The Class that ROCKS!!! (and stones!)
(The Class as in 08s06u. my new class. apparently bball guy said i sounded like i was swearing when i said '6u'.)
hahaha how true. we stayed backaftr sch tdy to exchange jokes. then after a while, the jokes were still coming...but the laughter ceased and stoning took over. it was...good bonding time i guess. ha.
anyway i'm here in the middle of e week to let all worried friends , and fans if i have, that my new class isnt a nightmare! thank God :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Sunday, March 18, 2007
what's wrong
the night of swift race, i had a dream about my new class. 6u. it's nth like having monsters as my classmates or having monsters invade my classroom one day or having a monster as my teacher(hmm... ;p kidding). it was somewhat like reality. it was one bad thing after another...(i cant rmb e situations exactly so i'm just making this up->) my classmates were...horribly unreasonable.my teacher didnt like me from the start of his first lesson.i failed some test(hahaha i realise, it's quite normal to fail right =x).i was very disorientated ;had a whole pile of work to complete, running state was dissatisfying etc. what a nightmare!
probably due to anticipation of sorts. i suddenly woke up and didn't dare to sleep further in fear of having a continuation of my dream. that dream made me really scared for tmr.
i like reading shern's blog cos she looks on the positive side of things and nvr forgets abt God no matter e circumstance.
so to turn this to a positive entry, look at the bolded words above in a different light. it'll be good if i continued my dream cos i know at the end, God will be there. i will see his grace working through the situations and His will being done. .:. if i finished my dream, it'll be a beautiful picture :)
haha i rmb some ac friend, i forgot who, telling me :
njc wants to be the best
rjc is the best
acjc to be the best is yet
i'm not discriminating any schs but it's funny . hahaha :) seeing my closest buds in ac jerseys during fri's race was like...whoa ouch. oh wells . sch tmr
the night of swift race, i had a dream about my new class. 6u. it's nth like having monsters as my classmates or having monsters invade my classroom one day or having a monster as my teacher(hmm... ;p kidding). it was somewhat like reality. it was one bad thing after another...(i cant rmb e situations exactly so i'm just making this up->) my classmates were...horribly unreasonable.my teacher didnt like me from the start of his first lesson.i failed some test(hahaha i realise, it's quite normal to fail right =x).i was very disorientated ;had a whole pile of work to complete, running state was dissatisfying etc. what a nightmare!
probably due to anticipation of sorts. i suddenly woke up and didn't dare to sleep further in fear of having a continuation of my dream. that dream made me really scared for tmr.
i like reading shern's blog cos she looks on the positive side of things and nvr forgets abt God no matter e circumstance.
so to turn this to a positive entry, look at the bolded words above in a different light. it'll be good if i continued my dream cos i know at the end, God will be there. i will see his grace working through the situations and His will being done. .:. if i finished my dream, it'll be a beautiful picture :)
haha i rmb some ac friend, i forgot who, telling me :
njc wants to be the best
rjc is the best
acjc to be the best is yet
i'm not discriminating any schs but it's funny . hahaha :) seeing my closest buds in ac jerseys during fri's race was like...whoa ouch. oh wells . sch tmr
Thursday, March 15, 2007
"I love walking in the rain because no one will know that i'm crying."
how true. but then of course, rain gives us a happy feeling at other times. someone told me before that crying is good, at times; it is a form of healing of the heart. hmmm... people also have said that rain are tears of heaven's; or is it God's blessing for us?
race tmr.and prob e last one before natls, and after natls, whether i'll be running or not, denotes the time when i have to conc more on my studies. ah the viciosity of it all. but this is just from my point of view; it is an ugly picture and all about tears and lament and..races and tests?(hmm)
i need to learn how to look at things from heaven's point of view. when my 'ugly picture' is put alongside everyone else's pictures, what a grand collage; and beyond. but when you master the habit of looking at things from the other party's perspective, that's when confusion sets in; and disparity.
but i prefer heaven's idea of the 'bigger, complete picture' rather than my 'microscopic skeptical picture'. because then i know that what i do is imptance and value. with a simple action of mine, i might have made a stroke across my picture. it might not make any sense with it alone.but when God put my picture against the rest's, that stroke might have meant to be a part of the rainbow. i can't help but smile at that.
