hey, thanks for all the memories you guys have been giving me. esp for this yr. sec1 and sec2 life for me has been really different.
Monday, November 29, 2004
Thursday, November 25, 2004
To CROSSIES:
dont wanna blog much but i'm just very sorry.
i'm really sorry abt wed's trg at macritchie. the one ytd.. on 24th nov. where we ran abt 9 km? yea that one. i'm just really sorry. reason? cos i was late for trg. i know others might think that it's ok for pple to be late for training like once in a while. but u guys know how many times i've been late for trg. i'm really really sorry. i duno how u all felt when mr ng was talking to u all and suddenly all ur eyes get distracted as u see me running towards u all. i saw the really disturbed look on almost everyone and i could feel a sense of 'hatred'. ok it might not be hatredness but i felt that u all were VERY irritated with me and my lateness for trg. u guys all couldnt take it and just wanted to shout at me right..just that mr ng was still talking to u all and that hindered u guys from shouting at me. i mean that's how i feel abt u all. i know i shld be really regretful abt all my lateness etc and i shld shut my mouth during trg cos i've let u all down. i shldnt be talking to u guys and laugh at ur jokes cos i shld be silently slipping away after trg and brood over the terrible mistake i made. u all practically daoed me and did not even speak to me!!except for grace cos i needed to ask someone what the workout was. well, i just wanna give my apologies and i really hope to seek ur forgiveness. i'm very happy that u all didnt like dao or lecture me after trg that i was late.even mr ng didnt talk to me abt it! really, thanks. i'll really try to be early for trgs for the rest of the hols. i'm really regretful abt it. but i'm e type of person that's really difficult to change. why u think i'm still so slack in studies. i know i'm the capt and am supposed to be a good example. i'm really serious abt this. i really am very sorry abt that trg and all the past trgs where i've been late for trg. pls forgive me
Yours Truly,
A really conscience-stricken captain
Numb By Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
An' every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus: Repeat]
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
[Chorus: Repeat]
I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2)
The nail did not hold Jesus up on the cross
It was His love for us
-Anon
dont wanna blog much but i'm just very sorry.
i'm really sorry abt wed's trg at macritchie. the one ytd.. on 24th nov. where we ran abt 9 km? yea that one. i'm just really sorry. reason? cos i was late for trg. i know others might think that it's ok for pple to be late for training like once in a while. but u guys know how many times i've been late for trg. i'm really really sorry. i duno how u all felt when mr ng was talking to u all and suddenly all ur eyes get distracted as u see me running towards u all. i saw the really disturbed look on almost everyone and i could feel a sense of 'hatred'. ok it might not be hatredness but i felt that u all were VERY irritated with me and my lateness for trg. u guys all couldnt take it and just wanted to shout at me right..just that mr ng was still talking to u all and that hindered u guys from shouting at me. i mean that's how i feel abt u all. i know i shld be really regretful abt all my lateness etc and i shld shut my mouth during trg cos i've let u all down. i shldnt be talking to u guys and laugh at ur jokes cos i shld be silently slipping away after trg and brood over the terrible mistake i made. u all practically daoed me and did not even speak to me!!except for grace cos i needed to ask someone what the workout was. well, i just wanna give my apologies and i really hope to seek ur forgiveness. i'm very happy that u all didnt like dao or lecture me after trg that i was late.even mr ng didnt talk to me abt it! really, thanks. i'll really try to be early for trgs for the rest of the hols. i'm really regretful abt it. but i'm e type of person that's really difficult to change. why u think i'm still so slack in studies. i know i'm the capt and am supposed to be a good example. i'm really serious abt this. i really am very sorry abt that trg and all the past trgs where i've been late for trg. pls forgive me
Yours Truly,
A really conscience-stricken captain
Numb By Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus:]
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
An' every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus: Repeat]
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
[Chorus: Repeat]
I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be (x2)
The nail did not hold Jesus up on the cross
It was His love for us
-Anon
Monday, November 22, 2004
woah, last time i blogged was like 10 days ago!!..of which, in the 10 days, i went for TWO camps..GB and LTC. tiring as it was, i enjoyed myself! for both camps that is. GB camp was just ultra cool. Sleeping under the fishes.. wheee! hmm, LTC, well that was like power camp! i really learnt a lot during the camp and yea, actually i'm glad it's over haha. But the sleeping time was like horrible, esp the 2nd night. I don't know what got into me..! The people that were talking suddenly wanted to tell ghost stories, and i was under my sleeping bag feeling very scared. My heart was pumping like crazy. I could feel the adrenaline rush. I don't know what was happening to me. Okok, i don't wanna revive that feeling. Hmm, what else. Oh yes, I wanna talk abt everybody in the grp another time. It's pretty late now. Want a short update on LTC, go to shern's http://horsefantasy.diaryland.com blog. Was in the same group as her. Yeah i went for camp and skipped training. But hey, the ltc-ers did our fair share of training man. Like running from cityhall mrt all the way to esplanade then run back to suntec and then back to through the same route to the mrt. Goodness, it was both mentally and physically challenging. We really went through a lot together. We didn't talk much during our meal times i must admit. Heehee.. Partially coz' we were busy stuffing ourselves with food. However, i really felt the bond between everyone. Take this as an example. I nvr thought I'd ever talk to shuying..and we somehow ended up in the same group. Thus, leading to waiting for each other b4 running to the next place. The greatest shock that came to me was how friendly Tann Ting was. Gosh, she's like damn friendly and encouraging man. Her cool, dao face didn't go with her personality i must say.
