today was been a really bad day. come ask me about it...or maybe not. =/ you'd be grossed out yourself. thinking graphically can be bad sometimes.

had 'a walk in sch' with a few b3 girls before physics prac and charis mentioned that people who are very quiet (.:. will reflect a lot), are actually very sad(sad as in the opposite of happy) because reflecting is...depressing. the adj of which i helped her fill in. i realise how much reflection i did during my lower sec days...and how much angst and anger i had within self. i hated my life, my cca, crosscountry, my school, and sometimes to an extent, God even. i was always questioning God why is my family so screwed. my dad and mum were so immature..they badmouthed each other to me. i felt like i a councellor. i felt like i was the one who is supposed to be holding the family together emotionally. it was so taxing.

it's funny how i'm so different now. i'm not boggled down by my emotions as much now. i am learning to appreciate my life more. i learnt a lot from a particular friend. i learnt to live each day for God and to think about others before myself. and he has no idea about how great a teacher he is. i admire him that that is his lifestyle. he is so used to being self-sacrificial that it has comes naturally. also, another grp of teachers are my now recess khakis .they've taught me lessons on friendship, on loyalty, on love (and on math and bio) and much more to come i'm sure..

i am thankful that God has given me this chance to live. my future job needs me to be able to talk to people. it needs me to be able to talk about random things. i've so much life lessons(and much more to come) within; it'd be selfish of me to keep them to myself.

oh yes. i've EXTREMELY hilarious jokes on bananas and cars. come ask me if you're bothered!