wah. now at the airport waiting for the plane. so cool can use internet! the keyboard so nice and bouncy to use.

bye to all. back on 27th. on 28th we gng zoo to celebrate janell bday. then janel ask mummy to go dapao all the food for picnic in the big long tupperware case like last time like that. haha but at night free. (hint to everybody of her friends & that she doesn't want a big surprise with many ppl cos she hates such thing.)

aiyah i am typing shit cos i dno whta to say but the keypad so nice to type.

to hello kitty ! : hahahahhaha bye. thanks for the farewell phone call.

two thumbs up

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ay8fE6B_a0g&NR=1&feature=fvwp


i realised that macqueeny is different... blacker and older.. the fear still got capture my heart yet was like...thinking 'hai.. even power will fade one day'. LOL. even the strongest and most powerful and fearless and craziest person will have his weak moments, will die one day. like hitler. so, we must remember that to the people we are scared of, we still got similarity with them. death.

HQ SAID THAT SOME OF HIS GIRL FRIENDS FOUND kitkat HANDSOME?!?!?!?!??!?! uh. WAH NOW HE SAY GOT BOY FRIENDS WHO SAY SO ALSO.

clar says : i miss tiffanytanstupidsoldier alr ( in caps)
and for the sake of our friendship, 'ME ME! i think that kitkat is the handsomestEST! :D luuubbbxxz' AAAAAAWWWWW HAHAHAHAHHA shit.

i will study hard and transfer out of stupid ingredient munch!

oh. i slept over at raechelle's hse with vicki ytd night without telling my mother personally and she said not to do it again because i still belong to her until i get married then i am under my husband but for now you are still mine. hahahahahahah

then rae said her mother v noob when trying to be romantic to her " i love you, hokey" (FYI TYPO)

then today clar and me go orchard to shop for . hahaha. so funny. but i am a happy girl so whatever =D whoooo.. hush hush. lol. shit so ahlianzxz. i rly wonder why i am stupid soldier...

and why some people just so bad to me lol what did i do.... :( :( leave my thing lying around machiam rubbish like that... sianzzz

batam till 22nd and to macau till 27th! i will miss ryan like siao. and ahma.

oh fck. i dreamt that she died. and woke up damn stunned.lucky janell next to me or i think i will - . i felt super weak cannot breathe i thought i was gng faint. then she kept saying 'jie it is a dream' wa siao. damn scary.

heroes supplier: www.megastic.com

vanilla twilight owl city is a nice song

psle qn to solve!: www.problemsums.com

addams family ^^ : www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVDJvrBFDDc

k now to anfield

i just finished reading all my email! yay.

i went for next year sch's briefing. and i am not looking forwrd to next year at all. i thought uni will give me a sense of purpose and etc in life but i dont think i willget it next year lol. suck.

heroes is damn nice. i cant rmb who told me in the past to watch heroes. but i dissed them off. SORRY. my mistake. i admit it. my fault. heroes is good. good stuff.

HAHA pa just said ' tiff i want to watch HEROES"

this is prison break all over again. when we unite together. (we rarely do) prison break. heroes. nice nice nice. YATA.

but somehow ermei damn kaobei now. dno what we all do. you know i hate it when you do this you still do.basket. damn angry at you.

i miss being a child in uniform :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqWdwPBCBOY&feature=related breathe

i REALLY with all my fingers crossed (when all my fingers crossed, i am saying sth that is just one level below swearing cos christians cannot swear ah) thought i got over it alr.

sea games damn interesting. everyday 7pm. goooooooooo

clar just left my home. i feel so ashamed of my lifestyle.... haha, sorry clar :(

i really dno why i was soooo tired today. kept falling asleep. while talking to her, watching tv, eating....until i just left her with ryan and went to my room to sleep wihtout telling her .at 4pm. i woke up at 11am. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

anyway!!!!KFJA;DKFJASDLASLKDJF . somebody messaged me ytd. shit shit hsithsithsihtishihstihti. ahahahhahahah wahhhhhhhhhhlaaaaaaaaaaaaaaooo. after so long i still O.O 'WTS ____ MESSAGED ME'. whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....... super heng clar trained tgt ytd if not if i were alone i think i will freak out man. suddenly so friendly... a bit ...hmm queer.

awwww pokemon buddy called me! (the power of diverting calls) i miss disturbing him. and the other smallies. go vivo. ok it may be 8pm.. but at least i am goign out and not stay home whole day and rot.

oh ya. i passed driving.

http://www.safra.sg/page.aspx?pageid=84

GO AND SIGN BY 15TH DEC.

i dont need parental consent now for races or camps or etc.

when i find myself here at this hour, i know it is not a good thing. it is not a good sign. haha . even after 12am actually.

when i am at ahma's house, i always think these few things
1. i must pass my driving so i can drive her around
2. i want to fake a boyfriend to bring to her house so she will be happy to see me "grown up"
3. i want to get gold for a race so i can bring home the medal and show her how capable she's made me to be

the only thing she can be proud of abt me is that i am not a paikia ahlian i dont smoke i dont do drugs i nvr drop out of school .

looking at things from the start of the tunnel 20 years long. i know i will regret these

i become a different person when i wear my specs. like disorientated from the world.

yucks. but my eye hurts shit.
i miss my shoes so much
i am eating one hour before trng
i
hope i dont get stitch later
clar told me owl city style is the same for all songs. and i am hooked on them now!!!!!!!!!!~~~
my nails are super long .irritating

my fave red adidas shorts are from 50 bucks to $38!! but pa say so expensive i dont dare buy :( awwwww man.

owl city rainbow veins. so cute.

i dont want to go................. i am lazy to change for trng and i dont want to stop talking to myself.
i have forgotten how to socialise and make small talk with people. i only want to talk to myself.

after having it hit me so near to home many times, i question whether i have grown used to it, to the idea of death. yet i dont know what to say anymore to those affected. it's like i lost hope in life after that

whoa and last night was damn shit "emo" session man. in school, i let down myself, my friends and my teachers. out of sch, i thought that since i dont do shit, i let down only myself. but last night, it came to light of the many people i have let down this year. esp the ahmas. and i dont know what to do about it...and i dont dare to do anything abt it. like now i just avoid and not go there then i not put it uncomfortable position. but the exact opposite is what i wanted to bring to them. hope, love and concern that may seem neglected to them. :(

and sam. aaaaaaaahhhhh. it is so bad. like maybe i could have done more?could have showed more concern, be more strict with my lifestyle? pray more then God will honour everybody including, ESPECIALLY, her????haha. shit. then i sent her an emo sms at 1am cos i didnt know who else to turn to and i had to voice all my pent up emotions. i really feel like i let her down... like theres a possibility that my failure was brought on to hers also cos i nvr seek forgiveness and cleansing of the soul. hahahaha lol arrrrgh.

what abraham said on the church blog really spoke depth to me. that even if we dont care abt the harm we inflict to ourselves, our actions (to him,sin) affect others also. and that is damn sick. worst punishment to be penalised upon.

i watched liverpool replay against bgham. walao we played damn @#*()! well lah. shitsssss.i dont really have much urge to curse other teams already. i just want us to pick ourselfs up and show the world what we are really worth. we are so much more than it seems.

damn. samantha visting tmr again lol. what am i gng to do :(
at least i can look forward to track trng tmr yay

whoa. the reason the liverpool ___ started

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZqJ58GxagA&NR=1&feature=fvwq
(1.35 damn touching)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7dbGNgeMLH4


alonso's 70yard goal. better than david b's .....!!!!!!!!!!!! zzz
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScZFq4WId24&feature=related

If i walk, would you run?

If i stop, would you come?

If i say you're the one, would you believe me?

If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?

Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.

The world is catching up to you

While you're running away to chase your dream

It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change

And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus

But I'll try for your love

I can hide up above

I will try for your love

We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?

Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull

If i give you my heart, would you just play the part

Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.

Am i catching up to you?

While your running away to chase your dreams

It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change

And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus

But I'll try for your love

I can hide up above

I will try for your love

We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love

I can hide up above

If i walk would you run

If i stop would you come

If i say you're the one would you believe me

i like fame leh. the talent so raw. anyways congrats to liverpool. hahah rachel is a convert ;) yes. we did damn well man. i dno wht happened to manure cos liverpool just took my breath and attention away. but thanks .

last sunday go catholic church service for first time. it was damn nice even though i watch the service from a tv screen ._. the whole feeling it gave me was like thad's service kind . dno what about it lah

oh ya. my first movie without my parents was the italian job. and.it was a #(@) good show.