Ok enough about LTC. Drill com is in TWO days. We have only tmr left to practise. Personally speaking, I don't think contingent3 aka my cont. has any hope. Sigh.. Firstly, we're so slack and the juniors cant seem to perfect their drill. Yes, my uniform is in a complete mess, my boots are damn ultra un-shiny n yea, I'm not mentally prepared. 60% of me wants to pon training and like train another day or just train by myself in the afternoon..or, sacrifice my lunch break and run at the ugh, sch track. I don't really have a liking for the sch track. But then again, I've committed myself to BOTH ccas and i can't forfeit one for another. It's tough being in two ccas and yet being recognised with a position and rank in both. Oh well. I guess I have no choice but to go for trg tmr. At least i can polish my boots b4 that...?!?!? haha.. time saving skills. Darn..sarah is sick now and will be late for drill prac tmr. I'll be going for drill prac in the late morning. Then, when sarah comes, she's leaving in the afternoon for tuition. This is really falling apart and tmr is like our final prac! Slam! I wish i could just ask u to stay home, recupurate and come back to sch on tues all ready to scream/shout the sch down! But yea, tmr's the last day. I really don't know what's going to happen for drill com man. I don't want to be seen crying in front of my juniors cos we, as a contingent, did not do our best! I'm sure I'd do my best. But what abt the rest u see... Sigh. Well, glad to say, our marker has improved!! really happy for her. ok fine, i forgot her name. hehee i dont wanna strain my brains la. and for our stamps, sigh! at least the pri sch got the ultimate stamper, *north stars* to do the job. now it's only a matter of whether we can do it together!! and it's usually the sec pple stamping louder to combine the stamps. thing is that my right calf hurts like sheeeeet whether i stamp. it started hurting after ltc!! and i need it to impress the judges during the 1st part. darn... this is really going all wrong for me. oh wait i got one good thing going on!!
swift is postponed to 9th jan!!! so yup, i can get my right calf, left knee and left upper arm to rest. i duno what happen to my left arm la.. hurts whenever i swing it.
really excited for trg tmr. gonna see my extended*3 family again after soo long. i really miss x!! i miss the time b4 x nationals when i'll spend so much time at turf city..after trg. after trg, we'd just stay back at macs...or the hawker there and eat our late afternoon meal. after which we'll go to the finishing part of the route and just take loads of crazy pics. what fun. i rmb it was the seniors that mostly stayed back and me..since i stay so near there. i really like turf city. the route, well it's challenging but i've grown to love it. the times i spent there studying was fruitful too. i'm like really slow at memorising la. but over there at the macs, it's really quiet with 98.7 blasting over there and it's pretty secluded. except for the many working adults going there to do their work. oh and i still rmb this guy that i saw of the 2 times i went. after i went there with esther, i stopped going there. partially cos of the disturbing pple there. kept kachiaoing me. i still rmbed they called us lesbians and one girl was like," aiyah got the looks only! no xing ge one la!"(in chinese that is) walao eh... so threatening haha.. but yea, it's pretty far in and i didnt have any time to go there. i really like that place. it's like my 2nd home. Again as i'll say, if it weren't too far in, and more pple went there, I'd definately make that my 2nd home.
I'm slacking so much and I've missed SO many trgs already. I duno what. OH YES. i've not been doing my self runs and during those non running days, it seems pretty boring and it feels like a wk that i've not ran. so yea. and now, i'm like wishing real hard that my knee or calf will hurt like sheeet tmr during warm up so that i can limp to mr ng and complain to him abt my aches. which will result him in saying," ok. dont run today. just go home and swim ok" what a horrible and slack capt mg has. imagine when rach is gone and i'm gonna take the place of the capt that so many others b4 me have taken. i can be really fierce if i want to. but i cant be fierce during every trg! 1stly, i'd lose cells and die early. 2ndly, i'd grow white hair. 3rdly, pple wldnt like me. 4thly, i'd be the person i really dread meeting up with every trg. so back to my pt why i dont wanna go for trg tmr. so that i can go to sch and teach the pri sch their drill! tmr is the last day, and i really want to just perfect our drill standard. tmr is the last day of prac so i can just shout at the kids for all i care and be like a mu lao hu. certainly, there isnt any time left to do rank drill and all but i really think that we really need to do those things. but then again, not say my drill very good la. and if things go out of hand, i'll give a prep talk to them. i can literately visualise everything now. like, myself taking over sarah lam, our wonderful, strict commander. i really respect her for her dedication to gb though she doesnt really like it. she knows that we're like pretty no hope kinda thing, but she still persisted and did her best during drill. i really want her to know that her hard work is really being appreciated by a small junior like me. i mean, she knows that our drill is like quite horrible but she still takes the effort to compliment us on the goods we did. i could tell on sat that she kinda gave up hope la. but slam! dont give up ok =) get well soon and just come back for drill tmr!
darn it's super late now.. 2am. and i gotta wake up at 7am for trg. well, i just wish the best for everybody in everything they do. it's a tough world out there.
I had a life
But school destroyed it
-anon
Ok enough about LTC. Drill com is in TWO days. We have only tmr left to practise. Personally speaking, I don't think contingent3 aka my cont. has any hope. Sigh.. Firstly, we're so slack and the juniors cant seem to perfect their drill. Yes, my uniform is in a complete mess, my boots are damn ultra un-shiny n yea, I'm not mentally prepared. 60% of me wants to pon training and like train another day or just train by myself in the afternoon..or, sacrifice my lunch break and run at the ugh, sch track. I don't really have a liking for the sch track. But then again, I've committed myself to BOTH ccas and i can't forfeit one for another. It's tough being in two ccas and yet being recognised with a position and rank in both. Oh well. I guess I have no choice but to go for trg tmr. At least i can polish my boots b4 that...?!?!? haha.. time saving skills. Darn..sarah is sick now and will be late for drill prac tmr. I'll be going for drill prac in the late morning. Then, when sarah comes, she's leaving in the afternoon for tuition. This is really falling apart and tmr is like our final prac! Slam! I wish i could just ask u to stay home, recupurate and come back to sch on tues all ready to scream/shout the sch down! But yea, tmr's the last day. I really don't know what's going to happen for drill com man. I don't want to be seen crying in front of my juniors cos we, as a contingent, did not do our best! I'm sure I'd do my best. But what abt the rest u see... Sigh. Well, glad to say, our marker has improved!! really happy for her. ok fine, i forgot her name. hehee i dont wanna strain my brains la. and for our stamps, sigh! at least the pri sch got the ultimate stamper, *north stars* to do the job. now it's only a matter of whether we can do it together!! and it's usually the sec pple stamping louder to combine the stamps. thing is that my right calf hurts like sheeeeet whether i stamp. it started hurting after ltc!! and i need it to impress the judges during the 1st part. darn... this is really going all wrong for me. oh wait i got one good thing going on!!
swift is postponed to 9th jan!!! so yup, i can get my right calf, left knee and left upper arm to rest. i duno what happen to my left arm la.. hurts whenever i swing it.
really excited for trg tmr. gonna see my extended*3 family again after soo long. i really miss x!! i miss the time b4 x nationals when i'll spend so much time at turf city..after trg. after trg, we'd just stay back at macs...or the hawker there and eat our late afternoon meal. after which we'll go to the finishing part of the route and just take loads of crazy pics. what fun. i rmb it was the seniors that mostly stayed back and me..since i stay so near there. i really like turf city. the route, well it's challenging but i've grown to love it. the times i spent there studying was fruitful too. i'm like really slow at memorising la. but over there at the macs, it's really quiet with 98.7 blasting over there and it's pretty secluded. except for the many working adults going there to do their work. oh and i still rmb this guy that i saw of the 2 times i went. after i went there with esther, i stopped going there. partially cos of the disturbing pple there. kept kachiaoing me. i still rmbed they called us lesbians and one girl was like," aiyah got the looks only! no xing ge one la!"(in chinese that is) walao eh... so threatening haha.. but yea, it's pretty far in and i didnt have any time to go there. i really like that place. it's like my 2nd home. Again as i'll say, if it weren't too far in, and more pple went there, I'd definately make that my 2nd home.
