I Offer My Life

All that I am, all that I have I lay them down before you O Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaim
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Chorus: Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory Lord
I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You.

i rmb that if you lift things up to him, it means that youre trusting those things to him and believing that his plans are better than ours for us-it'll be better for us. (btw we sang that song for church before the sermon). then i thought to myself -;;

what can be better than a natl gold medal?what can be better than running the race of your life like youve always envisoned yourself to run but nvr did? i really cant think of anything..nothing can to mind.

anyway the thing that i almost did today, it was while talking to friend tdy in church. i thought of just letting go of those gate-chains and just releasing all the fear and anger and resentment and disappointment i had. but i stopped myself.

had a super long walk with a cross friend too ,ytd.after my first ever completed biathlon.(!!! :) twas an experience man. like...ooooh,new profound respect for them triathletes ay!) i stoned most of the time. but i realise that it is a very good way to reflect shld i wanna do so.

i had a nice night last night :) thanks yall.

i know i 've some stuff i've to settle with myself.some confusion to straighten out. but i dont know how. and i'm scared .
my rollar coaster keeps going down.
how now brown cow.
milk some cows.

omggggggggggggg this week is gonna be very emotional. 2nd leg for liverpool. may day holiday. 2$ voucher for movie at GV from abraham.(give some credit). chem test on monday before sch. gp essay(due tmr), econs essay(due date last tues), math assignment. i've only started on chem test.

hurr...at least iv'e started.
natls post mortem by yours truly will be done when linggan comes-
i thought of doing so on the night of natls, cos the feelings were still v fresh(heck, i was feeling nothing. i was feeling numb). but after 4days, the feelings are slowly coming to me.i'm starting to make sense of how my heart really feels(rephrase: my brain is starting to process how i'm really feeling deep inside-dont say i'm slow or whatever. this is a serious post). and how i'm supposed to feel then, it is still damn fresh in me.and i think it will be for a v long time. i hope not as long as sec3's though.. =.= okay stop it.

(anw i'm getting rather annoyed cos i smsed some pple, asking for an asap reply but 3hrs alr still noresponse. i know i m v lag myself. but if it's impt, or if its just a qn to ans, LIKE MY SMS, i'll do it fast. okay, chill.maybe phone confiscated or study so hard till cannot take break to sms.this aint a personal attack ,just that i'm trying to solve some things here on my end, and this lag is getting on my nerves. it's just me.)

how novel-ers will describe me is : shes behaving like her natls just happened yesterday.

ha-ha. hell no.
(i cant find the function. but i wanna strike this line out: i cant act that sad.)
i cant be that sad.
it's just the way i am. i can nvr show how sad i am, how angry i am, how happy i am, how whatever emotion feeling i am--that's what i think lah. chris says the way i perceive myself is not really the way i am.

but then again whos to determine what i am really like ?as in there's no Tiffany Standards to compare with.like data booklet or sth. okay whatever. anyway i wanna say this;istudied rather hardcore today for abt 1-2hrs in church tdy. and i'm feeling really good abt it. hahaha..since march hols i actly studied, and so productive at that!

OH YAAAAA.HAHHAHAHA must thank markky's music that helped me to conc while studying too.thanks lil one! i was really into the music and was singing along with it so happily. then suddenly yuliang whacked my head(no mercy was spared okay. imagine how many brain cells died under that one impact). during dinner i asked why and the response: cos you were making v weird noises

softball is a very complicated sport.

i shall go again. i think i'll make up for lost slp on...1st may.see how long i can last. OR MAYBE NOT. my eye bags can be disgusting. i need to find simplerer pleasures in school. to motivate me to go sch. like cat and jolene. but nah, that way cant work for me cos there are no Nehnehs to them like there is to me! hmm. ill think abt it