Have some time to spare before my exciting night (midnight supper at ahma's hawker famous yongtaofoo and lvp match!!) ...

Some photos for memory's sake...

From rachel. Hahaha, we walked down the hill tgt because she had to go to school early that day. It was a nice chat even though i was annoyed that she left first and made me run after her.

Hehe. 

Aww, really warms my heart to see the boys hitting it off :) we enjoyed putting the nanoblocks together so much that we only slept at 2.30am! >.<

Poulet with pixies. Not bad but it was too biiiig

Second week of work done. Been an experience thus far. Dont wna jinx anything but i dont regret my decision about joining this place. :) 

Its the dream for a runner to bring(convince) his/her non-runner partner to his childhood running haunt FOR A RUN. 

Thanks love for fulfilling it and making my day!!! :))) he was so tired, slept throughout the ride to mrr, whined once in a while about waking up so early and having to run, asked which is the shortest route we could endeavour...

Giving a patronising smile when i requested for a photo to commemorate this wonderful day.. :) (it took us 1.5yrs to finally have a mrr date!)

Youre the best!! We eventually did T-junction and ran out a bit more to the golf course for a little scenic appreciation (lol). Not bad for a first time ;)

Post run. His main goal was to wash up afap (as fast as possible) and hit the bed haha. 

Kept refusing to smile. 

But he eventually relented! Haha he knows ill retake forever to get him to smile. 

Rewarded him with coffee and brunch at dno what cafe at upper thomson. We decided to neverrrr have brunch out. 

http://www.thesmartlocal.com/read/best-chicken-wings

yummy.

headacheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

although controversial, this article echoes one of my strong beliefs! i am so happy reading this article as it paints my thoughts in an excellent, sophisticated manner: 

https://www.linkedin.com/today/post/article/20140812233828-2773277-hire-someone-with-no-experience-wait-what?trk=object-title

Every time I see a job posting in my field, in our company or elsewhere, I think of some younger, hungry, aggressive, smart people I know who would do such a great job in that kind of position, that's technically a little too big for them. Why? Because they'll put 150% effort into it, learn every detail of the job, half out of appetite to impress and learn, half out of (a positive) anxiety of failing. Sure there is some risk in them drowning in their new responsibility, but that's not really such a highly likely outcome if you think about it, and they have you, the much more experienced leader, to keep them on track and guide them. Ultimately, while it's a hassle, you can always make changes to your org if it really doesn't work out, or in other words: it ain't a marriage.

its like, #truestory up there man. 

' motivated, challenged, ready to go, smart, willing, aggressive and wants to impress themselves and you ' - i must remember this.

and, dont tilt. hahaha

someday soon, i will not need to refer to other people's prose to express myself.

[2:25:07 AM] Tiffany Tan: i still am v impressed. but harvey is like the , rider. he takes the amazing knowledge from mike, and then he spins it into sth whimsical and crazy smart
[2:25:21 AM] Tiffany Tan: ok no wait. i cant say i prefer harvey o.o
[2:27:56 AM] alexander wu: so which you!
[2:28:00 AM] alexander wu: youre a mike
[2:28:18 AM] Tiffany Tan:  mike adapts
[2:29:19 AM] alexander wu: i feel i have a harvey character
[2:29:21 AM] alexander wu: and youre my mike
[2:29:25 AM] alexander wu: hahahahahah ;D
[2:29:53 AM] Tiffany Tan: i'd be your mike or no one's mike ^^
[2:30:05 AM] alexander wu: hahaha!
[2:30:06 AM] Tiffany Tan: most gay-loving thing i've said to my boyf haha
[2:30:22 AM] alexander wu: #shitcouplessay

suits . is. awesomeeeeeeeeee

http://mypaper.sg/lifestyle/explore-indonesias-budget-maldives-20140709

togean islands

all over again. and again. and again.

(i'm gna explode on a young adolescent emotional rage so, dont mind me)

really sucks to make yourself available for people, especially to the people closest to your heart. and when it isn't reciprocated. makes myself wonder why i even bothered in the first place. i dont know if i'm being too polite and undemanding with making my presence known (like. EH HELLO YOU IDIOT. i hope you remember that i exist in your life. and that i called you, and texted you and am patiently waiting like a fool for you) .

but after a while, won't you, won't anyone, wonder what the point of this whole 'availing yourself for the one you love, hoping to be noticed and spending some quality time with' is for. when it doesn't get reciprocated. i'm so so sick of waiting for people. i'm so sick of being ignored.

and i know there is no point bringing this up because of this one phrase 'the opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference'

you. all. will not care. and the worst part, i will still come back to you. i will still crawl back to you and crave your attention.

i hate myself for being like that.

i'll have you know that one day , 'again' will end. i will cast away all feelings and forget about having any emotional ties with you. it is so tiring for me, so painful to be forgotten time and again.

i'm writing this all down because i know that any sign of affection will cause me to forget this hurt i'm experiencing. still, yet, i know i will forget . and i will experience this whole shit

again.
. :(((((((((((((

Another week gone (almost) since we came back singapore and are still unemployed.. Hate this directionless feeling...., but very very thankful that i have a bestie to go throughthis tough time with.

