She's on the way... And she's getting here as fast as she can.

-OMGGGG i wna watch titantic and matrix and disney shows...... :((( i miss hercules and little mermaid and beauty and the beaust amongst others...

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Rabbit: study
timtam says:
but daddddd
zzz
Rabbit says:
hahaha
you call every guy bro and dad you're never gna get a boyfriend

HAHAHA! i was trying not to stare jst now at lunch but i saw how rabbit was so easy with the other gurls and i was thinking to myself, HAW HAW and hes my friend ;) LOLLL i'm so glad he doesnt know my blog

-hmmm, i signed up for a nepal trip w sim ,to put it simply like jam's ocip (overseas cip trip) , without knowing anyone AGNNNN. i've been doing such things (signing up for things on the spur moment without thinking abt stuff like DO I KNOW ANYONE GNG? AM I GNA ASK IF A FRIEND IS INTERESTED FIRST BEFORE SIGNING UP?) since 09' and i nvr learn from my lesson. oh well hope i get it ! :)

allllllright, i shld be studying but i'm gna watch THE ISLAND NAOOOO.

i reaaaaaaaaaaally dont feel like doing it now. but i know i have to. plus, it's 2 more days!! so i MUST persevere. okies. i'm gna bathe, be so ever refreshed and chiong my proj. i will slp by 2am. yep

oh and my phone.......... :(((( the protector screen is horridly screwed up (ugh stupid ghost itchy hands of past :( !!) and blue skin is looking rly dirty x( plus ppl KEEP PULLING BLUE SKIN!!!it hurts me ok! hahahhaa. the only reason i didnt change snow white's cover is because blue skin is SHOCK RESISTANT. oh yea~ so iphone is rather safe even if i (accidentally!!!) drop it.. but i'm starting to detest the look of it. but it's really more of the screen protector. OK THIS WEEKEND I'M GNA BUY A NEW SCREEN PROTECTOR. YAAAAAAAAAAAY. :((((((( more money spent. someone pls give me a job. hahah i'm left with...alright, it really aint much....to survive till i grad...

referencing..

Blessed be Your name(Matt Redman) edited.

Blessed be Your name
In the depths of Macritchie
Where the green leaves improve our sight
Blessed be Your name

And blessed be Your name
When we're condemned to Sarah's Park
Though the lizards haunt and monkeys taunt
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
We'll turn back to praise
Though we groan and moan from tough workouts
Still we will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on us
When we all get the darkest tans
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in,
Lord Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the rain that you send
Blessed be the close companions
Blessed be the coaches that you give
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give us pains and strains
You raise the drink prices
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

-sarah chia.

only at mgxctry hahahha. running was a philosophy, a relationship, a state of being to me,then... now it's just a....hmm what is it....shucks.i dont know =/ i've became so darn stupid haaaaaaaah.

I NEED TO GET SHOES. but i'm so reluctant to spend (MORE) money.... :/

anw thanks loggie for the drawing! =D

"dont talk to me. dont disturb me. i got a lot of hw to do"

: then why are you on the phone?

"BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO...~ !"

then i left the scene. it made me realise that deep down i actually hate conflicts. -of the many conflicts i had before, it was only becos i knew that those ppl cld handle my rubbish/i dont give a heck abt them. but i rarely stage a conflict with ppl...i jst voice my thoughts and frm my 'agitated' tone, ppl assume i wna 'fight' with them.-

i know you're a damn #&)@!(#*!)(*@!)*@)!(&$^ person. and you'd nvr back down. and if i even start a fight, i'd nvr ever do so. but just for the sake of my blog and to dissipate my anger, if i were not afraid of conflicts,

THEN GET THE HELL OUT OF MY ROOM RIGHT NOW. this is my room and you ask me to shut up. screw

but i'd never ever say that. dont worry. i hope ......! =/ >.<

k done. i came home rlyyy happy cos i spent the whole bus ride just thinking abt this friday -omg,thanks so much shivaniiiiiiiiiiiiiii- .hahaha having british accented banter in my own home. it's a classic case of ,because i cant go overseas, you bring overseas to me! >.<

and because neighbour gave me a ride home and relieved me of the long walk up home. omg his car is frigging cool

ok hmt.

you know we go about our lives everyday talking nonsense with friends ? chatting about just anything that comes to mind just so to pass the time and help us get through the day .

