is it normal to intentionally stay away from food to the point of hunger ..so that in some way , this way, you are connected to your humane self.

sometimes my mind is so numbed of emotions, thoughts and feelings that i am not living; i exist as a mere organism (i have explained this mental state of being-or lack of- before...something that i still struggle to put into words). no nothing is happening, i'm just studying really hard now. engagement in this activity is akin to ridding myself of all personal thoughts and memories -so that the impressions these knowledge make can be fresh and succinct.(i feel the need to constantly explain myself in fear that i appear out of sorts and weird...) pause: my poor vocab bank makes expressing myself tough. anyhow, i am seeing the light for finance....is it that understandable and interesting and awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee or do i have a flair for this module...? hahaha! i'd love to take all finance mods next sem please <3 p="p">