yeah ,right... stop with the hurtful words. if that's all there is, then just leave me alone.

it always has to be like that.damn.

Dear God, are you happy now?
why do you like doing such things to me? why do you let such things happen to me? as if one is not enough, you have to throw 3 at me... you know i'm weak and can't take such things emotionally. you make me value loyalty and integrity then you give me people who think otherwise. i have enough of this. please stop it... i surrender. i give up. you win. please stop it already. pls dont let all these things be a .... learning/preparation lesson for some future event to come. please i beg you. i dont want already.

damn. shld have stuck at being stage 1..

"even though it's emotional, it feels physical"

you know. i am feeling this ... i cant rmb what i wanted to cont lol. i'm actly not feeling the pain now. oh pls pls pls let it be like that. lol actly it's called numbed. but who gives a damn? i rather feel numb than pain.

i feel really stupid. stupid for believing shit. it's like believing you will sacrifice for me. lol.

eh,i tell you ah.lol my heart damn pain when the convo was on going leh. was trying really damn hard to not look sad or let loose or sth lol =/

i feel such extreme zzzzzzzz that even liverpool's win of TWO-0 just makes me go "oh, mm, nice yay. we won. great job :] (that's a half smile) "

lol wah my last //graph(...first part...) really came true sia. haha, shit i prophesicise (sp?) so many things. i btr shut up.

sq: ya you right leh. but the way i see jan.... i think can lah (Y) got potential. she hates acjc. lol. she'll just train and run and study =x

tricia: okayz will tell you

xz: eh, you apologise for ACCIDENTALLY FINDING my blog then you still come again...lol jkjkjk. thanks for coming. i honoured (Y) eh no lah, i not fit leh.. not that fit lah. siao this year top 3..... xiong leh. fyi must rmb talk to laine also.if not later she sad you nvr talk to her hhaha

cj: LOL thanks.. IVP in october. okay lah fine.... this year you go date your family. next time come find me. IF you still single.. eh but seriously ah caijing, give those boys a break lah. give them a chance . they gng to explode alr... (oh fyi. sry in advance nvr go mrr 8am run.. i tell you why next time )

k . pple tell me i can do this. i must. the way it's done with sim. PMA. get over it. - doesn't deserve my wholebeing. not worth it.

i
must
study

gna see ahma tmr..