trg today was..............argh. was practically jogging e whole way!!! argh argh argh. n did HE have to corner me so much? i mean if he weren't so fierce and all, i'd give feedback. sigh. today was like bleh. i felt SUPER tired man. but i told myself that since i pushed so much for the front part, might as well just push all way through the finish line. but i just COULDN'T push. sigh. that feeling really really really sucked. so i thought that, fine i shant push to the barrier. i shall cruise my way to the 1km place and start chionging to make up. but what happen? he didnt want it, IN THE END. he just....ok tiff. stop. WHAT?! what the toot toot toot. i was like so tempted to just say TOOT. ya that pretty little flower word..when sheryl was in front of me. but hey man, she uses that word too ;P i think. anyhow, i didnt. i just said i was tempted to say it. but it's bad. ARGH. i hate today's trg. though i didnt give my best, i felt SUPER SUPER SUPER tired. ah whatever/
Monday, December 27, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Escobar's most powerful msg: Rejoice in the Lord always, at all times, all situations no matter what you're feeling.
just came back from christmas celebrations at soteria. woah, i felt like scolding and WHINING to whoever i was going to meet when i found that place. ah gong knows how irritating i am when i whine. i think i irritate myself too. i took super long to figure out where sgh is from outram mrt and only found the place after that. well, all thanks to christopher's WONDERFUL directions =) u rock kor. anyway, as what escobar said, praise Him at ALL times! so yea i started singing in my head(darn i shld have thought of that while i was walking) n just praising the Lord! actually i was just quite light hearted. i mean, i tried not to be too angry cos i've no one to blame but myself. i was so screwed up man. i thought we were supposed to meet at 11 when the meeting time was at 10. so i was all aloonee on a lonely long stretch of rd. well, praising the Lord really worked! cos i found the place, like finally. i really cant express the joyfulness and calmness i had when i heard the voices of my fellow siblings singing beautiful carols to the Lord while approaching the room. anyway, to all the people that gave me presents/cards/wishes/hugs/etc: Thank you! =)
i felt so happy just receiving presents from my loved ones! (yea i'm deprived of receiving stuff) but i felt so much happier just giving out the cards i wrote to them. i slept at 2am just writing them and even got scolded by my mum for staying up too late. the joy of giving. i finally understood it. n it's just scribbles and my heartfelt words i wrote on POSTCARDS. u know, those cheapo cards where u can take for FREE on the stands? yea those. i wonder the amount of joy that wld be brought to my heart if i were to give them real hard solid presents with my own hard earned cash(more like, hard painful savings)
CRAP! there's trg tmr!!!!!!!! oh man oh man oh man!!! i've to write... 27 letters! wait, minus 1 cos i'm not gonna write to myself! but, there's joei, esther and mr ng too. so it's 29. gosh that's quite a terror. i totally suck at doing that. ok man, i'm setting the dateline on FRIDAY =) sigh.there's trg tmr. at MACRITCHIE! (booms) (echos) yea we had those goal setting stuff but i guess it's making me more anxious. okok how abt this. WHOOPIEEE! we're gonna run 10km tmr! aren't u guys excited? oh yea! oh yea! boy.this is horrible. well, rejoice in the Lord! yea man. oh boy oh boy! how abt doing smth different!for a change =D like running northern route 1ST b4 duno the 1km in and out thingy. i think it'll be BETTER and fun-ner man!!! but it's gonna be difficult to break my excitement to rachie. i find rach and jen more of the traditional type of pple. like those that wldnt really like too much of a change. but hey man! if u guys ever come, it has it's pros! =D
anyway, abt ytd, rmb that my mum scolded me. yup.. when she started walking ard in my room, i rushed to the toilet and my tears started flowing. she did not scold me la, actually. more like tormented, criticised, looked down, agitated my christmasy feelings(i was writing christmas letters to my church frens), bothered and confused me. am i that useless? i rmb she said something abt me being the capt in cross. like, they wanna give u a chance or smth. i dont rmb. well! i dont rmb such stuff that brings down my happiness. ok so i was in the toilet and crying. and haha, come to think abt it. it's so chinese drama. i was looking at the mirror with my tears streaming down my face. so naturally, i started rinsing my face. and each time i splashed water on my face, i told myself : Rejoice in the Lord at all circumstances. and i think that calmed me down a lot. i was debating with myself A LOT. like, walao! mother criticise daughter. what an ass man. still want me to rejoice!?! but i guess the Lord calmly repeated, Rejoice in Me. ok so ya, i just started reminding myself of happy things. then i went out and my mum scolded me, lightly. then she lefted and i went to bed. this morning, she forgot everything and was happy again! arguements in my family are always like that. she even offered to send me to outram mrt when she found out i was late =)
after church was really a real debator. 1 part of me wanted to go out with the grp of guys and just have fun bowling or whatever. but a really small part of me asked me to stay with shern, rach tham, evan and bevvy! i'm glad i made that decision. though i didnt talk much, i still learnt a lot more stuff la. ok i didnt talk much prob cos of the topic! grr. i rock and dont get myself so involved in that. i'm still single, available and atracktiff.