or to make my abstract idea more concrete, let's use a friend's example,A , and combine it with what i learnt during Youth Alpha. hmmm. in A's life, there'll be many influences from people around him or even those asquare him. (okay that didn't turn out right =p)
he was born into a family with no religion thus the idea of freethinker-ism appealed to him. however his christian friend wants to save him, so B brings A to church. but there aint any effect on A. then few years later, while at orchard, an evangelist, C, approaches and passes A a 'leaflet' with info abt christ. A accepts it, reads the first pg "Is your life filled with troubles and worries?" nah 'i'm happy as can be. i'm in rjc, top in class, capt of xcountry, chorale and the stamp club and i'm a counsellor'(walao over achiever) and so he chucks the leaflet into his bag. then few mths later, everything comes crashing upon him. but life still goes on man...so he packs his bag (i'm pressing for time so i cant go round&round) and hey finds the leaflet C gives him, reads it and is touched by it. then he talks to God, lifts up his worries is happy and goes back to his normal lifestyle.
one fine day after 10yrs, he is walking along esplanade and chances upon a grp of people(D,E,F,G,H) singing in such lovely harmony. he is drawn to their voices and lingers on. they were singing of God's love. about their creator who knew them even before they were born.and lifting their lives to this God.
he is very curious about who this person can be so great that people worship him so wholeheartedly. he approaches them and asks ,"who is this that you're singing about?" 'oh hello, we're having a pcg meeting now (haha =p). we are christians and were singing of our Lord Jesus Christ. are you....' he cuts her," thank you. have a good day." and walks away; clearly impressed about this God that he once heard about 20 yrs ago by B.
to B-H, they have done nothing. it was just having simple gestures towards(or indirectly for the D-H grp) A (by bringing A to church etc). we can even have an I in picture. maybe A was walking in expo, and happens to walk pass a conference room where I was preaching.and just when A walked pass, the door was open and I happened to say "God loves you!" there might be J,K,L,M,N, O....etc in his life. small gestures that mean nth to B-N,O.... but to A, it means something. and in God's own timing, A is drawn to God and finally accepts Him.
my point. we are all B,C,D,E,Fs...in people's lives. that's a reason i'm keeping a blog too. the net, easily accessible to people all over the world. my life story might touch another's who lives in zimbawee or smth :)
another analogy to further my point ; from teo. she was telling me that a non christian is like a nut. and christians are hammers. each time hammer talks to nut, nut is hit once by hammer. obviously, hammer wont be broke open with just a knock. so as nut progresses w life, many more hammers will knock nut. evcntually, nut will crack open. so if you happen to be the 1st hammer to knock nut, dont be too sad about it.
(i know my tense is very off. i hav a prob w that. present tense then past and then present particle.whatever e sp =p)
i feel so much better already.\; discussing about the big picture really puts things to perspective. and why i'm going thorugh this now :) actually it's my dontknowwhat-th time going through this la but oh well. there's a reason for everything.
and the reason is you
how true. but then of course, rain gives us a happy feeling at other times. someone told me before that crying is good, at times; it is a form of healing of the heart. hmmm... people also have said that rain are tears of heaven's; or is it God's blessing for us?
race tmr.and prob e last one before natls, and after natls, whether i'll be running or not, denotes the time when i have to conc more on my studies. ah the viciosity of it all. but this is just from my point of view; it is an ugly picture and all about tears and lament and..races and tests?(hmm)
i need to learn how to look at things from heaven's point of view. when my 'ugly picture' is put alongside everyone else's pictures, what a grand collage; and beyond. but when you master the habit of looking at things from the other party's perspective, that's when confusion sets in; and disparity.
but i prefer heaven's idea of the 'bigger, complete picture' rather than my 'microscopic skeptical picture'. because then i know that what i do is imptance and value. with a simple action of mine, i might have made a stroke across my picture. it might not make any sense with it alone.but when God put my picture against the rest's, that stroke might have meant to be a part of the rainbow. i can't help but smile at that.
