"Noah was lucky since he had frequent visitors but too many of the others spent their days watching television to escape the loneliness of their final years."

then i went to pick ryan up and the kids were watching tv too cos i think the teacher finish teaching them alr then they waiting go home. i told janell my interesting observant observation then she said "they grow up watching tv and they die watching tv" .quite sad seh .but like that is the way it just is lah.

goign for some driving stimulator lesson tmr! quite excited leh. some sir talk abt it like some video car driving thing machiam daytona or what .yet i dont think is lah since none of my friends ever mentioned abt it before...which reminds me what a sad pathetic social life i have x_x hah. not that i am complaining. i got my hand of trusty friends whom i am v happy with.

which remidns me someone is coming back!!!!!!!!! i cant say in case her other friend comes then spoil the surprise hahah what are the odds .raechelle pokfulam is coming bacccccccckkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so excited. which damn as laosai reminsd me that i need to go back rjc to talk to luke .... zzz stupid mistake i made at 16years old -.- i hope i dont see mk..

oh ya also i want to talk abt a dream i got 2 nights ago. i finally can logicalise why i screwed up a levels. wah my dream really sucked man because of the struggle i was in but when i woke up i realised that it had always been so. i stopped COMPLETELY doing tutorials in june j1. (i unofficially stopped aft 1st 3mths) then i just didnt bother .for promos i conc on math so i got my A and was good. then in j2, i tried doing but damn tough lah cos the topics more or less intertwined so if i want to start i knew i needed to start back from j1 topic 1 for chem physics and econs. on top of my current stuff. sound damn daunting so i keep procrastinating and all that shit then just didnt do at all lah . so liek that , i go into the exam halls soaking up the smartness of the top students in singapore,get stunned by qns i always saw in tutorials with no ans from me but teachers and peers, and look out at the window. (it was always fascinating to do so. cos here we are inside a room and everybody arnd are chionging their ass off and writing like dno what in some piece of paper to be flown to cambridge so that our destinies can be determined...all the while people outside are gng abt their normal lives- keeping the streets clean, driving off to lunch or a meeting or wht. the comparison intrigued me)

so there. i am resting like i always have for the past few years just that now i got no label of "school" to have an excuse for as such . except that :" aiyah my alevels damn lousy. yes rj damn smart but i not smart"

i am not complaining .just saying so !

i look 16,17 years old..12years even to someone that lives with me. and i am not taken seriuosly. but i dont give a shit anyway ^^