like you dont alr know......... tmr is the last day of 2010.... when will i ever see such a nice year again... 2010. it has such a nice ring... :) NEVER. :( that's the thing abt time... zzz

anyway i came up with a quote. ahahhaha

I am like gravity, I just need a little push

looking forward to greater things next year :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=87XQKCXfFjQ

close to you by carpenters! :)

Why do birds

Suddenly appear?

Everytime you are near

Just like me

They long to be

Close to you



Why do stars

Fall down from the sky?

Everytime you walk by

Just like me

They long to be

Close to you



(*) on the day that you were born

The angels got together and decided

To create a dream come true

So they sprinkled moondust in your hair

Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue



(**) that is why all the girls in town

Follow you all around

Just like me

They long to be

Close to you

lovely song :)

It was only just a dream
Thinking abt you, thinking abt me
Thinking about us, what we could have been
Only to realise,
It was only just a dream..

:// gna be fourth day of Christmas shopping!! Zz I must be rly noob haha cos it's only for my family, that random person for exchange gift, and ok myself if I see anything I like. Hurhurr. Ytd I came home rly hungry cos I got flu.. Doesn't make sense right. Yeaaa I'm so dumb :/ I had the flu so wtv food I ate, I couldn't taste.. Which made me rly upset.. So I just ate the bare minimum ...which isn't enough for me!!

The girls and I ttly just stoned ytd cos 2/4 of us were unwell haha but it was nice seeing them aft so loooong :) in the stoningness, it also got me thinking.. I got them mg girls, the Amanda bunch, my Rj friends, sim track gurls, .. And whoever else tt I've forgotten but I'm sure are in my heart somewhere haha! Hanging out in all girls company is DEE BOMBBBB. I lurve itttt. So if you read this and you're a girl, know tt I absolutely LOVE hanging out w you. Haha, and if I don't show it, it's probably cos I feel too comfortable tt I don't bother w the politeness..but end up seeming too aloof :/ oh well

I'm probably blabbering cos of my stupid flu. Haha. Finally got my notebook.. But it's not much. Not those big extravagant cute artsy lovely super organised type of book.. When j saw it, she was like "huh THIS is it??" haha cos it's rly small. Dno why I got it too.. Probably cos I saw it in Cathay, had a mild crush on it but cldnt find the right design so just didn't get it.. But one week later at marina Sq, I saw it AGN but this time w a design tt rly stood out! I super like the blue (hate the words) on the cover :))) and I guess the crush intensified. And it's like a second time I chance upon it, I just gta grab it before it's gone right? Right. Haha. Now it's lying on my table, waiting to be used :) may this diary hold lots of wonderful memories and an exciting journey ahead in 2011!

Okay, off to the fourth day of shopping! Hope I see nice stuff tt I can get for others out of my "must get" circle :) the Christmas mood is still in me and it won't e dampen by the dull atmosphere at shopping malls!!:)

Oh just for the record, omega. R and hq agreed t come for Christmas service!!! Am praying tt nothing will crop up and they'd be able to come... :))) it'll mean a lot t me!! But more so God. I know He'll do sth great because of the big first step they have chosen to take :)

Ok, four more days t Christmas~ :)

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/d/dht/listen_to_your_heart.html

trying to find a gd cover for this..............................................

22 more days to christmas..

51. And still gng. I don't deny tht sometimes I wish it wld stop.... But right now all I need is to earnestly seek god. Which is rly tiring yknow. Right?

Sometimes it feels like ted s conquest to search for "true love". Facing hope, anticipation, the feel good feelings, despair, rejection, getting ignored by others etc...... But up till season 5 episode 2, he's still nowhere near finding his future wife. At 31. Ok la but he's lecturing alr. >.< ha

I agreed with him fully abt looking forward to when we get old and our lives settle down. Steady job, hopefully good spiritual life and being a good role model, having life more or less figured out..

Zzz.

Newaez, first dec! Bringing the start of my new life to chpt 2 soon..... Eepz

Zzz.

i cant bring myself to do it today...

:/ :(

He thinks that I don't care. Today I learnt that he thinks I "never put much thought into it" .. It's kinda hurtful yet really insulting to me. I feel very offended in fact. .. I'm thought so lowly of. They never had a good impression of me. I'm just a quiet "nice pleasant " girl outshone by my younger sisters in every way. Rachel is v filial, loving to Ryan and responsible. Janell is strong headed, opinionated ,smart and rly intelligent. Me? I'm a nice girl I guess.. But she went to sim aft graduating frm Rj. She doesn't know what she wants. She's 20 but still acting like a kid. She's not pretty, doesn't know how to dress up and put make up on. I'm just someone who doesn't care. Abt anything. Yep i know that's how I'm seen. Maybe it's because of this perception people have of me that is so evident and strong tts why I act so. Or sometimes I give the occasional rebellion-magnifying my flaws- jst so that I'd be different from what people expect of me.

It's far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason.

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=435703785332&id=838833331

if that can be seen...

was asked an innocent question today but because of the circumstances it was fit in, it ... plainly put, affected me. haha not that i showed it .

today i went home early

oh and ps. i've been wanting to upload a video, JUST BCOS I'VE AN ACCT..hahaha it seems i'm the only loser ard with too low a reputation to afford it ;|

there's a saying that we should follow our heart... but if my heart is broken, which piece do i follow?

. ranted abt some nagging issues in my life ( A FEW TIMES )for quite some time... and i realise i nvr did anything abt them...

anw i was in the sun two days back and came up with four gross things abt myself :
i am
1) lazy
2) insecure
3) anger-ful
4) prideful

wow thts quite a lot of nasty stuff gng on... haha. and to think 4 years ago i was described as a 'sweet angelic girl'.

to you: i dont know who you are.. but anyway, i cant wait to see you.. :/ :) hope you are too..

(PS. OMG IF YOU ARE MY GD FRIEND, DONT TEASE ME ABT WHAT I SAY ON MY BLOG LEHHH. i get rly shy abt ittttt zzz haha)

been feeling so tired since exams ended!!!!!! it has been a week since it ended now.... do you think it is possible that i'm still suffering post exams syndrome... cos this tiredness overwhelming me is crazayyyeeeee. i feel like i'm just existing =/

got the time but am lazy to pack my room and do admin stuffzx that i shld do to clear my life up....... hhahahah sianzxz.

dno what i'm even looking foward to now =/ dno whether to still go ahead and pursue my wtv or just live as per normal..

i'm starting to fear that i bcm like dgm and be in the same situation =/

i dont wna think so much but a part of me is like so messed up and, while sth can be done for the others, this can nvr be resolved. i'm not given enough time to change. you're not being fair.

fangfang bought candy floss for meeeee :))))))) makes tdy's sucky day kinda btr..

two things...

firstly, i think that MAYBE, just maybe..if not i'm just pushing the blame, sim is starting to make me think superficially.
but of course my down-to-earth side can be switched on anytime...i just dont wna think so much anymore because nobody reciprocates my effort.

secondly, it wouldn't mean anything to me+i cld rly do with the benefits+I'M YOUNG ONLY ONCE,

therefore, i just take the chance of it comes along right ??

not like it'll bother anyone anyway plus everyone's doing so themselves... i'd just prefer sticking to one =) haha.

just for the sake of trying + i'm young + i dont wna be so sad inside anymore...

and it doesn't matter what people think because i dont care anymore and they dont know what's happening to me and how i feel. XP

haw haw.... two more papers to go....

omg i'm really feeling so sian now... :( to study.... :(((((


though it REALLY sucks to study "alone" everyday, thank God for joanne cos we ttly meet each other everyday and we suffer tgt..hahaha and distract each other. but yea :)

but i'm still really damn bloody sian to study now.




ok lah. ignoring all the weird add ins by the stupid audiences and disgusting dances, WTV IM' 20 HA, omg. i love this vid. the teachers voice sooooo nice. and the girl at the start. and the girl at the middle part of the song. hahaha

=/ hate it when it happens. shows how dependent and noob and powerless and weak i am.. sigh :(

ughhhh. i'm so angry. jan and i made a promise to each other not to be present at the next one lawl.. dont think we will be able to stand the unnecessary attention.

i rly need anger mgmt.....but i allow myself to be for this case. totally ********* !!!

anw trng tdy was ... :) coach kept thanking me for going... he makes me feel so appreciated... he even smsed me after trng again :)) glad i went down.

mkting exam...hmmm

ps: cant find any good covers of this song in my limited time. sry. but lovely song

Studied fr a short while ytd. Ttly didn't study at all tdy.... And tmr s gna be a long day of watching exciting events... I actly will need to learn how to walk away and go stardie. Yes....

