self reflection time.

hmm, i did 2 things i'd regret if i dont do it. and i'm really proud of myself

1st thing, believe it or not, i wrote a 'farewell' note to my tuition laoshi since it was gonna be my last day with her. i passed it to her ytd. i was actually debating with myself whether i shld give it to her, feel a little embarrassed but let her know how much i really appreciate her, or throw the letter away and just be some corner student. there were a few hanyupinyins, english phrases and yea, messy chinese words. i really hope she can read my letter. i'm really very appreciative of how much effort she puts in during class just to keep us attentive. she's a very bubbly teacher and is so hyper. well, at least for my last day of tuition there, i walked out of the classroom with a sense of pride.

2nd thing, today for trg, we did northern route and mr ng came up with this loop thing towards the girls/boys route so that we can gain more distance. we could do the loop 1-2 times..all really up to us. as i ran finish the northern route, i saw teo, joy and charissa at the barrier resting. they just came recovered from their injuries and cant really run much. i really had this urge to just stop since i was already very tired n give the excuse that i couldn't take it anymore.

WAIT.

mr ng isnt here anymore. oh that's better..then i dont need to give excuse to anybody! then, hu do i give the excuse to? my frens? erm, what has my slack running gotta do with them.. it then just hit me that the person i shld be giving e excuse to, is none other than myself. but i cant give the excuse that i'm dying..my mind just says that but i'm very sure my body can go one. so, i had another debation as to whether i shld continue. in e end, i did since i saw sheryl running up the hill. if a sec1 girl can do it.. why not me. so yup i ran up and up and up..i was on the verge of walking already la. it was short a long slope. well, i was then rewarded with a downhill..a SHORT downhill. then i had to run UPhill again. this slope is short, but VERY steep. not wanting to give up, i pushed on and ran down a gentle slope(take note, this is s'pore. so the gentle sloping is quite gentle). after what seemed like 8km(i'm exaggerating), i finally reached the opening of macritchie again then sheryl told me that she's gonna stop since she cant take it already. yeah i saw her...from behind. at least she did one loop. so this comes to my and myself again. shld i run a 2nd loop and suffer but savour victory? or just give up and be a loser to myself for the rest of the day.. at least i've gained abt 1km more dist already. yeah, the ans is quite obvious.

so i did a 2nd loop and then went to rejoin back with my x fellows. though i didnt run like some lunatic, i was already very happy that i made the right decision and finished the workout. i dont wanna repeat my mistake like in sec1. i had suffered too much emotionally already. i'd come home everyday after trg and thing, 'i could have pushed harder!' or " i could have ran longer!" then i'd be too sad and moody to do anything. i really hated myself then. life was such a pain for me and i was just like any other i-wanna-die-student. it was then. i really duno what made me really come back to X. there wasnt any like mr ng's "u dont come to trg u die!" talks or whatever. i really REALLY 4got what happened that made me come back to my sense and realise that i've been slacking too much. sigh, this hurts. i've found my true self through running. running gives a lot of time for self reflection i must say.

then again, i dont think i'll be able to do a good run for e swift com. 10 km. 10 whole solid km. WOW. siao la.. i cant believe i'm actually wanting to go for it and i was quite excited abt it too. i guess some of my negativeness still stays. it's difficult for me to refocus. well, FOCUS!! i'm gonna concentrate on natls06' and do my best! i'm sooo glad that natls are being pushed to 3rdwk of april. it gives the seniors more time to train =D i promise i'll be at the stands cheering my heart out for u all. i know u all want it. it's shown through your gesture, your face and your determination. even by what u all say. i know mg can do it! To God be the glory.

Just do it
Nike

(ok i feel e adrenaline rush now)

3/11/04

I’m feeling SOOO tired. It seems that I’ve been studying 5 chpts of History and am taking a short break. I’m feeling so densed! Btw, I didn’t like study at all ah.

