Do you know that sometimes you get so damn dhjsodnfb tactless wen you speak that I really feel like whacking your face and asking you to just open your eyes and wake up your idea LA. but I can't. So I just shut up and suck all these shit in. I hope you know what you're doing though.

I think I shld start piling myself up with parttime jobs. Alr got two camps coming up -:( gna miss my nubcake- but tts it.. Yeeeaahh. But I can't and shouldn't spend my time stoning at home and watching friends/prisonbreak/bbt. Or maybe I shld since my hols are limited and I'm destined for shit anw lol. Feeling so hot and pissed off now. Ugh. Why the heck muz I always be the mature one ? Why can't you just take your role or even hv some sympathy and take this shit load of emotional turmoil off me. I'm a freaking child. The least you could do is to NOT throw tantrums at me or attitude me. Geeeeeeee. Am I supposed to pacify you? :( tts not my job. That's yours.. I'm supposed to be the one Stamping my feet and sulking and trying to gain your attention and love (successfully). I don't even know that feels like.

So I'm screwed up. Fine. But whose fault is it? Mine? For bringing myself up badly? Oh ok sorry.
Who will accept me the screwed up way I am. God? He has too. He made me as such. Can you show me some sympathy? Pls? You denied me so many things but let me have this one thing rgt .

- and - ,please... Let me enjoy the childhood that I'm to have. Leave your problems between yourselves and don't get me involved. I've enough of mine. And damn as hell stop saying "nvm when you grow up you'll understand". I HATE IT WHEN YOUDO. Why the heck are you cursing me to have the same future as you? It's alr taking me alot to show you wtv respect I've shown to you so don't test me further. This is my limit.

I want to be childish. I want to breakthe rules and be a nuisance and whiny girl and be able t get away with it.

You brought me up well but you are starting to screw things up. so at 20 I'm mature enough to have my own values and be able to withstand shit? NO NO NO NO XP

10yrs. It's a long time yet .