Am i very lame for skipping team dinner to rush home for the olympics? Hahaaa.

(Omg but the mens synchronised diving is so gd! I find it sooo heartwarming that they all count to three differently (ie in their own lang). HAHA ok i think tt sounded dumb-i dno how to put tt in proper words )

So, so glad that the wkend is over.... It was heck of one.... And i saw him too, so ,yay~ hehe.

Omg soooo hot!!!! @.@"

'Racing is against yourself, not your competitors. Competitors are present to help you push yourself to new limits, not for you to be limited by them.'

Said by ruiyongtaufooz. Wise words..

My friend mentioned tt he gets lethargic if he sleeps too much. Last ngt, i slept for abt 6-7 hrs only, as compared to my usual 8-9. I feel so awake! :) yay~~~~~ xx

lol! starhub automatically signed me up for 'connecting tones'-the music people hear when they call me instead of the usually ringing sound. which prob will cost me 2.14 $ . anyhow, i'm reminded that grandma missed call me twice ytd...

i wonder how she feels about one direction's song : More than this ~ hahahhaha

Rly tired so ill keep it short.

1 happy with tdy's trng :) so happy that when i was walking home, i had an urge t sing. First song tt came to mind was a song abt God's greatness. This incident made me think of the phrase : praise God not only in the gd times, but in the bad ones as well. Which is exactly how my life has been!-when im happy, godly songs come to mind.when im sad,i think of emo nemo whiny ones.this nvr occured to me !

Makes me wonder... Shldnt i be more desperate and helpless during bad times?so much so that i hv nowhr to turn to and cry out to God..

2 friend kept putting me down aft trng abt my run techniques. Got pretty affected. But mini talk w jammy rly helped. Rly admire how shes so self assured and confident. I dno why im so insecure :( anw two things:

-how you portray yourself will determine how others treat you.
-i wna change myself. But i cant change by taking on more initiative roles and being more proactive or whatever... If i really want to change, i must change inwardly! In my speech, and more imptly in the way i THINK.

If you want to know what God is trying to tell you, look at past experiences.

When youre doubtful of the future, look at the path your past took and you'd see just how God was working, and will cont to work, in your life.

This should last me till i meet him. .... The satisfaction not much anyway !!! @.@ stares at self

'I never seek to defeat the man i am fighting. I seek to defeat his confidence. A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory.

Two men are true equals only when they both have equal confidence.'
-Admiral Yamamoto Isoroku from Memoirs of a Geisha

Whats tht song abt a girl being under a boy's 'spell'-or charm

Technology advancement and the internet aids us in getting things done better, faster. But it did not teach us how to make the best of it, to greater enhance our lives - "the information revolution came without an instruction manual"

Curse of our generation. 'the joy of quiet' is a read tht brings great comfort and relief to my perplexed mind

230am and still wide awake.... I rly hate staying up late!!! But i feel so awake. And my stomach is aching because i didnt have dinner... Supposed to do my 12 hrs fast tmr but im alr getting pretty agitated from the lack of consumption...

No school tmr, hope i do sth useful w the day. Tdy was pretty good

1 ive directed 90% of my mails to my new email- YES I GOT A NEW EMAIL.

2 Was soooo drained frm 1. & wanted t take a nap before getting rdy for sch but i didnt !-so i was only 30min late for class :x

3 pretty happy w my swim trng tdy. Did 6.50min for 400m! It's an achievement for me..hope to cut it to sub 6... I hear the faster ones doing low 5 and..its madness hah

4 got a few bugs in my room now :/ HOW TO SLEEP. UGH... And my hair feels so heavy, and like its trapping heat or sth @.@ okay im notthinking straight at all because 1 im pretty drained now and 2 im soooo hungry :(

'What did i know of life, i who had lived so carefully? who had neither won nor lost, but just let life happen to him?'
-The sense of an Ending

as i said, i'm reading a book on a 60 year old man reflecting on his life. this quote resonates painfully in my core because-

at the rate i'm gng, THAT is going to be my life statement. living life as it is and not being initiative in the various aspects of my life.

ah....having a headache now =/ how am i supposed to go full gear

So many times i feel like breakingdown but im reminded of unicef&the cries of the hungry&struggling.. It makes me think,are 1stworldprobs rly frivolous and less important?