or to make my abstract idea more concrete, let's use a friend's example,A , and combine it with what i learnt during Youth Alpha. hmmm. in A's life, there'll be many influences from people around him or even those asquare him. (okay that didn't turn out right =p)
he was born into a family with no religion thus the idea of freethinker-ism appealed to him. however his christian friend wants to save him, so B brings A to church. but there aint any effect on A. then few years later, while at orchard, an evangelist, C, approaches and passes A a 'leaflet' with info abt christ. A accepts it, reads the first pg "Is your life filled with troubles and worries?" nah 'i'm happy as can be. i'm in rjc, top in class, capt of xcountry, chorale and the stamp club and i'm a counsellor'(walao over achiever) and so he chucks the leaflet into his bag. then few mths later, everything comes crashing upon him. but life still goes on man...so he packs his bag (i'm pressing for time so i cant go round&round) and hey finds the leaflet C gives him, reads it and is touched by it. then he talks to God, lifts up his worries is happy and goes back to his normal lifestyle.
one fine day after 10yrs, he is walking along esplanade and chances upon a grp of people(D,E,F,G,H) singing in such lovely harmony. he is drawn to their voices and lingers on. they were singing of God's love. about their creator who knew them even before they were born.and lifting their lives to this God.
he is very curious about who this person can be so great that people worship him so wholeheartedly. he approaches them and asks ,"who is this that you're singing about?" 'oh hello, we're having a pcg meeting now (haha =p). we are christians and were singing of our Lord Jesus Christ. are you....' he cuts her," thank you. have a good day." and walks away; clearly impressed about this God that he once heard about 20 yrs ago by B.
to B-H, they have done nothing. it was just having simple gestures towards(or indirectly for the D-H grp) A (by bringing A to church etc). we can even have an I in picture. maybe A was walking in expo, and happens to walk pass a conference room where I was preaching.and just when A walked pass, the door was open and I happened to say "God loves you!" there might be J,K,L,M,N, O....etc in his life. small gestures that mean nth to B-N,O.... but to A, it means something. and in God's own timing, A is drawn to God and finally accepts Him.
my point. we are all B,C,D,E,Fs...in people's lives. that's a reason i'm keeping a blog too. the net, easily accessible to people all over the world. my life story might touch another's who lives in zimbawee or smth :)
another analogy to further my point ; from teo. she was telling me that a non christian is like a nut. and christians are hammers. each time hammer talks to nut, nut is hit once by hammer. obviously, hammer wont be broke open with just a knock. so as nut progresses w life, many more hammers will knock nut. evcntually, nut will crack open. so if you happen to be the 1st hammer to knock nut, dont be too sad about it.
(i know my tense is very off. i hav a prob w that. present tense then past and then present particle.whatever e sp =p)
i feel so much better already.\; discussing about the big picture really puts things to perspective. and why i'm going thorugh this now :) actually it's my dontknowwhat-th time going through this la but oh well. there's a reason for everything.
and the reason is you
Thursday, March 08, 2007
i went for prayer meeting ytd and even though it was a rather odd experience ,because i was the youngest there, i still managed to feel at ease and learn stuff :)
what impacted me the most from the whole prayer meeting was when we were to break into pairs and pray for each other, i was to share with my partner, Aunty T., one thanksgiving, one faith-leaping experience and one'prayer need'? (i cant rmb what you call it) i couldnt think of anything to say but i had to say something so i said what was on top of my head. as i voiced it out and Aunty T. affirmed me, i realise that hey, i am truly blessed. (AT. is a very sweet lady; when it was her turn to share, she said she couldnt rmb what to say becos she was too happy for me:) i was so touched) so anyway, the three things i shared(i'll try to keep it short) ;'.,
thanksgiving: God's strength for bringing me through these past 2 mths ;because as all my ex classmates wld know, (for e millionth time) i wasnt a smart kid. i wasnt hardworking. i was way behind in sch work etc etc (okay actually i still was in rj..but i managed to clear up alr ;))...but i'm still managing! havent break yet. and my current classmates call me mugger! it' slike a huge improvement lah
faith-leaping encounter: the day before ytd, i was talking to a friend.and somehow our convo led to the topic of Christ. and hearing how he accepted christ in p6 (when his classmate introed him to christ in p6, he accepted christ cos he felt that there must be a higher being governing his life and this earth) encouraged me so much, in retrospect. it was like.wow :) as i reflect his experience against my 'exposed to christianity since birth' exp, it gave me a glimspe of a non-christian 's perspective
prayer need: to be able to cont leaning on God.and appreciate the christian grp that God has bestowed upon me
i was very touched by what AT. also shared. she wants to be prayed for 2 things :
1) to have continual strength and encouragement from God as she holds prayer meetings week after week. because one night, they can have the nos.another week the turn up can be very disappointing. (before i spoke to her, i was also wondering to myself how come she could have so much vigour to hold prayer meetings week after week. and the effort put in is so great.the handouts etc are in such great detail.) after she shared, i realise that behind the strong front, she is actually struggling ; when not many pple turn up and all. then i realise that despite the discouraging numbers, AT still has faith and cont to serve the Lord in this area. i was greatly encouraged.