Sigh, I miss 2s. I didn't know who my gd friends were in 2S…ok, actually I did. It’s the big lot of u all. But everybody has at least 1 or 2 closer friends. Since the beginning of the yr, I’ve been looking for u guys. I know deep down that there really is SOMEBODY out there…but I really couldn’t make out who it is. It’s pretty sad. God only showed me who u guys are at the end of the yr.. sigh, why did I look past u 2? Why didn’t I put u in my mind as one of them? Probably because of the super big differences we have character, personality, and interests. Why didn’t God lead me to u guys earlier? He has a really good sense of humour as to how i gotta know u all more.

It was the 1st day of school after exams and I was feeling very tired. I was alone so U prob pitied me n accompanied me. Then, YOU came. [btw, I shan’t disclose your names. I scared later u scold me. Or probably u don’t want pple to know u have me as ur close fren hahaha] I don’t remember what actually we talked abt but I remember that it entertained me. The 3 of us became ‘inseparable’. Haha note the ""s ah… I know I always come up with really stupid reasons for not wanting to follow either of u to the toilet. The toilet is like so far away!
Come to think about it, I can’t imagine myself being called one of u guys! I don’t mean anything bad. Just that, we are like worlds apart. Most common debate: GB vs Guides. Haha of coz GB always win since guides is..bori..is fun! FUN. Our friendship always remind me of what somebody told me…

There were a group of girls that were always together, during free periods, lunch breaks etc. It was a mixture of sports girls, guai kias, prefects, slackers,etc. however, they never got into conflicts and could get along very well .

"Can go out tomorrow? Watch grudge!"
"Eh, I can’t leh… got training. Heh, sorry ah!"
"Oh… never mind! It’s ok, another time then =)"
And it’s not only once. I’m really sorry for rejecting u guys so many times. Can’t help it if X is hardworking =D

"tiff, free to go kap today?"
"Erm, today is Friday… i…"
"oh ya, got training right…"
I just find it very amusing. Whenever I think about these kinda situations,it always makes me smile. I mean, who wldnt…ok maybe those non tiff pple. It’s like, u guys actually rmb my trg days! Though u all are like antiX…or rather anti running haha..

oh yes! I still rmbed the first and last outing we had together! Hahaha, it was SUPER FUNNY! I can’t describe how we 3 managed to go out alone…heehee. I'll get killed. Rmb how stone and sad we were after e 3 guys talked to us? N we kept trying to go back to find them! How exciting. JUST THAT we were so sian after that. Walk here n there…leg pain sia! Luckily we found annabelle and celestine. It was fun going out with u guys. It was even my 1st time going to the skate park and watch pple skate. Hurry! When are we going to east coast park to build sandcastles..??!?

Today we had track trg. Ok track training sounds weird. I forgot the exact name… oh yea! Speed workout. Anyway, though it was only 4 * 400m, I almost died anyway. 1.38, 1.35, 1.39, 1.33. Only reason I’m writing my timings are so that if Mr Ng wants to see our log bks, I can just refer from here. It was SORCHING HOT. Like the sun moved 10cm nearer to Earth. Good thing the sun moved another 20cm nearer AFTER we finished training.
Sigh, I didn’t really feel too good about today’s workout. Not cos of my timings but I feel that I’m running for the wrong reasons now. Maybe it’s because training has just resumed. See right, usually after a run, no matter how lousy the timing, I’d still feel the satisfaction, knowing that I ran my best today. I thought that by running ur best, you’d feel that way. But, I just realised that it’s not true, only today, only 2 yrs after I ran. I did pia like siao for the last 100m..just that I don’t feel the satisfaction. I was definitely running for the wrong reason today. What was it? I can’t seem to figure it out. Argh, so frustrating. Ok forget it. I’m not going to strain my head further.
Heehee, realise I didn’t say ‘good run’ to any of guys. Ok maybe only to a few. I guess it’s not a habit for me to say ‘good run’ after each run. It goes to show that I really mean it when I actually congratulation u guys on ur run ok. Esp juniors, don’t think that it’s just some routine that we’ve to follow. We seniors really mean what we say.

Just like praying to God b4 u eat or sleep or whatever. I mean like, I’ve been taught since young to thank God for the food. There was a pt of time I literately said the same prayer of thanksgiving for every meal. It became a habit for me. There was no meaning in my prayer.N I felt that it was v insincere. After I became more mature [=D] I resumed my thanksgiving. But I wldn’t pray if it was gonna be a meaningless prayer. I feel that it ain’t fair to God, right? I duno.

