" You were supposed to be my best friend ..."

jan's sixbillionsecrets website is rather sad... :o

i was fine all week, distracting myself by talking with friends, taking a vested interest in their lives and doing things that i always only dreamed of doing. i was glad thinking that hey, i can do this, i can live without you. but when i saw you, all my efforts faded away and i realise i've been deluding myself all these while. i wish i could tell you but we all know you wouldn't care.
-christel

:/ quarrelled with mama twice in the past two days.. dno why i'm so snappy. it really hurts to think that she's only 23years older than me. and that , i dont wna be like her when i grow up. :( arh.

totally not looking forward to it.. i wish it will past as quickly, or even more so, than other days. hah a.

the really nasty headache just now totally ruined my whole self :( zzgh. Dad, why cant you live among us here in physical form? it's really tiring and difficult sometimes :(

ahwell. new week new start. i'm gna do sth crazy now