2) for her two children to have a stronger walk with the Lord. that just melted my heart lah
after the meeting was over, i asked her a rather kiddy qn, ' if God knows our thoughts, why do we still have to pray to Him?'
i like her ans. she said it's cos
sometimes God just wants us to ask him.
(she used an analogy;) when my bro wants smth, sometimes even though i know what he wants, i refuse to give it to him until he asks me for it. [eh i refuse to give him what he wants until he says PLEASE]
oh yea, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!! :):):) LOVE YOU
tdy's trg was after O2. my running khakis were all super drained. including diva. we really didnt have e heart or body or soul to train at all. we were .complaining like anything to ms lee/ling/li while stretching. when mr q told us our workout, 5*900m, he gave us a lil prep talk before that. and to me, it didnt work at all. the only energizer line he said was 'okay if you hit first 4, then dont need to do last one.' doing the first one was surprisingly not as tough as i thought it wld be :) whoopie. then slowly, we went through e rest of the trg. hallelujah!
when i went to e toilet, i just rmbed i forgot to pray b4 trg ;x i gave thanks anyway and i was reminded of the talk i had with AT the day before. 'sometimes God just wants you to ask him before he gives it to you' so, i felt REALLY thankful becos on the trg that i forgot to ask God for strength, he gave it to me without wanting me to ask. heng ah. mrq talked to me after trg and darn i almost burst out crying :( but anyway he asked me to 'go for a walk' . we walked one exterior round of e track lah. i was so honoured;cos he has so many other students to attend to. while walking, i was reminded of my sec sch days when he wld talk to me like alot.("communicate communicate!")
but this time, it's different. now in rj, when he talks to me abt trg, i know that i m not walking alone because i have a bunch of 4 kiddos to lean on when i need help. he was saying that doing one interval after another, he saw that when the previous leader was tired, somebody else will step up and take the lead (partially cos we made it a pt to take turns. but it is really nice to see ppl stepping up :)) and esp so when clar stepped up for the last interval;THE interval.
whats my pt? i feel very encouraged by coach. not only by what he said but also him pointing out that i have a grp of khakis that i can lean on. (in mg, i used to be doing my long runs alone; the rest either in front or behind.) and like most of us believe in christ. can i be not more blessed?
what impacted me the most from the whole prayer meeting was when we were to break into pairs and pray for each other, i was to share with my partner, Aunty T., one thanksgiving, one faith-leaping experience and one'prayer need'? (i cant rmb what you call it) i couldnt think of anything to say but i had to say something so i said what was on top of my head. as i voiced it out and Aunty T. affirmed me, i realise that hey, i am truly blessed. (AT. is a very sweet lady; when it was her turn to share, she said she couldnt rmb what to say becos she was too happy for me:) i was so touched) so anyway, the three things i shared(i'll try to keep it short) ;'.,
thanksgiving: God's strength for bringing me through these past 2 mths ;because as all my ex classmates wld know, (for e millionth time) i wasnt a smart kid. i wasnt hardworking. i was way behind in sch work etc etc (okay actually i still was in rj..but i managed to clear up alr ;))...but i'm still managing! havent break yet. and my current classmates call me mugger! it' slike a huge improvement lah
faith-leaping encounter: the day before ytd, i was talking to a friend.and somehow our convo led to the topic of Christ. and hearing how he accepted christ in p6 (when his classmate introed him to christ in p6, he accepted christ cos he felt that there must be a higher being governing his life and this earth) encouraged me so much, in retrospect. it was like.wow :) as i reflect his experience against my 'exposed to christianity since birth' exp, it gave me a glimspe of a non-christian 's perspective
prayer need: to be able to cont leaning on God.and appreciate the christian grp that God has bestowed upon me
i was very touched by what AT. also shared. she wants to be prayed for 2 things :
1) to have continual strength and encouragement from God as she holds prayer meetings week after week. because one night, they can have the nos.another week the turn up can be very disappointing. (before i spoke to her, i was also wondering to myself how come she could have so much vigour to hold prayer meetings week after week. and the effort put in is so great.the handouts etc are in such great detail.) after she shared, i realise that behind the strong front, she is actually struggling ; when not many pple turn up and all. then i realise that despite the discouraging numbers, AT still has faith and cont to serve the Lord in this area. i was greatly encouraged.
