I explained to my sis abt a state tht i can get into in great detail, in the most accurate measure through words once. I was in the zone! Now i am not in the zone, so i cant explain it... But

I am in that state again. So, tdy was tough.

Surprisingly though, i dont feel it when i run. Running makes me more alive than in my resting state.

Am on a mission to be a gd friend. In aero's words : you shld be nicer (not push people away). It was rly a huge blow...so big tht i think im rdy to throw myself into foreseen-ed awkward situations just so tht i can be that person thr for you, or for the cultivating of potentially starting sth new. :) yess.

cant think of any how else to phrase myself cos im in 'that state'. The horrible thing now is tbat im fully aware im in the state , but i cant do anything abt it to get out of it :(

"Ive too much of it , i need to give it away"