After trg,I took about an hr break n went back to school for drill. Rmb the sun moved 20cm nearer after my training, yeah, I was melting under the sun. Walao eh, u guys still put tanning oil eh. Gee the smell STINKS. Stupid banana boat. Anyway I had a headache soon and I almost couldn’t take it. Woah, was feeling so dizzy. Like Earth was spinning even faster than usual. See, I’m so environmental, in the other way. I was feeling SO lethargic when I was walking back home. I was literately dragging my feet back home. My feet were aching like…duno what like that la! All the kpo neighbours at my condo that were looking at me walk can testify to that! I was feeling so sick.nvr eat enough vitamin C.

I just wrote a typical entry. Haha. I really can’t help it if I’m long-winded. But I’ll really need it for history and lit. oh yea, I’m taking full lit and ½ history. I really duno what I’m getting myself into. I’m really taking Ms Ng’s words into consideration!abt not taking ½ lit. Well, I guess what she says actually makes sense la. Coming to think about it, ME? Lit?!?! hahaha.. Well, I better take a lit sub. Must really learn how to improve my already magnificent English. Haha. I don’t know why people always object to me whenever I say that I’m thinking of taking IB lor. Am I that kuku? >.< for one, God might be having a plan for me and suddenly give me A LOT of motivation to study and I'd get a perfect score! Hey, God really work wonders ok. I’ve heard the testimonials of my seniors. But if I do get a perfect score, I’d try to go NJ =X NJ’s such a nice sch! It’s just such an honour being there. Being called an NJ student. In contradiction, I don’t think I’ll like the idea of representing a weird sch I duno know about. I’d still wanna go for ACJC…since that’s the only JC I can think of I’d love representing. That is, if I’m good enough, but that’s a different story la.

I really didn’t know what I was getting into when I joined X in sec1. Being called a xcountry runner is an honour. It’s like everybody’s dream. (I DON’T CARE IF U OPPOSE ;P THIS IS MY ENTRY, MY THOUGHTS =PPP) however, it takes a lot to be called one. Eg, lots of sacrifices, commitment, madness and basically, your life. I might even have to quit gb next yr.. since there’s the 5 day wk thing next yr. Sigh, I don’t really like gb…but being in this cca for abt 7yrs, it’s difficult to quit and just forget about it. ANYWAY, back to my pt, yea actually it just takes a lot of madness to join X. that’s probably why I’m there =P sigh, I don’t even know if I’m gonna join X in jc… but what else is there to do. Running, in it’s slow process, has been planted in my bones, my mind, and slowly, to my life. I want to run, yet I don’t. Seriously, I can’t imagine tiffany tan running another 4 * 400m. it’s really gonna kill me. But previously, we can run like what… 20 * 200m, 5 * 600m etc. I can’t remember those really difficult trg workouts. OH YES. 8 * 400m. but that wasn’t the difficult-est. not only that, there’re the leg pains, arm pains, chest, head, stomach, whatever pains, side effects of running too much, leg injuries or, victories and achievements to face. I rmb I use to limp quite a bit…when my legs couldn’t adapt to running too much. I kinda hated it. Since I couldn’t walk fast, or walk a lot without my legs aching. Note that it’s WALKING and not running. However, there was a sense of pride in each limp that I take. Because I know that it takes a lot of effort and energy to actually get ur legs to ache until u have to limp. So, to all those injured pple, well done and congrats to the hard work you’ve put in! Obviously, get well soon too! Come back for trg quickly!!!! Nationals are just round the corner. Goodness, I don’t even think I’m as prepared as last yr. Or prob we had intense intensive trg in dec. *shudders*

Ok I think I’ve written my fair bit. So I shall stop here. Eh pple, tag leh! U think u guys are anonymous ah?!?! Grrr, got nth to say to me one meh… btw, hi church annabelle! Hahhaa.. church annabelle sounds wrong. Anyway, yea, study hard during the hols n get ready for next yr! I dont think I’ll be able to take GB and X as my ccas next yr… not to forget swimming! ARRGHH… I might as well not swim for the sch right… I don’t even get any pts for the sch! But for myself yes la. Ohohoh, ya ya I must swim! Heehee. I’m horrible. Well, I’ll TRY to train la. I’d prob swim alone. It’s too scary to go back to training.