Zzz. Yeppp. I know I must persevere.....for it WILL pass. Which is in a matter of time.... And it's for the greater good. HAw haw. Haiyooo :/// lost control. And ttly screwed it up >.< jans rgt. i AM weird :(((( I don't think normally, My actions are so kuku. I don't care abt stuff... I judt do weird stuff and say weird things most of th time. Making I'm not making enough effort to be normal like how she asks me to..or how ppl imply me to... Hate it that I'm like tt :(

I'm such a let down to you , g... Sry... :'(((

ughhh :((((((((

first song i listened to of tyler's !


this video is so cute :) warms my paperheart (what does paper heart mean?) . the guy at 1.40min has a "cool" look. i dno how to define that look but yeaaa . hahaha. love how there are so many ppl in this :)


this still amazes me la.

sry for posting so many youtube vids but i....dont care ? haha.

jan's friends are over and....yeah ok we'll keep it at that hawhaw

grahz. ponned time trial tdy. shall do track tmr...

trng ytd was kinda whoo mad. haha. =/ coach talk after that... and he was asking me if i was demoralised from sunig... "you've trained so hard yet you didnt do well. do you feel very demoralised?" which is exactly what i felt. haha cos i nvr trained so hard =/ or ran so much for that matter..

he kept saying that i must BE CONFIDENT of myself and my abilities. and if i dont, i will just keep gng down cos i'm so negative and once i hit the bottom, i'll go to him and say 'coach thats it man. i cant do it alr. sorry' when in fact, yes i can do it..

but what struck me the most was that ,all my other coaches told me too to be confident.. am i not confident enough? i'm really so tired alr what confidence is there to display to propel me forward...

i dno... i really dont... :( sorry dear. but yeah, now that coach has made me aware of what may happen to me (which actually has been replaying in my mind for quite a while now =x) , i must NOT ditch you !! before everything else, running was my first love. i really did it SINCE YOUNG manz even tho i only started in sec sch.. lawlz.

i keep waking up so late :( zzz. i think i'll go sch tmr early too to print heck lot of notes. har har.. the enrolment talk had better be good and worth my time >:(

haaiiiiiiiiiyaaaaaaah... bad things aside from ytd (and weird lol. thanks jan) , i heard marshall's goodnight song to lily!! it was superrrrr hilarious. mark and i kept laughinggg ttm #@(*#@)(! which made joyce super ?!?!HUH?!?!?!lolll cos she was sitting across us hahahahhaha. and it was of even more extreme-r funnyness to me cos a past memory haha :).. himym (pronounced as hi-mum) is superrrrr funny omg :')

one hour a day for Him .tt's rly quite....little still. lol. being spiritual in a secular world is really tough. stupid devil.

anw fang is gna do prayer stuff for youthp camp! aww ^^

that's heaven (8) with words.

omg. the place looks so cosy. and they look like they had a lot of fun!!

hello! :) * wave wave*

it's not what i didn't feel but what i didnt show

julia sheer singing misery is so nice.......

ytd aft trng i suddenly had this thought :
i shouldn't dwell on stuff especially if it makes me sad because it doesn't change the situation at all. God has alr "planned our steps" and our future so.... i shld just pray and fill my mind with Him if ever i start to think abt these sad,sad things and what ifs and what if nots ....., and just trust. God has alr my future crafted out which ultimately shld be better than what i'm doing here so
i shld pray that i wont screw things up, for the future to really take place, and to look forward to the better future ahead.

just gta have a lil faith , eh?

:( as i'm talking to ,haha yeah sq, and saying for the 1000th time , i am really so tired (everytime i say that i think of yl's situation to ___ hahha) ...... from trng, proj, trying to study.... i am starting to wonder, is it cos of the feelings that are looming in my heart?

and then; . am i trying to draw strength from the wrong places? oh dear god, i'm so sorry :(((( for i am so short sighted and so worldly....

it was a damn popular and nice song till the clubber fast gross version of it came out :(
but i was brought to notice of it again by a random stranger's hp ring tone on the bus one day. thanks random stranger :)

am really zonked out by training... and i'm starting to wonder whether it's worth it

i didnt like this song . for. one reason.

i found the guy too goodlooking .FOR THE SONG. i dont think he is very handsome or what. hahah. but this vid is just a cartoon so ok ^^ =p lawl.. this song is so sad... yet it's kinda happy and hopeful... somehow when i hear this song, it reminds me of the night scenery at vivo ~~

just got a super sweet msn thinggy from milly. rly wish i cld copy and paste it here so that i can keep it and read it from time to time!! but i respect milly's privacy lah.. anyway, hey milly, IF YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE hahaha =) thanks for taking the effort to tell me that...it 's really sooo sweet of you.make my heart melt lol x)

have a good week aheaddddddd peeps

" You were supposed to be my best friend ..."

jan's sixbillionsecrets website is rather sad... :o

i was fine all week, distracting myself by talking with friends, taking a vested interest in their lives and doing things that i always only dreamed of doing. i was glad thinking that hey, i can do this, i can live without you. but when i saw you, all my efforts faded away and i realise i've been deluding myself all these while. i wish i could tell you but we all know you wouldn't care.
-christel

:/ quarrelled with mama twice in the past two days.. dno why i'm so snappy. it really hurts to think that she's only 23years older than me. and that , i dont wna be like her when i grow up. :( arh.

totally not looking forward to it.. i wish it will past as quickly, or even more so, than other days. hah a.

the really nasty headache just now totally ruined my whole self :( zzgh. Dad, why cant you live among us here in physical form? it's really tiring and difficult sometimes :(

ahwell. new week new start. i'm gna do sth crazy now

You wait for a silence
I wait for a word
Lie next to your frame
Go unobserved
You change your position
You're changing me
Casting these shadows
Where they shouldn't be

We're interrupted by the heat of the sun
Trying to prevent what's already begun
You're just a body
I can smell your skin
And when I feel it
You're wearing thin

But I've got a plan
Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say
Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?

Sat on your sofa
Its all broken springs
This isn't the place for
Those violent strings
I try not to smile
And I aim it at you
You must have missed it
You always you do

But I've got a plan
Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say
Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only its too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows interrupted

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows interrupted

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows interrupted

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows

Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say
Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?
Won't you try to help me?
Won't you try to help me?