but one thing that impacted me a lot was what rach said.
life is super unfair. rmb 2000 yrs ago. Jesus died for us, the horrible, bad etc pple, so that we may have eternal life. God was a good man when he came to earth. he did not do anything wrong. men on earth even insulted him. yet he humbled himself and died for us. no one goes to our father through jesus. (i forgot the exact words and verse)
i really wanna go on but i know people will get bored and might not see anything below what i'm gonna say and it MIGHT make a difference to them. but going to ccmc on christmas day was really, well, enriching. oh yea, AUSTIN!!!!!!!!! if you ever see this, COOL HAIR man! =) i shant talk abt ur brother or he might feel insulted..cos i'm not as close to him than u ok! i dont mean i was ever gonna insult him.
ok then. i shall mark my ending here. and and and! do write me a christmas letter if u haven't! =) i accept late stuff..i'm a late-r.
Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary
Rock on, crossies.
oh yes. my relatives were singing christmas carols on christmas eve during our gathering! i was so touched =) i saw my, newly saved, aunt singing the carols with her whole heart n it was so touching. almost all my relatives were just singing and though they might be singing for the sake of it, i still felt the presence of the Lord. they used to skip dinners my dad arranged for them to go whenever amc has any evangelistic dinners. but, that night, they were just singing all the carols with lyrics proclaiming his love for us without any hesitation!
REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS!
keep rocking till the saviour comes! (learnt that from angie =) )
just came back from christmas celebrations at soteria. woah, i felt like scolding and WHINING to whoever i was going to meet when i found that place. ah gong knows how irritating i am when i whine. i think i irritate myself too. i took super long to figure out where sgh is from outram mrt and only found the place after that. well, all thanks to christopher's WONDERFUL directions =) u rock kor. anyway, as what escobar said, praise Him at ALL times! so yea i started singing in my head(darn i shld have thought of that while i was walking) n just praising the Lord! actually i was just quite light hearted. i mean, i tried not to be too angry cos i've no one to blame but myself. i was so screwed up man. i thought we were supposed to meet at 11 when the meeting time was at 10. so i was all aloonee on a lonely long stretch of rd. well, praising the Lord really worked! cos i found the place, like finally. i really cant express the joyfulness and calmness i had when i heard the voices of my fellow siblings singing beautiful carols to the Lord while approaching the room. anyway, to all the people that gave me presents/cards/wishes/hugs/etc: Thank you! =)
i felt so happy just receiving presents from my loved ones! (yea i'm deprived of receiving stuff) but i felt so much happier just giving out the cards i wrote to them. i slept at 2am just writing them and even got scolded by my mum for staying up too late. the joy of giving. i finally understood it. n it's just scribbles and my heartfelt words i wrote on POSTCARDS. u know, those cheapo cards where u can take for FREE on the stands? yea those. i wonder the amount of joy that wld be brought to my heart if i were to give them real hard solid presents with my own hard earned cash(more like, hard painful savings)
CRAP! there's trg tmr!!!!!!!! oh man oh man oh man!!! i've to write... 27 letters! wait, minus 1 cos i'm not gonna write to myself! but, there's joei, esther and mr ng too. so it's 29. gosh that's quite a terror. i totally suck at doing that. ok man, i'm setting the dateline on FRIDAY =) sigh.there's trg tmr. at MACRITCHIE! (booms) (echos) yea we had those goal setting stuff but i guess it's making me more anxious. okok how abt this. WHOOPIEEE! we're gonna run 10km tmr! aren't u guys excited? oh yea! oh yea! boy.this is horrible. well, rejoice in the Lord! yea man. oh boy oh boy! how abt doing smth different!for a change =D like running northern route 1ST b4 duno the 1km in and out thingy. i think it'll be BETTER and fun-ner man!!! but it's gonna be difficult to break my excitement to rachie. i find rach and jen more of the traditional type of pple. like those that wldnt really like too much of a change. but hey man! if u guys ever come, it has it's pros! =D
