it's not what i didn't feel but what i didnt show

julia sheer singing misery is so nice.......

ytd aft trng i suddenly had this thought :
i shouldn't dwell on stuff especially if it makes me sad because it doesn't change the situation at all. God has alr "planned our steps" and our future so.... i shld just pray and fill my mind with Him if ever i start to think abt these sad,sad things and what ifs and what if nots ....., and just trust. God has alr my future crafted out which ultimately shld be better than what i'm doing here so
i shld pray that i wont screw things up, for the future to really take place, and to look forward to the better future ahead.

just gta have a lil faith , eh?

:( as i'm talking to ,haha yeah sq, and saying for the 1000th time , i am really so tired (everytime i say that i think of yl's situation to ___ hahha) ...... from trng, proj, trying to study.... i am starting to wonder, is it cos of the feelings that are looming in my heart?

and then; . am i trying to draw strength from the wrong places? oh dear god, i'm so sorry :(((( for i am so short sighted and so worldly....