Relient K:Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been.

i don't too but i can't help myself...

but here it is, i don't like forcing people. by it into religion or conversation or going out or studying etc etc. and i feel like i'm doing so now, but i still do it... annoying.

in a neutral tone:
i can't get this out of my head.

ytd was interhse games and this whole week is just very emotional taxing for me but it helped to life my spirits a little... a little. i'm not being competitive here but every defeat reminded me of my life so its kinda =x oooh ouch each time. qf nl ag looked rather frustrated with each loss esp during the small pool game. but the dodgeball game was the best! super fun :) hahaha, yeayea things are fun when it goes your way and youre winning and you've so many adoring supporters. i know it was a fluke( for the one that i scored) but i felt really happy that i helped the grp in some way. everyone was so happy we managed to get an equalizer i felt so happy too.as in, genuinely damn happy....! thanks to yl who kept encouraging us man. you're the best og mate for today! and audrey for trying so hard :):) sorry to the 5 of yall if any of you come here. i can't stand my skill-less skills. i think you all are great, thanks for the memories :)

but while we were playing one of the games, this girl sitting along the poolside commented A LITTLE TOO LOUDLY, "they are so noob."
i have only this to say to you, be glad i am a Christian and have morals to follow.
okay i shant comment anymore. must control

al says:
yea i'm gonna call my kids sush...sashim...yakitor...
al says:
then can b e sashimee sushee and yakitoree
al says:
or can be tiffanee also..ha
i tink u're cute says:
HAHAHAHHA
i tink u're cute says:
ohyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i tink u're cute says:
yayayyayaya
i tink u're cute says:
name a kid after me
i tink u're cute says:
so touched
i tink u're cute says:
or can be alvinee too!
i tink u're cute says:
;D
al says:
arh...tt's me wat..

that arh... part sounded so rachel ng to me. she'll be someone i'd love to make friends with if we were the same age.

i went for a wedding today :) i recognised the groom! he is the uncle that pple say are 'twins' with my dad cos they looked very alike last time. the game part was what struck me. cos he was forfeited to eat an apparently very spicy bowl of noodles then the bride v shyly 'can i help him?' awwww so sweet... but they enjoyed the food anw. or so it looked.

i wanna know how to control my emotions- the anticipating one, the regretful one, the scared of failure one... i wanna know how to control them. i want to be able to stare into space again and think that life, despite it's shit and trials, is still beautiful and hopeful. i'm so weak :(

Demi Lovato- this is me. go check out this song. so girly sweet nice sounding :) whatever the lyrics, cant catch it. alright, back to fighting those emotions again. ha ha