"The greater the difficulty, the more glory and joy it brings when accomplished."

time flies. it literately zooms. i still remembered e 1st yr when i felt that it flew by. i was still a mere pri sch girl in p3.2. i rmb the really fun filled lessons i had then. e teachers were the greatest that anyone could have imagined. there was yu lao shi too. haha, she's super cute. she 1st taught me, then my 2nd sister, and this yr, my 3rd sister. both of them always tell me that she'll scold them using MY name, since our names are quite similar.

then again, in sec1, i really really enjoyed my life in 1s. e triplets(val, chris, me) in GB were finally all in the same class! well, sad thing is that, in sec sch, we were a lot less closer than in pri sch. then time took it's nature course of flying by and my 2nd yr in sec sch approaches. and now, it's ending. sigh, that's it. 2s ah... the class pullover was so last min that we can only wear it when we go overseas. it'll be quite cool if some person saw 2 pple wearing the same pullover if we're on a same hol eh? haha.. our pullover is super significant la..

oh yea, p6 yr was really quick. since psle was the most eventful thing. 6.2 was a crazy class.. really crazy. so was 6.5. hahaha their stories are hi-la-rious! anyway, i rmbed that eleanor was sitting in front of me. and cherie was a very loud girl. our lao shi was really funky and she kept talking abt her barker son(am i right? =/ i kinda forgot) cherie and a few others were always sucking up to her too =P hahaha.. it's not bad la.. i was with u guys too. anyway, there was....phua ailin also right. i cant rmb that well. i rmb christine quah and kaikee! anyway, we even had a'speed'queen. then..vic ng was our class chiobu queen or smth. cbq for short. there was a 2nd chiobuqueen who was somebody i forgot and the list followed through. sigh! =) that's the life of pri sch.

ANYWAY.. 2 wks. 2 wks was all it take to make me forget my time i had with my new crazy sitting partner, nat thery. 2 wks in my new sitting area, with the computer sitting in front of me slacking away. during those 2 wks, i really bonded a lot with the table and my beloved chair. i have learned to love the clock in front of me and most importantly, my pen and right hand. i learnt a lot about my right hand and it's uses. it's really amazing seeing how fast my fingers move across the paper in like, 1 1/2hr? esp for geog. goodness, i LOVE my geog script paper. it's really gundu. asking us to colour this and that. my geog paper was filled with crosses as i kept changing my mind on where the most arable land etc is. at least i improved from a 3/25 to a 8.5/25. well, it makes no diff. just that i passed geog!! greatest thanks to my right hand and brain. well, of cos to my left hand too.. without u, the paper wld have no support and my straight lines wldnt be lines anymore. to my legs too, for bringing me from one place to another. from home, to the bus stop, to only take 1 pathetic bus stop to mobil and then to sch. then again, my legs also brought mg to glory of having a 2nd place for c div 04 xcountry inter sch natls. to my eyes n mouth, without the glory of having sight, how could i stay in kap and study. without my mouth, how can i ask qns and get my facts right(though i was still confused after asking pple) there's also my ears, for me to listen to advice from the kap seniors. for me to listen to avril, screaming and shouting on why life is like this, and like that. i concentrate so much better with avril's screamings than the kap goers chattings. oh yes, my nose. i wldnt be able to have life without u =) i love u. what else.. my hair? yes! my hair. really, without u, my head wld not be kept warm and then my brain wld not be able to function properly. and i wanna thank my internal organs too. my lungs, heart, small/big intestines, fallopian tubes(?!?!?!).... etc.. everything in my body! without u guys functioning properly, how could i have lived through 2004. how could i live to see my results improve so much. yea, 62.5% for ave in sec2 is like, rubbish. well, at least i've improved. (yea i know, i've been crapping all the way =) cant help it eh) and last but not least, God. for without Him, i wldnt be given life, to experience joys and sorrows. to experience victories and failure. from gasping for air in the waters, to land. and most imptly, experiencing His grace for us.

