahaha. things exampaper-smart(mentally) challenged people talk about
Monday, June 13, 2005
[anybody willing to be my accountability buddy to meet up occasionally to catch up with our lifes, study, talk, and just slack? x)]
reading about people's lifes are fun. some sympathise with u. some speak to you. some just teach you to appreciate your life more. some tells you that, you know, you're not the only one suffering in this world.
there're people that find blogging about their lifes/thoughts stupid cos 'why do i want others to know what goes on in my life?' but there're sometimes when God speaks to you while you're blogging and what u type may just touch another person's life across the world
(btw if my phrasing of words is wrong, my apologies. listening to music and attempting to write in proper eng is kinda difficult xp)
i'm sorry for being so idontknowthevocab. i keep holding on to the past. i'm refusing to let go. exactly 2mths since natls. had our first trg 2days ago. he HAD to bring it up. not his fault though . it's mine. laying my thoughts out, the reason i didnt push myself during the race was because "I still have next yr." what a lame excuse. i just was so selfish
5 mths to finalyrs. 1 mth since midyrs. why cant Time just stop the rivalry. it's not in the midst of a race. besides, Time doesn't have any competitor. ever thought the reason why Time is always racing is cos they do know that they have one serious competitor, ourselves. i dont wish to elaborate.i'm not in the mood into a long entry.but i was talking to shawn and here are some numbers
2 wks to the end of hols.
followed by 3mths of more absorbing of infomation(ugh physics)
ca2
1 wk hols
2mths of crazy revision, more studying
end yrs
brand new yr. correction. my O LEVEL YR.
there shouldn't be a need for me to continue.
((oh yea i just did the most bimbotic thing i've ever done in my life. after bathing in a swimming complex, i wore a skirt. ok probably it's normal for e rest but i felt so bimbo. lol))
there're so many days in our life. why not just take 1 hr or so of it to plan the rest of it? i'm gonna do that. bye.
shawn says: shawn rox
self praise ain't any praise.
[it gives self confidence though :)]
reading about people's lifes are fun. some sympathise with u. some speak to you. some just teach you to appreciate your life more. some tells you that, you know, you're not the only one suffering in this world.
there're people that find blogging about their lifes/thoughts stupid cos 'why do i want others to know what goes on in my life?' but there're sometimes when God speaks to you while you're blogging and what u type may just touch another person's life across the world
(btw if my phrasing of words is wrong, my apologies. listening to music and attempting to write in proper eng is kinda difficult xp)
i'm sorry for being so idontknowthevocab. i keep holding on to the past. i'm refusing to let go. exactly 2mths since natls. had our first trg 2days ago. he HAD to bring it up. not his fault though . it's mine. laying my thoughts out, the reason i didnt push myself during the race was because "I still have next yr." what a lame excuse. i just was so selfish
5 mths to finalyrs. 1 mth since midyrs. why cant Time just stop the rivalry. it's not in the midst of a race. besides, Time doesn't have any competitor. ever thought the reason why Time is always racing is cos they do know that they have one serious competitor, ourselves. i dont wish to elaborate.i'm not in the mood into a long entry.but i was talking to shawn and here are some numbers
2 wks to the end of hols.
followed by 3mths of more absorbing of infomation(ugh physics)
ca2
1 wk hols
2mths of crazy revision, more studying
end yrs
brand new yr. correction. my O LEVEL YR.
there shouldn't be a need for me to continue.
((oh yea i just did the most bimbotic thing i've ever done in my life. after bathing in a swimming complex, i wore a skirt. ok probably it's normal for e rest but i felt so bimbo. lol))
there're so many days in our life. why not just take 1 hr or so of it to plan the rest of it? i'm gonna do that. bye.
shawn says: shawn rox
self praise ain't any praise.
[it gives self confidence though :)]
Sunday, June 12, 2005
hey mil, let me kope this from your blog
http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com
interesting site but from what one of this anonymous person commented:
"(it) is nothing short of the earthly replica of the place in heaven where prayers come in. It's a big responsibility."
aren't prayers meant to be a one-to-one communication with God where u openly tell him everything and anything going on in your(my) mind? why then is it not put into practise(in my life)? i thought the site was really good etc. but what that person said abt that web being an 'earthly replica'.. hmm makes me think a lot. anyway yes, i did read THAT far. in fact i read the whole damnlong site x)
if you ever find out i was lying to you, i'm sorry. but it's both for your good and mine. there's a soft prompting that made me do this. it's not my decision. i dont even want to do this but i've no choice. i'm sorry.
http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com
interesting site but from what one of this anonymous person commented:
"(it) is nothing short of the earthly replica of the place in heaven where prayers come in. It's a big responsibility."
aren't prayers meant to be a one-to-one communication with God where u openly tell him everything and anything going on in your(my) mind? why then is it not put into practise(in my life)? i thought the site was really good etc. but what that person said abt that web being an 'earthly replica'.. hmm makes me think a lot. anyway yes, i did read THAT far. in fact i read the whole damnlong site x)
if you ever find out i was lying to you, i'm sorry. but it's both for your good and mine. there's a soft prompting that made me do this. it's not my decision. i dont even want to do this but i've no choice. i'm sorry.
