We are changing. I can look 5 yrs into the future and see you becoming more worldly and humane while i getting dunked into the materialistic world and chasing one opportunity after another.

I dont know-i think i rather such a lifestyle than having people look down at me. Youve done it before and im too sensitive and insecure to handle as such again... Even though ill still prob be spoken illy (omg how do you spell ill-y??) off, at least ill have considerable assets to my name by then. I HOPE. lol.

Got two good friends finally talking to their eyecandies ! And both seem pretty promising. Hahaha. Ok frivolous but , isnt money a frivolous endeavour as well ?

We all were made for more than this. What then is it? Tell me

I dont know how you do it, girls my age should not be able to feel like this with a mere glance anymore

First time being given a slip of paper (that i am a potential (top 3) winner) ! :))) the competition for my category wasnt very strong but im still rly happy nonetheless. ^^ earned some cash too whoo~

Felt kinda cool to be in the sectioned off area for winners next to the stage before prize presentation hawhaw. Ok back to the student life

I must tell myself that im a machine and not feeling anything while doing my task is ok. IT IS OKAY. !

my problem is that while i am awake, physically alert actually, my brain is shut. it's a vacuum...

my head is like a coconut. it's empty - so i think coconut's insides are... come to think of it, i've nvr really seen the inside of a coconut-always steered clear upon seeing them. aren't coconuts smelly ? =x

ok i dont rly know what i'm doing so i'll wake up early tmr.

anyway my back hurts from tdy's trng :(

"Don't be afraid of death. Be afraid of the unlived life." -Tuck Everlasting (2002)

I must live by this!!!

No, im rly tired.. Im merely running on adrenaline and from seeing him today..(hahaha).

Im not waking up today with a 'new week, new start!!!' resolution like i used to.

Siandotcom

How does it feel like to awaken to reality one day and realise that your all effort and time have come to naught?

:'( damn.why am i stupid? ....

The worst thing is that im so used to being this foolish-so much so tht im void of hurt and disappointment at this realisation (of my dumb endeavour). I'm such an embarrassment, a failure. Rly dont want to face tmr..

wow, got a 'message in a bottle (by nicholas sparks)' moment here !

i've forgotten how it feels like to pine for someone, not that i'm complaining! those were bad days. anyway, really liked sth and will share it here :

Is it possible to miss someone you don't even know?

"I wish I had never met you. Then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there." -Good Will Hunting (1997)