"You know when I realized I loved her? It was when I realized that anything that ever happened, good or bad, I wanted to tell her about. She was the first person I wanted to know, and I couldn’t wait to tell her, and talk to her, and listen to her and it’s like I love learning new things every time I talk to her."

omg cj, i agree with this quote ! hahahaha. that's something i noticed about myself too =p hahaa. i really shld stop myself from looking abt your tumblr..... it makes me want to travel soooo badly. your pics are soooooooo lovely :(

my half mara time is 2:11:46
heh. ok lah. i thoguht it was 2.15 =p

i suddenly heard the liverpool anthem in the background....and was so emotionally touched and filled with so much warmth. but soon after, a load roar erupts and interrupt my song :( cos the ball got lost to manure. sian. lvp ah ......................
oh well. at least it's 3-2 and not 3-0 ha ha ha ha..

got back law results. 16!/20. but i dno whether it's ave, below ave or above.. and i'd really like to know how i'm standing in terms of marks with my cmates.. but i dont dare to ask cos i'm not close to them so i may appear too competitive...zz oh wellz =/ who cares how i'm doing compared to them right . macroecons got 13 =D /15. yayy. ah well

tdy pcg taught me these things :
1) end oct is gna be heck of a crazy period.
-SEM 2 EXAMS
-IVP (omg i ttly hope it doesn't clash with exams !?)
-GNA SEE HIMMMM.... >.< ahhhh i forgot abt this... this is the most impt. hahahaha cos this factor makes the former two impt!
.:. i better wake up my idea and buck up NAAAAAOOOOOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2) you know how they say, just as you like a guy and wna talk to him all the time etc ; more so towards God ? when i think abt him now in my loneliness and emptiness, i actually feel this ...joy in my heart. it's like how i feel when i see the guy i like. BUT, for the former case, i dont feel the butterflies etc etc but more offff the mild excited feeling thing =) feels kinda childlike to me, but i like it. and i'm glad. slow but it's ok, true love takes time to cultivate hahaha.
.:. gta be more intentional !

tmr holiday!!!! dno where to study... prob gna just stay home if nowhere. hope i'll get solid work done tho =/

sian quote of the day, "if doing something makes me happy, why should i stop myself from doing it?" SUCKS LARZ.all i want is to do shit-as in, do what i want haha-, be happy ,ensure i survive and make others happy.

morning run with rud and ja this morning. tiring but nice nice. but yeah , 'competitive side of you' YES i saw that. annoying xP haha i'm gna train and pwn you one day man! talking with them+don aft was so nice :) realised that there are super many pro runners in church !!! eepz. i felt the aura when i walked past the sunday sch teacher one tdy hhahaha.

tzzzzk

hehheh cute song




aah this song!! found all these songs through my tagboard links :) eeep. my laziness to blog these songs have caused me to lose contact with them all nicey stuff :(



ANYWAY dinner-ed with jo vic and nic.... sigh. really enjoy hanging out with them :) PLUS RAE AND CAT TOO.but they two are not ard =/ oh wellz. gna meet them again on monday yay :) i was walking ard like a hungry human cos i was so hungry. we ended up at mos burger yay :) i honestly didnt think the beef rice burger was nice but i was really so hungry i gobbled everything down. while searching for a place to eat, oh btw we were at raffles city shopping centre, we chanced upon this.....place that sold paper arty stuff. OMGGGG the layout of the shop was really cute. even the shops adjacent to paperartystuff shop. was so tempted to go in but hunger pangs cant be ignored. a hungry girl=angry girl. had a strained throat after leaving the girls cos talking to them = speaking louder than the 3 others so that you will be heard. hahaha. we had cedele truffle chocolate cake after mosburger! OMGGGG YUMYUMMMMMM ^^ jst for the record, IT WAS ONE SLICE hahaha. shared by us four. and we did a ritual, sing bday song, did 3 wishes, hold hands in a cirle thing b4 eating it =p

what else. oh yea i called teo to tell her i wldnt be going down to send her off :( and charis for 22min to wish her a happy bday.complete with my own composed personalised bday song ;)

ohyea. and today, i sat down for abt 1.5hrs and composed 1 paragraph (wah first time. i must have been really pressurised) for proj. as the //graph seemed really long, as compared to the others, i thought that maybe i might have done it wrong so i asked nogart to check it. aft reading it, he had an apprehensive look. and i was like "oh no, it's a bit weird right. is it ok? do i need to edit it? am i on course? etc" . he proceeded to give me (Y) sign and said to shammy ,' whoa, that one, *points to the lappy* steady ah' . and shammy was like ," ehhhh omg i wna see i wna see!" in her cutesy voice (she took two of my heart stickers anw!! yay :):) i'm on her hp and lappy now ^^) . i of cos didnt take it in cos i dno if he was being polite. so i asked again , phrased differently of cos hahahah. and he affirmed me in another way . then ok lah i just keep quiet.. and proceeded to reread the whole thing and edit any outright shitty parts that i can identify. but deep down, i was really happy leh :) it's so nice to be affirmed of such things.. i guess i somehow wish that i still got some smarts in me... sighh yep :)

gng queensway tmr!! to SHOP FOR SHOESSSS WHEEEE. runnning shoes. zz hahaha. and shorts. andddd i'll keep a look out for pretty bags and pencil cases and wallets and clothes and nice footwear for....self-image+necessity's sake. hahaha. AND FOOD. yay. gng w amprit. hahaha. so long nvr see him alr. he's like a girl's best friend yet he still has his boy side to advise me on life.really treat him as my bro :) ma brudder frm a different mother hahaha. i still got his january bday card that zy,lana and i wrote in for him lolz. tmr i muz enjoy myself! :) must really get down to hardcore studying alr. <2mths to ivp+exams...

ok PEACE OUT. time for some bbt. wheeps
btw i acknowledge that i sound darn frigging secondary sch in this post but hahahaha =) i'm really happy now... cld be happier, more complete, but i'm cool with this state... :)

"Friends dont let their friends go to hell"

i saw that on a shirt and was really hit by that. but when i quoted that to someone , someone ...sighhh just had very condescending responses to that :( was really hurt. oh well.

just finished 5ppl you meet in heaven! sighhhh. i hope mitch will write another story like this, but of someone else's life. i think it's so cool to read abt how ppl piece things up in their life.

"his part of the secret of heaven: That each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one."

omg. gna do 3*3km tmr...alone... BECAUSE OF NICOLE TAN SERHUI, VICKI LIM AND JOLENE LIU JIAXUAN. oh dear :(

tdy i was looking at my ahma and i cldnt help but think to myself, oh God i really love her, thanks.

tdy while on the escalator up, a thought crossed my mind- no matter what, i know that You really are always here for me. i feel that esp more so while walking out of fusion through that 'back door' cos the scenery is really so nice.

chris and i got the same taste in girls. i cant believe i actually said 'i think i know what kind of girls you like. independent yet vulnerable. yelena on my msn nick is a girl in a book i read, and shes just like that kind. like mulan. i like that type of girls'

then ..hmm ok, an afterthought ; that came out wrong.

let's just fall into the sky , no regrets

i need strength. and super sonic speed

all the words i had but none the courage

sometimes people hold on to dreams that may seem so far fetched cos they believe life is more than mere cynism

but sometimes it reallyis :( sianz

talked with a 60+ year old uncle few days back at the busstop. he started crying when he talked abt how he went to a church once but nvr went back after that cos 'i smoke and drink. i dont fit in, how can i go back?' and also how he's so old alr and doesn't know how to pass his days... i didnt dare to ask about his family. but i wanted to hold him so badly and tell him tht there's so much to life. i think the most painful thing was that he reminded me of ahgong

i've always wondered why i dont let myself hurt just cos 'it's one sided'
hmmm

half mara today. conclusion: if you wna suffer half marathon for the accomplishment, just heck it and do a full! no pt suffering 'half way' . just suffer full force! the accomplishment is much greater too

ahma called to ask me if i wanted lunch " i want to cook mee sua dry for you. you so long nvr eat alr" :') i really like how she rmbs what i like (not that thr's much to rmb hahah)

Maverick says:
oh i wasn't asking for your timing
i was asking about what you did
how did you make your experience more memorable?
isn't that the whole point?
to make it memorable?

