So anyway... Hahahah

2 points
-if posed this qn right now, are you willing to forgo social media interaction, namely twitter and facebook?
-one way to bring about happiness : coming up with a plan. A suggested schedule of activities. To...bring excitement to their lives? Cos it isnt always the case that people dont wna have fun and all. Spmetimes they just dno how or what to do.

Anyway thoughts are all over the place, yes. First day of paper tdy. 2hrs is a mad rush haaaa. Cant wait to travellll

http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/what-to-do-if-you-wake-up-feeling-fragile#.T5v5vpenXqY.facebook

I slept for 12hrs...... Omg. This is insane. Especially so after it was a day of slacking. And my paper is tmr ://// really dno why im so slack this sem. I read all of my pre exam posts from my previous sems and i sounded so energetic for every one! I did sound tired and all, but i had renewed hope for each day.. This sem, im like, ah ive finished studying. Dont feel like revising...... :o whats wrong with meeee. Terrible defeatist mentality :(

On another note, i had a fantastic dream. I dreamt tht i gave birth to a baby girl. And i knew for sure that i was <25. And i was single. (NOT THE POINT) anywayyy it was such a wonderful feeling! I carried her wherever i went, not like i had a choice lolollll, and i dno- maybe the motherly instincts in every girl kicked in. I just felt very blissful.

So, i actly like to sing. And whenever i cant think of any song to sing to, i sing 'a whole new world'. And at 2days old, when i got distracted and stopped singing midway, she finished up that sentence o.o and GRINNED. i was soooo, i felt soooo proud of her!

I really needed to show her off to the others! So in front of jannie and ryanie, we replicated what happened. Then ryan whipped out a guitar and began playing along @.@ !!!!!!! I was in extreme awe hahaha (cos he learnt to play it himself-and i find tt highly commendable. ) and babygirl kept smiling. Aww~ !!! Creamz

'I TOLD YOU not to be in a place where i cant see you'

:(

when you start to develop feelings for someone, doesnt everything the person say or do seem exceptionally good? No matter how he dresses, or does his hair or wtv, he still looks exceptionally captivating.... Its kinda scary cos i know my feelings for him is growing, i can FEEL it and i know it!!but i cant do anything abt it @.@ hahahaaaaa. A bit like how my emotions suddenly expanded recently.

im IRRATIONAL, heheh... But at least this guy is not real to me so i wont need to suffer rejection~

#itsnottrue #justneedsomethingtoventmyangeron why am i such a fool? For letting my guard down.. im so foolish for falling for your queer antics and for you.. :(

Amposting it here instead of twitter or fb cos i suddenly felt too conscious before hitting 'enter'

Im really really tired now. My brain is very saturated and tired. Got a whole pile of work waiting but im just not doing anything. Since ytd evening @.@ its like im in the semi high stage after drinking a bit. I am fully aware of my surroundings. And i know what im doing is out of the ordinary, speaking a lot of rubbish vs not touching my work, but i still do it anything. Cos i cannot help myself...

Im not distracted even. Im just rly lethargic and tired... Feel like giving up. :(((

What happened to 'i dont stop when im tired, i stop when im done' ...

Im so tired... Dont have the inspiration to study...

My name is -, 22, and I am currently pursuing a -. Through my parent’s promptings, I picked up swimming from a very young age and have been training till now. Being at the prime of my life now, I decided to try out other sports. However, I was very reluctant to renounce swimming-thinking about all the hard work and sacrifice I put in all those years-so I decided on venturing into triathlon. I thank my parents for the times they dragged my young and lazy self to swimming lessons as all those years have greatly helped my transition to triathlon. Picking this sport up is a highlight of my amateur sporting career.The challenge it constantly provides me is exhilarating and addictive. The sense of achievement upon each completion is beyond description. The irony triathlon has brought to my life is that when I am in it, when I am desperately gasping for breath, my body is aching terribly from the lactic acid build up and I am struggling to find whatever is left in me for an extra boost, I feel the most alive. The liberation and empowerment I feel-from being able to contain and push through my pain-is what keeps me going. I hope to continue training and pushing myself, redefining my limits and to see where triathlon can take me to. I believe in living life to the fullest, not compromising on the life one is meant to live, and being the best that I can be in every endeavour I embark on.



not very well done. and it's not abt me, sth i helped my friend string tgt, ... but i put in effort for this! and some personal emotions as well so it is here :)

when i am successfully getting over someone, i realise that i get sad because i'd feel like a part of me is being left behind... but 1) i really did like him 2) im succeeding in this process!-hurts for a short while, but will be okay in the long run 3) not gna be tied down by irrational emotions anymore :) pls pls pls let this be true! //i rmb in my first few sems, i'd get rly stressed over getting every few marks just to aim for a high dist. now i'm like......crapppp, i dont wna get credit. i know at my standard i'm so gna get a credit. but i'm studying hard now to get a dist. but i think im gna end up with credit :((((((

"... One of the worst things you can do for your child's self-esteem is to let them give up. On the flip side, there's nothing better for building confidence than learning you can do something you thought you couldn't. "

didnt enjoy the read at all but an illustration preceding this wonderful phrase won my attention and respect

everytime the drilling resumes, i feel my head pounding and gna explode from the inside out haha. (ok how do things explode from the 'outside' anyway ._.)

am really excited abt the prospects of doing an exchange next year but it reminds me of a good friend who left for his last year and now that he is back, we dont talk at all.

quite sad... one of my most memorable moments with him was when he was teaching me the ropes for some computer software. he said i had to learn it well cos he was leaving for exchange. i asked him, "oh no, when?" he said, "next year this time". i was like, hey bro! that's SUPER far away, you're hilarious.

ha haaaa okay, i'm actly not affected by this at all-only when i actly think abt the distance between us now. lawlz , ahhhh drilling sounds remind me of 'sounds of the dentist'. eeeks. contemplating moving to ahma's till exams end.... im' just 1) really gna miss my siblings 2) am too lazy to pack

To be cool and not be fazed by worldly things

I remember anticipating every meal time in Nepal. The food was incredibly special and good.