esther smsed to remind me abt... oh yes, the elite swim club. sigh, i told her i'd prob be going on tues to train there. told my mum abt it, she respects my decision and said she wldnt mind me training anywhere, as long as i'm ok with it. sigh, i dont have many frens at sicc except for carol, yenxi and the kids. ok that sounded mean. nvm. anyway, though with the few frens there, the 3 mths i spent there trg has really fostered bonds..with the known and unknown pple there. ok if i really go elite, i'll feel as if i've betrayed sicc =X ok fine, i didnt do anything there. i didnt create an impact there or whatever. but it's just my conscious. anyway sicc is really like a 2nd home to me. it has a very homely atmosphere.if it werent so far, i'd go there everyday[that was exaggerated]. i'd study there for final yrs and i'd make everybody there my fren. frm the monkeys there to the manager(another exaggeration). sigh, i dont even feel like training in waters now. wat wld it be? mon, wed, fri, x trg. tues, thurs, sat swimming?!?! oh man... why cant mg just 'buy' swimmers from other schs the way s'pore get foreigners to play for s'pore.

oh well, i better hit the bed now. got drill tmr. OH SHUCKS! i forgot to call radha! hehee =D hope sarah doesnt come here. ok i must think of smth to tell her tmr..like, OH! my phone bill wasnt paid and the line was cut off! ok nvm. anyway, it sucks to do drill while having ur period. grr.. crap, there's trg too! at nie =D =D yay! track work. not exactly that fun.. but yay!

As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We'll still be friends 4eva

listening to 'one desire' again.. going back to church tmr.. after like quite a while. sigh, it's quite intimidating for me.. i mean like, it's so scary to go back to church again after like 20 yrs[that was obviously exaggerated] i'm just 'so scared of the church pple'. i guess i dont really like being alone.. or rather, being in a large grp of pple but with no one to talk to. also, in church, everybody have their own partners, or grp of pple, that they always mix with in church. yea, i got the lovable sec2s..but i'm so extra in there!! i just duno what it is. but i cant seem to talk to them.. i cant find anything to talk to them abt. ok, maybe i can communicate in the grp. however, once i'm with any one of them alone, i'm tongue tied. gahh.. i used to be able to talk to them soo freely.. esp online. can talk a lot of crap one.. things have change now. it's pretty weird, for me that is. oh oh oh ohhhh well

had trg in sch on friday. it was fun =) well, trg's quite fun now...NOW.only for now. haha well, we'll see abt next time. yay!!!!!!! monday's trg is at tuuuuuurrrffff citttty!!!!!!!! boy oh boy! i love that place! and why isnt donald and daffy duck or mickey aired on tv nowadays... stupid air-er. i really miss those shows. where the horrible guy is the loser.. and it always keeps me so hyped up. i really missed those days where i'd be watching those stupidly cute cartoons bouncing ard and laughing and all. i really miss their voices. it's super comical, sweet and cute.
ok i duno what crap i'm talking abt.. but i guess i really like them cartoons. they're so funny

oh well, i'm so bored now so i'm gonna sleep. God bless =)
hahahahahhaa i'm weird

woke up, bathed, brush teeth. sees shoe bag on the floor, rmbs abt e 1st trg we're gonna have after exams.. gosh, i took at least 5-10 min just to figure out.. "what do i bring? ok.. i got my shirt and shoes.. anything else? i know i'm missing smth!!! .... oh yea, my socks!"