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
yep
i tried the energy gel bar (it was GROSS.)
eat banana
cos true marathoners eat bananas when they run
HAHA
made a few new friends
like along the way you will have some buddies running with you one
they may go off soon after or vice versa
but for that 1km or so, you meet so you talk
hahaha
look at the scenery
try my best to jog as much as i can
cos even tho i try, my legs still hurt so i gta stop
but doing it with the church ppl the 2nd time (first time i went alone =x that one really a bit more difficult talkign to strangers cos mostly men also) was fun cos like we got talk abt stuff lah
but aft a while you're so darn tired you either 1) cant think of wht t say 2) in desperation (cos it's rly tiring to jst run) talk cock
look ard you also lor
cos there will be many interesting ppl
like i saw ppl in batman suit or sth
this old uncle running barefooted
a bunch of ppl will be right at the back of the crowd cos they will be pulling tyres all the way!!for chartiy
then halfway the run, cos the mara route is such that theres' a u-turn, you will get to see the top kenyan runners. whoa that part of the race is absolutely INSPIRING. cos they ttly ZOOOOOOOM past you
and everybody ard you are cheering for them cos they are so frigging pro and we are struggling on the other side hahaha
wow i make it sound fun =x
i think the memorable part of the race is just completing actually

Maverick says:
yeah you make its sound REALLY interesting!!

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
i rmb seeing AUNTIES AH
i repeat
AUNTIES. with their 3/4 pants and towel ard their neck
OVERTAKING US
like they are trudging man, look so tired, but slowly and surely they just pull away

Maverick says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
old uncles too
its really.... humbling

Maverick says:
hahahaha

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
yep
but seriously
be prepared
to
be bored to death
to want to give up
i rmb my first mara, 37km ah. i completed 37 alr.. left only 5
and i saw the bus stop. i was damn pissed off at myself for not bringing ezlink card
cos i really wanted to take bus back alr
damn tierd
so i think . just take the run as a fun exp
dont stress yourself
go do sth whacky
like . i dno. dance all the way or sth I DNO HAHAHAHA
completing is big enough

Maverick says:
hahahahaha

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
2nd time you wna chiogn then chiong
the last part of the race is fun !
cos like, ppl will line the whole way cheering
then you can act like professional and stick out your hand .then they will all TRY TO TOUCH YOUR HAND
HAHAHAHA

Maverick says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
cool right
after you cross the finish line

Maverick says:
yeah so cooool!

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
you will go join the rest
and be the ones trying to touch the other runners hands too
and you will really see alot of interesting things lah
like you will see damn old pple, or ppl running themselves, or fat ppl etc
and you really wonder what is their motivation to run
it's nice
can see couples hold hand running past the finish line also (awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww)
or how ppl really strive to run to the finish line

Maverick says:
wowwwwww

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says:
see ppl with (mind my lang) bleeding nipples ( their shirt is like SOAKED WITH BLOOD at that area... damn pain >.<)

Maverick says: thats really interesting man AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says: as in those ppl are guys la not girls. hahahaha

Maverick says: HOW COME CAN LIKE THT

yelenasays: abrasion

Maverick says: OOOOUUUUCCCCHHHHHH

yelena says: the guys were telling me you guys can kena nipple, armpit (from the sleeves) groin abrasion all walao damn scary

Maverick says: OH MY GOOODNESSSS

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says: they nvr take precaution la' Maverick says: i never got groin abrasion before BUT THATS CRAZY. thanks for telling me who else is running? like other guys do you know? ask for help HAHAHA

yelena -you make me listen but you're so far away says: HAHAHA dont worry. they will take care of you well i know jl and russell are aw man... you make me wna run it now >.<

hurhur.

0. i'm grateful to my sisters cos they are obliged to talk to me heh and i can talk to them

FIRSTLY, i'll address my goodlooking friends:
teoyihui: hahahaha i like the way you put it ;) 'a song that makes you elope right away' wheeep ;p hahaha. teo, that song was made with you in mind pls! "i know when i compliment her, she wont believe me" and "when she smiles, the whole world stops and stares for a while"

caijing, fay: i'd comment the same thing to you two just as to teoyihui (above). but shes pretty AND TALL. the latter, you two fail ah. but nvm. the song applies to you two too except maybe abt the part where he says that the world stops for you cos you two are too short to notice ;) HAHAHAHA. i'm ttly joking. i'm short too. short ppl ftw! brunos ttm!!! high five.

tricia: hello nus girl. are you gng sunig!!

dan: yeah the song will be so sweet if a guy sang it to us right ^^ hehehee (giggles)

OK SO DOWN TO BIZ.

ytd i wanted to post this: 20 TO 20

which means, 20 days to becoming 20! (zzzzzzzzzzzzz)
but i was v tired after trng so i didnt bother to on the komputa.
i decided to commemorate it by giving myself 20 bullet point spaces to say ANYTHING ABT MY LIFE that i want. like really anything. but they are not impt thigns in my life lah. just wtv that comes to mind. so pls dont think that i like you just because i talk abt you here. i think this will be a rather controversial blogpost sooo if any explanation needs to be done, pls ask me and i will clarify. my values and beliefs are still intact- just that words are very subjective, what i say may be interpretated in many different ways. but ultimately, i'm gna die so till then, i wna do this crazy thing. so here goes !

1. when i say a guy is cute, i really mean that he is cute. cute as in , want to squeeze his face and play with it like play dough cute(hahahaa). cute as in , small boy cute. and i think tyler ward is cute(walao that sounds frigging bimbotic :( ). recently tyler ward did a cover with some drummer. AND I THINK HE IS GOODLOOKING. it wasn't an instant thing. it was only aft i noticed how well he played, and then i went to his youtube page and saw him with his specs(http://www.youtube.com/user/deedlebag) that i think hes gdlooking.


that guy there. south african (Y) and i rly admire the stuff he said in the description box of one of the christian songs he played to-about not wanting to impose his views on others etc.

2. ytd night, i talked to russell on the phone for close to 1 hr. about armyhalfmara&abit abt sch etc. this year, or for the past 3years actually, i rmb talking to only 3 pple for more than 30min (thats a random number HAHA). the guy i like (hurhur) , russell and my extremely good/close friend . i feel uncomfortable talking with ppl on the phone cos i fear silence with ppl i'm not close to+tiring to hold phone+i think it's kinda claustrophobic.. the thought that my telephone friend and i are communicating through such thin wires is kinda oppressive and scary ..i rather talk to you in person can? ;)

3. i always dreamed about performing in front of a crowd. i imagined myself having the talent for singing, for playing instruments, for charming and inspiring a crowd .and it always put me in a damn good yet bad feeling. good cos it's like-i'm finally living my dream. bad cos i know it will nvr happen

4. i really hate people that are unfaithful. in this case, to their girl/boyfs, husband wife etc..( but i guess in relation to other stuff to such as things they commited themselves to etc. ) and for that reason, i've distant myself from a few ppl in my life

5. i lost a very good friend this year cos of my lifestyle (heck care etc) .i smsed her recently but she didnt reply me..and i'm still rather upset abt it.. my parents were quite surprised when i told them abt us falling out. the thing is, if my parents can even hv such a rxn, it shows the bigness of it.cos even they know i dont have many gdfrenz. i'm sure she knows that too .the worst thing is that i dno what to do to make it up to her ,because i cant even promise myself tt i'll change for her.. arghh

6. i've a guy friend i knew since sec3. even though we aren't close at all now, he has a great impact on my life. HAHA-and he doesnt know it. DUH. cos i wont tell him: 1) i had a slight crush on him in sec4 2) he caused me to fall out with a friend.

7. there are many instances , i'm sure, that i associate with God's goodness and as His way of 'speaking to me' . (omg my eng is so bad harhar) but the most striking cases are when my buses come straight after i reach the busstop; as in i dont need to wait for my bus lah. super grateful whenever it happens. hahahha. maybe also cos i'm always late and rushing.

8. thanks to yl and jes for making me think so hard in sec4 :what i like abt guys . cos the only thing prody that came out of it and that i still rmb till now is that i like guys who are passionate about what they do.

9. contrary to others(shy when they first meet pple ;then slowly warm up to others and open up), i think that i'm very friendly with people when i first meet them. but after a while, i grow quieter and keep to myself.