anyway, abt ytd, rmb that my mum scolded me. yup.. when she started walking ard in my room, i rushed to the toilet and my tears started flowing. she did not scold me la, actually. more like tormented, criticised, looked down, agitated my christmasy feelings(i was writing christmas letters to my church frens), bothered and confused me. am i that useless? i rmb she said something abt me being the capt in cross. like, they wanna give u a chance or smth. i dont rmb. well! i dont rmb such stuff that brings down my happiness. ok so i was in the toilet and crying. and haha, come to think abt it. it's so chinese drama. i was looking at the mirror with my tears streaming down my face. so naturally, i started rinsing my face. and each time i splashed water on my face, i told myself : Rejoice in the Lord at all circumstances. and i think that calmed me down a lot. i was debating with myself A LOT. like, walao! mother criticise daughter. what an ass man. still want me to rejoice!?! but i guess the Lord calmly repeated, Rejoice in Me. ok so ya, i just started reminding myself of happy things. then i went out and my mum scolded me, lightly. then she lefted and i went to bed. this morning, she forgot everything and was happy again! arguements in my family are always like that. she even offered to send me to outram mrt when she found out i was late =)
after church was really a real debator. 1 part of me wanted to go out with the grp of guys and just have fun bowling or whatever. but a really small part of me asked me to stay with shern, rach tham, evan and bevvy! i'm glad i made that decision. though i didnt talk much, i still learnt a lot more stuff la. ok i didnt talk much prob cos of the topic! grr. i rock and dont get myself so involved in that. i'm still single, available and atracktiff.
but one thing that impacted me a lot was what rach said.
life is super unfair. rmb 2000 yrs ago. Jesus died for us, the horrible, bad etc pple, so that we may have eternal life. God was a good man when he came to earth. he did not do anything wrong. men on earth even insulted him. yet he humbled himself and died for us. no one goes to our father through jesus. (i forgot the exact words and verse)
i really wanna go on but i know people will get bored and might not see anything below what i'm gonna say and it MIGHT make a difference to them. but going to ccmc on christmas day was really, well, enriching. oh yea, AUSTIN!!!!!!!!! if you ever see this, COOL HAIR man! =) i shant talk abt ur brother or he might feel insulted..cos i'm not as close to him than u ok! i dont mean i was ever gonna insult him.
ok then. i shall mark my ending here. and and and! do write me a christmas letter if u haven't! =) i accept late stuff..i'm a late-r.
Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary
Rock on, crossies.
oh yes. my relatives were singing christmas carols on christmas eve during our gathering! i was so touched =) i saw my, newly saved, aunt singing the carols with her whole heart n it was so touching. almost all my relatives were just singing and though they might be singing for the sake of it, i still felt the presence of the Lord. they used to skip dinners my dad arranged for them to go whenever amc has any evangelistic dinners. but, that night, they were just singing all the carols with lyrics proclaiming his love for us without any hesitation!
REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS!
keep rocking till the saviour comes! (learnt that from angie =) )
Thursday, December 16, 2004
not much to blog abt. but i guess i'm enjoying my life here in s'pore while hearing pple fly off to all the coldish countries >_<>
oh yea! my deepest and greatest gratitude to rachie daddy and....duane(almost forgot ur name again)
rach! : abt the last time i had a really one to one conversation with u? thanks for being there that night for me. you're really a fren that is so ever patient and...open about almost everything! u are like this really matured girl, to me, and i wldnt be surprised if you're actually older than me =/ haha. you're always making sense when u talk to me and u speak with an aura in u. you always explain things to me in a really simple but yet impactful way and it always leaves me thinking abt what good i've done for the Lord. i think you're one of my most matured frens but u still know how to have fun. and that's a really good thing abt u! =)
duane: u too! thanks a lot also for like accompanying me for the whole night/morning just talking and agreeing with whatever i said. haha. and also! thanks for listening to me as i poured out all(ok maybe not) my feelings to u even though we dont even know each other personally. i guess i was talking crap 1/2 the time but at least u stayed on. i guess i was really touched and thankful to the Lord that He showed me such a fren. u always commented to whatever i said and gave advices. hey man, u even showed me one of the greatest achievement God gave to me =) i guess we wldnt talk that much to each other again, but well, i'm already very happy for that one conversation!
