Friday, May 25, 2007

tdy i watched two soccer matches straight at jalan besar. whatever spelling. rj vs tj. sa vs vj. former two schools won 1-nil. sa and vj are good man. they deserve to be in e finals. rj is good too. their coach is cool. i particularly noticed that e vj players can really run man. sprint. then i noticed that e sa can too.being on par w vj. and both schs' stamina are fabulous. running is a pure stamina mind game. i felt so loser. i can run. so can e soccer players. but they can kick balls too. but thinking abt it, xcountry requires skills too. mental skills; if it counts=p while other sports give people e opportunity to display their skills externally, xcountry runners have to do it interally. fighting against fatigue and your worst enemy, negative thoughts. i'm shivering just thinking about it. say in like tennis. your strategy is to hit power shots back; to whack like mad. if you're tired, you.idontknow.can do a slice and change e direction of your ball then your opponent has to run more. but in xcountry.if you're tired, you.ireallyreallyreallydontknow.can (actually you must) push harder.you cant change your strategy of the game. or maybe you can; slice and dispose off all negative thoughts and PMA. (mr ng's positive mind attitude)

not easy man. doing a slice .in the tennis court.is so cool. cos i cannot do it.not that iv'e tried. but fighting against your mind not as visible.except maybe for e excruciating look on your face.

whoa when an sa and vj person ran after a ball, they look so pro. both teams are so fast and swift man. I AM GOING TO ANFIELD ONE DAY TO WATCH A LIVERPOOL MATCH. I DONT CAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

why are raffles people mostly man u fans.

i still feel v cheated. few weeks back, i found out clarissa my dear friend is a manu fan. and all along, since last yr nov, i thought she was a liverpool fan. she always sounded so excited when i talked abt liverpool matches.(one was particularly agnst manu) it just didnt occur to me she supported manu!? sigh. e dark side.

tdy. I CHEERED FOR RAFFLES. as in.saying out loud the word 'raffles' and really cheering. i said 'raffles ichiban!' actually i dont know what it means .ohwells. i cheered for raffles! then i went home with shuxiang. we were initially lost. but shuxiang, and her smart sgporean instincts, said to follow e two girls in front of us. follow we did, and we saw e mrt. yay :)

prison break kept me off my seat ytd night. champions league kept me slamming e chair. tdy's match kept me at e edge of my chair for most part of e game. rjxcountry capt interview kept me totally slumped in my chair.

(i dont know if this is allowed)
"If you perform below your potential and B beats you, then the idea is, of course B won., I'm not going all out, that's not the real me, I could win if I wanted to. You're choosing that path rather than performing your best, winning, and being counted on to win. Because if you're counted to win, and dont, that's a worse fate, and you'll feel more hurt, more of a sense of loss. In other words, you imagine more risk in working your ass off than not working your ass off. You're not the first athlete to confront this."
-God on the starting line by MARC BLOOM pg 180

other than e winning part, i feel like that sometimes. acutally more often than not. he accounts it to low confidence in self(it was a huge prob last time).and after a while, he actually got pissed at me.for not doing to what he perceived my potential to be. smth like what steve prefontaine said 'giving less than your best is to sacrifce your gift.' smth like that. i'm hoping to run like how i ran in 06' x natls. i want to regain that fitness back.that passion i had for running.that love and how i embraced pain. 11 more mths.

'I hunger for You desperately.'
i confess i've not been living by that. sorry. can You help me?and remind me?please.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

19 May 07, 13:30
sarah: hahhha how many guys u go out with to watch spidey ehh (:

i went to watch with my church friends! it was in place of my youth meeting =p how cool is that ;d very.

17 May 07, 00:20
jamie: i dont slack anymore! good girl now. hahas. you should be good too! XD hahas. then you get to do the scolding instead of get scolded. XD love you loads. miss you even more.. hope to see you soon! =)

ahahhaha dont slack anymore.....???good job man .totally. i'm like the opposite now . maybe we exchanged jobs!HAHAHAHA =p take note of the assumption in that previous statement.if you do catch it. hahaha. hmmm 'you should be good' .that'll be how others view me. but i'm so totally not good. pple call me mugger here at rj leh! not bad right :) but i'm just trying to understand my work.to no avail of course. and jamie the scolding job is only left to you. no one scolds me here at rj for not doing my work. i miss you even more more more :(

17 May 07, 00:18
jamie: hihi! hahas. havent been here in awhile... my uniform isnt that big lor... about same size as yours... only sleeves not folded. XD amidst the scary amount of work we get life as been quite good to me

amidst the scary amouth of work we get life is... my outside school life is .trg life.and my spiritual life also a bit dying. aiyah screwed up lah. oh yea.teo can say she has a life outside sch. i'm so envious. ha.. how abt you man =p dance life.

