i've mastered the art of 'switching off' this emotion, of this kind of pain. it was almost instantaneous i almost couldn't believe it. just one question, why do people like to bring up death? is it meant as a threat, as a reminder for people to love them more?

i am always so resolved to prove that it will be the worst decision of your life by destroying myself bit by bit in front of your very own eyes... i don't know what is to be accomplished but maybe sheer regret will eat you up so badly that you will feel remorse so great you would not be able to do anything else... and you will finally know how i have felt. what do you think of that? come to think of it, by then, i would not give a - about what you think. the latter, to you, i promise

if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, think again, i'll be at the place that we'd meet. jst because, i'm not like any of you..