10. i've considered one million times to kill myself ,or at least to paralyse myself badly, so thatppl ard me will notice me,esp my parents, and they wont care so much abt their probs

11. after crying when i think abt how much hurt and distraught i'd cause my family and ahma and friends(10.) , my next immediate thought is (in regards to paralysing myself) : damn. i wont be able to run.

12. when i was young, i fantasised about marrying a man who can play the guitar and will play for us after dinner. hahaha

(I'M ACTLY VERY SICK OF THIS ALR. SINCE 5. I GOT HEADACHE FROM STARING AT THE COMP FOR SO LONG AND THINKING SO MUCH ZZ LAWL)

13. i think i have a talent for listening to others (rant), but it's highly under utilised

14. i admire rachelng's graceloke's u. elvin's(^^ .. wa pls, i really hope nobody related sees this, it's really nth i promise. it's just for comic relief. i wrote his name out of the rest cos i like the name elvin!!) family. lasttime, i asked G why cant i have a family like the foremost.

15. i LOVEEEE shopping for station-e/a-ry

16. i cry silently everytime i need to dress up for a formal event. because i dno how to dress up, do my hair or even put basic make up on. haha but mostly cos my friends have their mothers to discuss tgt what to wear, to help them put their make up on, to do their hair and to talk&gush abt the event tgt.

17. gna run half marathon on sunday! first time soooo.... i dno whether to make my debut a shitty fun one or a whack,do my best, one. heh.

18. ah-ha! got it. i'm an extreme person. either i will go all out for something, or give up. but i've been living my life by "going with the flow" which i dont like. that's why maybe i'm so sian now lolz

19. i thought abt working in a prison early this year cos i wna change lives. cos in prison, expectations are not as high on you. cos , these ppl need a lot of love. i dont have a slightest clue of where i wna go after i grad so for me, the future really is black-i dno if it'll be good or bad. but i jst hope i wont meet anymore bastards ahead :P hahah

20. you've been at the back of my head throughout this but i dno how to say what i dno to say. HAHA its so confusing oops

ok done. YAY. now gta chiong bathe and change for susu's army dinner at VIVO MARCHE. zz hoep i wont be late . he said 'you promise me you will be early ah!' hahaha. anyway FANTASTIC VOICE DOWN THERE:



19days of teenage dreams . i dont even know the lyrics of this song.but i like the way he does it

omg just watched step up !!!!! xzxzxzzzzzz. totally worthed ponning trng for LOL. i rmb saying the same for ponning class FOR INCEPTION. but anyway back to step up. AHHHHH. i was filled w so much adrenaline during the show... i rmb nat and i and all of us actly squealing soooooo many times and soooo many parts. like . whoa. just go mad..... AND THE GIRL IS SO DARN FRIGGGGING PRETTY. her eyes. sick. she really reminds me of the stepup2 girl tho. and moose !! n the small little kids , esp the SUPER DAMN PRETTY LITTLE GIRL....true born to dance - r lah. i must ttly search for her name next time i got time and follow her . i think give her 5-10 years she confirm super popular (Y) you can do it girl ! =D hehehee. omggggggggg gng mad. the cheeseyness of the movie can be made up for the dances. ttm.

//talked w sissi agn... and what she said rly made sense. wonder if she ll blog abt it tho =/ lol. i think i'm too influenced by westerners and movies and storybooks and happy ever after's :( sighh..



HOOKED TO THIS SONG ! the lyrics are sooooo darn cute ! hahahahhaa. walao. when i listened to it and looked at e lyrics tdy, i was thinking , just imagining for a while ..what if i was the 'girl' he sang abt, and someone wrote such a song for me. @_@ (dizzyness) quit sch, go elope straight away lah. HAHAHA jk i'm ttly jk. if he is some disgusting guy i'll really faint. lolz.

//ponned trng ytd and tdy.. tmr i'll force myself to stay in sch and study FOR MY TEST WHICH IS ON SAT. and mon. which i've barely started... 241pgs for mkting.thanks haha. and was 2hrs late for law tdy. ha. it has been....3 days. and i've been wondering to myself too much that i notice : does she really have tht big an impact on my life? do i really depend on her that much? somehow i feel that , cos of her absence, i'm kinda...breaking down. maybe i was acting too heckcare and shitass that i didnt realise that i probably depend on her more than she does to me :/ and that feeling sucks..

// you're such an ass for ignoring me and . and . and etc etc etc... xp sighhh but i still couldnt help myself wishing that i cld - you :( life can really be as rash and simple .but God wants you to live on the edge, he wants things on the earth, people around you, to disappoint you. so you will be reminded that you shldnt build your life here but think towards the long term. towards heaven. :( i just want someone to think abt TLT tgt ..? lol but i know what i want is wrong. cos it hurts me. :(

//haha sian.

oh well. step up was still really good :) for the temporary escapism

i wish i had someone to share all these with ...
why are you denying me this right?

it's a long and arduous route-i'm lost and i foresee dark paths, unknown treaded waters, eerie sounds and the chills, but .,i will try my best to continue. to trudge thru the unknown and the wtvs... but...hmmm

but, promise me you'll be there k? :( "I will nvr leave you nor forsake you"
wherever i may be, i guess i'd want You with me .
you are a lingering constant in my life






emomomo song ttm ! >.<




a hero is someone who helps you hold on just a little longer

The fear of God will keep you from evil (Prov. 16:6)

i dont really like the rendition of this song.. too secular and tainted by those typical pop songs. but i think i like their voices (though i dont like their voices TGT) and the tune at some parts. haha. heard it on the radio and suddenly got drawn to it and unknowingly blocked out mummy's voice oops lol

arghh.. ytd was badddd. lolx. esp at night :(

maybe,.. maybe they dont know what we have

but i prefer him singing it



WAH. impressed by kemingkor2's skills. HAHA. waterproof videocam. and yes i agree the jap song so funny.hahah like korean drama like that .lolx

had a bad dream agn last night but ..aiyah what's new =/ saighzxz sucks

//omg yoko did the video!ok i take back my words awwww so niceeeeeeeee

maybe i care too much. maybe i'm too sensitive. maybe maybe maybe. but i'm really sick and tired of feeling like this... it burns, it hurts. :( i dont wna feel like this anymore. something needs to be done i know, but i dont know what... God, i rly thought this was it. that i didnt have to go through anymore hurt. why must you put me through this agn and agn?? :( i almost believed you for a moment, for these whole time, there

i know i'm a true fusion projectionist when someone says

:it was at fusion

and my first thought was huh, fusion?but i was doing projection.....

when the unspoken rule is fusion=fusionopolis

^^

i like talking personally with people i'm comfortable with (like you crispycookiez ;) )

ANW deb just asked me 'btw are you 21?' cos we are gna do some church work tgt. which i'm really excited for ! we are gna be caring for this malay lady/family in ghim moh =)

and ytd, anthony my track capt gave me an indeminty (see i dont even know how to spell it) form to sign cos i'm under 21 for a FRISBEE ( !!!!!!!!!!!) comp. i just discovered it's a campus crusade initiated thing.. which meiyi and i agreed that ***** is so sneaky hahah . rly hope all the noobs join and we pwn them though ! how fun =x ahahha >.< okok pride comes before a fall

andddddd . for track camp this weekend, i joked abt signing consent form to go for it but meiyi said that under 21 is a must ! yay

//aaaaaaaaahhhh. crap crap crap. i'm so toasted. cooked. etc. craaaaaaaaaap. srysrysrysyrsyrysrysyrysry >.< but you didnt have to be so fierce.... shucksshuckssss.

that's why they call it the window pane (pain) ...