12yrs drummer bgt http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfoAWZMGeVg&feature=rec-LGOUT-real_rev-rn-HM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1h52vnsQ00&feature=fvw

WHAT THE HELL. the next available driving slots are in january 2010!??! shit man. i forgot holiday time the people go crazy over driving... anyways i am getting pro er at driving. is quite fun. but i must still work on my braking.damn disgusting.

on that note, i told pa i got a surprise for him. which reminds me to say, daddy is a damn good person to pull tricks on. because he wont probe to ask what it is. he will just live life normally and find out. he last time try to teach me how to reverse out of parking lot (which is not the normal kind.is sing-eh kind that even my xiaoshu cant do properly XP) then he got scream shout bang the car hit my head for. but. today when he ask me go collect something frm the car, i decided to show him that i can do it. and i did it! on first try . no need for going forward then back then forward then back again...etc. just once. and i checked, it was beautiful. then i left the car there in the sorching sun , it so happens got no shade there. so when he leave home, he will walk to his car in the sun, and be damn pissed off the car is so damn hot. but he will rmb that it was ME who drove the car there and he will be so proud of me i aint a 'typical girl driver'. so he will be so angry and hot yet happy and proud of me. LOL damn fun.

last night i dreamt that ahma died. damn shit scary. and i rmb blaming myself for getting so close to her.

i borrowed the switchfoot cd for the week and its so nice.
i dno how to burn so i will youtube them LOL

dare you to move http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQX9krZ23B0
meant to live (omg acoustic live : )http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmmW6HSlhMA
stars http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t90B_SRY4Wg
oh!gravity http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-sqZa9j76M
this is home http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0ykm1v9xbU&feature=fvst
learning to breathe
awakening
this is your life
on fire
only hope
dirty second hands
love is the movement
company car
lonely nation
the shadow proves the sunshine
concrete girl
twenty-four
the beautiful letdown

lazy to check up the rest on youtube. here is try by asher book again http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_BGRIrMUzY wootszxxxc

go watch .goal by balloon.liverpool vs sunderland. NICE shit. things really can get worse hahah

owl city fireflies

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
lit up the world as i fell asleep

cos they'd fillt he open air
and leave teardrops everywhere
you'd think me rude
but i would just stand and stare


(chorus)
i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay
awake when i'm asleep
cos everything is never as it seems

cos i'd get a thousand hugs
from ten thousand lightning bugs
asthey tried to teach me how to dance

a foxtrot above my head
a sock hop beneath my bed
a disco ball is just hanging by a thread

(chorus)

leave my door open just a crack
*(please take me away from here)
cos i feel like such an insomniac
*
why do i tire of counting sheep
*
when im far too tired to fall asleep

to ten million fireflies
i'm weird cos i hate goodbyes
i got misty eyes as they said farewell

but i'll know where several are
if my dreams get real bizarre
cos i saved a few and i keep them in a jar

(chorus)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aI4JLa0hbUw

500days of summer. interesting stuff. and i think i am finally interested enough to watch sister's keeper. janell say it is good story

"Noah was lucky since he had frequent visitors but too many of the others spent their days watching television to escape the loneliness of their final years."

then i went to pick ryan up and the kids were watching tv too cos i think the teacher finish teaching them alr then they waiting go home. i told janell my interesting observant observation then she said "they grow up watching tv and they die watching tv" .quite sad seh .but like that is the way it just is lah.

goign for some driving stimulator lesson tmr! quite excited leh. some sir talk abt it like some video car driving thing machiam daytona or what .yet i dont think is lah since none of my friends ever mentioned abt it before...which reminds me what a sad pathetic social life i have x_x hah. not that i am complaining. i got my hand of trusty friends whom i am v happy with.

which remidns me someone is coming back!!!!!!!!! i cant say in case her other friend comes then spoil the surprise hahah what are the odds .raechelle pokfulam is coming bacccccccckkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so excited. which damn as laosai reminsd me that i need to go back rjc to talk to luke .... zzz stupid mistake i made at 16years old -.- i hope i dont see mk..

oh ya also i want to talk abt a dream i got 2 nights ago. i finally can logicalise why i screwed up a levels. wah my dream really sucked man because of the struggle i was in but when i woke up i realised that it had always been so. i stopped COMPLETELY doing tutorials in june j1. (i unofficially stopped aft 1st 3mths) then i just didnt bother .for promos i conc on math so i got my A and was good. then in j2, i tried doing but damn tough lah cos the topics more or less intertwined so if i want to start i knew i needed to start back from j1 topic 1 for chem physics and econs. on top of my current stuff. sound damn daunting so i keep procrastinating and all that shit then just didnt do at all lah . so liek that , i go into the exam halls soaking up the smartness of the top students in singapore,get stunned by qns i always saw in tutorials with no ans from me but teachers and peers, and look out at the window. (it was always fascinating to do so. cos here we are inside a room and everybody arnd are chionging their ass off and writing like dno what in some piece of paper to be flown to cambridge so that our destinies can be determined...all the while people outside are gng abt their normal lives- keeping the streets clean, driving off to lunch or a meeting or wht. the comparison intrigued me)

so there. i am resting like i always have for the past few years just that now i got no label of "school" to have an excuse for as such . except that :" aiyah my alevels damn lousy. yes rj damn smart but i not smart"

i am not complaining .just saying so !

i look 16,17 years old..12years even to someone that lives with me. and i am not taken seriuosly. but i dont give a shit anyway ^^

it is painful to let go but it hurts more to hold on.

why does things always turn out wrong :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_BGRIrMUzY

how is it that....zzzzrah. damn it. i must stop this shit right .i think even the people arnd me are getting pissed off for dwelling over this for so long. hahah did something this morning that i shldnt have. but i guess without even that, i will still feel that they think so lah.

but i must say from this i learn to depend on my friends more yet be more independent as a girl.

Dear John was a nice story. i was very moved by the story. maybe a bit too affected also lah walao haha .

today i saw a old woman sit alone in a restaurant, dress richly those kind, and ordered pasta and some chicken meat thing. remind me of last time when i looked around the scenarios in hogsbreath and sakuraya. heart wrenching. i dno why everytime i see such thing i feel like crying

this is a chain mail but it is so funny!!LOL... i got tricked.

It's an old story that we read in Class 3 but with a new ending.

A hat-seller who was passing by a forest decided to take a nap under one of the trees, so he left his whole basket of hats by the side. A few hours later, he woke up and realized that all his hats were gone. He looked up and to his surprise, the tree was full of monkeys and they had taken all his hats.

The hat seller sits down and thinks of how he can get the hats down. While thinking he started to scratch his head. The next moment, the monkeys were doing the same. Next, he took down his own hat, the monkeys did exactly the same. An idea came to his mind* He took his hat and threw it on the floor and the monkeys did that too. So he finally managed to get all his hats back.

Fifty years later, his grandson, Sukhwinder, also became a hat-seller and had heard this monkey story from his grandfather. One day, just like his grandfather, he passed by the same forest. It was very hot, and he took a nap under the same tree and left the hats on the floor.

He woke up and realized that all his hats were taken by the monkeys on the tree.

He remembered his grandfather's words, started scratching his head and the monkeys followed. He took down his hat and fanned himself and again the monkeys followed. Now, very convinced of his grandfather's idea, Sukhwinder threw his hat on the floor but to his surprise, the monkeys still held on to all the hats.

Then one monkey climbed down the tree, grabbed the hat on the floor, gave him a slap and Said

"You think only you have a grandfather !!!???"

2) I PASSED FINAL THEORY TEST. pa was so shocked when i told him it was my 7th time doing final theory stuff. he disappointed at a stupid child like me.. sigh

3) i bet they dont come my blog so i shall just say it.aiyah i dont care. why the hell do pple keep insisting to add others on facebook? i talk abt my case. see. i add you alr, we dotn even talk at all so i delete you cos you are wasting space in my facebook. then you keep trying to add me back again. damn you. when i finally add again you dont do shit again. see your name on my facebook make me feel so -.- what the hell .... hahah

4) http://www.hungrygowhere.com/singapore/hog_s_breath_cafe_vivocity/
i checked it out last time .there is half an article on me!! i am so touched the man wrote so much abt me... my actions are really that commentable. lol

2) I PASSED FTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

5) i am giving tuition and i feel v frustrated. how ... why am i such a bad teacher. i want secondary school kids.

