is it normal to intentionally stay away from food to the point of hunger ..so that in some way , this way, you are connected to your humane self.

sometimes my mind is so numbed of emotions, thoughts and feelings that i am not living; i exist as a mere organism (i have explained this mental state of being-or lack of- before...something that i still struggle to put into words). no nothing is happening, i'm just studying really hard now. engagement in this activity is akin to ridding myself of all personal thoughts and memories -so that the impressions these knowledge make can be fresh and succinct.(i feel the need to constantly explain myself in fear that i appear out of sorts and weird...) pause: my poor vocab bank makes expressing myself tough. anyhow, i am seeing the light for finance....is it that understandable and interesting and awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee or do i have a flair for this module...? hahaha! i'd love to take all finance mods next sem please <3 p="p">

I think this is how i know :

When i found something that wasn't in my favour, I closed up immediately. Because what i seeked in that situation wasnt the subject but what obtaining the subject meant.

I know because i'm doing things that make me look like a noooob. And its not everyday i come across a piece of wood like this .

Ok sorry im not very subtle in this haha @.@

My head is screaming get a grip, girl !

I guess this means more to me than to you..

Oh dear..whats wrong w me. No, i do know why im like this ,i just dont like it :( even i cannot control myself @.@ haaa ok. will this matter in a month? HOPEFULLY NOT.....!

Im spent. I dont wna go back to sim tmrrrrr

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/i-have-a-crush-on-you/

Trenet.. What if getting to know them is the opposite of what always happens..

Fantasy huh... Fantasies dont happen in this real, practical, forlorn world..dont they? I feel like this question is going to be challenged....,,, : )

Anyhow ive war to face. Along with some extra weights known as 'extra shit i cast upon myself' and 'laziness' and a whole pound of defeatish mentality :(

“Don’t say we aren't right for each other, the way I see it is… We aren't right for anyone else.” -The Cutting Edge (1992)

Aww

"i will follow myheart-because i wna live in a (fairytale) world, not in a practical world"

not exactly how i feel but so true! this world will be viewed by-and thus interpretated in your mind-through your eyes so it is up to you which lenses you wna use

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkGzqpGx1KU&feature=relmfu

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NMLeJsen1Go&feature=related

Here we stand
Worlds apart, hearts broken in two
Sleepless nights
Losing ground
I'm reaching for you

Feelin' that it's gone
Can change your mind
If we can't go on
To survive the tide love divides

Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
And went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched
And went our separate ways

Troubled times
Caught between confusions and pain
Distant eyes
Promises we made were in vain

If you must go, I wish you love
You'll never walk alone
Take care my love
Miss you love


I still love you girl
I really love you girl
And if he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
No, No

gone are the days i can look at such lyrics and form my own definite interpretation.. or even be able to hold discussions mentally. zzz

http://sg.finance.yahoo.com/photos/organized-20-clever-ideas-repurposed-slideshow/#crsl=%252Fphotos%252Forganized-20-clever-ideas-repurposed-slideshow%252Forganized-20-clever-ideas-repurposed-photo-143720161.html

omg the photos are really pretty! :)))

it's so nice to be creative like that

"Many a false step is made by standing still." -Lottery Ticket (2010)

Anyway: to remind me when im gna get all angsty in the near future

'At the end of the day as what I'd always tell myself, even if it doesn't work out at least you get to find out it doesn't! That you've tried and you can move on w no regrets/second thoughts.

Thanks so much for this prep talk. Actly, i just had a convo with my sis. We were talking abt how the fear of failure has caused so much pain and regret. And ive always lived my life taking the 'safer' route and forgoing many possibilities... Maybe i shld step up my game and start putting my hopes out on the line and see how far it can take me.. :) '

omg, i sound so weird. why does anyone wna talk to me. hahahahahha

:( actly i've been told by a person that if we weren;t biologically related, she wouldnt even have made acquaintances with me.... sigh....

hi ryan. cream little puff that was SOOOOOO adorable when he got excited and tried to explain a running man episode to me. ~