while going around the classes to extort people of their 50c, i just found out that

scholars are amiable and really nice!

:D they look so quietish. they're super funny =P (i sound so stalker hahaha)

To my secret admirer:
:) hello! tell me who you are so i can love you back. it's no joke to love an anonymous person you know. anyway life has been preeeeetty fine i guess. hmm, pretty caught up with ltc stuff. and ms chau did not scold me when i did not turn up for a meeting cos of my recess. i feel so blessed! she actually 'understood' me :D it's 00.34 now but i'm still awake cos i'm updating you abt my life. but nvm lah..must satisfy my admirer =p umm. aiyah tell me what you want me to update in my blog. i dont know what to say already x) there's chinese stuff tmr though! hope some guy will come and sing again. hahaha you'll understand if you went for the previous chi thing ! :D

(btw, are you valerie chia? haha)

i wish you hadn't tell me
actually, i wish i never did know you

oh NO. i'm getting high. and it's : 8.02 pm! OH NO. and there's trg tmr

oh nonononono

if i were a lion, i'd roar till i go hoarse
if i were a donkey, i'd kick that sickening chicken's butt
if i were a human(which i am), i promise never to fail lit again

i feel like ranting now but. it's pretty useless and SEE i'm wasting precious sleeping time! ..... :( actually know what.(oh no. it's coming) if i do stay back(aka retain) there might be a reason for it? maybe God wants me to live with the sec2s and so it'll be easier for me to bring them back for trg. i was expecting to do pretty well ..though i didnt really study or put in much effort...

SIGH!

Suicide is NOT an option
-to qoute kimchow

you know what

i dont think it's their leaving
neither do i think it's his arrival


i think it's just me.

just face it.

i'm sorry i can't leave up to your expectations.

I Wish You Faith
James N Watkins, Source Unknown

I wish you truth for your decisions,
I wish you doubts to make you sure,
I wish you fear to give you caution,
I wish you courage to keep you pure,
But beyond these hopes and wishes,
One prayer soars high above,
I wish for you my graduate
Faith and Hope and Love.

I wish defeats to make you humble,
I wish success to let you soar,
I wish you tears to make you tender,
I wish you joy and so much more.
For beyond these hopes and wishes,
one prayer soars high above,
I wish for you my graduate
Faith and hope and love.

So as you stand and face tomorrow,
When life gets rough and tough,
There's someone who believes in you
With faith and hope and love.
So I wish for you my graduate
Faith and hope and love.

We wouldn't know the essence of victory till we've tasted failure.

I Wish You Faith
James N Watkins, Source Unknown

I wish you truth for your decisions,
I wish you doubts to make you sure,
I wish you fear to give you caution,
I wish you courage to keep you pure,
But beyond these hopes and wishes,
One prayer soars high above,
I wish for you my graduate
Faith and Hope and Love.

I wish defeats to make you humble,
I wish success to let you soar,
I wish you tears to make you tender,
I wish you joy and so much more.
For beyond these hopes and wishes,
one prayer soars high above,
I wish for you my graduate
Faith and hope and love.

So as you stand and face tomorrow,
When life gets rough and tough,
There's someone who believes in you
With faith and hope and love.
So I wish for you my graduate
Faith and hope and love.

we wouldn't know the flavour of victory till we've tasted failure.

Lord please give me wisdom

(to whichever crossie that has 'that' syndrome)

P.S. I know exams have just ended and you guys are probably feeling ____ (fill in whatever adj. you want) about trg tmr. Do pause for a moment and think about the goal you want to see yourself accomplishing in 2006. ok fine, it ain’t all about results. But I am sure you do have smth you wanna achieve and that is your driving force. Be it making it into the team/ doing a 10km <1hr/ getting tops in your class(or even the level) in 2.4k/etc. there’s no doubt we’ve to work to reach our target. There’s no shortcut in crosscountry so just train your butts off. Complaining to a friend wouldn’t help much. It’ll more like bring down her morale. Look here, you aren’t the only one suffering. The WHOLE team suffers together. The whole team burns under the sun together. Everyone is just as breathless and tired and thirsty as you...Needless to say, including tricia, who’s all the way in front. It’s the weaker ones who take pain negatively and complain; or give up. And no, we’re not like that. Encourage each other and take things positively.