it was pretty fun to talk to 2 of u guys on the same night, at the same time. u guys really rock man. i doubt that duane will see this, but i'm contented enough to know that i publicised my thanks to him! haha.
ok i cant really keep think straight now. hoi yan just came online and is so hyper! gosh, i always am laughing a lot while talking to her online =P heehee. anyway, annoucement! hoiyan has matured quite a lot over the past yr. from sec1 - sec2. she's more focused on stuff and know what her priorities are. :) take care guys!
before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cried
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come
come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts broken lives
He will take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come
oh yea! my deepest and greatest gratitude to rachie daddy and....duane(almost forgot ur name again)
rach! : abt the last time i had a really one to one conversation with u? thanks for being there that night for me. you're really a fren that is so ever patient and...open about almost everything! u are like this really matured girl, to me, and i wldnt be surprised if you're actually older than me =/ haha. you're always making sense when u talk to me and u speak with an aura in u. you always explain things to me in a really simple but yet impactful way and it always leaves me thinking abt what good i've done for the Lord. i think you're one of my most matured frens but u still know how to have fun. and that's a really good thing abt u! =)
duane: u too! thanks a lot also for like accompanying me for the whole night/morning just talking and agreeing with whatever i said. haha. and also! thanks for listening to me as i poured out all(ok maybe not) my feelings to u even though we dont even know each other personally. i guess i was talking crap 1/2 the time but at least u stayed on. i guess i was really touched and thankful to the Lord that He showed me such a fren. u always commented to whatever i said and gave advices. hey man, u even showed me one of the greatest achievement God gave to me =) i guess we wldnt talk that much to each other again, but well, i'm already very happy for that one conversation!
it was pretty fun to talk to 2 of u guys on the same night, at the same time. u guys really rock man. i doubt that duane will see this, but i'm contented enough to know that i publicised my thanks to him! haha.
ok i cant really keep think straight now. hoi yan just came online and is so hyper! gosh, i always am laughing a lot while talking to her online =P heehee. anyway, annoucement! hoiyan has matured quite a lot over the past yr. from sec1 - sec2. she's more focused on stuff and know what her priorities are. :) take care guys!
before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cried
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come
come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts broken lives
He will take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
hmm, church camp just ended and i must say i've been truely touched by God! dont want to write too much abt it since it's my personal walk with Him. hmm, the finale night was the power part of camp man! haha.. really enjoyed myself =D and the part abt the guys coming with something to appreciate the girls and vice versa was so funny! haha.. it was really very nice as i dont get to do these kinda stuff in sch. i think everyone did a very superbly great job that night! and if any of u guys come here, i really love and appreciate u guys =)
on to my brother, he's much much better now and to my grp big bird, thanks for keeping him in prayer! i was really touched by u guys when u all keep asking me abt my brother during camp =) he's now just recovering and is a lot better =D just that he's getting more pampered >.<
i duno what's with me but i realise my entries are getting shorter and shorter. oh well, just wanna say that i've been enjoying my hols (ya right) and i'm so excited abt next yr! (stop lying la) man the yr's starting in...24 days to be exact!!!!!!!!!! ahhh. i'm sooo scared. kk i cant slack anymore! darn, i just wasted one day of my good ole' hols. this is getting so grr.
ooh well! take care pple and God bless!
on to my brother, he's much much better now and to my grp big bird, thanks for keeping him in prayer! i was really touched by u guys when u all keep asking me abt my brother during camp =) he's now just recovering and is a lot better =D just that he's getting more pampered >.<
i duno what's with me but i realise my entries are getting shorter and shorter. oh well, just wanna say that i've been enjoying my hols (ya right) and i'm so excited abt next yr! (stop lying la) man the yr's starting in...24 days to be exact!!!!!!!!!! ahhh. i'm sooo scared. kk i cant slack anymore! darn, i just wasted one day of my good ole' hols. this is getting so grr.
ooh well! take care pple and God bless!