6) yeah. i guess it is only a bday.

16. You never really learn to swear until you learn to drive. x_x tsk..lol.

19. Isn't making a smoking section in a restaurant like making a peeing section in a swimming pool?

22. If a convenience store is open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, why are there locks on the door? (eh i did think abt that! YES. i am intellectual ^^ )

35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8Oys48r5CA&feature=related

the lyrics: http://www.musicsonglyrics.com/try-lyrics-asher-book.html

his voice so nice. and sincere and simple sounding. sianz how come some people can just sing so nice one sia .

my juniors treated me to 6$ movie and $3.50 lunch hahah super funny the way susu tell me is a treat from them.such thing only can come from runners hahaha :)

today evening i went to watch UGLY TRUTH with clar at goldclass! waseh.... 40 bucks for just damn comfortable chairs... -.- zzz the money gone like that so heart pain but ma pay so whatever lol. but the chair seriously damn shiok.

and i was thinking the girl really damn lucky this handsome nice doctor (who has damn nice apartment ::: ahahha) likes her. but i see why she eventually broke up with him .cos like , he really kind of too perfect alr. he is more of a poster boy. like skandar keynes. drool and go crazy at him on paper only. a person shld have flaws so that others can truly love him for who he is inside out.

final theory test tmr... i am so scared of failing that i might just pon this whole shit damn thing all together. just as how i have been doing for everything that matters v close to my heart. run away from it. avoid. dont give my best. pretend to myself and the world that it isn't that impt to me.. how- i really need to learn how to take rejection then i will be totally free of hurt

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY NICOLE TAN SER HUI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!









People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.


When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.They may seem like a godsend and they are.They are there for the reason you need them to be.Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.


Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.They may teach you something you have never done.They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.


LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.Your job is to accept the lesson,love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.


a person comes to mind after reading each paragraph. all v close to my heart yet in different ways. quite agreeable yet debate-able but a good read

tmr will prove to be a challenging mornign O.O zzzzz. . . . . . exciting~ ^^

"- cut her hair short, i watched the whole thing. she's psychotic but i guess ppl like her never really cared what others cared so it was a very easy thing for her to do. its a bob now so she says, 'My name is bobby now.' OKAY "

from janell. actually she is quoting herself.

anyway. i v stressed from teaching . need water. but to better news, i am going to scout for a bicycle tmr! in 5 years, i be scouting for a vietnam husband. because. i am getting old alr lahzxzx. shit.

the heart is too weak and broken to feel any hurt.

oh shit. today walking out of the road, i saw this rat. i think kena run over by car ah. WTFAKDJFAKLDFJ damn sick. gross. disgusting. cos like the stomach there kean cut open or what.then can see the intestines come out. really machiam worm shaped or what .damn sick sickcisciisksk. argh.

http://redsports.sg/2008/04/24/49th-inter-school-cross-country/ hmmm

ytd i had a damn bad headache.

and i had a dream. i dreamt that i was gng back to rj to train. and since i so long nvr go back,i forgot to do a lot of pre trng prep. then like when it was time for trng i suddenly rmbed them all .

ihavent tucked in shirt.
i forgot to change into my contact lenses (one of them broke in my rush so i was half bad-sighted - prob inspired by last time rj track trng when i rubbed my eye while running and the contactlens came out :o -.-)
i got lost in the school compound
i was not wearing socks
no watch
hair damn messy
i had to go to some damn SCARY place to get my trng shoes (eh when i say scary is really scary. i got a friend to follow me which is scarier because i hate implicating other ppl because of my probs)
i saw the bunch of runners alr at the field (mind me, it was a bunch of runners in the familiar colours but i could spot certain pple,or was it person?cant rmb, in particular) with queen&table standing there with the faces on my msn display pic

it was damn hell nightmare because i v often last time get dreams of being late for trng then i try to chiong there to make it in time but everytime my legs cannot move like damn heavy. and i v scared of queeny. walao so many mths alr but the terror still stays..... this is not good/

anw i got a tuition kid and she is damn cute. i will try to take a pic and put it up one day. hahha hopefully is not invasion of privacy or what. and more impt hopefully auntie kelly dont fire me before that x_x

facebook twitter must change to blog one.

i think twitter damn mafan and dumb but nvm. i am 18 only once. ytd i put on make up to go out! because of yingchong but nvm.is a milestone in life because the last time was for sec4 prom.

today i am gng to west coast park and have bbq. lol got such a boring life .

it was only ytd 9mths 5days later after we graduate from rj* that clar**** start to feel the love for rj* HAHAHA. congrats!!!!!! so proud of you :)



it is getting hard
is this how you want it to be
is this how it has to be
the birds that sang our song is losing inspiration

"hey. ... do you have a dinner bag? ... ..i need for tmr night. ... i excited about tmr, .. Not dinner but meeting you leh."

. with an absolute FULL STOP. ;)

i dno what it is about anymore

http://www.fromsport.com/c-11.html

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oz31qzhswO0&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fhome.php%3Fref%3Dhome&feature=player_embedded
some supposeeedddlly funny shit.

you know coming online sucks cos you see the thing .it's in your hand's reach but.it's not for yours to claim.
like so near yet so far . that's why i hate using the computer now. ONE OF THE REASONS. (i use so long also get headache. computer is a claustrophobic thing) what is my limit?

even though we aren't on terms, don't any of you dare insult him in my face! i will turn my back to you and ignore you till .

the last time i came online was 28th july! aiyo .

anyway i had an eventful weekend. i met up with jolene,nic, rae on sat.

then on sunday i had my first official stayover at a friend's house. nicole tan house. (jan looks over and smile in happiness for my achievement because the stupid loser #*@()# defy parent orders and had her first stayover like 4 years ago) at pasir ris mrt and further .
we did the usual stuff that girls stayover do.

small clothes give to smallest girl(me. vicki kena pangsehed) present.
talk to malaysian(not singaporean) boy(not our one. nicole one) in australia ( :o skype so cool )
look at people on friendster
comment on friends eyecandys-who are other people's boyfriends and totally out of your reach boy-
look at pretty pretty girls
talk about eating
laze all over the house
get to know handsome champ.(WHARRRRT THE HELL. when i saw champ for the first time when i walked into those fateful doors, is like .o_o. wow damn pretty dog. but is boy so handsome)

ok i cant rmb what other normal stuff we did that can be paralleled to a normal girl stayover outing HAHA

then i went to watch colecole take out her braces and sHIT. life transforming moment. next time i will be the evil aunt that drags rachel and jan kids to the dentist to pull out teeth and not let it ownself drop. braces is a tormenting scary scarring process.

and HANGOVER. lolololoolflasdflkasjdfkasdjflkj every kid above 16 years old must watch this man. shitttttttttttttt damn funny. and fyi, dont watch with your girlfriend boyfriend or anyone similar esp if you are young kids . go watch ice age or smth with her/him. ok. no more shit. hangover is selit sia. good show.

about work, i .. hm. the exchange of smses i had with boss seems like a bidding farewell . it seems so to me lah . so....heh i dont know what to do about this situation... hmmmm ^^ and damn you commenters lah. 7 months 4 jobs, is nothing.i have heard better more itneresting stories so JUST BECAUSE I AM SOMEONE YOU KNOW THAT HAS CHANGED JOB DURING THIS HOLIDAY, stop saying i am fickle. commitment problem and all that shit.

i am home. and waiting for my first driving lesson tmr. aksldjfaskldjfasdklfj

anyway i came here to note down my presence on internet.
over the weekend i learnt that i was a student (IN JC ONLY) whose bag is very small and light, but confirm got jacket inside so during lesson can take out and sleep on it. i always thought i got a very heavy bag. then plus jacket and shoe bag that i cant squeeze into school bag. and like about 5 km worth of track stuff and sweat .ok 745pm. go home now.

today i suddenly had the thought of approaching you and asking if we could start all over.
shit man... why?

says:
you know when i run
says:
in future
says:
i envision me running with people
says:
trng
says:
like proper trng
says:
we warm up stretch, do the workout warm down strengthening stretch
says:
we sweat like siao
says:
curse trng
says:
but meet again 2 days later to do it all over again
says:
and i cant achieve that so which makes me really sad
says:
therefore i cant run

why, why....
many times as i lie on my imaginative inducing bed, i wonder whether my year will be for the better with you in it

george sampson

thomas daley

britney spears

lol i feel so bimbo but whatever. i think they are damn good looking. pretty

the writer in me has been stumped by you .

