everytime i get overwhelmed, or
lose my sense of place in this society,
i lose all these negativity after a mere session with my running shoes
it's so crazy really, that running means so much to me. people keep telling me how amazed they are at my dedication (or love) for running-i woke up 2hrs earlier>rest during aus trip twice jst t run in e frosting weather (ok that on another day. the run was a good exp haha)- , but i tell them straight to the face: to be honest, i hate it. but it makes me feel good. it makes me feel alive. (its ironic really, feeling more alive the closer you are to death.)
WHY THIS LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP???? :( ha ha ha...
oh gosh, anyway prison break is getting crazy. thank God episode 7 ended on a safe note. jenni and i can go slp in peace now............... adrenaline..... @.@
ok, tmr i'm gna wake up at 9am and make my phone call to sim at 10am. then i will start on japan. i really dont know how to get cfmation...but i guess i'll just move along and get things gng. anyway, if things are meant to be, it will work out right? and if it is against God's will then thigns wont. and that will my indication to stop. or to do sth else about it. i hope this doesnt mean that i'm testing You, God... becaues that is not my intention at all...!
alright i better stop, i'm too shaken by prisonbreak....
#can i just add that , 1 i have no idea how i went through this last time O.O
2 this show was what kept me going during my crazy j2 days... i rmb trudging through the week-through the early mornings, crazy confusing lectures, energy sucking trngs, and all over again- except on thurs. thurs mornings always saw me up and chirpy and driven. a spontaneous determination to get through the day well and alive, do a good and efficient trng so that i can rush home by 10pm to catch prison break. :) ah, prison break kept me going through the week man.... sounds good, eh? but the all too well known phrase came up : all good things come to an end. how did my 'good thing' end? our tv broke down on us so that was the end of looking-forward-to-thursdays-energy..............
ps kiss dating goodbye was qte a bore for me cos i found it unapplicable with all the 'no-sex', 'no lustful thoughts', 'no coverting' and 'no physical intimacy' etc etc etc talk..-dont even have anyone remotely close in my life now- but twds the ending chpts, it is beginning to make sense to me. and i was guilty of certain stuff they talked abt before, so maybe this is a good time to critically reevaluate my past and more so, what caused me to think in such a manner. 'nip the problem at its bud'
ok gd ngt future me :)
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OOooh. I read I Kissed Dating Goodbye too... great book! Definitely gave me a new perspective on physical intimacy and Christianity.
yeah same! i cld nvr reconcile the imptance of a christian boyfriend and my own faith.
but i feel really pressurised now, haha! i dont dare to do anything drastic lest i step over the line...if you know what i mean!
haha yea I get you! When I first finished the book I was telling my girlfriends how cool it would be to save my first kiss for marriage. And their boyfriends who were with them, laughed at the idea. One was quite mean to show me a vid of awkward wedding-first-kisses. HAHA. Hmm, I think sometimes when we 'set boundaries' it may come across as 'unromantic' or 'weird'. So it's impt to have someone who will respect, value and understand your stand w regards to purity. A lot of things are easier said than done though, and afterall you & I have nvr been in a r/s so it's rly hard to tell or imagine what could happen and what we would do in various scenerios. Hahahaha
oh maaaaan, your boyfriend showing the vid is super bad! lollllllll... to each of one's own leh!
yeah, we may have all these ideas and beliefs but they will only stand true when tested and proven in appropriate circumstances! but whatever man, if you were back here in singapore, you'd be more concern abt the weather than anything else actly lolzxzxzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz @.@
LOL the weather. True that. Then again when I'm back (and start working) my concerns will be sleep, time & money.
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