that was how my 1st day of trg began.. how nice. trg rocked today man. i really missed the times when we'd just talk a lot of rubbish. missed those irritating sec1s' chatterings. missed the smell of overdensed oxygen at macritchie. who wld have thought a slacker like me wld miss trg. i miss the anticipation of whether i'd do a good run today. i miss the sound of the stamps i hear. i recognise christine's and jing's footsteps when they caught up with me. how much i miss hearing them. i miss the way my lungs are so desperate for air after the race. i miss the perspiration of my body, like a mad dog. i miss the way my hair bounces so irritatingly over my neck. i miss the way my hands swing, in momentum with my feet. i miss the determination look i see on my fellow 'sufferers'. i miss the encouragements i get from my running peeps. i miss the adrenaline rush i get when i try to push myself harder. i miss the last part of the race, where u just chiong like mad and give it ur all. most of all, i miss the satisfaction i get after a good run.

soon, i'd dread those things..which i hope will be a long time from now... 5 trgs per wk. i'd better love running man.

well, in time to come, nationals are coming. tough fight, i'd say. the 6 chosen pple to represent mgs for the competition that is.

just came back from my cousin's new house.. it was so dirty! eeek! my feet are like black now. hahaha he kept having debates with his mum as to the arrangement of his stuff. hmm, also had tkd grading today. i'm a red belter now!! bahh, the colour isnt nice. woah, that red-black belter i spar-red with was super scary man... kick my face and thigh. and e front of my feet was super red after that. think i kicked too hard too. hmm that's abt it. it's getting kinda boring for each passing day since exams are over. pple are going out and cant be bothered to sms haha.. oh well, training's starting tmr. intensive trg is starting soon...like prob next wk?when we get our stamina back. mr ng is sooo gonna know that most of us didnt do our self runs. siggghh.. i just i was just too slack abt it too. and i was supposed to 'set an eg.' shheeeeet. i'm so gonna get another lecture.. my stamina totally went down like crap. i was panting already when i needed to walk up a flight of stairs today when my tuition class changed to the 5th level..from e 4th. grrr... oh well..cant do anything abt it now. i cant get back my stamina in ONE day...sigh. it's all my fault!!!! guess i really deserve a really long lecture..and maybe strip me off my post. i really suck. sheeeesh. actually to think abt it..beating chris and yihui for that post....boy, it's totally an achievement.

exams are over! exams are over! exams are over!

ok fine, i dont feel anything so excited abt it. ohohoh. and i had a SUPER weird dream ytd. eeee why did i ever dream i was there.. when i haven't been there in my life b4! ok nvm.. everybody's blur.

went to watch white chicks ytd. so funnnnnyy. tmr hopefully i can go out w e crossies and watch dodge(dutch)balls =) hhahahaha. stupid joy. bah.. ytd 3 angmoh guys asked van, chessa and i whether we wanted to watch movies since they had some free movie pass. grrrr.. if they didnt give us a shock i'd follow them. but why the heck were they at the projection room area. hmm.. then after that thing, walked around the whole of orchard.met annabelle and celestine then went to that skate park thing and watch pple skate ard. it was kinda fun i guess. just sit down and move our heads from left to right.

hmm.. what else did i wanted to say. arrrghhh i cant rmb. oh yar! i slept from 9pm - 8.30am!! yay!! i rawk man. i was waiting since 7pm for that 9pm show then fell asleep while watching it. grr who ask them not to bring that joe joe come. hahaha.. i only watch that show cos i wanna see him. he's sooo cute. he looks like my neighbour man..singapore idol today!!!! yay.

OH I JUST RMbed what i wanted to say. but it's so sad.. siigghH!!! EVERYTIME i hear she'll be loved. i just think abt that stupid audition -.-" dont worry guys. there're still the outside competitions! rmb our plan for e audition? hahaha.. go to some ulu shoppping centre and audition.

okok i'm off to updating the skylarks (http://www.skylarkians.blogspot.com)
[celestine u better thank me] you've been pestering me abt the blog. hmm ok i'm off to surf blogging or wateva it's called. and i'm gonna say hi to everybody.hi!!! .....

all the best for the results!

this is it. all the best for exams. if you guys ever feel like giving up, dont! cos it'll be over very soon!! aww shucks. then it means HOLIDAYS!!! then the start of a new yr =/ sec3...grrr. oh wait, b4 that, we've to go through the torment of choosing between lit, geog and history. bah. i'm either taking 1/2 lit, full geog or 1/2 hist, full lit. nvr gonna take 1/2 geog or full hist. too tedious. aaahhh...
ok so then, u start a new yr. THEN IT'S NATIONALS!!!!!!!!!!!!! man, it's really fast... i cant wait for our post exam competition! some link run...n X CAMP!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAY!!! ok it might be energy draining w ****sec1s but WHO CARES. k i gotta refocus...

