daddy is sick. perspiring a lot.... a lot...
praying that he'll get well soon.

but i do feel a little 'awww' when i see him like that. i dont know how to put it. janell got it too when mummy was sick!(and she said she blogged an almost similar post too! the 'mummy is sick' and 'awww' part . sister power) i get this aww...i love you, ______(insert name of sickie). hugs. (i dont do that, nvrdone it b4 at least.this is another topic to talk abt. so fun)

i wonder why...do anybody else feel the same way too?towards certain people lah. if i see, hmmm, who will i laugh at if i see sick?hmm, maybe him. hahahha secret! just read an article abt Freedom of Speech from gp compre and they say we shld be given the freedom but we as writers shld critically take note of wht we're saying. so i wont say the name.

back to daddy. i think maybe cos when hes sick, or whoever for that matter, they're weak internally so theres no strong front put up-no energy to do so. you see a soft side to sickie...one that is of very pure state, earnestly seeking love from any sympathetic passerby(that you know of. not stranger). pure state in that, youre sick and helpless and....basically like a child again. innocent, without being able to fend for yourself..

seeing people in that state makes my heart beat slower... it touches my heart, but it's not the awwmaaan,so touching...feeling. and when it touches my heart, i wont go ard to exclaim what just happened to me inwardly.it's just that 'flutter' feeling i feel in my heart that cant be put to words-putting it into mere words does no justice and it's meant to be kept within.

am i making sense??????hahha...
maybe that's why some people hope to fall sick, or me at least. hahahaha, because i know being in that state will garner more love and concern from others. unconditionally. (because pple are genuinely concerned abt you)

i think i sound like i lack love so i shall stop. but to clear the benefit of doubt, no! i dont lack love :)

back to my tutorials! :):):)
(hahahaha. debbie said i'm very fast. just a yr and i've turned into a full fledged rafflesian. 'green black and white' and what else. oh yea and i'm enjoying my studies. hahahah. awww man, wanted to go for ac's worship under the stars but princess audrey is gonna have a chalet for her bday so that is priority. okay stop.)