just to inform the 'concerned' people; (like gamma grace :P - gamma's the fastest electromagnetic wave. that's how i rmb it :) ah nvm. wait till you're sec4.)

my hip pain took over again. i feel pretty frustrated about it cos,as what mr ng said, when our body is tired, the mind gives 1*10^6 excuses. and maybe my mind tried convincing me that my hip was really gonna break anytime soon cos i was breathing really hard.

then again, i just did interval swim trg ytd; i've not been doing intervals(actually not been trg as hard) for very long (swimming & running = not same) and...ya my bloody hip literately.

see. i'm giving such lame swaying statement excuses now. arrghh
(oo i just burst a blister on my arm)

Determine True Goals and Create a Heightened Sense of Purpose

-Create Mission Statements in all areas or your life

-Overcome procrastination and take action

-Prioritize and Improve Decision Making

-Create Exciting Challenges and Maintain a Burning Desire for Accomplishment

-Establish a Plan to Get What You Want and unlock your full potential

-Become MORE Organized and Improve Time Management

-Develop Focus and Increase Productivity

-Create Accountability and stay on top of your Goal Plan

:) - fake smile? just thinking about how much work i have now...i cant even force out a smile. i rmb last yr when melissa confronted and asked me whether i was actually very emotionally shaken deep down;she thinks my 'happy' front is fake. that set me thinking...but hey, no one likes to be sad and think down :) besides my hip pain is going down from level 100203912031 to level 3 :D yayness. i was quite 'depressed' when i saw the trg log with almost everyone improving like mad while i'm still stuck with laps in the pool aimlessly. then it occured to me that AY! MY TEAM IS GETTING STRONGER!!!;D i love mgx

http://www.donghaeng.net/english/duty/duty.swf

it's not about grades, trophies, achievements, positions etc...
i'm sorry i'm not living up to Your expectations of me

i'm not happy with the way i'm living my life now. really disappointed with myself. o level yr is super different from sec3! i used to live days as they go by quickly so frequently just unnoticed. now, i'm living life week by week. my goodness, i'm into the 3rd week of 2006! and i've the most impt event of the year coming up in three mths. do i feel prepared? let's count the odds..

oh dear. this has to be recorded in MGXCOUNTRY history.

we've a whooping TWENTY ONE sec1s that signed up for cross! nvm if some will leave.
21 people were attracted/interested/inspired by cross!! way to go tiff! i rock lah.hahaha jk.

focus during trg, make good use of each trg and look towards natls 06! rmb your jackets, TOWELS (gosh i die without them), waterbottle, fruits, umbrella!, extra change of clothes

after trg :) haha and i just used to bring shoes to trg.

P.M.A.

doesnt it bring back memories???? :) (not pms) i miss tng. haha i had a cat called tommy last time. i hated it. actually i dont like cats. hehehee. there's hol on tues :D:D:D i'd need my MUCH deserved rest. and there's cca registration on fri too! must gear myself with tons of water stored up so i wont get thirsty. hahah :)

i'm leaving all the jackson stuff till 3rd week of sch btw (shld any jacksonite come)

heh heh. i AM sitting next to mel pok :D hahahaha i love my seat

There is no room in His Kingdom for those who delight in the shortcomings of others. Speak only with the tongue of Christ, and you will be a blessing to everyone you meet. We are all called to be Christians in thought, deed and word.

ah yes :) that's the best paragraph for me to live by. hahahaha i dont know if it's obvious but i'm a very judgemental person. anyway i've resolved to pass my computer to janell. haha pass her the damn machine =D i cant believe she's gonna be my secondary school, my league. more so, i'm freaking sec4 now. that's gross. hahaha shoots at the rate i'm going, i'm gonna be late for trg later.

starting of school; i rmb i was late for sch (what's new) there werent any seats left by the time i reached school. there was one though, right in front of the teacher, with teo. no choice lor. hahahaha. i was proven wrong. teo's the BEST table partner anyone could imagine for. she's siao, she's competitive, she's smart. and i rmb at almost every other pe session, both of us wld get damn pissed at each other cos of really stupid things. hahahaha i was so bitchy. then we'd get into those amusing cold wars through math...until she gives up and ," sorry tiff, how do you do this qn?" haha! :) that familiar qn always broke the ice between us. and cos of her competitiveness(it's not bad actually :)), i always studied extra hard for class tests. i sound so competitive too but i'd study like siao so i could beat her . hahaha (she's gonna kill me) i just hate the feeling when people ,"oh you got 65? it's ok.... i got 74 lah! arrgh. one more mark to a1!!! ....." then they cont. rambling abt their sorrows. blah blah blah. ahahhaha :) then mel pok became my next target :D she's the goodest table partner i'd ever wish for. actually not so. she became so pms-ive at the end of the yr.she wldnt help me with math when i'm stuck. pls i just came back from swimming natls, so i was really far behind in my sch work. she'd be stressing over Q15 and comparing ans with the rest of the world while my paper wld have scribblings of eqns for Q1 (since mr ling wld demostrate how to do that to start us off). it wldnt be noticable anyway; since my arms and head wld be covering the papers. only when mel finally finishes everything then i'd," so Q2 how?" and she'd exasperatedly explain to me. hahaha wed/fri afternoons were the ultimate. waiting for her trg to start, waiting for my nap time to come, she'd play the guitar and sing while i'd stone; in class :) they were really reviving moments cos of the meaningful words from the christian songs she'd sing. the complain queen. the stress-est girl i've ever met in my life. it was good in a sense that i've became more on task with my work. but another yr with her next to me and i'd be the kiasuest girl i'd ever known myself to be :)

and so 2005 gave me much more responsibilities and with this phrase ," With great power comes great responsiblities" i accepted the roles :) hahahah powerful tiff. HAHA. i shall eat more paos to become more paowerful. yay. i've matured a lot in my thinking; esp in running terms. i'm gonna run my heart out during natls o6. No shame, no pain; no gain. yes. going to trg now! and chinese o's are in 5mths. hahahah and i've not read a proper chinese newspaper though i told myself to. what the. i see my sister at my neighbour's house!? hahahahaha ok God bless!

Run your hardest every time so you shall leave no room for regrets after.

The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wished every human being would be graced with.Her last project of the term was called "Smile." The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.
I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello. anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch...an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.
As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling".His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford.(If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).
Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you." I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope." I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope."We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give. We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

;// to fill my mum's satisfaction of feeling "in" and hip, i'm sacrificing my time with my much love, literature, to watch Narnia with her. ...how desperate can one adult get =P hahaha :) i miss my daddy. God bless the world. HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D