I'm slacking so much and I've missed SO many trgs already. I duno what. OH YES. i've not been doing my self runs and during those non running days, it seems pretty boring and it feels like a wk that i've not ran. so yea. and now, i'm like wishing real hard that my knee or calf will hurt like sheeet tmr during warm up so that i can limp to mr ng and complain to him abt my aches. which will result him in saying," ok. dont run today. just go home and swim ok" what a horrible and slack capt mg has. imagine when rach is gone and i'm gonna take the place of the capt that so many others b4 me have taken. i can be really fierce if i want to. but i cant be fierce during every trg! 1stly, i'd lose cells and die early. 2ndly, i'd grow white hair. 3rdly, pple wldnt like me. 4thly, i'd be the person i really dread meeting up with every trg. so back to my pt why i dont wanna go for trg tmr. so that i can go to sch and teach the pri sch their drill! tmr is the last day, and i really want to just perfect our drill standard. tmr is the last day of prac so i can just shout at the kids for all i care and be like a mu lao hu. certainly, there isnt any time left to do rank drill and all but i really think that we really need to do those things. but then again, not say my drill very good la. and if things go out of hand, i'll give a prep talk to them. i can literately visualise everything now. like, myself taking over sarah lam, our wonderful, strict commander. i really respect her for her dedication to gb though she doesnt really like it. she knows that we're like pretty no hope kinda thing, but she still persisted and did her best during drill. i really want her to know that her hard work is really being appreciated by a small junior like me. i mean, she knows that our drill is like quite horrible but she still takes the effort to compliment us on the goods we did. i could tell on sat that she kinda gave up hope la. but slam! dont give up ok =) get well soon and just come back for drill tmr!
darn it's super late now.. 2am. and i gotta wake up at 7am for trg. well, i just wish the best for everybody in everything they do. it's a tough world out there.
I had a life
But school destroyed it
-anon
Friday, November 12, 2004
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
self reflection time.
hmm, i did 2 things i'd regret if i dont do it. and i'm really proud of myself
1st thing, believe it or not, i wrote a 'farewell' note to my tuition laoshi since it was gonna be my last day with her. i passed it to her ytd. i was actually debating with myself whether i shld give it to her, feel a little embarrassed but let her know how much i really appreciate her, or throw the letter away and just be some corner student. there were a few hanyupinyins, english phrases and yea, messy chinese words. i really hope she can read my letter. i'm really very appreciative of how much effort she puts in during class just to keep us attentive. she's a very bubbly teacher and is so hyper. well, at least for my last day of tuition there, i walked out of the classroom with a sense of pride.
2nd thing, today for trg, we did northern route and mr ng came up with this loop thing towards the girls/boys route so that we can gain more distance. we could do the loop 1-2 times..all really up to us. as i ran finish the northern route, i saw teo, joy and charissa at the barrier resting. they just came recovered from their injuries and cant really run much. i really had this urge to just stop since i was already very tired n give the excuse that i couldn't take it anymore.
WAIT.
mr ng isnt here anymore. oh that's better..then i dont need to give excuse to anybody! then, hu do i give the excuse to? my frens? erm, what has my slack running gotta do with them.. it then just hit me that the person i shld be giving e excuse to, is none other than myself. but i cant give the excuse that i'm dying..my mind just says that but i'm very sure my body can go one. so, i had another debation as to whether i shld continue. in e end, i did since i saw sheryl running up the hill. if a sec1 girl can do it.. why not me. so yup i ran up and up and up..i was on the verge of walking already la. it was short a long slope. well, i was then rewarded with a downhill..a SHORT downhill. then i had to run UPhill again. this slope is short, but VERY steep. not wanting to give up, i pushed on and ran down a gentle slope(take note, this is s'pore. so the gentle sloping is quite gentle). after what seemed like 8km(i'm exaggerating), i finally reached the opening of macritchie again then sheryl told me that she's gonna stop since she cant take it already. yeah i saw her...from behind. at least she did one loop. so this comes to my and myself again. shld i run a 2nd loop and suffer but savour victory? or just give up and be a loser to myself for the rest of the day.. at least i've gained abt 1km more dist already. yeah, the ans is quite obvious.
so i did a 2nd loop and then went to rejoin back with my x fellows. though i didnt run like some lunatic, i was already very happy that i made the right decision and finished the workout. i dont wanna repeat my mistake like in sec1. i had suffered too much emotionally already. i'd come home everyday after trg and thing, 'i could have pushed harder!' or " i could have ran longer!" then i'd be too sad and moody to do anything. i really hated myself then. life was such a pain for me and i was just like any other i-wanna-die-student. it was then. i really duno what made me really come back to X. there wasnt any like mr ng's "u dont come to trg u die!" talks or whatever. i really REALLY 4got what happened that made me come back to my sense and realise that i've been slacking too much. sigh, this hurts. i've found my true self through running. running gives a lot of time for self reflection i must say.
then again, i dont think i'll be able to do a good run for e swift com. 10 km. 10 whole solid km. WOW. siao la.. i cant believe i'm actually wanting to go for it and i was quite excited abt it too. i guess some of my negativeness still stays. it's difficult for me to refocus. well, FOCUS!! i'm gonna concentrate on natls06' and do my best! i'm sooo glad that natls are being pushed to 3rdwk of april. it gives the seniors more time to train =D i promise i'll be at the stands cheering my heart out for u all. i know u all want it. it's shown through your gesture, your face and your determination. even by what u all say. i know mg can do it! To God be the glory.