Am so grateful for him. This week is proving to be with lots of experiences; but am so thankful for him to go through this tgt. 

Penny and guinny were reunited finally at boston in may 2014! We got the two of them to say hi, to which al pressed their tummies tgt and said 'this is thr penguins way of being happy'

Lol hes as awkward as me! ^^ :x

//edit: sry for bad expression. Tired ttm. Tired but happZ

 :)

Alex's virgin experience to mbs skypark! Made great friends w jayjay's like shiy and tradeMark. Jay's parents are rly cool and were v accommodating to us also. 

Last night was crazy, but good fun. Random people hanging out in a nice hotel room, making each other mindlessly drunk. Watching them drunkies dance in a club. Aaaand thats abt it. Twas so funny when the crowded starting thinning out and the platform in the middle of the room-meant for showcasing your sluttiness to bidders- cleared out. It was first one guy, and then suddenly half the platform was filled with our group of people sitting down there. And then one of them said 'whoa. Old alr, cannot tahan' hahahahha. 

The next morning, alex woke up looking so distressed because 'my body is achjng so much.....' Haha!

K pictures. 

Butter factory

Anddd we end the post with our typical 'because a friend is helping us take a photo, we feel awkward to pose coupley' pose. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvKymDP85JI

'I will help you to succeed. give me one tenth of your flock'

'How about a tenth of my treasures?'

'If you start out by promising what you dont even have yet, youll lose your desire to work toward getting it'

Tonight. I read to escape. 

Not discover or explore. Because the unknown is tricky. You may not like what you will possibly discover

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/01/opinion/sunday/the-joy-of-quiet.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0

article that echoes my thoughts. had it printed and stuck on my wall.

enjoyed many quotes from it:

'it is only by having some distance from the world that you can see it whole, understand what you should be doing with it and what usefulness you can bring to them' (vice versa).

'distraction is the only thing that consoles us for our miseries . yet it is itself the greatest of our miseries'

'I have often said that the sole cause of man’s unhappiness is that he does not know how to stay quietly in his room.'

We want to complexify our lives. We don’t have to, we want to. We wanted to be harried and hassled and busy. Unconsciously, we want the very things we complain about. For if we had leisure, we would look at ourselves and listen to our hearts and see the great gaping hold in our hearts and be terrified (justin taylor) . 

so, so true.

we work and toil and get caught up in 'busy' so that we have no time to sit down and stare at the blank canvas of life set out for us to be achieved.

anyhoo. 12 more days till i fly off

Sometimes i just wna curl up at the corner of my bed and hide from the woes of being a human. 

Helpz. Make it go away

love this video, the analogy presented is excellent. this video follows an 'expert' trying to explain to his team the ridiculousness of their proposal (..YOU DIMWITS. why did you allow your logic to leave you !). however there is only so much experience a man can gain. there will always be something different out there for man to venture into, or create even. as the meeting progressed, it made me consider that maybe the expert needs to take a step back, NOT focus on the limitations and consider other ways to go about the problem. be open-minded.

that's something i picked up from my past few months.

(side note: and that's where i give my utmost respect for my dad to; the agility of his mind to approach problems is intriguing. agility does not come with dead-textbook-studying; it comes with...rebellion of the norm. but, obviously, i do not show it because HE KNOWS IT. ha ha ha.)

(side note 2: which i need to hold dearly to when i move on. be an expert, but open-minded as well .and know when to tell people they are being ridiculous :P ) but other than that. i love this guy's reactions! the frustration in talking to a bunch of...dumbos. and eventually you have no words left for them except the one word they know 'okay.'. they think 'ah, hes stopped being stubborn and see my pov' . but no, we just give up on you and dont want to waste our breaths anymore. ;) happy weekends!

http://www.cnet.com/news/this-is-how-an-engineer-feels-when-hes-surrounded-by-idiots/

When its known that id be travelling w alli , there were worries here and there. About safety mainly, and about 2 of us travelling

Id like to know , is it normal that people express dire concern? Or do they perceive alli as someone not trustworthy? Or do they look that lowly of me.. That

I cant take care of myself, im not streetsmart, im too naive and will get cheated, im too immature and may make myself prematurely pregnant

In other news. Hate this sense of purposeless.. Check: Ive just ended another half year of my life, and im still searching. To my future self, im struggling in this messed up pool and it gets very very tiring at times..please send some encouragement or sign that ill eventually reach there..... . i have hope nonetheless, and im not running now, but im still keeping afloat. Waiting. 