16 May 07, 23:41
chris_: hahahahahhaahh! pact buddyyy =)
pat pat :P

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

over the past few days. i had 3 pacts

1 with clarence yuliang annabel christopher and myself. at the playground. hahaha i felt that e scene was really cute. it deals with our future relationships and e rest of our lives =p

2 with chris and mark. after spiderman 3. hahaha aww. that was really sad. at the last scene of spidey 3.. the old best buds became enemies and then
'friends' according to spiderman.
'best friends.' man with spikes at fist objected.
omg...that part was so ..whew. so yes 2nd pact! to be there for each other

3 to write letter fortnightly to chris (yes him agn) and sms him at least once a day! so that in a yr , we can have thousand letters at hand and say ' i have a friend called chris/tiff whom i can lean upon. yay!

and abt spidey 3. whoa, i sat next to rufus and he's such a *^E*W*! at the part when e butler (or whatever his job is) told the son the truth abt how the father died; the butler said ' i loved your dad...' then you feel your heart twitch. but you hear in the background 'oh my. gay' ok nvm. then butler conted 'and i love you too...' this is e part where you tear like nobody's business but 'oh man. gay gay. double gay!' so instead of crying . turn to your right O.O klDJSOU#O@&#! you spoilt the moment! zzz. and i rmb another crying moment but just when it's coming; you see someone turning to look at you, giving a wry smile, at e corner of your eye ._____.' -.-"" yeah that face. zabak.

but but. it was a good show. wonderful :D i loved it/ value for my money! yay

Monday, May 07, 2007

oh my oh my oh myyyyyyyyyyyyy. it's been such a long time!! hello :) welcome back darling! so what am raving about you might ask!? well trg workout tdy was '8 *500m , and do 2 more 500m if you feel comfortable after. you shld feel v comfortable .' well after being under him for 1 1/2 yrs, i still didnt get that. haha i thought i REALLY had a choice of whether to do that last 2 500m or not. audrey got it. but anyhows, i had a really heavy lunch (i was like super kiasu zzz) and didnt feel exactly v excited to do a good trg. but to cut e story short, i did
10*500m in e end! i'm so happy. i'm really happy. i'm really really happy.

really grateful too. esp to my trg partner tdy, audrey :) thanks for pushing me tdy. and to nicole! who like did e last 500m interval set with me even though she ran 16 *120m before that. actually when i was running e last 500m behind her (she was too fast for me =X) i was thinking to myself; maybe she misses long intervals so she readily offered to run with me.whoa look at her fly man. hahaha ;D whoa she really pushed me ...good encourager.thank God for her :) and to coach for being .really so encouraging, patient, and supportive of me. i'm so super elephant grateful.

oh and thanks melvin too for collating the photos for rjx season 07. so prettiful :) this team is really cute. my sisters bro and i were laughing at them photos while looking through. like the super gay poses of weiwen s. and audrey's maggi mee hair . and the super serious 'my team so totally didnt get 2nd for team overall' faces of the guys'. hahahaha btw, rj guys got 2nd. girls 4th. no matter, all glory to God.

anyway, i just ended my 1 week of prayer and fasting! :) well, i wasn't very disciplined as usual but i guess it'll take practise. and e last day's reading material was really good. i felt it speak to me a lot. so i thought i'd post it up for y'all to see. here goes .;,,

GLOBAL PERSECUTION
CHrist said such a life (life of persecution, opposition, difficulties etc you get what they mean) is to be expected if we desire to follow Him and we can take joy in Him even in the face of such hardship. But in the meantime, let us hold each other and Christians all over the world in prayer as we forge ahead with determination and God's strength. We cn onlybe humbled during such situations at what Christ Himself endured at the Cross, that we may be called His children.

i was thinking that you know what i'm going through now, what emotional burden i'm feeling now (and i dont even know the cause of it) is so rubbish. here i am wallowing in self distress when my siblings all over e world are facing persecutions etc. what right do i have to do that?! and from the 6th day of fast here's another extract:

pray for protection of the mind : THe enemy uses discouragement, loneliness, feelings of fruitlessness, and immoral thoughts to tempt and lure one away from the Lord's work. The powers of darkness are real.

so yes i must resist! i must stay strong.

kangwei doesnt believe that mummy is.mummy. hahaha bugger. my mum likes him though. said she reminds him of joakim (e geek in the pink sg idol contestant guy). bright lively eyes and some kind of smile. wait until she knows him...hahaaa jk

i'm talking to radha and. oh my, it's gb's 80th anniversary this yr!! i thought it was 75th..and i rmbed i went for that 5 yrs ago...as a p6 kid. i still have a photo as evidence..ah long gone are those days.... prilaa said they're trying to gather all e gb girls back for hopefully not e last time for the dinner.