http://www.metrolyrics.com/leave-out-all-the-rest-lyrics-linkin-park.html

wah shit. i really cannot think of anything logical to type

http://playonclick.com/Videos/?chr=all

http://www.watch-movies-links.net/movies/the_negotiator/
that is the NEGOTIATOR. good movie. but take so long to load :(

romania, iraq/ iran. influx of foreign workers to boost economy

it started out as a good evening... even with your 'hatred' and all that .

but damned my fears it got the better of me again.
now i am agitated all over.

this is my life and i will govern it however i want it. in the end, life all heads to the same direction. death . death. DIE. maybe soon one fine day God will stop giving me chances and tell me "game over" because i keep playing with death. so what shit does it really account to what i do now?! zzz XP

words of wisdom from MYF : no training means no results

i shld just run

Don't you wake me from my dream nowI want you here by my sideAnd it won't be so when I am awake will it

This is as quiet as it getsHush down nowGo to sleepWe were once perfect me and youWill never leave this roomH H H HushYou color my eyes redYour loves not live it's deadThis letters written itself inside out againWhen rivers turn to roads and lovers become trendsH H H Hush this is where it endsThis is the calming before the storm This absolution is always incomplete It's always bittersweetH H H HushYou color my eyes redYour loves not live it's deadThis letters written itself inside out againWhen rivers turn to roads and lovers become trendsH H H Hush this is where it endsI wont make a sound so you don't wakeDon't wake don't wake you don't wake you don't wakeHush You color my eyes redYour loves not live it's deadThis letters written itself inside out againWhen rivers turn to roads and lovers become trendsH H H Hush this is where it endsYou color my eyes redYour loves not live it's deadThis letters written itself inside out againWhen rivers turn to roads and lovers become trendsH H H Hush this is where it endsThis is where it ends http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VeEgwXAyQCs

i especially like hte piano part.
have there really been cases when things happen and you never really find out why?even if it is within your human reach

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kYYuKbxa30 LOL.FRIENDS IS FUNNY :D

i was watching AYG and i feel it pulling at my heart's strings .so emotional -wrenching.... :( aw man, i was oozing with national pride . i think how camera men and all the IT ppl can capture certain scenes and put it together into a video-collage so nicely is very nice. i never get sick of it even though i watched it abt 3 times in the 2 hours i was watching ayg highlights =D "yay me"

and and i listened to the ayg song for four days in a row and never recognised the voice! lian kim's voice so niceee :)

but most imptly of this post, my friend asked me whether i know quah ting wen because he thinks that "she is quite pretty what " . woooots~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDapeAuLgu4

finally saw it .
does it have to take that much to get someone to just stop for a while and realise you are there .just there waiting with all his affection laid down for nobody to see but you only

Things to Live by

1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
2. Don't worry about what people think, they don't do it very often.
3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.
4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
5. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.
6. An excellent approach to housework is to sweep the room with a glance..
7. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.
8. A person who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person.
9. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.
10. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.
11. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of cheques.
12. A conscience is what hurts when all of your other parts feel so good.
13.Eat well, stay fit, die anyway.
14. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.
15. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.
16. A balanced diet is a muffin in each hand.
17. Middle age is when broadness of the mind and narrowness of the waist change places.
18. Opportunities always look bigger going than coming.
19. Junk is something you've kept for years and throw away three weeks before you need it.
20. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.
21. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.
22. By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.
23. Thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator.
24. Someone who thinks logically provides nice contrast to the real world.
25. It ain't the jeans that make your arse look fat.
26. If you had to identify in one word, the reason why the human race has not achieved its full potential, that word would be "meetings."
27. There is a very fine line between "hobby" and mental illness.
28. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.
29. You should not confuse your career with your life.
30. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
31. Never lick a steak knife.
32. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.
33. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.
34. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.
35. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender, religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that deep down inside we ALL believe we are good drivers.
36. Your friends love you anyway.

some are damn adfjaldkf hiliarious hahaha. my hands are getting random spasms from guitar geek hahh.

i told myself never to fall into it again anytime soon. i believed it will happen but no, now is not the time. i need to recover. but some idiot joker comes by and disrupt the balance i was struggling to achieve.
i rather copy a design 500 times than use computer to draw. like how i drew the excel sheet for duty roster last time than master the stupid microsoft excel
:(
i liek the start of al's noboundaries song

1 http://davidhorvitz.tumblr.com/

how can anyone be so random? (but now getting a bit repetitive unless he on pictures mood)

2does everyone really need a direction a life? what if ,maybe, certain people are made to float around . most have a certain path they are on, and these random floaters are there to ....................help line the path with flowers. or something like that. ???

3inevitable there will come a day they will think that he shld be hairless by now. he considering uni. he celebrating father's day.

4haiiiiiiiiiiiyah. youknow i read from somewhere that living in this world, we will form relationships and "i am very sure you know that with relationships, hurt is inevitable, disappointment ...." why then can't people just forget about rship . it's innate for us to be reminded of the sad more than the good anyway right. ?

lol k gp fail. it is human to need other humans to survive.

anw honestly i am damn scared of confrontation but i also hope oneday i will meet someone thati will listen to- take a inpenetratable shield and damn confront me abt life.

today feels like a go to the bridge day. whoo time for a run

conclusion

okay but valid qn here; is brooding about the past a self-pity activity or humane?

fang
likes
hannah
montanaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

and joe jonas

but most of all, me! ME. tiffany tan.

today i helped two crescent girls with math. my first outside of school,church girlsschool friends.
omg. but damn uglily mental tired now. argh. like lose control of what i doing. like like after i run 12k kind of feeling . stop. i'm gna swar. (swar is new code worde for swear cos E is too far)

i .
must. watch my hannah montana soooooon.

hehheh i rmb lasttime someone asked me to plan outing and i spent close to 3 hrs trying to think of place to go .too free.

now i must go serve "moocha" (jap for green tea) , solve math as good as i can , study for stupid driving and -----

i must talk abt my beginner noob stage of waitressing:

-@hotmail.com says:
i dont take orders
-@hotmail.com says:
i serve tea, appetiser, clean table
-@hotmail.com says:
refill drinks
-@hotmail.com says:
sometimes v busy so they ask me to serve the main course
-@hotmail.com says:
then they say table number n " some stupid jap word "
-@hotmail.com says:
me : HUH? WTH?? *repeats the jap word damn weirdly*
-@hotmail.com says:
she say "some stupi jap word" again
-@hotmail.com says:
then i okok
-@hotmail.com says:
then go table and kuchani
-@hotmail.com says:
anyhow zam however i rmb my colleague told me the word lol
(and people actually knowledge what i say and repeat it after me. NICE. so proud of them)

i really hate learning all these jap words. sorry .... i hate learning jap. dklfjklasdfjaskdfjaklsdjfasdf

http://www.lyricsreg.com/lyrics/the+cab/That+70s+Song/ nice song but haiyah... bad lyrics. tsk tsk.

iamlegend, jamlegend.

today i became the champion of Rat Race after annabel left and janell at remedial. i attribute it to the school i was in 6 mths ago... (R--) whooo.

i saw my long end of the finger nail make a 90degrees bend. wah #*@()#!! it was painful. it was reflex to turn it back LOL so funny thinking abt it. whoa, i'm impressed at how strong my fingernails are. good healthy nails. good stuff.

first day of work tmr! please grant me patience..

i am done with bof. with absolution. no. more. korean.drama.

wah . i vomited the stuff ytd daaaaaamn sour. like acid like that. if acid tastes likethat. i could like visualise my throat the lining scrapped and bits of the skin dangling . here is a do you know moment

Did you know that when you vomit, tears and miucus are generated?

whywhy? like, make me cry until so liberally =/ wah but the sour taste is the ultimate. winner.

and ah. ryan is now 5. he acts damn big. but when i look at him from afar, he is actually very small.small sized. small little pixie. but he talk until v big. like he v big..... aiyoh.

i used to be able to run so much abt running

"i put on my cap of vice-captaincy."

21st june 2009. 4-6pm rj. thaddeus' 2nd anniversary memorial run.

followers of grace&norman, are you gng? msg me ah. thanks.
grace gave me my 1st task!i must do a good job, do her proud.

www.thaddeuscheong.blogspot.com

i foresee tonight to be a long night :( damn

if lying will get my ass out of this shit

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsZasAQJ06I

THSI IS THE SONG I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR.