but then once in a while, those sort of 'deep conversations' pop up in your life ((i dont believe in coordinated dc s because they have to happen naturally... -it can stretch from just 15min to maybe ... 6hrs long(yes it happened :o ...?yeah . and it makes you think a lot.and it'll leave you with a really good/bad feeling. good cos -wow i've got some intellect in me ;) - or bad because -sigh, it nvr occurred to me...- or sth.

so anyway the DC happened a few days ago . and it left me w a realllllly bad feeling...-of course i cld have chosen to just take what happened as a passing thing , cos we were more of like bitching etc hhahah. but juice is my good friend and i dont want to leave it aside just like that- so anyway, it was underlying horrible because 1) i actly agree with what we talked abt 2) i dont know what to do abt juice....esp more so bcos juice has given up. i'm not too worried abt myself because i know i've not given up (yet =/ haha) .

really hoping GOd shows me someone that i can turn to for advice... SO ANYWAY. dc left me in a state and i went abt my life with that lingering behind in my mind

one day, i was stoning with a few other people. OKAY i'm too lazy to pen down my thoughts hahahahha but i asked cookie a qn of which my answer to is ,' no. we'd be too cynical by then'. and i had that thought since ....15yrs or sth. (haha cookie is older than tht btw) so ANYWAY i asked cookie

"do you think that say 20 years from now you'd still love GOd just as much? dont think abt the what ifs in future, just at this current moment, what's your stand"

cooki hesitated for a while and ...stuttering, trying to find the right words , eventually said "i think, actly, i will love God more".

that was like a strong gust of wind that came against me and tipped me off my centre of gravity !

i dont have any point i'm trying to make.

ytd was a horrible day .
1) i dont know why my sister spoke so ill-ly of me. and it was a statement that had this seemingly effort of wanting to put me down+impressing others. got that from doodle and sugar before. =/ i really hate that lol. why do you want to 'act cool' in the midst of others? yet you're normal in front of me .......if you want to put me down THEN DONT EVEN TALK TO ME AT ALL. haha
2) i dont wna describe the situation here but .ytd night, if i was rich enough, i'd have taken my siblings with me and left.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbEB8u6LkZY&feature=related

a guy's cover of angel

actually...to sing that song well, a bit tough... it starts out really soothing and nice . towards the middle, i think it gets kinda really high? then they start to shout or sth =/ a bit piercing...

why am i almost perpectually tired and procrastinator

i woke up on time tdy, managed to even take the long bus and reach sch 10min early! for 830 class FYIII. ahahha. thank God for xy!!!!!!!!!! godsent as i told her. if she wasnt on the same bus i think i'd have ended up at bukit batok hahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCSe66pWNmc&feature=related
kiss the rain.

7/16. is the number of classes i didnt go for, and the number of classes conducted thus far . =/ and i'm really too tired to do my project.... maybe i'll do it tmr... zzz! hey you, i dont wna text you too much so if you read this hahaha I GIVE UP ON DOING MY PROJECT. i'll just let my grp mates have a bad impression of me...

test next sat, hmt proj submission next fri. THE WANTED NEXT SAT....rly wna bring ryan along cos he can ttly sing to them songs ! but fang said it'll be quite tough to take care of her... :((( so sad. he'd be so sad... but anyway then we are gna ask zavier. hahaha dear cousin..dear beloved cousin who keeps asking me to go clubs and bars .tsk.

trng tdy. yea. haha.

"

" in my 3,4 however many years in uni
AT LEAST OUT OF ONE of those years
i am gna be damn fit and ready for ivp
and
i will invite my ahma to go watch me
i will make damn sure that year i gna step on podium
wait damn long alr"

i know as a christian i shldnt look at what medals and all that shit etc but .not only for her but for me too. and for the people in my past. for all the mistakes i've made in my life. i deserve to have something to fight for

"

haha 27thjan 2010 post......

i'm only awake because all these feelings of betrayal and hurt has come back to me. in a different way. but the same effect nonetheless... i'd ask myself why?and continue to dwell into the sadness of it but i'd just be wasting my time. you dont deserve it. and as another said, "The most important people at Liverpool Football Club are the people who want to be here."


A whole new world
A place where no one tells us, "No" .