chris daughty has a song feels like tonight and...feels like the first time???hahahha.

ANYWAY FANG.
tues night i came home.. at 2am (so means is wednesday alr ah) then janell also still awake so talktalktlaktlatkaltk. then at 3am we go ma's room to sleep and you were sleepign like a pig hands and legs all over the bed as usual. aiyah anyway jan just said 'i very long nvr talk to fang alr' then i realised that too. lol. then when i read your chickenwingrocks, (eh you copy me ah? rawk rocks... ) why you sound so crazy and irritating and talk so much rubbish in person then online talk until so opposite. (and if you ever say you dotn want get married again i will whack you . I WILL TALK TO YOU WHEN YOU HALFASLEEP UNTIL YOU GET DAAAAAAMN PISSED OFF AND WAKE UP AND CANT GO BACK TO SLEEP HAHA. every night)

aiyah k the end. sim isnt good for me cos too much free time. i need ***/***..... i laughed at janell when i saw her results slip when she was crying and face was red. hahahaha couldnt help it sorry ^^

anyway because of a certain SOMEONE >:x i went to some dark damn appropriate place for reflecting place and though i was talking so much shit .many things were triggered in my mind. like how, we all are going to die. but nainai is most likely to go off first. and if say christianity is really for real, wont she go to hell cos she dismissed jesuschrist so many times alr? damn sad. and that is ON TOP of missing her on earth. i really love her. now, compared to her 10years ago, she is more expressive then like smile more and laugh. (like how i called her to ask her out on wed night for dinner with wayejie and joelkor then she say dont want cos she so old then we so young but 'ahma wo men ai ni mah!!!!!!!!!' "oh.... ai wo ah.... (LAUGH) ok lah.") then it went further.what if i die first before her? wa ,sry sound so haolian but , i think she will be damn sad leh. and i dont want to see her sad and helpless ever. that time during t's and m's funeral, the grandmother cry like shit . i felt so much resentment against the world.

and just to set it straight, i dont want to get married cos of everything i see arnd me. where got pple dont want to marry cos they like individual and all that shit?i believe that man are made to find someone to learn from, ,love and live tgt for the rest of their lives. something just happened in those (cynical) pple's lives for them to come to such a conclusion. and i am one of them. not that there is anythign wrong.

ohwell i passed driving :P ha.

i dont like christian music cos...put in daddy's words 'it all sounds the same'. (he can be listening to a song first time in church and by first verse he can catch on the tune alr hahaha (Y) with here and there...a bit wrong lah. but can be used as harmonizing also -.-) then i heard sweetly broken by jeremy riddle which is also a typical sounding CM but it struck me leh. then go find the lyrics, it was..okay lah. at least i didnt think that it was gross and typical and boring ^^v (learn from gracelokeweiting) the way he build up to chorus is nice!very laidback sounding unlike hillsongs who are ...too passionate until it scares me cos make me so ji dong. hmmm. anyway http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5_Z3ZZYLDc . it sounds nicer on my WMP anyway not on youtube.

this is dear god. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4HGnvqz4h5c JUST IN CASE YOU THINK it is a holy song it is not. it is a desperate plea of a man (i wld think so since he has to resort to praying to God) nothing is nice EXCEPT THE CHORUS. the tune, the words, the way he sings it.(oh ya annabelly introed it to me ! ;) ) i wish ther was a website which got compliation of all the HISTORY OF SONGS. how it was written, you know what i mean ?!?!? -.-

k anyway. this is dedicated to fang and ...en. hahahah. shit. sounds so 13years old but whatever. i am 19 and PEOPLE say i look old already so ....WTV LOR.