Tonight. I read to escape. 

Not discover or explore. Because the unknown is tricky. You may not like what you will possibly discover

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/01/opinion/sunday/the-joy-of-quiet.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0

article that echoes my thoughts. had it printed and stuck on my wall.

enjoyed many quotes from it:

'it is only by having some distance from the world that you can see it whole, understand what you should be doing with it and what usefulness you can bring to them' (vice versa).

'distraction is the only thing that consoles us for our miseries . yet it is itself the greatest of our miseries'

'I have often said that the sole cause of man’s unhappiness is that he does not know how to stay quietly in his room.'

We want to complexify our lives. We don’t have to, we want to. We wanted to be harried and hassled and busy. Unconsciously, we want the very things we complain about. For if we had leisure, we would look at ourselves and listen to our hearts and see the great gaping hold in our hearts and be terrified (justin taylor) . 

so, so true.

we work and toil and get caught up in 'busy' so that we have no time to sit down and stare at the blank canvas of life set out for us to be achieved.

anyhoo. 12 more days till i fly off

Sometimes i just wna curl up at the corner of my bed and hide from the woes of being a human. 

Helpz. Make it go away

love this video, the analogy presented is excellent. this video follows an 'expert' trying to explain to his team the ridiculousness of their proposal (..YOU DIMWITS. why did you allow your logic to leave you !). however there is only so much experience a man can gain. there will always be something different out there for man to venture into, or create even. as the meeting progressed, it made me consider that maybe the expert needs to take a step back, NOT focus on the limitations and consider other ways to go about the problem. be open-minded.

that's something i picked up from my past few months.

(side note: and that's where i give my utmost respect for my dad to; the agility of his mind to approach problems is intriguing. agility does not come with dead-textbook-studying; it comes with...rebellion of the norm. but, obviously, i do not show it because HE KNOWS IT. ha ha ha.)

(side note 2: which i need to hold dearly to when i move on. be an expert, but open-minded as well .and know when to tell people they are being ridiculous :P ) but other than that. i love this guy's reactions! the frustration in talking to a bunch of...dumbos. and eventually you have no words left for them except the one word they know 'okay.'. they think 'ah, hes stopped being stubborn and see my pov' . but no, we just give up on you and dont want to waste our breaths anymore. ;) happy weekends!

http://www.cnet.com/news/this-is-how-an-engineer-feels-when-hes-surrounded-by-idiots/

When its known that id be travelling w alli , there were worries here and there. About safety mainly, and about 2 of us travelling

Id like to know , is it normal that people express dire concern? Or do they perceive alli as someone not trustworthy? Or do they look that lowly of me.. That

I cant take care of myself, im not streetsmart, im too naive and will get cheated, im too immature and may make myself prematurely pregnant

In other news. Hate this sense of purposeless.. Check: Ive just ended another half year of my life, and im still searching. To my future self, im struggling in this messed up pool and it gets very very tiring at times..please send some encouragement or sign that ill eventually reach there..... . i have hope nonetheless, and im not running now, but im still keeping afloat. Waiting. 

Watched an epi of himym and they flashbacked many past scenes.. And we aaw how the mum was there many times but we just didnt notice. It was v v heartwarming. Im still in early stages of my life and hv yet to unfold the other part of the story.

#ulcerrrrrr. Rly rly hurts :( when i dont put the medication. Ughhh