that's one of the rare lines i caught. i like it

anywayyyy ytd in an sms , i typed "... hey. gng for trng now! yay ..." note anything weird??? how abt the word "yay" following the word "trng". i've turned over a new leaf. (but i think it's cos i was just talking to zhenyang abt a pair of shoes he has set his eyes on and wna buy. shoes excite me. and also talking to laine abt coach taking our height and weight. hahahha been two years since i last did that man ! so funnnn)

ytd sham was kinda scolding us. he said that ivp is damn near... in oct i heard. 2.5 mths more. and some of us are not bucking up. while the other unis are trng damn hard now. 2.5 mths how to train for a 12.30 for 3km...... taht's a 10min for 2.4km. and that wont even secure me a podium finish. i rmb top3 must be 12min. what sham said really scared me..and i dno whether to take part in ivp now.. i dont wna take part this year and get pwned. damn paiseh lehhh. whoa, just like that race when i did 13+ for 3k. i was like 200m behind 2nd last runner. weilin lapped me once. i think that ayg girl (she's 4yrs younger ah) lapped me twice =/ damn traumatic....

since the new coach and the new batch of runners came, the trng atmosphere has changed a lot. for one, more girls :) and they are really nice. second, the applause when the coach says " ok, that's it for the day" aft hes done whacking us with strengthening ...when the coach pauses while giving his speech aft every trng, when the coach is done with his speech... yeah. i feel like i'm in a ceremony w this guy giving his thankyou speecch and ppl clapping at appropriate times but in sincere reverent awe of the motivating speech -er . i'm not condemning it, i think it's really funny, as in cute funny. hahaha

i'm happy for ytd's trng which i completed !
i'm happy for a lot stuff and people, whether still in or not in my life
i'm happy for /i cld get used to this/ ..HAHA okok enuf sry

inception tmr!!!!!!! oh shucks. but tuition to handle first tdy =/ oh dear God pls dont give me a scary person to handle

(he only starts playing at 1:10. hahahah. oh myyyy :) )










OMG I'M GNG MAD. kurthugoschneider is this producer. and he has heck lot of sexy videos. most of these vids are from his channel alone. must go spam him.

i'll go post tylerward and audrey&gamaliel vids one day.

ok i'm a really bad person. 1) I'VE NOT DONE ANYTHING REGARDING THE VISIT TO THE OLDFOLKS TMR. HAHA 2) I'M SUPPOSED TO MEET RAEVIC&NIC AT 7PM. i didnt tell them my movie was cancelled so i can meet them =x

thanks charis for the song list! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/National_Day_Parade#Theme_songs
i shall do this ASSOONASIGETBACKHOMELTR :)

i hope you enjoy some of these songs and can escape from the perils of . life. haha. anw i got kitkat! yayyy. actually kitkat isnt v nice leh.... but cos it's so outofreach for me , i appreciate it so much more

ALL YOU SPAMMERS GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

I wish you all a long and happy life.

thanks susie

OK LAH NOT BAD. now next step is to find the movie of it! harvey's smartness impresses me. i heard about this police or detective writing a murder book frm the murder's pov. KASDLJFASKLDFJ . sold in singapore. but it was taken off the shelves aft a few days. sian

HI FAY. (i know you come here everytime this is updated HAHA) anywayz,
I THINK YOU SHLD KNOW BY NOW, or hopefully figured out by now, that all these people tagging my blog are just annoying humans of the world that i've no wish to know. EXCEPT hotjenny.

HELLLLLO HOTJENNY~ ;)

i've just started on the book so... far from done! yeah it's really quite an odd book...hmmm... =/ but when you start on a book, it's rude to stop la hor. hahaha. nope is the movie good???? i really wonder what happen anyway...... like is the policeman's wife the first girl that the murderer killed..... and i wna see if the dad really manages to nab the murderer. so?? will you tell me ^^

i was reading the lovely bones and i got a genuine FRIGHT by my dear brother ryan tan with his ikea toy snake (Y) time for trng. i'm gna be so late but ... ?_? oh wellz

ytd i was watching so you think you can dance and phillip and jeanine were so gooood : o



kkkk go do work zz

ANYBODY GOT NDP/(PREVIEW) TICKETS THEY DONT WANT?? =D

to only one that will understand : ............ uuuuughhhhh... it hurtss

:(:(

i wonder what end of year will be like..

my heart rate is ABOUT 76 now =/ eeep x(

i spent my whole aftn reading *'s blog all the way dating back to when * was my age... she's someone i respect a lot.

it dawned upon me that next time when i'm 25,26 years old, rawkwivme will most probably still be around and available for my ,and others', pleasure reading. nothing much about me and my personality will change except for my surroundings and circumstances. so if i want to get out of this shit i am in, i must make a conscious effort to do so...

it's said that people go through this certain stage of growth and self-identity moulding in "adolescence" or "teenage" years... i feel like , during those years that that stage was supposed to happen, i was thrown into so many activities and leadership stuff that i didnt have room nor time for my own personal development .:. it's delayed and is taking place now......... but i'm left alone now to deal with this. and i dont know how

ANYWAY . AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH. three more months of being a teenager. sian sian sian sian sian sian. where did all the time go to?? x(

3RD DAY OF SCHOOL YTD. SIAN. i hate it already. it's so tiring and lonely and boring it's already getting to me :'(

youthday ytd! watched the notebook again. :) wheep

some ad abt showing +ve influences to kids



"maybe we shouldn't ask why we live but for whom do we live"



this one , in contrast, is reaaaaaallly cute. omg :) :) heehee!!

OH AND I HATE SIM. :'(


I think it’s a mistake if people just fall in love and think that that’s the only thing you need to keep you happy. There’s a lot more to being with someone than just love.
“— Sarah Michelle Gellar

"...spent alot of time on camsey... he built a fortress around camsey's bird cage and placed 3 toy dinosaurs around it to protect it"

(the extent of 'alot of time' is spending 30min only on tv instead of his usual marathon :()

it struck me. it pains me to see what he values in life because it shows me that there IS good in him. and he doesn't deserve whatever he's going through now. innocence will tell him that he is having a great life. but when he grows up, he will learn that life isn't how it seemed. he will have a lot of learning to do - and wtv to be learnt is gonna be through many many painful lessons...
i dno if i can take this... :( ......

maybe i really am better off alone. i cant disappoint 'him, 'he' cant disappoint me. yes

but anyway, one thign i wna proclaim is...... even though i still dont support any team YET, it wont ever be netherlands. THANKYOU.

http://www.moviesplanet.com

i like his improvise-tion

shut up , i dont like twilight too haha but i think kirsten stewart is damn pretty. and she looks soooo pretty here... and i like this song.

1. i must be a good girl.

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hot_chelle_rae/bleed.html
Bleed-Hot Chelle Rae



Kris Allen-Before we come undone
http://lyrics.wikia.com/Kris_Allen:Before_We_Come_Undone

i want to watch a performance which is exclusive SO IT WONT BE SQUEEZY on a building's rooftop.....

cameron this thurs and church camp next thurs ^^ :D :) :( :/ zzzzzz

today was just a .....blur. slping most of the day away..spamming bigbangtheory and friends (yeah sorrrrrrryyyy i still have my qualms abt how i met Your mother hahaha)

keeping up with The Flower Book is kinda tough...but with each day that i don't do, THINGS JUST PILE UP x/ zzzzz which is making it kinda dreadful to even start on... =.= ok this is nth.hahah making a pancake out of flour only

feel like doing sth before i leave but thinking what's meaningful yet....not tooooo energy consuming heh

i feel like asking her if i can join her.. i wna contribute and it's been a while.. but i'm kinda scared to do so x( ah well

this sem, i got 2 High Distinctions(Stats&Accting) and 2 Credits (Computing&OB-yes, the one that i always talk abt). the uncertainty+great desire to transfer out of this cursed place is..........causing me by stifling my potential to contribute to society-haw haw.

urgh. i hate my hair. i hate the situation i'm placed in. i hate how i've changed and become so lazy and heckcare x( above all, i'm very disturbed that despite all these, you act as if you don't seem bothered by any of me at all... it's like you are ,as you said, deillusioned (haha sry my eng only a2) .i'm so disturbed.....

i'm starting to get very claustrophobic using the comp now. wall in front of me, at my left and right. and the ceiling just barely 1m above of me. not the mention the small screen of this computer. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm gng mad.

bye. i gta get out

3 things to do in 2007: trainin real hard for SEA games a lil more studyin den b4 oopss just tryin to know this girl a lil better:)nothing more. period. haha

hahaha zzz what a... to do this of the year : )

i'm excited yet dreadful of this...

total eclipse of the heart - a song i got from Glee.

hmmm... is this it? the one i've been talking about -

you'd think me rude, but i'd just stand and stare
...

