hello. today was a crazy day. i almost cried in front of the public at people's park. but anger surpassed sadness. and i just finished reading percy article! share with you guys one of his phrases which he has so clearly put into words of what i feel abt cross :D

Endless running should be indulged in for the benefits derived from the sweat and pain of vigorous exercise.

(if i sound arrogant or anything, i'm not showing off or whatever. not saying i did a fab time lah. but i'm happy abt my time lah. AIYOH shh)
i really enjoyed trg on monday. being able to keep up with runqian(an rj girl that does sub60 for 12k :)) really motivated me a lot. and the fact that i could actually go faster.. :) but i didnt lah. i was too afraid. stupid me. i was scared if i was running in front of her (how much further can i go. i was going 75% already. if i pushed it'll be abt 5-10% only), she'll overtake me soon after. or maybe like after one of those markings. i'll get so demoralised. besides, i dont really like competing during trg cos theres a slight chance i'll 'lose' then die liao. try not competing as much as i can first =x comps are coming up soon. so i just paced her and tried pushing her a bit more when i found some energy from the air. hmm also, i wasnt used to my bouncy hair (GOSH IT WAS FREAKING IRRITATING) so i concentrated on the bounce of my hair. then run qian's hair was also short so it kept flying. i was wondering for e last 4km how short hair people could stand their hair. so my eyes were fixed on runqian's hair and that's it. slowly, the 0.5km markS came and passed. i dont know what's so interesting abt her hair but i was really 'fascinated' by them and thought i was passing the marks really quickly. then suddenly an rjc guy strided past us. (i rmb he wanted to run with some ta boh instead of renuka. but he was the only one that overtook us) i thought he must be damn good a runner who underestimates himself. whoa runqian was scary. she suddenly opened up her steps, seemingly to try to run with him. i thought siao liao..i'm so tired already. but i crazy crazy ran with her. it seemed like a 200m mark rather than a 500m one. it seemed that fast. i was running behind her most of the time so i dont have to endure the wind =/ initially when she overtook me, i didnt really want to run with her cos i was afraid. i was scared i wldnt be able to handle it. but then i thought i needed to prove myself and i really needed a pacer. (dan weilin n rjc girl in front were only a few steps away but it was diff. to catch them. and i dont like running in a grp. having a personal running buddy nicer :)) i also wanted to run with her cos i wanted to shake her hand after e run. hehehee. i get this weird satisfaction when i shake my running buddy's hand and say 'good run :)' at the end. heh i was really motivated by that thought. i'm glad i took e step of faith to chase runqian before she realised that bouncyhaired mgs girl is gonna be brave to run with her. she was so encouraging that i felt so bad a partner if i didnt cheer her on(which i rarely did). soon we reached 6km mark. sighh i was so sad it was gonna be my last 100m so i chiong kah liao. i saw grace1h and thought. i'm going to beat her. i MUST beat her. walao i sprint until like mad woman lah but i didnt overtake in the end. but from swimming and running race experiences, my timing shld be split secs slower only.ok maybe 1sec. but i heck care her lah. i was still happy i was finally over with 6100m. then after e run, runqian told me she thought finish at 6k mark so she slowed down but she saw me still running, so she cont ed and said i was pushing her a lot :) and she wasnt sure i was able to do sub60 then since i nvr ran with her. but she's certain i could do it now since i just ran with her. then 'must have confidence :)' so nice.

i was thinking, then, that athletes really follow their coaches. character, talking wise sense. hahahah. i thought mr quek got her to talk to me..but i doubt so lah. haha :) she was really friendly. i had a great last run there :) at least i made it count. i'm gonna miss there though :( but i've 2nd thoughts if i'd ever wanna go back there again hahahaha. ok i'm gonna meet jen in 7 1/2hrs for lit 'tuition' but i'm still awake. bad me shhh.

tricia just made me excited for sch/