Just do it
Nike
(ok i feel e adrenaline rush now)
hmm, i did 2 things i'd regret if i dont do it. and i'm really proud of myself
1st thing, believe it or not, i wrote a 'farewell' note to my tuition laoshi since it was gonna be my last day with her. i passed it to her ytd. i was actually debating with myself whether i shld give it to her, feel a little embarrassed but let her know how much i really appreciate her, or throw the letter away and just be some corner student. there were a few hanyupinyins, english phrases and yea, messy chinese words. i really hope she can read my letter. i'm really very appreciative of how much effort she puts in during class just to keep us attentive. she's a very bubbly teacher and is so hyper. well, at least for my last day of tuition there, i walked out of the classroom with a sense of pride.
2nd thing, today for trg, we did northern route and mr ng came up with this loop thing towards the girls/boys route so that we can gain more distance. we could do the loop 1-2 times..all really up to us. as i ran finish the northern route, i saw teo, joy and charissa at the barrier resting. they just came recovered from their injuries and cant really run much. i really had this urge to just stop since i was already very tired n give the excuse that i couldn't take it anymore.
WAIT.
mr ng isnt here anymore. oh that's better..then i dont need to give excuse to anybody! then, hu do i give the excuse to? my frens? erm, what has my slack running gotta do with them.. it then just hit me that the person i shld be giving e excuse to, is none other than myself. but i cant give the excuse that i'm dying..my mind just says that but i'm very sure my body can go one. so, i had another debation as to whether i shld continue. in e end, i did since i saw sheryl running up the hill. if a sec1 girl can do it.. why not me. so yup i ran up and up and up..i was on the verge of walking already la. it was short a long slope. well, i was then rewarded with a downhill..a SHORT downhill. then i had to run UPhill again. this slope is short, but VERY steep. not wanting to give up, i pushed on and ran down a gentle slope(take note, this is s'pore. so the gentle sloping is quite gentle). after what seemed like 8km(i'm exaggerating), i finally reached the opening of macritchie again then sheryl told me that she's gonna stop since she cant take it already. yeah i saw her...from behind. at least she did one loop. so this comes to my and myself again. shld i run a 2nd loop and suffer but savour victory? or just give up and be a loser to myself for the rest of the day.. at least i've gained abt 1km more dist already. yeah, the ans is quite obvious.
so i did a 2nd loop and then went to rejoin back with my x fellows. though i didnt run like some lunatic, i was already very happy that i made the right decision and finished the workout. i dont wanna repeat my mistake like in sec1. i had suffered too much emotionally already. i'd come home everyday after trg and thing, 'i could have pushed harder!' or " i could have ran longer!" then i'd be too sad and moody to do anything. i really hated myself then. life was such a pain for me and i was just like any other i-wanna-die-student. it was then. i really duno what made me really come back to X. there wasnt any like mr ng's "u dont come to trg u die!" talks or whatever. i really REALLY 4got what happened that made me come back to my sense and realise that i've been slacking too much. sigh, this hurts. i've found my true self through running. running gives a lot of time for self reflection i must say.
then again, i dont think i'll be able to do a good run for e swift com. 10 km. 10 whole solid km. WOW. siao la.. i cant believe i'm actually wanting to go for it and i was quite excited abt it too. i guess some of my negativeness still stays. it's difficult for me to refocus. well, FOCUS!! i'm gonna concentrate on natls06' and do my best! i'm sooo glad that natls are being pushed to 3rdwk of april. it gives the seniors more time to train =D i promise i'll be at the stands cheering my heart out for u all. i know u all want it. it's shown through your gesture, your face and your determination. even by what u all say. i know mg can do it! To God be the glory.
Just do it
Nike
(ok i feel e adrenaline rush now)
Thursday, November 04, 2004
3/11/04
I’m feeling SOOO tired. It seems that I’ve been studying 5 chpts of History and am taking a short break. I’m feeling so densed! Btw, I didn’t like study at all ah.
Sigh, I miss 2s. I didn't know who my gd friends were in 2S…ok, actually I did. It’s the big lot of u all. But everybody has at least 1 or 2 closer friends. Since the beginning of the yr, I’ve been looking for u guys. I know deep down that there really is SOMEBODY out there…but I really couldn’t make out who it is. It’s pretty sad. God only showed me who u guys are at the end of the yr.. sigh, why did I look past u 2? Why didn’t I put u in my mind as one of them? Probably because of the super big differences we have character, personality, and interests. Why didn’t God lead me to u guys earlier? He has a really good sense of humour as to how i gotta know u all more.
It was the 1st day of school after exams and I was feeling very tired. I was alone so U prob pitied me n accompanied me. Then, YOU came. [btw, I shan’t disclose your names. I scared later u scold me. Or probably u don’t want pple to know u have me as ur close fren hahaha] I don’t remember what actually we talked abt but I remember that it entertained me. The 3 of us became ‘inseparable’. Haha note the ""s ah… I know I always come up with really stupid reasons for not wanting to follow either of u to the toilet. The toilet is like so far away!
Come to think about it, I can’t imagine myself being called one of u guys! I don’t mean anything bad. Just that, we are like worlds apart. Most common debate: GB vs Guides. Haha of coz GB always win since guides is..bori..is fun! FUN. Our friendship always remind me of what somebody told me…
There were a group of girls that were always together, during free periods, lunch breaks etc. It was a mixture of sports girls, guai kias, prefects, slackers,etc. however, they never got into conflicts and could get along very well .
"Can go out tomorrow? Watch grudge!"
"Eh, I can’t leh… got training. Heh, sorry ah!"
"Oh… never mind! It’s ok, another time then =)"
And it’s not only once. I’m really sorry for rejecting u guys so many times. Can’t help it if X is hardworking =D
"tiff, free to go kap today?"
"Erm, today is Friday… i…"
"oh ya, got training right…"
I just find it very amusing. Whenever I think about these kinda situations,it always makes me smile. I mean, who wldnt…ok maybe those non tiff pple. It’s like, u guys actually rmb my trg days! Though u all are like antiX…or rather anti running haha..
oh yes! I still rmbed the first and last outing we had together! Hahaha, it was SUPER FUNNY! I can’t describe how we 3 managed to go out alone…heehee. I'll get killed. Rmb how stone and sad we were after e 3 guys talked to us? N we kept trying to go back to find them! How exciting. JUST THAT we were so sian after that. Walk here n there…leg pain sia! Luckily we found annabelle and celestine. It was fun going out with u guys. It was even my 1st time going to the skate park and watch pple skate. Hurry! When are we going to east coast park to build sandcastles..??!?