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Name: Tiffany Tan
Class: 3B2
I am the captain of the MGS Cross-country team. I am friendly, determined in things that I do and fun-loving. Being a prefect to me is being someone that is responsible, one that looks into the needs of the school students and volunteers to help the teacher when needed. It is not easy being a prefect as you want to up hold integrity yet not go too far as to irritate others. However, I’d like to take up this challenge and do my best for the school.
Qualities/strengths you possess that fit the description of a prefect:
This thing about asking what strengths I have as of “a prefect” evokes my emotions. I do not believe in a ‘perfect prefect’ as the only perfect person in this world is God and every prefect has her own weaknesses. We can aspire to be like Him and make God our role model.
However, I do believe that I am a righteous person and will dutifully book anyone should I see them breaking any school rules.
now, that whole chunk of crap earned me a prestigious appalling ranking in school.
Class: 3B2
I am the captain of the MGS Cross-country team. I am friendly, determined in things that I do and fun-loving. Being a prefect to me is being someone that is responsible, one that looks into the needs of the school students and volunteers to help the teacher when needed. It is not easy being a prefect as you want to up hold integrity yet not go too far as to irritate others. However, I’d like to take up this challenge and do my best for the school.
Qualities/strengths you possess that fit the description of a prefect:
This thing about asking what strengths I have as of “a prefect” evokes my emotions. I do not believe in a ‘perfect prefect’ as the only perfect person in this world is God and every prefect has her own weaknesses. We can aspire to be like Him and make God our role model.
However, I do believe that I am a righteous person and will dutifully book anyone should I see them breaking any school rules.
now, that whole chunk of crap earned me a prestigious appalling ranking in school.
Friday, June 03, 2005
a burst of euphoria rushes me. YAY. i'm leaving tmr tmr tmr tmr! but i'm gonna miss my daddy mummy and uhh bro x) not my sisters :P kidding! i love you SISTERS :D bahahahha i'm leaving TOMORROW. no more perspiration! no more stinky buses. no more idontknowwhatelseconcerningtheheat
man dont u just love life!
anyway if i'm feeling nice i'll get souveniors for you guys.if i rmb you that is. whee whee wheee. ok i need to watch my last chinese show and then do my last bath feeling hot before that and then do my packing. (i sound like i'm gonna die lol)
before i leave, happy birthday mrhan! miss me :) whee. take good care of yourselves in the heat guys! lol i'm mean
man dont u just love life!
anyway if i'm feeling nice i'll get souveniors for you guys.if i rmb you that is. whee whee wheee. ok i need to watch my last chinese show and then do my last bath feeling hot before that and then do my packing. (i sound like i'm gonna die lol)
before i leave, happy birthday mrhan! miss me :) whee. take good care of yourselves in the heat guys! lol i'm mean
Thursday, June 02, 2005
tiff: HEY! remy ong is on tv!
rachsis: really! but last time when i saw him, i remembered him to be looking chinese
tiff: duh he's a sporean
rach: ya and i rmb he looked quite zhong guo why now...
tiff:aiyah! not this guy lah! it's the one in red!
rach: OHH no wonder. i was wondering why he looked quite british
HAHAHAHA. my sister is damn funny perth trip in 2 days! XD
rachsis: really! but last time when i saw him, i remembered him to be looking chinese
tiff: duh he's a sporean
rach: ya and i rmb he looked quite zhong guo why now...
tiff:aiyah! not this guy lah! it's the one in red!
rach: OHH no wonder. i was wondering why he looked quite british
HAHAHAHA. my sister is damn funny perth trip in 2 days! XD
it was our first hand at nationals
we took our first step to the turf
we were runners up
we thought nothing of it
it was only second
we didnt win the competition anyway
we were innocent then
we didnt know what it takes
we saw the second as nothing
we didnt think of the effort we put in
we thought it was easy to get the position
13 mths down the road
the same beginning was repeated
i had my first taste of despair
my first taste of struggle on real conditions
the ending was twisted
i finally understood what it takes
to be a true crosscountry runner
we took our first step to the turf
we were runners up
we thought nothing of it
it was only second
we didnt win the competition anyway
we were innocent then
we didnt know what it takes
we saw the second as nothing
we didnt think of the effort we put in
we thought it was easy to get the position
13 mths down the road
the same beginning was repeated
i had my first taste of despair
my first taste of struggle on real conditions
the ending was twisted
i finally understood what it takes
to be a true crosscountry runner
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