hey thad. i'm almost gonna solve the rubiks cube leh.i left the last row only! man. the feeling's good. hahahhaa i dont dare to touch it anymore in fear of messing the whole thing .because of you ah........i've spent much precious time doing that rather than studying! and it's also because i refuse to check out the soln from the internet. because you said ' next time you come over again i'll cont teach you.' so yes.how can i rely on the net?on the cheat method =p jk.zy seems to get pissed when i say that.
eh i'm super happy :) i'm so proud of myself. arent you???thad??? you better be :P
if i had a camera i'll take a picture of it and post it here
Monday, July 30, 2007
Sunday, July 29, 2007
(i'm having super bad gastric pains now.ayyy.... i had a 'proper' dinner... :(crap. hurts like anything man. i cant walk.)
sorry jan. i threw my phone cos i was pissed.sorry.
(i had so much fun tdy. x chalet.norman,grace,nic,alvin,ruiyong,aud,melvin came.then they left and i went to retire 4 e night.while listening to alvin&ry talk abt runners and all.i enjoy listening to running stuff.in e morn everyone left and i went to airport w ernest to attempt study.a malay uncle talked to him on e way there.he's so open.i felt so warm listening to their conversation.e uncle's so friendly,so trusting,so chatty...no hint of scheming-ness.he was so real.pure.innocent to a certain extent.the world has a great lack of such pple.then i went back to pasirrispark to play sandcastle w youthphoria.now we know that daniel's(e 19yrs guy not daddy) is e pro at smokin =p but that grp's sandcastle is really nice. after that we reached church, ray suggested watching movie.so we went to vivo.ended up eating at a 'restaurant' w v nice staff.then to GJ for drinks.19 pple went for e outing man!i was felt such great.teamspirit. hahaha.whatthepenguin. we went high lah.why!but nvm.i was laughing e dinner out of me.)
then i came home.and i dont know why. i had a resolution to sit down and finally 'discuss' about thaddeus cheong. when i reached home, i talked a bit to jan abt him. but she was really tired from a super long day.further more she had trg in the morn; she suddenly said,'let's stop talking.we shld sleep.' i felt so.dejected and hurt. yeah so jan, when you went out, fine, i threw the phone against the wardrobe. sorry for scaring you man. but when you suddenly said that and walked out of my room, i was so shocked and overwhelmed that i didnt know what to do. and then almost instantaneously i felt so angry at myself. i realise that i've not come to terms with what happened abt 1mth ago.
i was reminded of the phone call shortly after church service. clar blatantly told me what happened. two words. i was reminded of e first time i saw him lying there. his father saying when we (x girls) walked in 'thad...you cant go out and play pool with your friends anymore ah'.
i was reminded of being next to him during his last 'mugging' session on that fri@bishan library.iwas laughing silently to myself.i looked at him;he was staring at his econs notes. after a while i look up agn,his eyes are half closed.i then told him my philosophy;sleep for 1/2hr,wake up v energized then can study properly.his agreement and totalsupporting look on his face made my day la.he 'yayaya. i agree'which is total bull to e others cos mugging is their passion.
that one trg i decided to go up to do exercise,only to see him and clarisse there too.that day i decided to try an exercise taught by clarisse.so i was rather noob.then thad was like 'lower..lower....okay' 'ah damn pain' 'of course la!' ...
that one time i stayed back in sch till abt 7plus in the canteen.i was waiting for time to pass so i took out my work to attempt. then he came by, talk a bit to me..talked to some pple ard me.. then after getting inspired by me dragged his feet to get his bag and take out his notes.but he nvr study la.only for show. but whoa, he's one hella pro at crapping. his econs is super good.he seemed like he knew his stuff really well
him asking me whether i knew abt 'the fan club'. he didnt want to cont when i said no.
him askingme to go eat after a particular trg when mummy alr was waiting for me
that super sms reply he gave. 'c 1st la...' so beng. ha ha...
e room that mr t brought aud clar and i to. the rebellion i had twds the 'counsellor' or whatever he/she's called. i stubbornly refused to cry in front of him/her.that was a really painful 10min or so.
seeing him leaning against the railing when i went out to get my bag. seeing him after he walked out of thad's place, during his funeral...
the grand 'ceremony' to commemorate thadd's life
the yellow band that so many people wear.now when i see any1 w e yellow band, i auto assume they're related to thadd. that's fine right?
the first time i saw thad.
it's no use whining but i don't understand...why?
sry i'm not being very coherent.but this needs an update
sorry jan. i threw my phone cos i was pissed.sorry.