*ponders over lit.. lit lit lit.*

all the best for exams once again!! =) exams rocksssss. besides the studying part of cos.

http://sigueme.com.ar/musica/mp3/0016_hillsong_one_desire.mp3

this is my cry
my one desire Lord
is be to w u Lord

hey u know who u are.. if u ever come here, which i doubt so, pls. i seriously didnt do anything. i'll leave it to u if u wanna clear it w me. i dont wanna irritate u or wateva. just pls, PLS, tell me wat i did. i seriously am very clueless abt it. for all u know, u heard rumours. oh well, everything's up to u

study hard guys. i need help for math!! anybody not minding to help me n being pissed by me?? help....

After writing that entry, realised that so many people now know i'm given that new title. it's quite a cool name.. haha. anyway, for all those slow people, teo and chris are now the vice captains! *woohoooo* yup. it's official. i think.. oh well.. but just pray for this 2 pple that they'll be able to work together and get along well. man, i've not only one, but TWO 'bodyguards'! yay. both in a smarter class than me too.. haha can just imagine teo strutting a bodyguard pose while chris just stares back and give that -_-" face.. heheee.. both taller than me also. i'm like some mini boss w 2 very loyal, blur bodyguards. ok that is so like a chinese drama. but a cool one. anyway, i just realised.. being a X capt aint any easy job. gotta be like so enthu during all trgs. argh. i dont think there's anybody that can feel happy everyday. well, except for those positive pple. oh oh oh. i RMB WHY I WANTED TO BLOG!!!!

but i shall save it for later.

ANYWAY, if mr ng doesn't allow us to have a X camp, we shall have those sleepover 'parties' at somebody's house..if not go chalet!! wat u call that.. it's a girl thing. hahahhaa it rocks being a girl man. woohoo... i'm so smart!! so so so.... when u guys wanna have the sleepover party/X camp? better book everybody 1st! if not ah, pple fly here fly there then very little pple go. man, can we go escape?!?!!!! i nvr go b4!!!!woohoo....

personally, i think God has been having life a lot better for me.

->firstly, my marks somehow has been pushed up a lot.. got A1 for HISTORY!!!!!!!!!!!! was screaming like a lunatic in class
gotta thank my history grp for putting in so much effort la.. hehee.. we're known as the wat.. sleeping grp.. how ironic. we were the most enthu one. thanks charmain, chessa, celestine and rach. the 3cs and an r.

ok that didnt make any sense..well, term3 for me has been quite fun...n really short.
->i'm starting to love my class.
->i like my new sitting partner, nat thery.. she's like my radio in class, live some more. phew man, she sings well. haha..
->yea there's the X thing. chris! stop feeling so blue and all can.. it's as if ur influencing me that being capt isnt that gd and all...well, it's not u la. it's e way i interprete wat u say.. gd thing u dont come my blog man hahaha
->and i'm getting commendation for swimming too!!!! cant believe it... 2 awards!! X and swimming. ok i shldnt be so haolian
-> also, there's the great church i'm in! though i cant really connect myself w the church much, i guess i still love it. it has been quite a while since i sing FOR GOD during worship.. wonder when the time will come...
-> personally, i feel that being in S'pore is actually a privilege(spelling?).. k God might have placed us in some much more developed country.. but wat if we end up at africa... actually, studies arent that bad.. well, there are other things to destress ourselves
-> and for the time being, lastly, my frens!! just this yr, i've made so many more frens.. so many as in....20 over? ok that's quite little la.. but it's an estimated thing.
ok that's it. i needa study for geog. all the best for it!

"It takes determined people to take up sports...
But it takes a bunch of crazies to choose X"
-Christine Ong (Junior vice capt 04')

E X spirit lives on


(i hope chris is known as the junior vice capt. i duno wat other names to call her already)