how is it that....zzzzrah. damn it. i must stop this shit right .i think even the people arnd me are getting pissed off for dwelling over this for so long. hahah did something this morning that i shldnt have. but i guess without even that, i will still feel that they think so lah.

but i must say from this i learn to depend on my friends more yet be more independent as a girl.

Dear John was a nice story. i was very moved by the story. maybe a bit too affected also lah walao haha .

today i saw a old woman sit alone in a restaurant, dress richly those kind, and ordered pasta and some chicken meat thing. remind me of last time when i looked around the scenarios in hogsbreath and sakuraya. heart wrenching. i dno why everytime i see such thing i feel like crying