He thinks that I don't care. Today I learnt that he thinks I "never put much thought into it" .. It's kinda hurtful yet really insulting to me. I feel very offended in fact. .. I'm thought so lowly of. They never had a good impression of me. I'm just a quiet "nice pleasant " girl outshone by my younger sisters in every way. Rachel is v filial, loving to Ryan and responsible. Janell is strong headed, opinionated ,smart and rly intelligent. Me? I'm a nice girl I guess.. But she went to sim aft graduating frm Rj. She doesn't know what she wants. She's 20 but still acting like a kid. She's not pretty, doesn't know how to dress up and put make up on. I'm just someone who doesn't care. Abt anything. Yep i know that's how I'm seen. Maybe it's because of this perception people have of me that is so evident and strong tts why I act so. Or sometimes I give the occasional rebellion-magnifying my flaws- jst so that I'd be different from what people expect of me.