been feeling (and thinking) very lousy of myself lately...

anywayyyyyyyyyy~ today's swim was reallllly tiring @.@ (it was the first swim trng with sim aqua after 999 months. i must give myself due credit though -it's not that ive not exercised in a long time, i was prob very lethargic from my useless dayz. lolzxz...

} thought i was over it already but today managed to revive some emotions. WHY?!?!!!!! hahaha i really dont know what's wrong with me... i must be too free, too free that i can nurse these useless thoughts. was so not being myself... and i realllllly DETEST being anybody but thy self. ok thank you ^^v