To CROSSIES:

dont wanna blog much but i'm just very sorry.

i'm really sorry abt wed's trg at macritchie. the one ytd.. on 24th nov. where we ran abt 9 km? yea that one. i'm just really sorry. reason? cos i was late for trg. i know others might think that it's ok for pple to be late for training like once in a while. but u guys know how many times i've been late for trg. i'm really really sorry. i duno how u all felt when mr ng was talking to u all and suddenly all ur eyes get distracted as u see me running towards u all. i saw the really disturbed look on almost everyone and i could feel a sense of 'hatred'. ok it might not be hatredness but i felt that u all were VERY irritated with me and my lateness for trg. u guys all couldnt take it and just wanted to shout at me right..just that mr ng was still talking to u all and that hindered u guys from shouting at me. i mean that's how i feel abt u all. i know i shld be really regretful abt all my lateness etc and i shld shut my mouth during trg cos i've let u all down. i shldnt be talking to u guys and laugh at ur jokes cos i shld be silently slipping away after trg and brood over the terrible mistake i made. u all practically daoed me and did not even speak to me!!except for grace cos i needed to ask someone what the workout was. well, i just wanna give my apologies and i really hope to seek ur forgiveness. i'm very happy that u all didnt like dao or lecture me after trg that i was late.even mr ng didnt talk to me abt it! really, thanks. i'll really try to be early for trgs for the rest of the hols. i'm really regretful abt it. but i'm e type of person that's really difficult to change. why u think i'm still so slack in studies. i know i'm the capt and am supposed to be a good example. i'm really serious abt this. i really am very sorry abt that trg and all the past trgs where i've been late for trg. pls forgive me

Yours Truly,
A really conscience-stricken captain

Numb By Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus:]

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
An' every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus: Repeat]

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

[Chorus: Repeat]

I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2)

The nail did not hold Jesus up on the cross
It was His love for us
-Anon