Zzz dont like it when dad talks abt finance matters.. Im so much younger and unexposed. But my lack of knowledge is credited to laziness and stupidity.

Mum met an old admirer. Makes me wonder what it wld be like if i met a guy 'i used to like' 20yrs later.

On that note, i harboured a few estrangled rships... It was a tough period cos i was struggling to reconcile with them but didnt know how. Wld imagine me bumping into them in future and playing out the scene. Kinda like preparing and rehearsing what to say then. Always left me feeling so upset tht a beautiful rship turned out like that. A particular one left me in tears cos she was/is a very treasured friend..

#but anyway, onefineday, she made things easy for me and took the first step. :)

We have changed, things-as with every new initiative- are pretty awkward now and the dynamics of the friendship is undefined-the same old or something new? We have so much catching up to do yet we dont have much to say because where do we start? Our past was so interwoven and suddenly they were torn apart. Now we are trying to sew them back tgt but do we do just that or create a new history tgt? So many qn marks abt this but we both are dealing with exams now so i shld head back to my bks.......

I miss nepal. And korea ... Hope id be able to add australia to the list in a bit!

I guess its okay to have secrets.. But secrets may cause situations in which im 'forced' to lie. And i dont like lying..

Watched a bit of Beautiful You (? Not too sure) tngt. Was very drawn to it ! Not a gd thing though haha. I guess one drawing point i got from it was :

It's okay to like someone, no matter who that person may be. It is okay

I wna go back to my 2 mths ago state... Ughh, stupid curious self...!!! Why was i so awestruck -.-

Sianzz. Hahaha, i feel so dumb for being affected at all but yeah this is good i guess. I rather be acquainted in person than anything else.....

Was just telling an old friend tt i think i waste a lot of time and opportunities 'waiting for the guy appointed by God to come'. If He knows then i shld have nothing to fear right, or think about even. But anyway oldfriend replied 'theres no future guy that will come along and sweep you off your feet'. hah, yes. Very very very very true. And so i must stop filling my mind with such idle thoughts!! :( esp with exams looming.

Laggingggggg. I ALWAYS start thinking abt my higher purpose in life when i study hahaha. Id think that i could be doing so much more with the time tht i currently used to study. Dont get me wrong, i enjoy what im studying. :) dont like the purpose of it though (for the grades and such).

Am feeling rather discontented now but i shld slp it away. Right now, cover a backlog + tmr's work >>>>>>>>>>> emotions

I dont like realising how stupid i am. I am okay about being humbled and realising how little i know. But not to the extent of being told im a fool and dull witted .

Started on revision so, yay. But still feel like ive unfinished business for today... Probably due to the lack of human interaction...

Lawlz, i only graced the toilet, kitchen and my room. Bluntly put, the 3 most impt things for a human's survival, and possiby happiness, are sleep, the availability of clean toilets to shit in peace and food.

So anywayyyy fang left for oz till sunday :( well, what she predicted DID come true. I have finally started studying. But another proven point severely downplayed that achievement, ha haaaa - 'nobody to talk to anymore'. Siandotcom. For humans to succeed, sacrifices need to be made!!!!!!

#fyi, omg. Running man was rly scary tdy HAHA! Made me jump from my seat. Amusement parks at night are reaaaaally creepy. Amusement parks ,clowns. Something cynical to them... Humans find amusement and pleasure in queer and sick manners hah.

Oh ytd's first was kinda bad.. Made me so upset that i waited till 3am to be exhausted enough to sleep and not be able to do the 'think abt my days events before falling into my slumber'. Was so upset that this phrase came to mind: maybe i should start reviving past rships, making more friends so that i dont treat each rship with such great weightage and seriousness and care.

Expectations>reality = horribleeeee consequences.

Tonight I saw a shooting star
Made me wonder where you are
For years I have been dreaming of you
I wonder if you're thinking of me, too?
In this world of cheap romance
Of love that only fades after the dance

They say that I'm a fool to wait for something more
How can I really love someone I've never seen before?
I have longed for true love every day that I have lived
And I know real love is all about learning how to give
I pray that God will bring you to me
I pray you'll find me
Waiting Faithfully

Faithfully, I am yours from now until forever
Faithfully, I will write, write you a love song with my life
'Cause this kind of love's worth waiting for
No matter how long it takes
I am yours, Faithfully
Faithfully

Tonight I saw two lovers kiss,
Reminded me of my own loneliness
They say that I'm a fool to keep on prayin' for you
How can I give up pleasure for a dream that won't come true?
I will keep believing that God still has a plan
And though I cannot see you now, I know that He can.
And someday I will give you all of me
Until I find you, I'll be waiting faithfully