Today we had track trg. Ok track training sounds weird. I forgot the exact name… oh yea! Speed workout. Anyway, though it was only 4 * 400m, I almost died anyway. 1.38, 1.35, 1.39, 1.33. Only reason I’m writing my timings are so that if Mr Ng wants to see our log bks, I can just refer from here. It was SORCHING HOT. Like the sun moved 10cm nearer to Earth. Good thing the sun moved another 20cm nearer AFTER we finished training.
Sigh, I didn’t really feel too good about today’s workout. Not cos of my timings but I feel that I’m running for the wrong reasons now. Maybe it’s because training has just resumed. See right, usually after a run, no matter how lousy the timing, I’d still feel the satisfaction, knowing that I ran my best today. I thought that by running ur best, you’d feel that way. But, I just realised that it’s not true, only today, only 2 yrs after I ran. I did pia like siao for the last 100m..just that I don’t feel the satisfaction. I was definitely running for the wrong reason today. What was it? I can’t seem to figure it out. Argh, so frustrating. Ok forget it. I’m not going to strain my head further.
Heehee, realise I didn’t say ‘good run’ to any of guys. Ok maybe only to a few. I guess it’s not a habit for me to say ‘good run’ after each run. It goes to show that I really mean it when I actually congratulation u guys on ur run ok. Esp juniors, don’t think that it’s just some routine that we’ve to follow. We seniors really mean what we say.
Just like praying to God b4 u eat or sleep or whatever. I mean like, I’ve been taught since young to thank God for the food. There was a pt of time I literately said the same prayer of thanksgiving for every meal. It became a habit for me. There was no meaning in my prayer.N I felt that it was v insincere. After I became more mature [=D] I resumed my thanksgiving. But I wldn’t pray if it was gonna be a meaningless prayer. I feel that it ain’t fair to God, right? I duno.
After trg,I took about an hr break n went back to school for drill. Rmb the sun moved 20cm nearer after my training, yeah, I was melting under the sun. Walao eh, u guys still put tanning oil eh. Gee the smell STINKS. Stupid banana boat. Anyway I had a headache soon and I almost couldn’t take it. Woah, was feeling so dizzy. Like Earth was spinning even faster than usual. See, I’m so environmental, in the other way. I was feeling SO lethargic when I was walking back home. I was literately dragging my feet back home. My feet were aching like…duno what like that la! All the kpo neighbours at my condo that were looking at me walk can testify to that! I was feeling so sick.nvr eat enough vitamin C.
I just wrote a typical entry. Haha. I really can’t help it if I’m long-winded. But I’ll really need it for history and lit. oh yea, I’m taking full lit and ½ history. I really duno what I’m getting myself into. I’m really taking Ms Ng’s words into consideration!abt not taking ½ lit. Well, I guess what she says actually makes sense la. Coming to think about it, ME? Lit?!?! hahaha.. Well, I better take a lit sub. Must really learn how to improve my already magnificent English. Haha. I don’t know why people always object to me whenever I say that I’m thinking of taking IB lor. Am I that kuku? >.< for one, God might be having a plan for me and suddenly give me A LOT of motivation to study and I'd get a perfect score! Hey, God really work wonders ok. I’ve heard the testimonials of my seniors. But if I do get a perfect score, I’d try to go NJ =X NJ’s such a nice sch! It’s just such an honour being there. Being called an NJ student. In contradiction, I don’t think I’ll like the idea of representing a weird sch I duno know about. I’d still wanna go for ACJC…since that’s the only JC I can think of I’d love representing. That is, if I’m good enough, but that’s a different story la.
I really didn’t know what I was getting into when I joined X in sec1. Being called a xcountry runner is an honour. It’s like everybody’s dream. (I DON’T CARE IF U OPPOSE ;P THIS IS MY ENTRY, MY THOUGHTS =PPP) however, it takes a lot to be called one. Eg, lots of sacrifices, commitment, madness and basically, your life. I might even have to quit gb next yr.. since there’s the 5 day wk thing next yr. Sigh, I don’t really like gb…but being in this cca for abt 7yrs, it’s difficult to quit and just forget about it. ANYWAY, back to my pt, yea actually it just takes a lot of madness to join X. that’s probably why I’m there =P sigh, I don’t even know if I’m gonna join X in jc… but what else is there to do. Running, in it’s slow process, has been planted in my bones, my mind, and slowly, to my life. I want to run, yet I don’t. Seriously, I can’t imagine tiffany tan running another 4 * 400m. it’s really gonna kill me. But previously, we can run like what… 20 * 200m, 5 * 600m etc. I can’t remember those really difficult trg workouts. OH YES. 8 * 400m. but that wasn’t the difficult-est. not only that, there’re the leg pains, arm pains, chest, head, stomach, whatever pains, side effects of running too much, leg injuries or, victories and achievements to face. I rmb I use to limp quite a bit…when my legs couldn’t adapt to running too much. I kinda hated it. Since I couldn’t walk fast, or walk a lot without my legs aching. Note that it’s WALKING and not running. However, there was a sense of pride in each limp that I take. Because I know that it takes a lot of effort and energy to actually get ur legs to ache until u have to limp. So, to all those injured pple, well done and congrats to the hard work you’ve put in! Obviously, get well soon too! Come back for trg quickly!!!! Nationals are just round the corner. Goodness, I don’t even think I’m as prepared as last yr. Or prob we had intense intensive trg in dec. *shudders*
Ok I think I’ve written my fair bit. So I shall stop here. Eh pple, tag leh! U think u guys are anonymous ah?!?! Grrr, got nth to say to me one meh… btw, hi church annabelle! Hahhaa.. church annabelle sounds wrong. Anyway, yea, study hard during the hols n get ready for next yr! I dont think I’ll be able to take GB and X as my ccas next yr… not to forget swimming! ARRGHH… I might as well not swim for the sch right… I don’t even get any pts for the sch! But for myself yes la. Ohohoh, ya ya I must swim! Heehee. I’m horrible. Well, I’ll TRY to train la. I’d prob swim alone. It’s too scary to go back to training.
"The greater the difficulty, the more glory and joy it brings when accomplished."
I’m feeling SOOO tired. It seems that I’ve been studying 5 chpts of History and am taking a short break. I’m feeling so densed! Btw, I didn’t like study at all ah.