O.O he's switchfoot's brother.....!

hahaha and SFB sang only one too. which is such a memorable song for me.

cutie: eh check out this song: (only one) by yellowcard

jan: oh. nice. where you get this from?

cutie: leon *Y introed it to me

jan: HUH YOU KNOW HIM?

cutie: no. found it from his blog

lolllllll. that was totally 4years ago when i was such a stalker x_x hahaha

sigh...nusssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=akIx2XkaXlM

running is an artistry of the human body

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4X_AgLfpndM&feature=related hahaha

whenever i see you pray, i get kinda envious that your faith is so simple yet strong

i'm glad i am yours

HERE IS HOW A CONVO WILL GO BETWEEN YOU (as in generic you ) AND ME..
*slam - you
yelena - me


slam says:
hows your camp thing

yelena hehe says:
haha (sry im really bad at msn convos)
it was good...
like it was heck tiring and dirty
but it was a damn good experience
i was leading a bunch of kids frm assumption pathway sch
if not for this camp, i'd nvr meet such people in my life so it was an eye opener for me..
and sth i'll really treasure a lot
the kids were so naughty all
like no respect for us etc
but slowly we bcm friends.. then yeah

yelena hehe says:
the last night was so bad cos the kids started crying aft the emcee said ,' ok mentors, speak to your kids for the last time, say your goodbyes and warm up the camp' .. when my co mentor talked to them abt how theyve changed and touched our lives jst as we hoped we touched theirs
like omg >.< didnt know we touched them so much....
it was really sad
anw YEAH crazy right... these kids are really so special
is like . because they aren't damn smart like those smarty pants, it makes whatever they say all the more sincere ?
yeah.... a few of them came up to me and said " 'cher, when you leave us later, must take care ok "
like with succchhhh sincerity and innocence
it was really so heartwarming...
cos like 1) cld tell the kids were really sincere 2) didnt know we touched them so impactful ly 3) for the past few days, we were the ones tt were guiding,leading etc them. then now they were the ones tt tell us to take care. hahaha :') 4) they said it so simply yet with so much meaning
yeah.... it was seriously an experious to treasure and rmb for the rest of my life

slam says:
WAH
omg
all the more must think positively!
always good to feel blessed and be able to bless!
happy for you

yelena hehe says:
omggggggg thats what my friend told me too!
cos the first night, WALAO i was feeling really demoralised and tired...
really wanted to cry and go home so badly hahaha
like, cldnt take the pressure that was on me
but my friend ,yeah, said that it's blessed to be a blessing
and like, must tahan lah. rly glad i did

sth tim said which i muzzzz rmb!! (how often will a boy actly cry cos of a girl :p)
: upon the first tear she cried, many of the boys started breaking down

watched/watching 50 first dates, stepup2&notebook! yes i have no sch so i must do shit like these. lolz. other than tonight i'll sleep by 12

this rly ties in with notebook
hey, we really made it this far :)
wow

Do you know that sometimes you get so damn dhjsodnfb tactless wen you speak that I really feel like whacking your face and asking you to just open your eyes and wake up your idea LA. but I can't. So I just shut up and suck all these shit in. I hope you know what you're doing though.

I think I shld start piling myself up with parttime jobs. Alr got two camps coming up -:( gna miss my nubcake- but tts it.. Yeeeaahh. But I can't and shouldn't spend my time stoning at home and watching friends/prisonbreak/bbt. Or maybe I shld since my hols are limited and I'm destined for shit anw lol. Feeling so hot and pissed off now. Ugh. Why the heck muz I always be the mature one ? Why can't you just take your role or even hv some sympathy and take this shit load of emotional turmoil off me. I'm a freaking child. The least you could do is to NOT throw tantrums at me or attitude me. Geeeeeeee. Am I supposed to pacify you? :( tts not my job. That's yours.. I'm supposed to be the one Stamping my feet and sulking and trying to gain your attention and love (successfully). I don't even know that feels like.

So I'm screwed up. Fine. But whose fault is it? Mine? For bringing myself up badly? Oh ok sorry.
Who will accept me the screwed up way I am. God? He has too. He made me as such. Can you show me some sympathy? Pls? You denied me so many things but let me have this one thing rgt .

- and - ,please... Let me enjoy the childhood that I'm to have. Leave your problems between yourselves and don't get me involved. I've enough of mine. And damn as hell stop saying "nvm when you grow up you'll understand". I HATE IT WHEN YOUDO. Why the heck are you cursing me to have the same future as you? It's alr taking me alot to show you wtv respect I've shown to you so don't test me further. This is my limit.

I want to be childish. I want to breakthe rules and be a nuisance and whiny girl and be able t get away with it.

You brought me up well but you are starting to screw things up. so at 20 I'm mature enough to have my own values and be able to withstand shit? NO NO NO NO XP

10yrs. It's a long time yet .

Drifting off with guitar play and you

aww, I cld get used to that. (just for sq) it GMH!! Hahaha :p :)

A few months ago I went on a trip to Paris.

I saw a woman with her friend who was blind. She helped him up the Eiffel Tower and when we all were close to the top he'd asked if they were there yet. At the top, he got down on one knee and proposed to her.

She said yes. Love is never blind. That GMH.

This is from the brother of fml ,givesmehope. Been Reading this since I got off the phone and I can't breathe. Lolll

one main reason I actly look forward to post exams is cos there are actually things to look forward to. Thanksss x)

“Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.”
— Marcel Proust

the short escape was a wonderful glimspe of ... Pure contentment. Pure innocent satisfaction. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm really deserving of such feelings and moments. But I'm reminded of how ,maybe just maybe, I truly make him happy. then I stop thinking so much, thank the king above and just live my life as it is.



Exams start tmr. I hope tmrs my last encounter with ob. Dear God, please be gracious... :):):):):):):):):)):):):):)

lolx. Logx. Haha
gdngt tiff

http://www.youtube.com/TylerWardMusic

k gna study! i feel less sian after hearing his songs. this boy has the best rendition of two > 1 ever on youtube!!!!!!!!!

fyi : you owe me a song =p

this morning. i woke up at 7.40 cos my alarm rang. so ok, i off-ed it. cos "7.40am" was to like ....stir me from my sleep. the actual intended waking up time is 0845.