Thursday, December 02, 2004
this is getting worse. ryan used to have sky high fever temp of abt 38-39.. and..and now it's 35?! what on earth is going on Lord. i think it's really being very unfair to him ok. he did not even do anything wrong. and there u are leaving him to suffer on his own. dont u have any feelings for him?!?!
ok i know God has a plan for him and i shldnt be shouting to Him. but yea, sometimes i feel like God is over doing it.
today was at the coro bus stop and i saw this blind man. he was feeling his way ard the bus stop to the front with his walking stick. really pitied him la. but actually i thought that maybe he was putting on a front so that he could pretend to bump into women and yea. but i dont think he's faking it. i mean, i finally know how a blind man actually goes around taking public transport. he asked a lady next to him to tell him when his bus came. and the lady, a foreigner i suppose, since she has some japanese-like accent, agreed. it's like so wow. i could feel the love of s'pore bursting out of my body. haha..pple are actually so friendly here in s'pore.
ok i know God has a plan for him and i shldnt be shouting to Him. but yea, sometimes i feel like God is over doing it.
today was at the coro bus stop and i saw this blind man. he was feeling his way ard the bus stop to the front with his walking stick. really pitied him la. but actually i thought that maybe he was putting on a front so that he could pretend to bump into women and yea. but i dont think he's faking it. i mean, i finally know how a blind man actually goes around taking public transport. he asked a lady next to him to tell him when his bus came. and the lady, a foreigner i suppose, since she has some japanese-like accent, agreed. it's like so wow. i could feel the love of s'pore bursting out of my body. haha..pple are actually so friendly here in s'pore.
Monday, November 29, 2004
Thursday, November 25, 2004
To CROSSIES:
dont wanna blog much but i'm just very sorry.
i'm really sorry abt wed's trg at macritchie. the one ytd.. on 24th nov. where we ran abt 9 km? yea that one. i'm just really sorry. reason? cos i was late for trg. i know others might think that it's ok for pple to be late for training like once in a while. but u guys know how many times i've been late for trg. i'm really really sorry. i duno how u all felt when mr ng was talking to u all and suddenly all ur eyes get distracted as u see me running towards u all. i saw the really disturbed look on almost everyone and i could feel a sense of 'hatred'. ok it might not be hatredness but i felt that u all were VERY irritated with me and my lateness for trg. u guys all couldnt take it and just wanted to shout at me right..just that mr ng was still talking to u all and that hindered u guys from shouting at me. i mean that's how i feel abt u all. i know i shld be really regretful abt all my lateness etc and i shld shut my mouth during trg cos i've let u all down. i shldnt be talking to u guys and laugh at ur jokes cos i shld be silently slipping away after trg and brood over the terrible mistake i made. u all practically daoed me and did not even speak to me!!except for grace cos i needed to ask someone what the workout was. well, i just wanna give my apologies and i really hope to seek ur forgiveness. i'm very happy that u all didnt like dao or lecture me after trg that i was late.even mr ng didnt talk to me abt it! really, thanks. i'll really try to be early for trgs for the rest of the hols. i'm really regretful abt it. but i'm e type of person that's really difficult to change. why u think i'm still so slack in studies. i know i'm the capt and am supposed to be a good example. i'm really serious abt this. i really am very sorry abt that trg and all the past trgs where i've been late for trg. pls forgive me
Yours Truly,
A really conscience-stricken captain
Numb By Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
An' every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus: Repeat]
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
[Chorus: Repeat]
I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2)
The nail did not hold Jesus up on the cross
It was His love for us
-Anon
dont wanna blog much but i'm just very sorry.