(i had so much fun tdy. x chalet.norman,grace,nic,alvin,ruiyong,aud,melvin came.then they left and i went to retire 4 e night.while listening to alvin&ry talk abt runners and all.i enjoy listening to running stuff.in e morn everyone left and i went to airport w ernest to attempt study.a malay uncle talked to him on e way there.he's so open.i felt so warm listening to their conversation.e uncle's so friendly,so trusting,so chatty...no hint of scheming-ness.he was so real.pure.innocent to a certain extent.the world has a great lack of such pple.then i went back to pasirrispark to play sandcastle w youthphoria.now we know that daniel's(e 19yrs guy not daddy) is e pro at smokin =p but that grp's sandcastle is really nice. after that we reached church, ray suggested watching movie.so we went to vivo.ended up eating at a 'restaurant' w v nice staff.then to GJ for drinks.19 pple went for e outing man!i was felt such great.teamspirit. hahaha.whatthepenguin. we went high lah.why!but nvm.i was laughing e dinner out of me.)
then i came home.and i dont know why. i had a resolution to sit down and finally 'discuss' about thaddeus cheong. when i reached home, i talked a bit to jan abt him. but she was really tired from a super long day.further more she had trg in the morn; she suddenly said,'let's stop talking.we shld sleep.' i felt so.dejected and hurt. yeah so jan, when you went out, fine, i threw the phone against the wardrobe. sorry for scaring you man. but when you suddenly said that and walked out of my room, i was so shocked and overwhelmed that i didnt know what to do. and then almost instantaneously i felt so angry at myself. i realise that i've not come to terms with what happened abt 1mth ago.
i was reminded of the phone call shortly after church service. clar blatantly told me what happened. two words. i was reminded of e first time i saw him lying there. his father saying when we (x girls) walked in 'thad...you cant go out and play pool with your friends anymore ah'.
i was reminded of being next to him during his last 'mugging' session on that fri@bishan library.iwas laughing silently to myself.i looked at him;he was staring at his econs notes. after a while i look up agn,his eyes are half closed.i then told him my philosophy;sleep for 1/2hr,wake up v energized then can study properly.his agreement and totalsupporting look on his face made my day la.he 'yayaya. i agree'which is total bull to e others cos mugging is their passion.
that one trg i decided to go up to do exercise,only to see him and clarisse there too.that day i decided to try an exercise taught by clarisse.so i was rather noob.then thad was like 'lower..lower....okay' 'ah damn pain' 'of course la!' ...
that one time i stayed back in sch till abt 7plus in the canteen.i was waiting for time to pass so i took out my work to attempt. then he came by, talk a bit to me..talked to some pple ard me.. then after getting inspired by me dragged his feet to get his bag and take out his notes.but he nvr study la.only for show. but whoa, he's one hella pro at crapping. his econs is super good.he seemed like he knew his stuff really well
him asking me whether i knew abt 'the fan club'. he didnt want to cont when i said no.
him askingme to go eat after a particular trg when mummy alr was waiting for me
that super sms reply he gave. 'c 1st la...' so beng. ha ha...
e room that mr t brought aud clar and i to. the rebellion i had twds the 'counsellor' or whatever he/she's called. i stubbornly refused to cry in front of him/her.that was a really painful 10min or so.
seeing him leaning against the railing when i went out to get my bag. seeing him after he walked out of thad's place, during his funeral...
the grand 'ceremony' to commemorate thadd's life
the yellow band that so many people wear.now when i see any1 w e yellow band, i auto assume they're related to thadd. that's fine right?
the first time i saw thad.
it's no use whining but i don't understand...why?
sry i'm not being very coherent.but this needs an update
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
http://xiawubei.wordpress.com/2007/07/03/in-loving-memory-of-thaddeus-chong/
almost everything i want to say is in that link.
it's so touching to see even those who don't know him personally inspired by him. eg, my sister, her mgxcountry mates etc...
"One thing for sure. His legacy will live on in the hearts of all athletes out there."
amen.
but, as a friend of his, i shld write all those down again, personalise it, pen it in my own words and yeah.maybe bring abt a new perspective. but no, not yet. i'm not ready. maybe next time..when i can think about him in his exact form and smile back at e image of his goofy smile. (since cj mentioned me once;) as i told caijing, i dont feel adequate enough to write abt him, about the memories i have of him. i dont feel like i'd be doing him justice if i shld just write an entry abt it.
reading e other crossers' blog entries abt him amazes me..how they can so nicely pen their thoughts and memories of him into words.then again, maybe not. such memories can nvr be fathom by mere words. but nonetheless,10yrs down the road if someone, or myself even, do come back to here, at least i'd be able to revive e memories i hold so dear to my heart.
"...you’re truly one sportsman worthy a role model. You’ll be my inspiration to not give up for my track and field championships"
maybe till then.