Sigh, I miss 2s. I didn't know who my gd friends were in 2S…ok, actually I did. It’s the big lot of u all. But everybody has at least 1 or 2 closer friends. Since the beginning of the yr, I’ve been looking for u guys. I know deep down that there really is SOMEBODY out there…but I really couldn’t make out who it is. It’s pretty sad. God only showed me who u guys are at the end of the yr.. sigh, why did I look past u 2? Why didn’t I put u in my mind as one of them? Probably because of the super big differences we have character, personality, and interests. Why didn’t God lead me to u guys earlier? He has a really good sense of humour as to how i gotta know u all more.
It was the 1st day of school after exams and I was feeling very tired. I was alone so U prob pitied me n accompanied me. Then, YOU came. [btw, I shan’t disclose your names. I scared later u scold me. Or probably u don’t want pple to know u have me as ur close fren hahaha] I don’t remember what actually we talked abt but I remember that it entertained me. The 3 of us became ‘inseparable’. Haha note the ""s ah… I know I always come up with really stupid reasons for not wanting to follow either of u to the toilet. The toilet is like so far away!
Come to think about it, I can’t imagine myself being called one of u guys! I don’t mean anything bad. Just that, we are like worlds apart. Most common debate: GB vs Guides. Haha of coz GB always win since guides is..bori..is fun! FUN. Our friendship always remind me of what somebody told me…
There were a group of girls that were always together, during free periods, lunch breaks etc. It was a mixture of sports girls, guai kias, prefects, slackers,etc. however, they never got into conflicts and could get along very well .
"Can go out tomorrow? Watch grudge!"
"Eh, I can’t leh… got training. Heh, sorry ah!"
"Oh… never mind! It’s ok, another time then =)"
And it’s not only once. I’m really sorry for rejecting u guys so many times. Can’t help it if X is hardworking =D
"tiff, free to go kap today?"
"Erm, today is Friday… i…"
"oh ya, got training right…"
I just find it very amusing. Whenever I think about these kinda situations,it always makes me smile. I mean, who wldnt…ok maybe those non tiff pple. It’s like, u guys actually rmb my trg days! Though u all are like antiX…or rather anti running haha..
oh yes! I still rmbed the first and last outing we had together! Hahaha, it was SUPER FUNNY! I can’t describe how we 3 managed to go out alone…heehee. I'll get killed. Rmb how stone and sad we were after e 3 guys talked to us? N we kept trying to go back to find them! How exciting. JUST THAT we were so sian after that. Walk here n there…leg pain sia! Luckily we found annabelle and celestine. It was fun going out with u guys. It was even my 1st time going to the skate park and watch pple skate. Hurry! When are we going to east coast park to build sandcastles..??!?
Today we had track trg. Ok track training sounds weird. I forgot the exact name… oh yea! Speed workout. Anyway, though it was only 4 * 400m, I almost died anyway. 1.38, 1.35, 1.39, 1.33. Only reason I’m writing my timings are so that if Mr Ng wants to see our log bks, I can just refer from here. It was SORCHING HOT. Like the sun moved 10cm nearer to Earth. Good thing the sun moved another 20cm nearer AFTER we finished training.
Sigh, I didn’t really feel too good about today’s workout. Not cos of my timings but I feel that I’m running for the wrong reasons now. Maybe it’s because training has just resumed. See right, usually after a run, no matter how lousy the timing, I’d still feel the satisfaction, knowing that I ran my best today. I thought that by running ur best, you’d feel that way. But, I just realised that it’s not true, only today, only 2 yrs after I ran. I did pia like siao for the last 100m..just that I don’t feel the satisfaction. I was definitely running for the wrong reason today. What was it? I can’t seem to figure it out. Argh, so frustrating. Ok forget it. I’m not going to strain my head further.
Heehee, realise I didn’t say ‘good run’ to any of guys. Ok maybe only to a few. I guess it’s not a habit for me to say ‘good run’ after each run. It goes to show that I really mean it when I actually congratulation u guys on ur run ok. Esp juniors, don’t think that it’s just some routine that we’ve to follow. We seniors really mean what we say.
Just like praying to God b4 u eat or sleep or whatever. I mean like, I’ve been taught since young to thank God for the food. There was a pt of time I literately said the same prayer of thanksgiving for every meal. It became a habit for me. There was no meaning in my prayer.N I felt that it was v insincere. After I became more mature [=D] I resumed my thanksgiving. But I wldn’t pray if it was gonna be a meaningless prayer. I feel that it ain’t fair to God, right? I duno.
After trg,I took about an hr break n went back to school for drill. Rmb the sun moved 20cm nearer after my training, yeah, I was melting under the sun. Walao eh, u guys still put tanning oil eh. Gee the smell STINKS. Stupid banana boat. Anyway I had a headache soon and I almost couldn’t take it. Woah, was feeling so dizzy. Like Earth was spinning even faster than usual. See, I’m so environmental, in the other way. I was feeling SO lethargic when I was walking back home. I was literately dragging my feet back home. My feet were aching like…duno what like that la! All the kpo neighbours at my condo that were looking at me walk can testify to that! I was feeling so sick.nvr eat enough vitamin C.
I just wrote a typical entry. Haha. I really can’t help it if I’m long-winded. But I’ll really need it for history and lit. oh yea, I’m taking full lit and ½ history. I really duno what I’m getting myself into. I’m really taking Ms Ng’s words into consideration!abt not taking ½ lit. Well, I guess what she says actually makes sense la. Coming to think about it, ME? Lit?!?! hahaha.. Well, I better take a lit sub. Must really learn how to improve my already magnificent English. Haha. I don’t know why people always object to me whenever I say that I’m thinking of taking IB lor. Am I that kuku? >.< for one, God might be having a plan for me and suddenly give me A LOT of motivation to study and I'd get a perfect score! Hey, God really work wonders ok. I’ve heard the testimonials of my seniors. But if I do get a perfect score, I’d try to go NJ =X NJ’s such a nice sch! It’s just such an honour being there. Being called an NJ student. In contradiction, I don’t think I’ll like the idea of representing a weird sch I duno know about. I’d still wanna go for ACJC…since that’s the only JC I can think of I’d love representing. That is, if I’m good enough, but that’s a different story la.