Watched an epi of himym and they flashbacked many past scenes.. And we aaw how the mum was there many times but we just didnt notice. It was v v heartwarming. Im still in early stages of my life and hv yet to unfold the other part of the story.

#ulcerrrrrr. Rly rly hurts :( when i dont put the medication. Ughhh

Adrenaline coursing through my being. Heart pumping so hard and im shivering. From divergent the film

Im craving for some ice cream..,

I....believe so strongly deep down that im meant greater for... 'this'. Please note the irony in that sentence; lol. But its so v easily unleashed-especially when i listen to songs. (Hahaha, omg. So embarrassing.) am listening to a bunch of songs i just added to my phone and i feel so empowered. I think to myself 'screw this shit. Its temporal; bigger things will come'. -i know its wrong, just need to relish and ride on this wave of emotions now ;)

Anyhow, 

Sometimes, i meet someone... And i think to myself,' this person has to potential to break out of the norm' and so i try to help him. When it doesnt work, just move on yknow. Cos you dont wna waste time with someone who wants to be a part of the norm. Esp when hes caught up in it.

Theres something so alluring abt pathways. Havent figured out why..

Bukit timah hill! This landscape reminded me of my time in korea (when i had the view of a hugeass majestic snowcapped mountain during one of my breakfasts), and tasmania /vietnam (when we were having one of our drives/walks , and we'd see a mountain popping out of nowhere at the end of a road. 

The following is for a short recollection of my previous wkend spent at bukit timah hill w the pixies. Ive grown to this bunch of girls. Highly possible because of our similar (SOMEWHAT :x) backgrds and personalities. 

Ok. Back to reality 

All i can think is, i dont want the 10yrs older me to be crouching in a corner one day, quivering and cursing the current me.. For not having the courage and strength to stand up for her.

For myself .

Regret, fear, imbalance, expectations... Dont accuse me of finding every excuse ; i cant deny when i bear the burden of decades of pain and injustice

'Then why am i like this?'

'Maybe, because, the idea of being truly happy scares you'

Do such things rly make sense.

I missed the familiarity, complexity, ... Now what was i gna say? x.x

Pictures commemorating al's first bday spent 'tgt' and 2nd one. I hope we get to spend many more bdays tgt so that i can make up for 1) leaving for aussie on our first time we cld have spent his bday tgt 2) sending a telegram to him for our 2nd time. 

The fourth photo is random. But its so nice, isnt it? The quaint looking door. And the boy posing of course. 

In any case. I hope i get to see you soon..

http://www.sharedots.com/you-won-t-believe-what-he-did-for-his-wife-on-valentine-s-day-109.html

ohmy

'to be able to find someone worthy of your love is extraordinary'

Oncoming traffic

Could almost feel the pull of the red lights

And of tension. 

So when i see white, im like a frightened deer in front of headlights.

:/

it is not all about your feelings. It's about your commitment to one another. 

When I Was Your Man - Bruno Mars (Boyce Avenue feat. Fifth Harmony cover...

The only reprise being the outdoor aircon

'Rules Parent'

Agreed, the greatest freedom is freedom of expression. Am reminded of the reason i liked effie!; i grew up in a church environment where the only condoned emotion to display is 'happiness' and 'agreement' ,otherwise youre ostracised OR WORSE need counselling hahaha. So when i saw this guy display anger (to the point of tantrum) ,i was attracted. (Omg hahahaha im warped)

Am enjoying the 'Discipline' section of this parenting book so much. 

1) wish my parents read this book (in both past and present tense haha) 2) makes me realise ,that no matter ones age, youre still a child. Differences are merely in one's awareness and experiences. Treatment to both a grown child and to a kid is still pretty much the same...

FOR THE SAKE of monumenting this period of my life,

I just received my 5th paycheck w dad. 

Based on rough calculations, i spent 6k in 4 mths??????

Im starting my 10% to dad,mum after years of nagging. 

Am back to companionship of ear pieces.

Three Kingdoms is too exciting for me that i can spare such energy only over weekends.

Masterchef is a great source of creativity.

IU in 'beautiful man' ...this is my only bimbotic indulgence~

Andddd. i need to start documenting how i see my future, and how i dont. 

Im a mess. Lets call it a kaleidescope haha

been enjoying masterchef for the past few days... and always being so awed by their creations.

 but

as put by a friend , why watch masterchef when you can do one!

and i'm thinking to myself, zzz this is terrible