(the one that sound like the highschoolmusicalraindance song)

"The miracle isn’t that I finished. The miracle is that I had the courage to start.”

John Bingham, running speaker and writer

nice one.

anyway. the previous post is not about me liking a guy and he liking someone. these relationship stuff ...i dont talk about them so openly :o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9coH3WGSkAU

SHIT. stop it. you know i was just thinking about how she might have been acting, feeling, thinking, speaking, msging and all before . how he went over to talk to her and tell her things will be okay. how hurt and confused she must have been feeling .

you know how painful it is to think about it? you know how hurting and disappointing it is? and how especially more so, demoralising it is? you have no idea. my insides ache like hell thinking abt it.
yet it is so difficult to pull your mind away from it .and then now another story.

damn.life doesn't end like this. troubles don't cease like that.

stop evading people's minds .go away bitch

it's so painful :( please stop it..

today i watched a boring show but something struck me

Love is not a feeling, it is an ability.

ohh...feel the cheemness~

(maybe i really do sound more down these days. i'm fine. affected by some shit but it's the same shit all the time and i do get on with life.so yes i'm fine. good. )

maybe there's truth to it, if things or people don't/can't/won't work out, then just avoid/ignore etc lo...... zz. I_I :*

what really matters to me,
now seem to cease existance

when i turned away from you i knew that was it.

waht does it take to have a better tomorrow?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PVWi-I4Uks

that's the song. this version of the song is so much better than the one that janell's friend send to her. nice one.

http://www.danbrown.com/novels/davinci_code/faqs.html
whoa. angels and demon is fantastic. super good show.it looks so real lah.doesn't look that fake. guess it's attributed to technology~ wah. it's really good. i must go check out his other books. this plot is like .whoo~ damn fun to talk abt it. come come, discussion

anw my dream is abt ....something so i prob wont forget it anytime soon. so i can talk abt it another day. i aim to finish boys over flower today. and i WILL.

this is . lol, a streak? maybe can win .

ytd i wanted to come home and proclaim 'wah, since friday, i've lost/disappointed/argued' with 3 people are very close to me. who mean a lot to me........
today the streak conts! 2 more.

is it really me? ytd my counsellor say it is. but DONT GIMME THAT.

cos your heart is on the floor and you need a way to come back. lol just kidding. i like that girls voice.. i . will never forget the day i went to captain grace's hse and got drunk on yi mian tang. which caused a series of events. and eventually having someone laugh at the way i sing.... wah. you scar me man. scar me real bad..

i hope i dont forget my dreams. i will talk abt them later. i got 10 min to reach hawparvilla lol.

hi caijing. you bullshit me all the time but i hope you enjoy reading runs end, running doesn't. you study in australia abt psycho for abt 2 mths alr right. analyse me leh. what's up with me?

can you be so disturbed by something it becomes an extreme fear to you ?

you know the meaning of foreshadow? i look at this blog and read the previous post and it's how i see the meaning of it.

i first learnt of that word in sec4 when mbong went through the book ENEMY OF THE PEOPLE. how people's quotes became a foreshadow of the future.which were damn subtle i couldnt catch on. i thought it was just a play, it is bullshit. it cannot be real -

when i see the pretty little girl's photos in the vast greenery background i tell myself: i MUST stop. this is not fair. this is not right. this is not meant to be. this is what a "miracle" is. and stop i will.

...
when i close my eyes, it's you i see
......
i'm not alone, i'm not alone .

i ran to the collumbarium with dad. as i looked at the rectangles, i think to myself how sad it is to have your ashes alone in a box and not be accompanied by another person's ashes

those set of raisins are to be trayed in packets of six. you know how much it has been aching to look up at the sky?

i'll take you for who you are
if you take me for everything

http://www.lyricsdomain.com/19/sick_puppies/all_the_same.html

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okjxe8VWQPo
acoustic version: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3ObnWWdi40

for once i dont have a preference over the acoustic version~

i got a lot of things to do today. 1) eat dinner with smart people 2) make new ezlink card 3) buy garfield toy for mother. garfield very cute meh? =/ zz

btw. i got facebook. add me. tiffany tan.

tonight, i have the 'ok you can do it today!' ness to spam boysb4hua since i've nothing on tmr till 9pm =.= zzz. i shld go run tmr. argh.

but i'm not in the mood now.. which is weird. (after i finished Captivating-ok it started out as a good read but became kinda a chore towards the end), i must finish this show then i'll start picking up my econs notes)

aptly put, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HV9UWSawur0 this song is how i'm feeling so now.
you know, i'm not feeling down but there's still a slightness of it there. yet, still very fast paced, confused, though, repeated... ah, i'm gna stop. i shld just watch it to finish it up quickly.

i rmb when i opened ly called out to you, you responded, whether directly or indirectly.. and that was just what sufficed. to take away all the pain and confusion in my heart

http://www.mysoju.com/boys-before-flowers/

a quote from poison study : i felt like a lost child looking for something to cluth; something supple that wouldn't end up hurting me

life now is so aimless and pointless that i've resorted to redundant thigns to look forward to... so food! food is a constant. like a buffer in buffer soln. damn excited for kelong trip ^^ free flow of food whooo

ok sry i dno how to say the buffer thing.but i understood it last time

http://sports.sg.msn.com/article.aspx?cp-documentid=2816108
i had a VERY VERY VERRRRRRY weird dream last night :O

and interesteing revelation on sunday. sometimes things are really not meant to be no matter how much it means to you

ok sad revelation not interesting .i am not morbid

last night pa taught me how to steal from fairprice.

but it was really not worth all the effort running down twenty story staircases because it was just for one loave of gar di ner bread and kongguan biscuits -.-

when we reached ground floor apparently we got another car also .maybe stolen as well =o so he took one and drove off. then cos i went for two driving theory lessons and SHLD HAVE PASSED MY BASIC THEORY EXAM since i mugged so hard, he ask me drive the other .but i started gng on reverse ,i dno how to drive up straight. then police confronted me and ask for my license. but . die. i cant show my ezlink card because i've 4 mths to becoming 18years .:. actly i'm not allowed to be driving! then i woke up. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhh i felt so sad lah. i hate that 'i must run like hell to save my sorry ass' feeling.

on monday night. =o guess what. i got scolded. hhahahaha. in that intense period, i wanted to just youknow say all the shit i ve been thinking and feeling .which will be excuse-able and forgivable because i can just ''attribute it to the anger and defense stance i was forced into''.
but i didnt. because ultimately i'll lose due to my 'when i am damn angry i cant think straight .:. i won';t be able to say anything'. but losing is not the issue. it's the next 2hrs talk.

on my nain61 journey tdy i made a realisation. i am not scared of commitment! when it is regarding something that is of interest to me, áctually the image of commitment doesn't even come into the picture.

HAHA janell if you come here. you rmb the story i told you abt the p3 boy talking abt marriage with me right. do you rmb our neighbour mark or whoever was 5 yrs old then and i was 15!!!! =o =o hahaha. i'M NOT A PEODOPHILE. it's them .i nvr do anything.

nice photo! ignore the words. she looks so natural. leaving aside the skeptism like shes a model and all that. it's nice. i want to go for a wedding :( how come when i was young there were so many to attend that i got so sick of it. now that i'm 18 and have started to appreciate this wonderful ceremony to signify two lives coming together for the rest of time... and it doesn't help that the only author i can think of when i go libraries is 'nicholas sparks' who is basically a writer taht writes abt the different ways different people eventually see pass everything and decide to you know, meet at the end of hte aisle.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love than to lose the one you love because of pride.

all these switch places words to try and sound cheem .i find them very act .but i think this one is

sensible .reminds me of the book i read , The wedding.(by sparks. it's niceeeeeeeeeee) whcih i think i read in lower sec but still strikes me as one of the best read.

actly.....i'm starting to see the value in being "bored".

shit sia. but everytime 'sooooon3sooooon1.com' comes to mind i feel like cursing all over again. i know i complain to a lot of people abt it alr. and OKAY I MUST BE CONFRONTATIONAL ABT MY RESOLUTION.