0830 , the second alarm, rang. then i snoozed it. for 10 min. so at 0840 it rang again. then i snoozed it again. and again. and again....... for a total of __ times. the last i rmbed, i gave up and pressed the I'M AWAKE BUTTON STOP RINGING!!! at 1030. i eventually sat up at 1130.

sucks that the alarm doesn't work on me anymore..............

heres a friend describing an expensive alarm clock:
the one that'll roll around when it goes off
i mean its on wheels
and it moves around till you catch it and deactivate the alarm
by then you'll be wide awake after the supposingly long chase

lol... will wake up super pissed every morning.

this jamie cullum's name keeps appearing in my life. so youtubed his name :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrFQvGtRzYA crazily queer video (Y)

Lest He takes it away from me because of ungratefulness..dear God, thank you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcydIVnX-bg keep holding

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWNL0pBmgFs no air

today. i had boring lesson in sch. i'm lazy to repeat but ANYWAY .just to show my fans how sch really is ,and because today i eventually decided to spell everything out .,
(sry for pasting private convo here)

tiffany says:
SCH WAS DAMN ALSKDJFLAKJSDFAKLSDFJ ARGH OMG
haha

ok i tell you
daniel/dude says:
whack me?
ok
tiffany says:
they were going thru qns
daniel/dude says:
tell me wht
mm
tiffany says:
(the lecturer lah)
then
the qns are damn -.- argh omg cos like . huh?you ask this kind of qn then i study for what? kind
and the ans....
zzzzzz
then got such slides right, of course we dont want fail so we copy
THEN ONE SLIDE SO MANY WORDS
but a lot of ppl take out hp to take pic
i dont want use mine take so i just copy
then halfway no time alr so he 'ah those furiously copying, go check w those that take pic'
so i gave up aft a while
and just took out my hp and play game go internet do shit
WHICH I'VE NVR DONE BEFORE
so it makes me feel all the more worse
oh got one part CLASSIC
he was talking abt ways of - (sry i'm so bitchy. i'm damn pissed off now)
then one eg was video conferencing
he said
so now, i can set up the computer and ANON can set up hers from ANONPLACE (the lecturer from australia cos my course is linked to tt aus uni) and we can video conference
you will be able to talk to her and vice versa
without any of us leaving our countries!
OK HELLO. YOU GOT THIS IDEA WHY YOU NVR USE EARLIER
WE GOT SO MANY QNS ABT THE PROJECT THEN EVERY WEEK YOU TELL US DIFFERNET THING
WHY DIDNT YOU SET IT UP SO WE COULD ASK HER?
HUHUHUHUHUH? HUH? WHY
ass
daniel/dude says:
haha
sry kinda funny when u complain abt your lecturer
anw
tiffany says:
i know. i'm such a loser
daniel/dude says:
its ok t complain abt him/her
haha
tiffany says:
hahahahah sim sucks
OF COURSE IT IS OK
daniel/dude says:
DONT QUIT AND GO CHINA
tiffany says:
i pay 5.5k ok
NO NONOOO
daniel/dude says:
sim to u is like soccer to me
tiffany says:
the best thing is
first 2 weeks
daniel/dude says:
mm
tiffany says:
........
......... (walao suddenly i got this fear of people finding my blog and banishing me to pasir ris or sth for typing such stuff)
daniel/dude says:
aha
like cheated ah
tiffany says:
.....
....
...
seriously. YOU COME SG FOR WHT IF YOU ARE NOT GNA EXpLAIN THINGS TO US?
i'm so pissed off cos they are the ones that set the requirements and qns for the exam
but 1 .......
2 its ambiguous
3 they mark us down if we dont follow. (and we nvr follow cos our local lecturer tell us otherwise.which ofcos we follow what )
AIYAH I DNO IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
ya cheated lah
duh
china better
daniel/dude says:
noooooooo!!!!
tiffany says:
interesting how words can permutate so many ways
daniel/dude says:
haha
u ah
so how are u gng to deal with all these complaints?
tiffany says:
HOW?
tell you lor
hahahha
daniel/dude says:
ok
i hope telling me makes u feel somewhat
better
cos i kinda dont have solutions to sim's problems...

last line (Y)

and talked to cthm too. LOL. talked abt going hol then

c: eh we ask a friend and another friend (her boyf) along
: kk gd gd. then my mother will feel safer for me with him arnd
c: my mother will feel scared with him around ! with you and AF then not as scared .

hahahahahha omg. only with you i get such shit man :p hahahaha walao

today we went siao then just spam each other nutsss.

talked to shern, annabel, teo, tricia, vicki ,joanne ,mohsan .on facebook. OKAY THE THING IS THAT other people go facebook everyday so maybe all those small random comments are nth to them ..but when i talk to you on facebook ,it's intentional. but not everybody see it the same way as i do..

Huang
ya lah
random qn
do you prefer guys with short or long hair

hahaha. !?!??! super ..... thrown off. hahaha. she also go gi-la today .

i think what i'm just trying to say is .good bye world. i need to coop myself till 7thmay (??isit i cant rmb). i will study.

j said giving up shld not be an option of mine. so .:. my only option shld be 1) study.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7on0Z70UP4U whooo (Y)

trng tmr! gna see meiyi and xiangxiang =)=) and i dont care i'm gna slack at trng . haha

- plays a great role in my life though we have parted ways. He is a man of exemplary behaviour and lived according to what he preached. Never once has he faltered in his convictions-he made it a point to be a good role model to his athletics. When I first met him, I shared with him my goal of going to JC and eventually to a local university. Even though he was just a coach to me, he spent personal time with me after every training to check on my academic progress. When I was on schedule, he praised me for a job well done, when I was falling behind, he reprimanded me. He took my ambitions upon himself as a parent. He taught me many life-long lessons as he guided me along. He also taught me that even as a student, one could learn how to juggle both studies and passion (running)-striving to be the best in all areas of one's life is possible and beneficial as experiential learning for the future ahead. That is not to say that I was a model student; I have my flaws and failed him many times. However, despite all the rejection and rebellion I showed against him, as a strict but loving guardian, he gave me many chances and always eventually brought me on track. He has a great influence in my life because of the many teachings that he has imparted to me through running which also serve as life lessons. Even till now, I still think and reflect upon what he taught me in the past and use them as indicators to keep me on track of my ambitions.

yay now there are two more people i know who appreciate michael buble too. i'm so happy

http://www.fmylife.com/

i like this website. this will be my new hangout. lol. here are my fave ones

Today, my iPhone broke so I went an bought a new one. I then went over to my friend's house and thought it would be funny to throw the old one against the wall. Turns out I threw the brand new one I just bought an hour earlier. FML

Today, my girlfriend's mom married my dad. Now I'm dating my step sister. FML

Today, I was talking to a guy at school I had a crush on for a few months. When I asked him for his cell number, he sent me a 7-line math problem to figure out the last 4 digits. I couldn't solve it. FML (Y) (Y)

Today, my car was stolen. In a desperate attempt to do something while they were escaping, I quickly jotted down the licence plate number. It wasn't until after I called the police that it occured to me that I'd just written down my own licence plate number. FML

Today, I had a strange icon showing on my BlackBerry and I couldn't figure out what the hell it was. I looked everywhere online thinking something was wrong with my phone. Turns out I had a text message. I haven't gotten a message in so long that I forgot what getting one looked like. FML

Today, I discovered fmylife.com. I whined aloud that almost everyone just complained about their boyfriends/girlfriends. My sister reminded me that people have a life. FML

lolol jk. ---- sucks. i want ----- to come here so that we can ask her straight our qns. seriously. you come at the start of the year then just sit one corner?and get the noobs to come stage and talk cock?..you shy then fly all the way here for what??you set the thing then you shld explain what .omg. thanks ah. 5.5k. i really dont mind forfeitting this 5.5k and going elsewhere. lol. i will repay my parents someday

talked to jz kor today. asked him how wedding preps were. (oh yesss i'm going for a wedding in june ) he really grow up alr.lolzz.heard that generally wedding preps were crazy hectic so i cant imagine how he is doing ..(BUTBUT-just in case-he said he is ok.he <3s lyanne~~:)~~) impt point: he wants ryan to be the page boy!!!!!!!!!!arrrrrrrgghhh.i hope ryan agrees.....

i.....i want kitkat .singapore doesn't sell them anymore

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-wJaLftzAM

omg. it is on youtube.everything really is on youtube !! felt so shit but when i watched this on tv ytd it lifted my spirits so much... he is such a good performer.and the song is so nice


You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

it's so ......... arrrrhhh. i can imagine(we are entitled to all dream) buble goign home and telling his girlfriend (or wife) ,hey abt that song ,i was thinking about you when i wrote that asdlkfjaksldfjaksdfsdfzzzzzzzzzz lol

watched some mediacorp eng movie ytd too.which wasn't that bad cos of that half angmoh actress who totally blew my mind away with the way she carries herself in the show. i want to be like her when i grow up. my role model