i'm really sorry abt wed's trg at macritchie. the one ytd.. on 24th nov. where we ran abt 9 km? yea that one. i'm just really sorry. reason? cos i was late for trg. i know others might think that it's ok for pple to be late for training like once in a while. but u guys know how many times i've been late for trg. i'm really really sorry. i duno how u all felt when mr ng was talking to u all and suddenly all ur eyes get distracted as u see me running towards u all. i saw the really disturbed look on almost everyone and i could feel a sense of 'hatred'. ok it might not be hatredness but i felt that u all were VERY irritated with me and my lateness for trg. u guys all couldnt take it and just wanted to shout at me right..just that mr ng was still talking to u all and that hindered u guys from shouting at me. i mean that's how i feel abt u all. i know i shld be really regretful abt all my lateness etc and i shld shut my mouth during trg cos i've let u all down. i shldnt be talking to u guys and laugh at ur jokes cos i shld be silently slipping away after trg and brood over the terrible mistake i made. u all practically daoed me and did not even speak to me!!except for grace cos i needed to ask someone what the workout was. well, i just wanna give my apologies and i really hope to seek ur forgiveness. i'm very happy that u all didnt like dao or lecture me after trg that i was late.even mr ng didnt talk to me abt it! really, thanks. i'll really try to be early for trgs for the rest of the hols. i'm really regretful abt it. but i'm e type of person that's really difficult to change. why u think i'm still so slack in studies. i know i'm the capt and am supposed to be a good example. i'm really serious abt this. i really am very sorry abt that trg and all the past trgs where i've been late for trg. pls forgive me
Yours Truly,
A really conscience-stricken captain
Numb By Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
An' every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus: Repeat]
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
[Chorus: Repeat]
I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2)
The nail did not hold Jesus up on the cross
It was His love for us
-Anon
Monday, November 22, 2004
woah, last time i blogged was like 10 days ago!!..of which, in the 10 days, i went for TWO camps..GB and LTC. tiring as it was, i enjoyed myself! for both camps that is. GB camp was just ultra cool. Sleeping under the fishes.. wheee! hmm, LTC, well that was like power camp! i really learnt a lot during the camp and yea, actually i'm glad it's over haha. But the sleeping time was like horrible, esp the 2nd night. I don't know what got into me..! The people that were talking suddenly wanted to tell ghost stories, and i was under my sleeping bag feeling very scared. My heart was pumping like crazy. I could feel the adrenaline rush. I don't know what was happening to me. Okok, i don't wanna revive that feeling. Hmm, what else. Oh yes, I wanna talk abt everybody in the grp another time. It's pretty late now. Want a short update on LTC, go to shern's http://horsefantasy.diaryland.com blog. Was in the same group as her. Yeah i went for camp and skipped training. But hey, the ltc-ers did our fair share of training man. Like running from cityhall mrt all the way to esplanade then run back to suntec and then back to through the same route to the mrt. Goodness, it was both mentally and physically challenging. We really went through a lot together. We didn't talk much during our meal times i must admit. Heehee.. Partially coz' we were busy stuffing ourselves with food. However, i really felt the bond between everyone. Take this as an example. I nvr thought I'd ever talk to shuying..and we somehow ended up in the same group. Thus, leading to waiting for each other b4 running to the next place. The greatest shock that came to me was how friendly Tann Ting was. Gosh, she's like damn friendly and encouraging man. Her cool, dao face didn't go with her personality i must say.
Ok enough about LTC. Drill com is in TWO days. We have only tmr left to practise. Personally speaking, I don't think contingent3 aka my cont. has any hope. Sigh.. Firstly, we're so slack and the juniors cant seem to perfect their drill. Yes, my uniform is in a complete mess, my boots are damn ultra un-shiny n yea, I'm not mentally prepared. 60% of me wants to pon training and like train another day or just train by myself in the afternoon..or, sacrifice my lunch break and run at the ugh, sch track. I don't really have a liking for the sch track. But then again, I've committed myself to BOTH ccas and i can't forfeit one for another. It's tough being in two ccas and yet being recognised with a position and rank in both. Oh well. I guess I have no choice but to go for trg tmr. At least i can polish my boots b4 that...?!?!? haha.. time saving skills. Darn..sarah is sick now and will be late for drill prac tmr. I'll be going for drill prac in the late morning. Then, when sarah comes, she's leaving in the afternoon for tuition. This is really falling apart and tmr is like our final prac! Slam! I wish i could just ask u to stay home, recupurate and come back to sch on tues all ready to scream/shout the sch down! But yea, tmr's the last day. I really don't know what's going to happen for drill com man. I don't want to be seen crying in front of my juniors cos we, as a contingent, did not do our best! I'm sure I'd do my best. But what abt the rest u see... Sigh. Well, glad to say, our marker has improved!! really happy for her. ok fine, i forgot her name. hehee i dont wanna strain my brains la. and for our stamps, sigh! at least the pri sch got the ultimate stamper, *north stars* to do the job. now it's only a matter of whether we can do it together!! and it's usually the sec pple stamping louder to combine the stamps. thing is that my right calf hurts like sheeeeet whether i stamp. it started hurting after ltc!! and i need it to impress the judges during the 1st part. darn... this is really going all wrong for me. oh wait i got one good thing going on!!