(ok so I’d think you realize somebody did object very violently against having trg this thurs. but it’s just one person ay? So don’t bother finding out who she is. Anyhow, I think the whole team is just like that too, including myself)

Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

WHOSE exams end on tuessssss? ._. i'm free. free. freee. that's wrong.

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake."
"Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!"
"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"
To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!
God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning.
Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.

aunt came over and somehow we engaged in this 'christian-y' talk. i just found out that:

Jews worship God and God alone.

WE christians worship Jesus, God and the Holyspirit. we believe in the Trinity God (aiyah whatever the right name is lah) Jews DONT worship Jesus! i was so surprised when she told me that. the Jews don't believe that Jesus is the mercier(i dont have my bible and i dont really wanna waste time looking for the correct sp) and apparently they were the ones that crucified Jesus (?!!?) i was appalled. ok cos it suddenly struck me. i probably heard it during church christmas service but...it didn't seem so *$#@)?!*!! at that time. and i dont really wanna condemn myself as a christian that i'm not familiar with e bible.

when i was loaded with all that new info, i was so confused. So Tiffany tan. who have you really been worshipping? what is this all about? who have i been talking to all these while?

There are two days in a week upon which and about which you should never worry about – two carefree days kept sacredly free form fear and apprehension. One of these days is Yesterday. Yesterday, with its cares and frets and pains and aches, all its faults, its mistakes and blunders have passed forever beyond my recall. It was mine; it is God’s.
The other day that I do not worry is Tomorrow. Tomorrow, with all its possible adversities, its burdens, its perils, its large promise and performance, its failures and mistakes, is as far beyond my mastery as its dead sister, Yesterday. Tomorrow is God’s day; it will be mine. There is left, then, for myself but one day in the week – Today. Any person can fight the battles of today. Any woman can carry the burdens of just one day; any man can resist the temptations of today. It is only when we willfully add the burdens of these two awful eternities – Yesterday and Today – such burdens as only the Mighty God can sustain – that we break down.
It isn’t the experience of Today that drives people mad. It is the remorse of what happened Yesterday and fear of what Tomorrow might bring. Those are God’s days – leave them to Him.

i just received my new pair of shoes :) oh sister, the anticipation! it is the best birthday present; ever. gosh, i don't think i ever wanna wear it.

it's so sexy. aah o.O i could stare at it forever. its white flawless laces holding on to my shoe for its dear life. it's enchanting blue curves. it's devious netting covers its tongue and whatever is beneath it that will be too crude if exposed. oh my gdness. its soles are almost perfectly made. one dark blue and one light blue line course through from the top of the sole to the bottom. plus some convexed rubber like thing in the middle adding to the contrast. it is so wonderful positioned that it glistens under lights. it's drop-dead gorgeous.

pity; my shoe will have to take the torture of my unworthy feet. wearing those luxurious stuff make my flaws fade away. i think i shall prepare myself for the worst-plunging through the endless mud-saturated puddles in macritchie:( mind me if i scream cos it hurts me to see my 2nd love(1st earthlyposession love is my first pair of asics shoes :)) drenched with filthed. i'm gonna show off my new love tmr! shall wear it to church and boast it to the world :D

friday(30/9)
breakfast - apple
lunch - curry puff, 3 slices of cheese pizza
dinner - nth

sat(1/10)
breakfast - 2 small bananas
lunch - 1/2 a plate of fried rice (i tried to force eat but couldnt!?)
dinner - nth at the moment

i'm not on a diet nor am i trying to lose weight. gahh. i just have no appetite to eat >:( and i dont even feel hungry. i'm getting into those depression unhungry periods again. i think i shall attempt to eat now. oh wait. maybe i ask my shoe for a date. it'll def. improve my appetite :D sorry for my mindless obession. my shoes are so -sizzle- hot =P