I really didn’t know what I was getting into when I joined X in sec1. Being called a xcountry runner is an honour. It’s like everybody’s dream. (I DON’T CARE IF U OPPOSE ;P THIS IS MY ENTRY, MY THOUGHTS =PPP) however, it takes a lot to be called one. Eg, lots of sacrifices, commitment, madness and basically, your life. I might even have to quit gb next yr.. since there’s the 5 day wk thing next yr. Sigh, I don’t really like gb…but being in this cca for abt 7yrs, it’s difficult to quit and just forget about it. ANYWAY, back to my pt, yea actually it just takes a lot of madness to join X. that’s probably why I’m there =P sigh, I don’t even know if I’m gonna join X in jc… but what else is there to do. Running, in it’s slow process, has been planted in my bones, my mind, and slowly, to my life. I want to run, yet I don’t. Seriously, I can’t imagine tiffany tan running another 4 * 400m. it’s really gonna kill me. But previously, we can run like what… 20 * 200m, 5 * 600m etc. I can’t remember those really difficult trg workouts. OH YES. 8 * 400m. but that wasn’t the difficult-est. not only that, there’re the leg pains, arm pains, chest, head, stomach, whatever pains, side effects of running too much, leg injuries or, victories and achievements to face. I rmb I use to limp quite a bit…when my legs couldn’t adapt to running too much. I kinda hated it. Since I couldn’t walk fast, or walk a lot without my legs aching. Note that it’s WALKING and not running. However, there was a sense of pride in each limp that I take. Because I know that it takes a lot of effort and energy to actually get ur legs to ache until u have to limp. So, to all those injured pple, well done and congrats to the hard work you’ve put in! Obviously, get well soon too! Come back for trg quickly!!!! Nationals are just round the corner. Goodness, I don’t even think I’m as prepared as last yr. Or prob we had intense intensive trg in dec. *shudders*
Ok I think I’ve written my fair bit. So I shall stop here. Eh pple, tag leh! U think u guys are anonymous ah?!?! Grrr, got nth to say to me one meh… btw, hi church annabelle! Hahhaa.. church annabelle sounds wrong. Anyway, yea, study hard during the hols n get ready for next yr! I dont think I’ll be able to take GB and X as my ccas next yr… not to forget swimming! ARRGHH… I might as well not swim for the sch right… I don’t even get any pts for the sch! But for myself yes la. Ohohoh, ya ya I must swim! Heehee. I’m horrible. Well, I’ll TRY to train la. I’d prob swim alone. It’s too scary to go back to training.
"The greater the difficulty, the more glory and joy it brings when accomplished."
Monday, November 01, 2004
time flies. it literately zooms. i still remembered e 1st yr when i felt that it flew by. i was still a mere pri sch girl in p3.2. i rmb the really fun filled lessons i had then. e teachers were the greatest that anyone could have imagined. there was yu lao shi too. haha, she's super cute. she 1st taught me, then my 2nd sister, and this yr, my 3rd sister. both of them always tell me that she'll scold them using MY name, since our names are quite similar.
then again, in sec1, i really really enjoyed my life in 1s. e triplets(val, chris, me) in GB were finally all in the same class! well, sad thing is that, in sec sch, we were a lot less closer than in pri sch. then time took it's nature course of flying by and my 2nd yr in sec sch approaches. and now, it's ending. sigh, that's it. 2s ah... the class pullover was so last min that we can only wear it when we go overseas. it'll be quite cool if some person saw 2 pple wearing the same pullover if we're on a same hol eh? haha.. our pullover is super significant la..
oh yea, p6 yr was really quick. since psle was the most eventful thing. 6.2 was a crazy class.. really crazy. so was 6.5. hahaha their stories are hi-la-rious! anyway, i rmbed that eleanor was sitting in front of me. and cherie was a very loud girl. our lao shi was really funky and she kept talking abt her barker son(am i right? =/ i kinda forgot) cherie and a few others were always sucking up to her too =P hahaha.. it's not bad la.. i was with u guys too. anyway, there was....phua ailin also right. i cant rmb that well. i rmb christine quah and kaikee! anyway, we even had a'speed'queen. then..vic ng was our class chiobu queen or smth. cbq for short. there was a 2nd chiobuqueen who was somebody i forgot and the list followed through. sigh! =) that's the life of pri sch.
ANYWAY.. 2 wks. 2 wks was all it take to make me forget my time i had with my new crazy sitting partner, nat thery. 2 wks in my new sitting area, with the computer sitting in front of me slacking away. during those 2 wks, i really bonded a lot with the table and my beloved chair. i have learned to love the clock in front of me and most importantly, my pen and right hand. i learnt a lot about my right hand and it's uses. it's really amazing seeing how fast my fingers move across the paper in like, 1 1/2hr? esp for geog. goodness, i LOVE my geog script paper. it's really gundu. asking us to colour this and that. my geog paper was filled with crosses as i kept changing my mind on where the most arable land etc is. at least i improved from a 3/25 to a 8.5/25. well, it makes no diff. just that i passed geog!! greatest thanks to my right hand and brain. well, of cos to my left hand too.. without u, the paper wld have no support and my straight lines wldnt be lines anymore. to my legs too, for bringing me from one place to another. from home, to the bus stop, to only take 1 pathetic bus stop to mobil and then to sch. then again, my legs also brought mg to glory of having a 2nd place for c div 04 xcountry inter sch natls. to my eyes n mouth, without the glory of having sight, how could i stay in kap and study. without my mouth, how can i ask qns and get my facts right(though i was still confused after asking pple) there's also my ears, for me to listen to advice from the kap seniors. for me to listen to avril, screaming and shouting on why life is like this, and like that. i concentrate so much better with avril's screamings than the kap goers chattings. oh yes, my nose. i wldnt be able to have life without u =) i love u. what else.. my hair? yes! my hair. really, without u, my head wld not be kept warm and then my brain wld not be able to function properly. and i wanna thank my internal organs too. my lungs, heart, small/big intestines, fallopian tubes(?!?!?!).... etc.. everything in my body! without u guys functioning properly, how could i have lived through 2004. how could i live to see my results improve so much. yea, 62.5% for ave in sec2 is like, rubbish. well, at least i've improved. (yea i know, i've been crapping all the way =) cant help it eh) and last but not least, God. for without Him, i wldnt be given life, to experience joys and sorrows. to experience victories and failure. from gasping for air in the waters, to land. and most imptly, experiencing His grace for us.