swift is postponed to 9th jan!!! so yup, i can get my right calf, left knee and left upper arm to rest. i duno what happen to my left arm la.. hurts whenever i swing it.
really excited for trg tmr. gonna see my extended*3 family again after soo long. i really miss x!! i miss the time b4 x nationals when i'll spend so much time at turf city..after trg. after trg, we'd just stay back at macs...or the hawker there and eat our late afternoon meal. after which we'll go to the finishing part of the route and just take loads of crazy pics. what fun. i rmb it was the seniors that mostly stayed back and me..since i stay so near there. i really like turf city. the route, well it's challenging but i've grown to love it. the times i spent there studying was fruitful too. i'm like really slow at memorising la. but over there at the macs, it's really quiet with 98.7 blasting over there and it's pretty secluded. except for the many working adults going there to do their work. oh and i still rmb this guy that i saw of the 2 times i went. after i went there with esther, i stopped going there. partially cos of the disturbing pple there. kept kachiaoing me. i still rmbed they called us lesbians and one girl was like," aiyah got the looks only! no xing ge one la!"(in chinese that is) walao eh... so threatening haha.. but yea, it's pretty far in and i didnt have any time to go there. i really like that place. it's like my 2nd home. Again as i'll say, if it weren't too far in, and more pple went there, I'd definately make that my 2nd home.
I'm slacking so much and I've missed SO many trgs already. I duno what. OH YES. i've not been doing my self runs and during those non running days, it seems pretty boring and it feels like a wk that i've not ran. so yea. and now, i'm like wishing real hard that my knee or calf will hurt like sheeet tmr during warm up so that i can limp to mr ng and complain to him abt my aches. which will result him in saying," ok. dont run today. just go home and swim ok" what a horrible and slack capt mg has. imagine when rach is gone and i'm gonna take the place of the capt that so many others b4 me have taken. i can be really fierce if i want to. but i cant be fierce during every trg! 1stly, i'd lose cells and die early. 2ndly, i'd grow white hair. 3rdly, pple wldnt like me. 4thly, i'd be the person i really dread meeting up with every trg. so back to my pt why i dont wanna go for trg tmr. so that i can go to sch and teach the pri sch their drill! tmr is the last day, and i really want to just perfect our drill standard. tmr is the last day of prac so i can just shout at the kids for all i care and be like a mu lao hu. certainly, there isnt any time left to do rank drill and all but i really think that we really need to do those things. but then again, not say my drill very good la. and if things go out of hand, i'll give a prep talk to them. i can literately visualise everything now. like, myself taking over sarah lam, our wonderful, strict commander. i really respect her for her dedication to gb though she doesnt really like it. she knows that we're like pretty no hope kinda thing, but she still persisted and did her best during drill. i really want her to know that her hard work is really being appreciated by a small junior like me. i mean, she knows that our drill is like quite horrible but she still takes the effort to compliment us on the goods we did. i could tell on sat that she kinda gave up hope la. but slam! dont give up ok =) get well soon and just come back for drill tmr!
darn it's super late now.. 2am. and i gotta wake up at 7am for trg. well, i just wish the best for everybody in everything they do. it's a tough world out there.