LEAVE YOUR ASS THERE, IGNORE YOUR "FEEL BAD" NESS, WARM THE SEAT AND COLLECT MONEY.

ooooh, i heard that the army market is near by. and i heard that the food is not bad.

i think tt i 'd enjoying doing whatever i'm doing if i'm good at it. but i dno what i'm good at.i.....like to OMG, go to ntu ^^ hahahahha. wow, okay, so i know that smu is like the city university and ntu is the countryside university. but seeing it in actuality is mcuh more o.o awestrucking. so much greenery. then ill get a bike and cycle ard school.

I ACTLY RMB IT. when i went past the dorms, it actly struck me :' i came here to help wayewayejiejie do sth before.' then 'i rmb coming down for joel too...visiting or sth.' after like 8years. i still rmb. I STILL RMB.

actually i rmb an incident in kindergarten HAHAHA. they like to pair girl boy girl boy. then i was right at the back with a boy. teacher said ,'ok hold hands and follow me' then of course you dont want to touch a disgusting boys hand. so i just walked. but he went to take my hand. then i make my hand until v 'lem-beh' hoping he'd GET THE HINT THAT I DONT WANT HIM TO TOUCH MY HAND. but he was grabbing my hand super hard-ly. aiyah, life so tough.

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/rascalflatts/whathurtsthemost.html

i wanted to record down all the 'how he proposed to her' stories i heard. and start with my parents.

I LOVE SURPRISES .ma jan and rach bought dinner home to eat with me so i dont need eat alone.

bye

i miss training

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3sPZsSLDUo

this song caught me cos song titles rarely have commasssssss
it's fun to send song lyrics cos they aptly express how you feel

with(sept2010) says:
i bet cos a level right then all the ri rg hwachong girls and boys come then push all of us down
with(sept2010) says:
o level they skip, nvr take so we do btr
[c=4]ZAVIAR[/c] : FANBOYS ANYONE? says:
eh sounds logical.


and honestly, when i calculated and corrected T, i was filled with great joy. 1st! then SHORTLY after, shit. they got first. argh suck ..

me 'ok everybody. start praying to your gods now'
lzm" but i no god leh... "
some idiot 'raina our god lah'
lzm "...oh wait. i dont believe in god! im atheist!!" laughs to self.

hi ruimin,yong. sorry for writing such lame, no-life posts :(

i realise it's not the song but the person...
which doesn't matter shit does it

I SHOULD NOT HAVE GONE TO RJC .

when i start my new job , i'm gna start studying .i'm gna start running. if i can ill aim to get top 3 for the big women's event run because top 3 dont get normal trophies. they get tiffany&co's plagues!so expensive ^^

hawlksbreath, i no money alr.please give me my pay

"i mean usually when ppl look at art, everyone feels and thinks their own emotions and thoughts, but what ppl rly want to know is what the artist was feeling and thinking when creating it "

that's what someone wrote after interpretating a song . and i agree with turtlehead!


tiffany blews -falloutboy
I'm not a crybaby
I'm the crybaby
A caterpillar that got stuck
Mr. moth come quick with any luck

A long walk to a dark house
A Roman candle heart keep us far apart
I got your body doing alright
hate me baby
maybe i'm a piece of art

my friends all lie and say
they only want the best wishes for me
Oh, 3 2 1
We go live...

Ohh baby you're a classic
like a little black dress
you're a faded moonstuck on a little hot mess (little hot mess)
and ohh baby you're a classic
like a little black dress
but you'll be faded soons
tuck on a little hot mess (little hot mess)

I can make your heart slow
I can feel the weather in my bones
We're starting off and can turn it to what I like
your pupils big roll like dice

they say they only want the best wishes for me (they only want the best for me)
Oh, 3 2 1
We go live...

I'm not the boy I was before
what I am is just venting, venting
Dear gravity, you've held me down in this starless city
I'm not the boy I was before
what I am is just venting, venting
Dear gravity, you've held me down in this starless city

the song doesn't make any blatant meaning........................................................... aiyo. actly sometimes i think people use the name 'tiffany' to sound classic or sth.. tiffany's . tiffany. tiff. TIFFY (!??!?! that one is just to sound gay.)
ya. so stop it. stop using my name. i get affected very easily. i've a weak heart.

i rmb a bunch of geps and me gathering outside mph hall level 2, bending down to hear my jokes .

after a whole round of stupid (prob amused) laughs generated from my methodist jokes , one ri boy said 'oh i know one ' .the other geps responded suepr intellectually 'which one? ' rgs shift their gaze and wait in anticipation . the rest of the sch pple walk into mph. 'you know, the h2o one...' other geps 'oh oh, that's a really good one! go ahead ' i say ' wow, GEP JOKE. okok tell tell tel ' '

that was what kinda stopped my joke machine streak alr .cos raffles people dont appreciate my jokes.and their jokes are not that bad .except those that involve jc knowledge since i know shit


how do good songs usually start?

20th-22nd march.
11-7
sg expo
adidas sale

GO RAFFLES CROSS COUNTRY FIGHTTTTTTT says:
anyway right
GO RAFFLES CROSS COUNTRY FIGHTTTTTTT says:
tmr i go be tight with you la 4pm ok
GO RAFFLES CROSS COUNTRY FIGHTTTTTTT says:
ben you be tight with us at 6.
GO RAFFLES CROSS COUNTRY FIGHTTTTTTT says:
then we all go mabels house eat alot and be even tighter ok
(raffles kind of joke)

i'm going out with an rgs girl tmr.
and if i'm not wrong it's my 2nd time

thrs a first for everything. first for a 2nd time

oh yea. sorry if i sound offensive. i'm just too angry to think rationally now so .yeah.. sorry.

