juz went to rjcat to check out on my swimming events. i'm leaving sch...1/2 way on wed and i'm not coming to sch at all on thurs. hehee.. hmm, i'm swimming 100m and 200m free. not my pet events but i juz sacrificed and took those unwanted events.. man, the timings that whichever teacher keyed in is so fast! 1.15 for 100m free. woah can die. i guess i'll juz hafta chiong all e way. man, it's so pressuring. ok enough of swimming for now. haha.. oh btw, the swimming costume is....nice? heh. i prefer last yr's one!! oh well..

hmm, training on monday. went to old holland rd and did the slopes thing. i dont know wat's w me nowadays. i juz dont have the motivation to train well. i dont feel like putting in effort and i juz kinda, let my body go when i was too tired. i kinda jogged up the slope? sigh. why cant i juz push a little. i juz dont really have the determination. gotta work on that. 2ndly, it's the juniors. not meaning anything, but why cant u guys juz be serious during training. go laugh and talk abt boys all u want AFTER training. i'm not pin pointing or anything. but do give a little thought for ur seniors that want to be prepared for training. it's difficult to concentrate and talk to urself when others are chatting away happily in the background. during all those competitions, when i see other schs and their teams. i'm in awe at the juniors. i dun really know who are the juniors. but at least they still look determined to me. read another girl's blog and she doesnt really seem to complain abt her juniors.not saying that i do. haha..sigh.. i juz dont feel as motivated as last yr. i feel kinda burned out. but yet i dun want to skip trg. this friday's training is at NIE..ytd, e way mr ng talked abt how trg wld be on friday.. is really scary. he told us to be prepared and etc. i really duno wat's w me...arrghh! i do admit that i'm kinda demoralised when i see pple that used to be slower than me, taking over me.. or juz being in front of me. i juz feel as if the world has came crashing down on me n i dun really feel like running anymore. but yet i still wanna complete the route. i'm juz a selfish person i guess. better start doing my easy runs!! argh.. couldnt be bothered to do.. and it has done so much harm to me. bleh.

take care, God bless.
hope u guys dont get a cough coz of me! =) hmm.. GJAFDLKGJSAFKLJKSAFKL;JSFKLJSADF
ok that wasnt me. why on earth am i blogging anyway
i didnt even felt like doing it
anyway, it's quite short la.
okok, take care pple!
God be with u always