esther smsed to remind me abt... oh yes, the elite swim club. sigh, i told her i'd prob be going on tues to train there. told my mum abt it, she respects my decision and said she wldnt mind me training anywhere, as long as i'm ok with it. sigh, i dont have many frens at sicc except for carol, yenxi and the kids. ok that sounded mean. nvm. anyway, though with the few frens there, the 3 mths i spent there trg has really fostered bonds..with the known and unknown pple there. ok if i really go elite, i'll feel as if i've betrayed sicc =X ok fine, i didnt do anything there. i didnt create an impact there or whatever. but it's just my conscious. anyway sicc is really like a 2nd home to me. it has a very homely atmosphere.if it werent so far, i'd go there everyday[that was exaggerated]. i'd study there for final yrs and i'd make everybody there my fren. frm the monkeys there to the manager(another exaggeration). sigh, i dont even feel like training in waters now. wat wld it be? mon, wed, fri, x trg. tues, thurs, sat swimming?!?! oh man... why cant mg just 'buy' swimmers from other schs the way s'pore get foreigners to play for s'pore.
oh well, i better hit the bed now. got drill tmr. OH SHUCKS! i forgot to call radha! hehee =D hope sarah doesnt come here. ok i must think of smth to tell her tmr..like, OH! my phone bill wasnt paid and the line was cut off! ok nvm. anyway, it sucks to do drill while having ur period. grr.. crap, there's trg too! at nie =D =D yay! track work. not exactly that fun.. but yay!
As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We'll still be friends 4eva
then again, in sec1, i really really enjoyed my life in 1s. e triplets(val, chris, me) in GB were finally all in the same class! well, sad thing is that, in sec sch, we were a lot less closer than in pri sch. then time took it's nature course of flying by and my 2nd yr in sec sch approaches. and now, it's ending. sigh, that's it. 2s ah... the class pullover was so last min that we can only wear it when we go overseas. it'll be quite cool if some person saw 2 pple wearing the same pullover if we're on a same hol eh? haha.. our pullover is super significant la..
oh yea, p6 yr was really quick. since psle was the most eventful thing. 6.2 was a crazy class.. really crazy. so was 6.5. hahaha their stories are hi-la-rious! anyway, i rmbed that eleanor was sitting in front of me. and cherie was a very loud girl. our lao shi was really funky and she kept talking abt her barker son(am i right? =/ i kinda forgot) cherie and a few others were always sucking up to her too =P hahaha.. it's not bad la.. i was with u guys too. anyway, there was....phua ailin also right. i cant rmb that well. i rmb christine quah and kaikee! anyway, we even had a'speed'queen. then..vic ng was our class chiobu queen or smth. cbq for short. there was a 2nd chiobuqueen who was somebody i forgot and the list followed through. sigh! =) that's the life of pri sch.
ANYWAY.. 2 wks. 2 wks was all it take to make me forget my time i had with my new crazy sitting partner, nat thery. 2 wks in my new sitting area, with the computer sitting in front of me slacking away. during those 2 wks, i really bonded a lot with the table and my beloved chair. i have learned to love the clock in front of me and most importantly, my pen and right hand. i learnt a lot about my right hand and it's uses. it's really amazing seeing how fast my fingers move across the paper in like, 1 1/2hr? esp for geog. goodness, i LOVE my geog script paper. it's really gundu. asking us to colour this and that. my geog paper was filled with crosses as i kept changing my mind on where the most arable land etc is. at least i improved from a 3/25 to a 8.5/25. well, it makes no diff. just that i passed geog!! greatest thanks to my right hand and brain. well, of cos to my left hand too.. without u, the paper wld have no support and my straight lines wldnt be lines anymore. to my legs too, for bringing me from one place to another. from home, to the bus stop, to only take 1 pathetic bus stop to mobil and then to sch. then again, my legs also brought mg to glory of having a 2nd place for c div 04 xcountry inter sch natls. to my eyes n mouth, without the glory of having sight, how could i stay in kap and study. without my mouth, how can i ask qns and get my facts right(though i was still confused after asking pple) there's also my ears, for me to listen to advice from the kap seniors. for me to listen to avril, screaming and shouting on why life is like this, and like that. i concentrate so much better with avril's screamings than the kap goers chattings. oh yes, my nose. i wldnt be able to have life without u =) i love u. what else.. my hair? yes! my hair. really, without u, my head wld not be kept warm and then my brain wld not be able to function properly. and i wanna thank my internal organs too. my lungs, heart, small/big intestines, fallopian tubes(?!?!?!).... etc.. everything in my body! without u guys functioning properly, how could i have lived through 2004. how could i live to see my results improve so much. yea, 62.5% for ave in sec2 is like, rubbish. well, at least i've improved. (yea i know, i've been crapping all the way =) cant help it eh) and last but not least, God. for without Him, i wldnt be given life, to experience joys and sorrows. to experience victories and failure. from gasping for air in the waters, to land. and most imptly, experiencing His grace for us.
esther smsed to remind me abt... oh yes, the elite swim club. sigh, i told her i'd prob be going on tues to train there. told my mum abt it, she respects my decision and said she wldnt mind me training anywhere, as long as i'm ok with it. sigh, i dont have many frens at sicc except for carol, yenxi and the kids. ok that sounded mean. nvm. anyway, though with the few frens there, the 3 mths i spent there trg has really fostered bonds..with the known and unknown pple there. ok if i really go elite, i'll feel as if i've betrayed sicc =X ok fine, i didnt do anything there. i didnt create an impact there or whatever. but it's just my conscious. anyway sicc is really like a 2nd home to me. it has a very homely atmosphere.if it werent so far, i'd go there everyday[that was exaggerated]. i'd study there for final yrs and i'd make everybody there my fren. frm the monkeys there to the manager(another exaggeration). sigh, i dont even feel like training in waters now. wat wld it be? mon, wed, fri, x trg. tues, thurs, sat swimming?!?! oh man... why cant mg just 'buy' swimmers from other schs the way s'pore get foreigners to play for s'pore.
oh well, i better hit the bed now. got drill tmr. OH SHUCKS! i forgot to call radha! hehee =D hope sarah doesnt come here. ok i must think of smth to tell her tmr..like, OH! my phone bill wasnt paid and the line was cut off! ok nvm. anyway, it sucks to do drill while having ur period. grr.. crap, there's trg too! at nie =D =D yay! track work. not exactly that fun.. but yay!
As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We'll still be friends 4eva
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