This morning, i woke up. And felt like crap. But i start to think abt superjunior and crazy antics...and it lifts my spirits up so much :)

been thinking about it..... and i'm thinking of this "education has made people lazy". would love to discuss this

but people either dont care or will impose their thinking on me when all i'd want is to question different perspectives amiably haha.

While people do make impressions on me, guys rarely make a 'more than okay' one. One did though. And i just found out he's a very good friend's friend! HAHA. This is gna be fun. #cheapthrill #squealoveranything

(Stupid facebook. My latest endeavour as a stalker makes me want to puke. Ha)

Anyhow~ im currently reading a book called A sense of an ending. Im > 1/2 way through the book but i still dont quite get the point of the book.. Or many of the situations laid too. This protagonist is like Katniss from HungerGames-thought processes being v high lvl lol- but presented in modern-by modern i dont mean modern NOW but modern like post war- classy British english slang. So just take my thought processes and tie them into pretty and frilly things like flowers and ribbons pls. Thanks, ha haaa.

Got some rly good stuff out of the book though! Fresh-to me- perspectives on random stuff. Shall share it here one day. AFTER thad's memorial run + PD ! @.@

School has been a drag thus far....i need to work on my punctuality....

Im a loser... Decided not to train for this whole week. And now im wondering what to do after school tdy, what to do tmr since ive no school ....and nothing comes to mind @.@ except maybe to read my book... (ive a policy of not studying for the first week of school lol)

Nooo :( told myself to sleep at 11... But i slacked/napped in my room from 1130-2am @.@

Am sooo tired and angry at myself now...

"i always believed that people needed a good solid reason for racing but i come back from last wkend's race wanting to go back agn! no noble reason except that i really like what i felt then (and my competitive side adds: to better my timing and position of course).

thanks to all tht liked my previous post abt my debut tri race! i take it as your support for me and i really appreciate it :) ♥ "

haha okay just a heads up, i 're-post' stuff to here from fb cos i censor some stuff on fb itself. and also blogger posts have higher longevity lol.

have sooooooooo much to say abt portdickson! being my first tri race and all-WHOOOOOOO~~- , the experience was mind blowing. shall relive another time

i'm here to say , i came back from the race with 4 facebook requests. HAHAHAHAHHAHA ( i'm laughing to try ease the tension)..... just find it cool that i made so many friends over the trip. one i barely talked to even...just a friend's friend , oh hi there -shake hand- thing. but cool nonetheless! i hope i strengthen my friend base.

was telling sis that even though i'm 22, i think i'm spending more this year for friends' 21sts > last's. lol

Felt the first gust of cool air ytd :) hope its the first of many more to come!!

Every other day, i encounter something minor but worth taking note-whixh obviously i dont. Because doing it on fb is too lame. Tweets have v short life span. Ive nowhere t write it down-all of my randon notebooks are for reflective stuff. Im too lazy t cm blogger t type it down...LAZY?! it dawned upon me tt it takes a mere tap to come here. So im here tngt.

First off, i had a bloody horrid swim tngt @.@ prob from the 2wk hiatus...zzz. The feeling-of struggling- was sooooo terrible.

Ok anw, there was a new boy. when we made acquantainces, pls note tt we two were alone then- .:. Any queer ness is magnified arbitrary-fold haaa. Heres how the conversation went

Sry you are?
T hi im tiffany. You?
A im alex
T oh~! (mood eases significantly) thats my rabbits name

Just as quickly, i closed up agn because i noticed his averse body rxn. And i was thinking , WHAT, why did you say that @.@ you dont go up to a stranger and tell them that your pets name is the same as theirs. !!!

Zzz, hahaha. He was rly nice abt it though and gave an 'interesting' response-ok jan thought it was weird lolzzz. Hah im not gna comment any further cos i think we mgt bcm friends, seems decent.

Gng town w sis tmr. Damn, i feel like shopping. :(