I had a life
But school destroyed it
-anon
Ok enough about LTC. Drill com is in TWO days. We have only tmr left to practise. Personally speaking, I don't think contingent3 aka my cont. has any hope. Sigh.. Firstly, we're so slack and the juniors cant seem to perfect their drill. Yes, my uniform is in a complete mess, my boots are damn ultra un-shiny n yea, I'm not mentally prepared. 60% of me wants to pon training and like train another day or just train by myself in the afternoon..or, sacrifice my lunch break and run at the ugh, sch track. I don't really have a liking for the sch track. But then again, I've committed myself to BOTH ccas and i can't forfeit one for another. It's tough being in two ccas and yet being recognised with a position and rank in both. Oh well. I guess I have no choice but to go for trg tmr. At least i can polish my boots b4 that...?!?!? haha.. time saving skills. Darn..sarah is sick now and will be late for drill prac tmr. I'll be going for drill prac in the late morning. Then, when sarah comes, she's leaving in the afternoon for tuition. This is really falling apart and tmr is like our final prac! Slam! I wish i could just ask u to stay home, recupurate and come back to sch on tues all ready to scream/shout the sch down! But yea, tmr's the last day. I really don't know what's going to happen for drill com man. I don't want to be seen crying in front of my juniors cos we, as a contingent, did not do our best! I'm sure I'd do my best. But what abt the rest u see... Sigh. Well, glad to say, our marker has improved!! really happy for her. ok fine, i forgot her name. hehee i dont wanna strain my brains la. and for our stamps, sigh! at least the pri sch got the ultimate stamper, *north stars* to do the job. now it's only a matter of whether we can do it together!! and it's usually the sec pple stamping louder to combine the stamps. thing is that my right calf hurts like sheeeeet whether i stamp. it started hurting after ltc!! and i need it to impress the judges during the 1st part. darn... this is really going all wrong for me. oh wait i got one good thing going on!!
swift is postponed to 9th jan!!! so yup, i can get my right calf, left knee and left upper arm to rest. i duno what happen to my left arm la.. hurts whenever i swing it.
really excited for trg tmr. gonna see my extended*3 family again after soo long. i really miss x!! i miss the time b4 x nationals when i'll spend so much time at turf city..after trg. after trg, we'd just stay back at macs...or the hawker there and eat our late afternoon meal. after which we'll go to the finishing part of the route and just take loads of crazy pics. what fun. i rmb it was the seniors that mostly stayed back and me..since i stay so near there. i really like turf city. the route, well it's challenging but i've grown to love it. the times i spent there studying was fruitful too. i'm like really slow at memorising la. but over there at the macs, it's really quiet with 98.7 blasting over there and it's pretty secluded. except for the many working adults going there to do their work. oh and i still rmb this guy that i saw of the 2 times i went. after i went there with esther, i stopped going there. partially cos of the disturbing pple there. kept kachiaoing me. i still rmbed they called us lesbians and one girl was like," aiyah got the looks only! no xing ge one la!"(in chinese that is) walao eh... so threatening haha.. but yea, it's pretty far in and i didnt have any time to go there. i really like that place. it's like my 2nd home. Again as i'll say, if it weren't too far in, and more pple went there, I'd definately make that my 2nd home.
I'm slacking so much and I've missed SO many trgs already. I duno what. OH YES. i've not been doing my self runs and during those non running days, it seems pretty boring and it feels like a wk that i've not ran. so yea. and now, i'm like wishing real hard that my knee or calf will hurt like sheeet tmr during warm up so that i can limp to mr ng and complain to him abt my aches. which will result him in saying," ok. dont run today. just go home and swim ok" what a horrible and slack capt mg has. imagine when rach is gone and i'm gonna take the place of the capt that so many others b4 me have taken. i can be really fierce if i want to. but i cant be fierce during every trg! 1stly, i'd lose cells and die early. 2ndly, i'd grow white hair. 3rdly, pple wldnt like me. 4thly, i'd be the person i really dread meeting up with every trg. so back to my pt why i dont wanna go for trg tmr. so that i can go to sch and teach the pri sch their drill! tmr is the last day, and i really want to just perfect our drill standard. tmr is the last day of prac so i can just shout at the kids for all i care and be like a mu lao hu. certainly, there isnt any time left to do rank drill and all but i really think that we really need to do those things. but then again, not say my drill very good la. and if things go out of hand, i'll give a prep talk to them. i can literately visualise everything now. like, myself taking over sarah lam, our wonderful, strict commander. i really respect her for her dedication to gb though she doesnt really like it. she knows that we're like pretty no hope kinda thing, but she still persisted and did her best during drill. i really want her to know that her hard work is really being appreciated by a small junior like me. i mean, she knows that our drill is like quite horrible but she still takes the effort to compliment us on the goods we did. i could tell on sat that she kinda gave up hope la. but slam! dont give up ok =) get well soon and just come back for drill tmr!
darn it's super late now.. 2am. and i gotta wake up at 7am for trg. well, i just wish the best for everybody in everything they do. it's a tough world out there.
I had a life
But school destroyed it
-anon
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