3 Jul 07, 03:27
mgx junior (sec3): hey tifft. i stumbled upon your blog & just wanted to say, i really miss those trngs too. you know what? you were a GREAT capt. seriously. haha... a reunion would be fantastic but hard, agreed. anyway, just keep relying on God's strength. keep close to Him & you'll be fine. it must be really hard in trngs nowadays.. rj seems very stressful. but God will be there for you always, & you're very courageous in evangelising in rj! don't give up! you're awesome, yes(: byebye.
hello my dear junior. thankyou so much for your encouragements. really means a lot, a lot to me esp now. and thanks for the reminder.to always lean on God and God's strength alone. and hey, rj ain't that stressful lah..stress is just a perspective thing no? ;) danielle's coming over you heard? and honestly, i've not been a very good witness of the Lord's in rj.but yea, 'dont give up!' :) thanks dear. btw you are????
2 Jul 07, 15:20
keziah: hey tiff! don't stress dont give up. keep fighting yeah? loveya!! muacks!! stupid retarded buddy
thanks keziah khoo. come to rj one day. then jodie you and i can talk.
1 Jul 07, 10:59
rachel: helloo tiffany tann!
hello rachel! which rachel are you again???? rachel tan shi fang? rachel wang shuya? rachel tan? rachel tham? =p
30 Jun 07, 22:11
shern: =) press on dear! and i'm so proud of you! and yeah. keep living your life for the Lord! thanks for spreading God's love! (:
thanks shern. you're such a great inspiration to me
30 Jun 07, 07:00
sarah: hullohullo cheer up okay!
cheer up, i'll try. but be there for you or whoever. i will
23 Jun 07, 16:34
tricia: (:
:)
tcwkit
' i think you're cute ;) ' and in light of e other xers' enthusiasm, "support it for the duck race! serial number 09118" for the sg duck race or smth.
i rmb my math tutor asking our class a qn many times and now i can confidently say yes. 'huh why are you troubled' or smth like that. why cant i be more decisive.
Pain is weakness leaving the body.
got that from shawn.thought it was a super thad quote
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uST5KiWrgFs
touching song
almost everything i want to say is in that link.
it's so touching to see even those who don't know him personally inspired by him. eg, my sister, her mgxcountry mates etc...
"One thing for sure. His legacy will live on in the hearts of all athletes out there."
amen.
but, as a friend of his, i shld write all those down again, personalise it, pen it in my own words and yeah.maybe bring abt a new perspective. but no, not yet. i'm not ready. maybe next time..when i can think about him in his exact form and smile back at e image of his goofy smile. (since cj mentioned me once;) as i told caijing, i dont feel adequate enough to write abt him, about the memories i have of him. i dont feel like i'd be doing him justice if i shld just write an entry abt it.
reading e other crossers' blog entries abt him amazes me..how they can so nicely pen their thoughts and memories of him into words.then again, maybe not. such memories can nvr be fathom by mere words. but nonetheless,10yrs down the road if someone, or myself even, do come back to here, at least i'd be able to revive e memories i hold so dear to my heart.
"...you’re truly one sportsman worthy a role model. You’ll be my inspiration to not give up for my track and field championships"
maybe till then.
3 Jul 07, 03:27
mgx junior (sec3): hey tifft. i stumbled upon your blog & just wanted to say, i really miss those trngs too. you know what? you were a GREAT capt. seriously. haha... a reunion would be fantastic but hard, agreed. anyway, just keep relying on God's strength. keep close to Him & you'll be fine. it must be really hard in trngs nowadays.. rj seems very stressful. but God will be there for you always, & you're very courageous in evangelising in rj! don't give up! you're awesome, yes(: byebye.
hello my dear junior. thankyou so much for your encouragements. really means a lot, a lot to me esp now. and thanks for the reminder.to always lean on God and God's strength alone. and hey, rj ain't that stressful lah..stress is just a perspective thing no? ;) danielle's coming over you heard? and honestly, i've not been a very good witness of the Lord's in rj.but yea, 'dont give up!' :) thanks dear. btw you are????
2 Jul 07, 15:20
keziah: hey tiff! don't stress dont give up. keep fighting yeah? loveya!! muacks!! stupid retarded buddy
thanks keziah khoo. come to rj one day. then jodie you and i can talk.
1 Jul 07, 10:59
rachel: helloo tiffany tann!
hello rachel! which rachel are you again???? rachel tan shi fang? rachel wang shuya? rachel tan? rachel tham? =p
30 Jun 07, 22:11
shern: =) press on dear! and i'm so proud of you! and yeah. keep living your life for the Lord! thanks for spreading God's love! (:
thanks shern. you're such a great inspiration to me
30 Jun 07, 07:00
sarah: hullohullo cheer up okay!
cheer up, i'll try. but be there for you or whoever. i will
23 Jun 07, 16:34
tricia: (:
:)
tcwkit
' i think you're cute ;) ' and in light of e other xers' enthusiasm, "support it for the duck race! serial number 09118" for the sg duck race or smth.
i rmb my math tutor asking our class a qn many times and now i can confidently say yes. 'huh why are you troubled' or smth like that. why cant i be more decisive.
Pain is weakness leaving the body.
got that from shawn.thought it was a super thad quote
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uST5KiWrgFs
touching song
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