EAT says:
how was btt?
EAT says:
did you pass
with(sept2010) says:
i didnt even bloody take it
EAT says:
WHY
with(sept2010) says:
the dog say no ic cannot take
EAT says:
but you are allowed to re-schdule it right?
with(sept2010) says:
no
with(sept2010) says:
must pay another 6 bucks
with(sept2010) says:
i not gng alr
EAT says:
eh wah lau you paid the registeration fees and test fee alr!
with(sept2010) says:
ya..
with(sept2010) says:
166.75
with(sept2010) says:
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
with(sept2010) says:
i will go back in sept if i rmb lah
with(sept2010) says:
you go ubi one ah
EAT says:
yup
EAT says:
wao lao don't waste your money okay tiff
EAT says:
167 bucks!
EAT says:
just pay another 6 bucks lor
with(sept2010) says:
it's not the 6bucks
with(sept2010) says:
it's the stupid basket
with(sept2010) says:
and i nvr liked this shit from the start
EAT says:
i can see you are really worked up
EAT says:
i also don't like that shit
EAT says:
so troublesome
EAT says:
we retake together la
EAT says:
but for ftt
EAT says:
not btt
EAT says:
you better don't waste money
EAT says:
i know you are rich but money not throw like that on
EAT says:
one
with(sept2010) says:
alvin say i rich right
EAT says:
aha i think he mentioned it before
with(sept2010) says:
hes damn disillusioned
with(sept2010) says:
he thinks i got hot boyfriend
with(sept2010) says:
damn rich
with(sept2010) says:
damn smart
with(sept2010) says:
but whole day insult my face
with(sept2010) says:
how to retake tgt
with(sept2010) says:
you ubi i bukitbatok
with(sept2010) says:
no similarities
with(sept2010) says:
wth. and you just spent 8bucks like that ytd
with(sept2010) says:
you say i throw away money =.=
with(sept2010) says:
my one 6bucks only leh
with(sept2010) says:
i say later part of the year go back test
EAT says:
can uh
EAT says:
they allow you to put on hold the money for a latter date for test?
EAT says:
i think there is a dateline for it
EAT says:
so do you have a bf?
EAT says:
and i finally know how you look like alr
EAT says:
haha
with(sept2010) says:
??? how you know
with(sept2010) says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
with(sept2010) says:
EH
with(sept2010) says:
YOU KNOW AH
EAT says:
saw the bananas album
EAT says:
?
with(sept2010) says:
cos the pw subject in j1 right
EAT says:
uh huh
with(sept2010) says:
shitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt clarissa got all the unglam photos of me
with(sept2010) says:
anw ya
with(sept2010) says:
then i did minutes for one meeting
with(sept2010) says:
or sth
with(sept2010) says:
basically must write deadlines and all
with(sept2010) says:
then all over the report i spell as 'dateline'
with(sept2010) says:
it's actly deadline
with(sept2010) says:
my stupid dunmanian friend disturb me for DAYSSSSS after that abt it
EAT says:
HAAHAH then how? the pw?
with(sept2010) says:
dno
with(sept2010) says:
not the pt
EAT says:
ahah
EAT says:
this fri results!
with(sept2010) says:
oi
with(sept2010) says:
anw. the driving membership is one year
with(sept2010) says:
must get licence within one year
with(sept2010) says:
so i got till 15jan2010
EAT says:
cool
EAT says:
you nervous about your results not
EAT says:
confirm straight A's one please
with(sept2010) says:
nope
with(sept2010) says:
i'm not nervous
with(sept2010) says:
damn pissed off
with(sept2010) says:
you know the 2nd time i went in
with(sept2010) says:
i try to suck up to him again
with(sept2010) says:
tell him my sister coming down in 10min to bring my ic, can i take the test first
with(sept2010) says:
then he no cannot i must see sth that identifies you first
with(sept2010) says:
ezlink cannot meh?
with(sept2010) says:
i need a picture
with(sept2010) says:
THERE. my face there what
with(sept2010) says:
no ezlink card is not an official identity
with(sept2010) says:
you poly student?
with(sept2010) says:
ya
with(sept2010) says:
k then you show me your poly card
with(sept2010) says:
i nvr bring i left at home
with(sept2010) says:
i need sth to identify you. passport you have?
with(sept2010) says:
no. i got my ezlink card. there got my name, bc number, bday
with(sept2010) says:
not good enough
with(sept2010) says:
uhhhhhhh then you want to see my family photo?
with(sept2010) says:
no ic
with(sept2010) says:
but my sister coming alr. just let me take the test first leh
with(sept2010) says:
cannot
with(sept2010) says:
she come down first then i see how whether got enough time for you to take the test
with(sept2010) says:
... okay fine.
with(sept2010) says:
-at this point. he pretended to busy himself by arranging the slips of pples names-
with(sept2010) says:
okay girl. please go outisde and wait. dont stand here
EAT says:
wah so embarassing!
EAT says:
so you just went off?
EAT says:
is your sister actually really coming down with your ic?
with(sept2010) says:
embarrassing?
with(sept2010) says:
i was damn pissed off
with(sept2010) says:
controlling so hard not to shout at him
with(sept2010) says:
i just go outside lor what to do
with(sept2010) says:
my mother say she will go home help me take cos she got car
with(sept2010) says:
from boon lay go harbourfront =.=
EAT says:
no time alr la
EAT says:
hahah
with(sept2010) says:
is my mum lah. but tell him sister
with(sept2010) says:
ya laaaaaaaaaa
with(sept2010) says:
traffic jam
with(sept2010) says:
then like half hr before end of test i called her again , she was at queensway only
with(sept2010) says:
so i told her forget it... confirm cannot make it in time
with(sept2010) says:
then she scold me leh
with(sept2010) says:
this is pointless discussion. stop changing your mind. i'm on my way. just stay there and wait
EAT says:
then what happened next?
with(sept2010) says:
i wait lor
EAT says:
did she come down with it?
with(sept2010) says:
yea
with(sept2010) says:
but finish alr
EAT says:
what did she say?
with(sept2010) says:
she came i got into the car she went back to boonlay.waipo hse
with(sept2010) says:
she nvr say anything
with(sept2010) says:
on the phone
with(sept2010) says:
as usual
EAT says:
you or her?
with(sept2010) says:
she lah
with(sept2010) says:
i nvr talk on the phone
with(sept2010) says:
actly right
with(sept2010) says:
i wanted to tell her to drop me off at the mrt cos i gng out with friends
with(sept2010) says:
I ALR TOLD HER IN ADV I GNG OUT
with(sept2010) says:
then she said i've to stay in the car. dont go out
with(sept2010) says:
she went all the way to waipo hse
with(sept2010) says:
then say okay go take mrt at pioneer
with(sept2010) says:
like omg. my movie starting in 10min at CATHAY
with(sept2010) says:
CATHAAAAAAAAAAAY
with(sept2010) says:
then i'm really so curious
with(sept2010) says:
why she know she still do that to me
EAT says:
go on
with(sept2010) says:
'teach you a lesson. you didnt complete your first task of passing your test so this is your punishment'
with(sept2010) says:
i stunned
EAT says:
ARE YOU SERIOUS!
EAT says:
she said that?
with(sept2010) says:
ya
with(sept2010) says:
i makeup for wht
with(sept2010) says:
so cute alr
with(sept2010) says:
ha ok sry
EAT says:
HUH
EAT says:
i don't follow
EAT says:
with(sept2010) says:
i makeup for wht
with(sept2010) says:
so cute alr
with(sept2010) says:
ha ok sry
with(sept2010) says:
make up
with(sept2010) says:
eyeliner
with(sept2010) says:
etc
EAT says:
huh hahah okay
EAT says:
so did you make it for the movie
EAT says:
what movie did you watch?
with(sept2010) says:
slumdog
with(sept2010) says:
late lor
with(sept2010) says:
aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
with(sept2010) says:
then the sits right
with(sept2010) says:
FRONT ROW
with(sept2010) says:
seats
with(sept2010) says:
and the girl next to me was so irritating
with(sept2010) says:
kept repeating after the pple in a whiny voice
with(sept2010) says:
then slumdog quite action here and there
with(sept2010) says:
damn dizzy
with(sept2010) says:
i had such a bad headache and i really felt like puking



my day in a conversation..

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. such a horrid day. and i slept at ard 3-4am talking to clar and her enemy but mostly REVISING FOR BTT. so quite tired in the morning.AND HUNGRY.



i want to complain to you XP but you dont care already

To realize the value of a friend:Lose one

:( do we need to go through such things to learn such lessons?


1) i owe joanne 7.50bucks

2) dont go for next family gathering

ryan's so cute. irritatingly cute. i hope what p predicted abt him wont be true

i cleared a small part of my table ytd. and found three little notes i wrote to juniors for their bdays .july.. ah during that time i rmb looking forward to the new year -

and i did it. i'm glad su lasted till then for me to do it .. but thats where we also ended

life.

"at least i know i'm one step closer to finding my true love compared to you"

(frm the so hes not into you movie)

the one where wanhao and beatrice were spying on raechelle and i. i think two of them look v cute tgt to be honest

people in c keep distrubing abt hawksbreath. im too wimp to declare it to your damn faces so ill do it here =D i'm getting used to this job.

but please please .give me a job offer. we're always told to strive for better greener pastures right. i promise to go back whenever i can to help and collect sixbucksanhr.

but i hate it that my old board has two freaking wives and always brings other women over to dine. (so i've heard. thankyou for not letting me see) youre a big fat idiot. disgusting.

i rly dont dare talk liberally abt work man. hahahahha but let me quote something he said

'i thought you all are supposed to be walking ard and attending to the customers' needs?' said in a worse english manner. dude. you arent customer. you are old board.

OMG. i must say this. i hate driving. everybody! dont get disillusioned by the greatness and wonders of getting a driving liscence. its not true. i didnt get disillusioned. but i didnt stand my ground and got forced into it. everybody dotn get forced too. if you dont want to do it, dont. omg, if not for the money alr put it, id have pulled out. aaaaaaaaaaaaaah i hate driving. i hate hate hatehahtheathaethehtahtht driving,. nasty creature. i dont like cars.wheels.pedals.HANDPEDALS (wth). and especially driving. driving and singapore dont go. rules. laws. every single thing you do will go jail, kena fine. then must rmb what are the specific 'single thing' s. walao.....

:( i want my 40c concession back :( no wait. but i dont want to retain. please pleaseplease

remember i said you're way stronger than you think you are?
this is why.

you won't run to the back of the house to look at the ground through your knees.

nope.
it always has been there, through it all... but i ain't gonna do anything about it now man.

customers always ask for tomato or chilli or both
but honestly i hate tomato like crazy.
it's gross
that's why i bring both the chilli and tomato sauces when you ask for tomato
you ask for chilli, i'd bring you two bottles of chilli but i'm scared of the peppermint msian

this is how i feel one should react if put in a situations where youre stuck.
if you dno ,i suggest you just shut up and not cause more disturbance.

...yeah, really. self explanatory

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF1wZQzpeKA

what are yoaueroiekjflkasdjfkdasjfkldsjaklfjsdkljfklf

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF1wZQzpeKA

come, break me down ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF1wZQzpeKA

come break me down ..