2) for her two children to have a stronger walk with the Lord. that just melted my heart lah
after the meeting was over, i asked her a rather kiddy qn, ' if God knows our thoughts, why do we still have to pray to Him?'
i like her ans. she said it's cos
sometimes God just wants us to ask him.
(she used an analogy;) when my bro wants smth, sometimes even though i know what he wants, i refuse to give it to him until he asks me for it. [eh i refuse to give him what he wants until he says PLEASE]
oh yea, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!! :):):) LOVE YOU
tdy's trg was after O2. my running khakis were all super drained. including diva. we really didnt have e heart or body or soul to train at all. we were .complaining like anything to ms lee/ling/li while stretching. when mr q told us our workout, 5*900m, he gave us a lil prep talk before that. and to me, it didnt work at all. the only energizer line he said was 'okay if you hit first 4, then dont need to do last one.' doing the first one was surprisingly not as tough as i thought it wld be :) whoopie. then slowly, we went through e rest of the trg. hallelujah!
when i went to e toilet, i just rmbed i forgot to pray b4 trg ;x i gave thanks anyway and i was reminded of the talk i had with AT the day before. 'sometimes God just wants you to ask him before he gives it to you' so, i felt REALLY thankful becos on the trg that i forgot to ask God for strength, he gave it to me without wanting me to ask. heng ah. mrq talked to me after trg and darn i almost burst out crying :( but anyway he asked me to 'go for a walk' . we walked one exterior round of e track lah. i was so honoured;cos he has so many other students to attend to. while walking, i was reminded of my sec sch days when he wld talk to me like alot.("communicate communicate!")
but this time, it's different. now in rj, when he talks to me abt trg, i know that i m not walking alone because i have a bunch of 4 kiddos to lean on when i need help. he was saying that doing one interval after another, he saw that when the previous leader was tired, somebody else will step up and take the lead (partially cos we made it a pt to take turns. but it is really nice to see ppl stepping up :)) and esp so when clar stepped up for the last interval;THE interval.
whats my pt? i feel very encouraged by coach. not only by what he said but also him pointing out that i have a grp of khakis that i can lean on. (in mg, i used to be doing my long runs alone; the rest either in front or behind.) and like most of us believe in christ. can i be not more blessed?
Sunday, March 04, 2007
to update. ytd was a bad day cos
during trg, i was running downslope when i saw these two couples, they were standing it like;3pple in front, 1person behind. so like they were blocking the whole path lah. i was so tired that i couldnt muster enough energy to 'excuse me' . so when i reached them, i pushed the back of one of the gentleman and went like 'w--ohh--w' (however you spell it) then the man shouted back ,"oi. you mad or what." i said 'sorry' at the same time. so i dont think he heard. i was damn scared after that. but the other gentleman stopped him and tried to calm him down. omg i was super shocked lah. after that incident, i left abt 1.5km more back to the starting point, the safe point. i had many sudden urges to cry but i swallowed them back. i tried turning them to anger and thus serve as a driving force for me to go stronger. (but it didnt work lah. i felt too guilty)
after my run, i tried looking out for them but to no avail. i approached this a grp though but it wasnt them; they were really really nice . siiighhh. ohwells
then i forgot to bring fruits for trg and i feel so bad cos of my forgetfulness, i deprived the team from having their nutrients. so if tmr's trg is gonna be damn screwed, it's what.gonna be my fault?
