i'm not feeling stressed but am just feeling very sick. especially during school...so maybe i might seem a bit frustrated over my work etc.

but anyway

sorry yvonne for snapping at you today. i felt really really really bad after that (though i played murderer with the rest soon after =x) i was very stressed over my LOST CHINESE PAPER =( cos i really did it! but i cant seem to find it anywhere in my file. even mel pok helped me mess up my whole file but to no avail. and when you suddenly came to me and told me that 'we dont have to do cip journal' i absentmindedly flared up. this was my first time losing control of my temper. i know i'm a very angry person inside and i know how to control it very well. i dont know what got into me today to lose my cool. i know a mere 'ah whatever lah' 3 word phrase may seem nothing from another person but i know very well myself i dont 'whatever' people. therefore, i'm really apologetic about today. (i know a lot of things eh =P) few nights ago, i already explained it to you i was talking about the other part of cip ! about writing a journal as a concerned friend/parent/etc. maybe you didn't read the qn paper well enough so you tried to argue back your point. but i had my paper right in front of me and told you the exact heading (lah). you just prob got confused. but anyhow. i just hope you forgive me.

on another note, DAMN IT. i forgot to find laoshi to get the paper and re do! now she's gonna hate me. and kou wu fen from my test!!!!!!!!! hope revision's been going fine for you guys cos it's not for me. wanna share with those non-b2 pple about this really nice passage the math king shared with us today:

Lord, grant me the right attitude towards my examination,
That even when I study, I want to glorify your name.

Give me the strength that i may press on,
Perseverance that I may endure,
Good health that i amy study effectively.
Help me to be single minded when I study,
Remove all other thoughts, distractions and anxieties.
Give me the power to concentrate,
the abiblity to understand and to remember.
Show me the way to study intelligently,
To know what is important and what is not.
Provide me Lord with quality time in my studies,
Remove all tension and fears within me.
Fill me with Thy confidence,
teach me to draw strength from you each day.
Let me learn to trust You in such times.

In the examination hall, be with me Lord.
Grant me the clarity and sharpness of thoughts
Let me not get distracted by things around me.
Give me concentration and calmness Lord.
Help me to gather the thoughts of what I've learnt.
Grant me discipline to space out time equally for all questions.
Most of all, help me to complete the question on time.

Despite examination Lord, continue to grant me quality time with You,
Let me not neglect You
Give me a balance diet between my studies and my services to You
I just want to commit the whole examination into Your hands,
Knowing that you are a God who cares and ansewrs prayers.
Thank You, In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and Saviour,
Amen.