TRADITIONAL CORPORATION
What you do when you have 2 cows :
You have two cows.
You sell one and bought a baby bull.
Nurse and feed it well;
They mate, your herd multiplies and the economy grows.
You invest & kept the gains into the country reserve,
You sell them and everyone retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You mortgage both of them to the bank & obtain investment for two more cows,
Then re-mortgage the investment the four cows for eight cows and continue to
do likewise,
The financial market was flooding with mortgages & investments in cow's
assets,
No one knows where & who owned the original 2 cow's ...... ?
Then these 2 original cows grew old & eventually died,
You are surprised when there's No Asset to back up the mortgage or repay the
loan ???
Finally, You ask the govt to bail out the collapse financial cow's market !

A FRENCH CORPORATION!
You have two cows.
You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and
produce twenty times the milk.
You then create clever cow cartoon images called 'Cowkimon' and market them
World-Wide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk
themselves.

A BRITISH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
Both are mad.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows, but you don't know where they are.
You break for lunch..

A SWISS CORPORATION
You have 5,000 cows and none of which belong to you.
You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them..
You claim full employment and high bovine productivity.
You have the newsman who reported on the numbers arrested.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You worship them.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at RM0.06 per litre.
Then midway through, you raised the price to RM0.60 or you cut the supply.
When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and now
want RM1.20.
The buyer decided you can keep the milk and they go look for milk that comes
from recycled cows or the cow urine instead.
Your two cows retire together with the Prime Minister.

And last but not least,

A SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION
You have two cows,
One "cow-peh" and one "cow-bu".

i don't understand some parts cos i dno my geography and worldnews very well.im a disgrace to my father. but just for laughs ;for intellectual friends.

ULTRA AMERICAN CORPORATION

You have 1000 cows, and decided that its too many. So you lay off 500 cows, and saved the company $10M. As a result, the company rewarded you with an additional S$12M in bonus for improving the company P&L.

my uncle added that in. xiao shu. hes a damn intelligent man.

fyi for regular visitors (hahahh), the previous post is confusing for yall.i'm talking about different people. in fact, most of my posts are jumping from a thought to another. every new paragraph is a new topic.sometimes . so don't bother to speculate anything. but you'll not get anything out of it. unless you know me well enough.(fyi as a gauge, janell doesn't know what i'm saying)

Wife : 'Do you want dinner?'
妻： 要吃晚餐嗎？
Husband : 'Sure! What are my choices?'
夫： 當然！我可以選擇嗎？
Wife : 'Yes or no.'
妻：要或不要。

that is so damn hilarious. maybe i shld try it on a hogbreaths customer one day.

i am reminded of a night whn laoshi asked me to organise a chinese gathering for us because we all passed chinese a's.(YAY =) i got merit for oral some more) then after dinner we went to her place and a few of us touched on the topic of 'arranged marriages'. yes freedom of choice and all that shit .but i see a lot of good that they can give

i saw two alternatives my future could take. either one, the cute auntie with cap, towel, long pants smiling and waving at the finish line. or the still v skinny, toned, sweaty, panting like crazy, look like crazy ,be second at the finish line. or ohya none. haha, i've decided no more expectations shld be made anymore lah. i keep disappointing myself sucks shit. macqueen wont take it for an ans but 'see how' .and laugh when i see myself at either option.

i just got mistaken for a 15year old. the photographer unskilled .whole day take marrying couples then never see kids dno how to gauge

MOVIE ON WED. anybody???

today started out well. rachel and ryan were watching lion king when i woke up. then daddy was dno doing what.shitting and reading newspaper ? ma wasn't home as usual. jan was still sleeping. so idecided t brush my teeth and go down to join the two kids to watch. i woke jan up 'it's 9.45' and walked down, unchanged. janell asked ," aren't you going church? " "nope" "why (no question mark for this qn cos she was asking in a super fierce tone)" "i go watch lion king" ... "i think i will learn more stuff from lion king" then i brushed my teeth while watching so that i wldnt miss any more of the show. is it very bad to say this wtv i feel more satisfied today than other sundays.

ill nvr forget my many nights in sec, jc life when i slept at 2,3am... and jen telling me(when i was in sec3 and became a pit. prefect in trg ;) ) 'it's normal for us sec4s man. it's a daily routine since sec3.

i've a confession to make. i've nvr liked going to church in secondary school,.in sec4 it got kinda better cos at least i had janell for company. but by the end of the year, iwas back to sq one and i blocked and deleted a lot of church ppl's msn emails .

and i remember telling people to avoid me at certain points of the year many times. it feels like a point now.

(2007)
'and when i think abt it, i think i am studying too hard. but if i'm not trg, i got nth to do. so do what?study lor.'
'what's wrong
the night of swift race, i had a dream about my new class. 6u. it's nth like having monsters as my classmates or having monsters invade my classroom one day or having a monster as my teacher(hmm... ;p kidding). it was somewhat like reality. it was one bad thing after another...(i cant rmb e situations exactly so i'm just making this up->) my classmates were...horribly unreasonable.my teacher didnt like me from the start of his first lesson.i failed some test(hahaha i realise, it's quite normal to fail right =x).i was very disorientated ;had a whole pile of work to complete, running state was dissatisfying etc. what a nightmare!'
HA. it was shit terrorising.

i am damn embarrassed by my past.

today while planning out my future with clarissa and audrey, fizzydrey commented abt her friend being afraid to get married. then like OMGOMG 'me too! look, i'm 18yrs. i wna get married young so that's like.... ard 25? i 've left 6 years. i'm never getting married.' then clarissa ask me to think about getting a boyfriend first. ... :( sigh, I'm never getting married. audrey thinks our thinking is ridiculous. because it's audrey, the ever cute irresistible fizzydrey.dang, damn heart pain to think about these things. hahahah

RYAN'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING.8 march. i'm going to buy him a lot of hello panda. one fine day i got no breakfast so i took his hellopanda on the table. when he came home, he realised he had one missing hellopanda then i tried to scam him say i only saw two packets. then he was so adamant and looked so lost i felt bad i admitted to taking it. i apologised and asked if i could make it up by buying him another packet the next day. he smiled and said okay. it's times like this i think he's soooooooo sweet and lovable and all things nice. other times hes just a big idiot.

i feel like crying so badly now. eh jan ytd night i really meant what i asked. (when you see so many such long posts, i'm thinking a lot and coming to sad conclusions. i hate realising this trend hahahh) do i really think too much? is there really nothing wrong with us? sometimes when d exclaims, i dno why i married her , i get damn pissed off. i am so angry shes being such an ass esp now that hes making an effort. then it goes back to point one why the hell did you do it? so many times i feel like replying because you failed her first.

is there really a solution to this? dont tell me to pray. because it doesn't solve things. it just gives me hope. but i dont give a shit about hope now. i want a difference. i want to be normal. i want a normal family. i am self centered and want to be a stupid teenager. i want to throw tantrums. i want you to be present when i do. i want to get scolded. i want to get angry at you. i want you to see me get angry.

my dad is very proud of me. at almost every family gathering he calls me over puts his arm ard me and tell them 'this daughter of mine v guai. i scold her a lot of times but never once has she gone against me' then the rest will nod their head approving ly. i don't squirm because i feel shy about him praising me like that, it aint true. if given the chance, more often than not i want to shout back so badly but i can't.

i'm only eighteen years old. met many people in my life. before then, i never thought i'd meet someone with wtv id like of a ...partner or .(don't ask me what) i'd accepted that i'd have to settle for some random guy and grow to like him. but i have leh .so i'm rather happy ive met someone who showed me otherwise.... heng ah

have you been in such a situation whereby you respect and admire a man because he is good, really good. he is responsible, respectful, nice, smart, hardworking...good man. but you hate him for something he did. because i am in such a situation. i really detest him for what he has done i dno if it shows through my tone .yet at the same time i really like him because you don't find such honest ,good men around. but i hate him.

i'm gonna handle it by avoiding him. i'll make this 14th an exception. because i made a stupid promise to her long ago.... but after the 14th, i'm gonna avoid you at all costs. yeah, bus fares and all. but hey, please don't get me wrong. i feel VERY lucky to have met you man... i really respect you so much. if i have known you by some other way, I'd really respond to you properly, i'd ask about your secondary sch and poly days were you juggled so much stuff and excelled in most of them. i'm really happy that you've made it thus far. yeah, if only i've known you by another way... you're someone id really look up to.

i've been listening to the same song over for the past 3hrs http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeRP59WrKxw
i hate it when i type so much