then a few of us j1s went to j8 for food. and walao. while taking my money out to pay the lady for my desert, she 'EXCUSE ME. please pay there' *gives dagger stare* wth lah. there wasnt anyone else so jingzhang for what :( i was so sad
then i met my pcg after that. yay :)
gee my posts are getting boring with recounts. oh i got hte lyrics of one of my fave. songs! yay
Lips Of An Angel by Hinder
honey why you calling me so late
it's kinda hard to talk right now
honey why you crying is everything okay
i gotta whisper cause i can't be too loud
well, my girl's in the next room
sometimes i wish she was you
i guess we never really moved on
it's really good to hear your voice
saying my name it sounds so sweet
coming from the lips of an angel
hearing those words it makes me weak
and i never wanna say goodbye
but girl you make it hard to be faithful
with the lips of an angel
it's funny that you're calling me tonight
and yes i've dreamt of you too
and does he know you're talking to me
will it start a fight
no i don't think she has a clue
well my girl's in the next room
what a song.it has such deep meaning; prob cos it's so compacted. and abt the 'italicised' phrase, i have felt like that before man. he has a super sereneding voice. i felt so happy and lighthearted after the phone call .ahahha but no , idont like him :) i just like his voice.
i'm finding it hard to connect with my old friends; most of whom went to ac. hahhaa wth lah. i reject their offer to go out .___. and when i think abt it, i think i am studying too hard. but if i'm not trg, i got nth to do. so do what?study lor. aaaaaah. i'm really being a mugger. and i dont think it is cos of rafflesians; i mug more than them.then agn, i dont know how much they mug at home.. ah well. i'm waiting for yuliang russ and liangfu to come over now. and i got chem&econs tests tmr which i havent studied for at all
during trg, i was running downslope when i saw these two couples, they were standing it like;3pple in front, 1person behind. so like they were blocking the whole path lah. i was so tired that i couldnt muster enough energy to 'excuse me' . so when i reached them, i pushed the back of one of the gentleman and went like 'w--ohh--w' (however you spell it) then the man shouted back ,"oi. you mad or what." i said 'sorry' at the same time. so i dont think he heard. i was damn scared after that. but the other gentleman stopped him and tried to calm him down. omg i was super shocked lah. after that incident, i left abt 1.5km more back to the starting point, the safe point. i had many sudden urges to cry but i swallowed them back. i tried turning them to anger and thus serve as a driving force for me to go stronger. (but it didnt work lah. i felt too guilty)
after my run, i tried looking out for them but to no avail. i approached this a grp though but it wasnt them; they were really really nice . siiighhh. ohwells
then i forgot to bring fruits for trg and i feel so bad cos of my forgetfulness, i deprived the team from having their nutrients. so if tmr's trg is gonna be damn screwed, it's what.gonna be my fault?
then a few of us j1s went to j8 for food. and walao. while taking my money out to pay the lady for my desert, she 'EXCUSE ME. please pay there' *gives dagger stare* wth lah. there wasnt anyone else so jingzhang for what :( i was so sad
then i met my pcg after that. yay :)
gee my posts are getting boring with recounts. oh i got hte lyrics of one of my fave. songs! yay
Lips Of An Angel by Hinder
honey why you calling me so late
it's kinda hard to talk right now
honey why you crying is everything okay
i gotta whisper cause i can't be too loud
well, my girl's in the next room
sometimes i wish she was you
i guess we never really moved on
it's really good to hear your voice
saying my name it sounds so sweet
coming from the lips of an angel
hearing those words it makes me weak
and i never wanna say goodbye
but girl you make it hard to be faithful
with the lips of an angel
it's funny that you're calling me tonight
and yes i've dreamt of you too
and does he know you're talking to me
will it start a fight
no i don't think she has a clue
well my girl's in the next room
what a song.it has such deep meaning; prob cos it's so compacted. and abt the 'italicised' phrase, i have felt like that before man. he has a super sereneding voice. i felt so happy and lighthearted after the phone call .ahahha but no , idont like him :) i just like his voice.
i'm finding it hard to connect with my old friends; most of whom went to ac. hahhaa wth lah. i reject their offer to go out .___. and when i think abt it, i think i am studying too hard. but if i'm not trg, i got nth to do. so do what?study lor. aaaaaah. i'm really being a mugger. and i dont think it is cos of rafflesians; i mug more than them.then agn, i dont know how much they mug at home.. ah well. i'm waiting for yuliang russ and liangfu to come over now. and i got chem&econs tests tmr which i havent studied for at all
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