we(nic aud myself) made a song tdy.

oh mr sun sun mr golden sun
please shine down on me
oh mr sun sun mr golden sun
hiding behind the tree

please come out so we can play with oyu
please come out so we can do intervals

oh mr sun sun mr golden sun
you really love la la la( :P ).....

we were happy trg was over. for the day.

so my dear friend, who was probably home studying or smth while we were slogging out at the track, what's going on in your life man? coming back?? we have been anticipating

Sunday, May 06, 2007

I THINK THAT
GOING ONLINE AT 5-6PM IS ONE OF THE WORST TIMES OF THE AFTERNOON.
there's like hardly anyone online. probably because they are studying...like i shld be doing too. then go online only in the night when they're done..when they need a break.

you know what.i know i'm a christian and my purpose in life is to serve God, love Him, lead unsaved ones to salvation. but here i am asking 'what's the meaning of life?' school is turning to a real chore for me. not saying that school nvr was...but i used to be able to say ,' i could do without school.. i dont look forward to sch. i just look forward to e company of my friends.' now i cant even say that. and no i'm not saying that smth happened between a sch mate and i..or that i dont like my school mates. nope nth of that sorts. ah i dont know lah. but here's a ...cry out to all my christian siblings. please pray for me?pray for emotional healing and for my purpose back in life. oh yes, and last BUT NOT LEAST, for the joy of the Lord to be restored in my life again. amen.

http://www.donghaeng.net/english/duty/duty.swf

thanks

Thursday, May 03, 2007

i am very sad at the moment . because. i waited two weeks. i waited 14 long days. i waited fourteen days to see you again and wonders of wonder, i cannot. and why cant i ? because of some technical glitch that has to happen now; no not ytd not tmr not at 12am later in e morning but NOW. my telly has to hibernate now. N O W.now.

which part of now do you get?! none i tell myself. because i faithfully wait at 2230 every thurs night to watch my prison break.because my telly waits patiently at 2230 every thurs for my golden touch to be controlled. because telly waits patiently at 2230 every thurs to accompany me through an extremely adrenaline pumping show...

i'm really upset :( maybe i shld go sleep now.

then again, LIVERPOOL IS MARCHING TO ATHENS ;)

hup two three four

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

ARSGHHHDLFASDFLKSADFAS. I'VE NVR FELT THIS FRUSTRATED IN A LONG TIME. HAHA.. I SPENT THE WHOLE MORNING, FROM E TIME I WASHED UP (okay lah. at 12) TILL NOW DOING TUTORIAL MATH 4B. and i'm only at qn 5. i took a 2hr break lah but wth. this is really screwed.and i've still a long string of hw to do.... i need to do something else....

30 Apr 07, 23:38
audrey: hello tiff!! ahh u quoted me! hahaha. how can you =( lol. eh im not so blur ok. haha. ok see you arnd! =)

why are you so sad i quoted you? you made at least two people smile! alright see me around ;)

30 Apr 07, 23:25
grace!: hello tiffany the part about your captain made me go sour. in a nice way. i can tell you a story next time, but meanwhile, i'm tagging and it takes effort!

yay i love stories!!! :):):) but i dont get how you can go sour...in a nice way...hmmm. maybe it's an irony. yay thanks for leaving your mark :) btw which grace are you. prob a crossie right? so that cuts down...a bit. i know 5 graces. one that i supposedly look like. 3 in mgcross and 1 in rjcross. so which are you....?

30 Apr 07, 22:42
loong: link me. haha

alright i'll link you soon

30 Apr 07, 22:39
loong: hello. i agree with caijing that the audrey part is funny. ahaha. and the score is 100-0 in my favour.

YAY SO THAT MEANS I'M 100 LAH? HAHAHA... YES! IF YOU NEED AN EXPLANATION... YOU so TOTALLY LIKE TO SUAN YOURSELF SO YOU'RE 0 :) SO THINGS IN YOUR FAVOUR..YEAH 100-0. NOT 10000-0(WITH ME BEING 10000) ;) HA. YESSSSS!! TIFFANY 200. WL 0. YES YESYES.

30 Apr 07, 19:20
junlong: press on!

THANKS DUDE :):) COME BACK FROM ARMY SOON AND TELL ME MORE STORIES!

29 Apr 07, 18:22
caijingg: lol tiff i laughed at the audrey part. can totally imagine her saying that

HAHAHA. AUDREY IS JUST THAT DUMB RIGHT. BUT NVM LAH.. AT LEAST SHE'S NICE AND MAKES OUR DAYSSSSS :)

29 Apr 07, 16:34
tricia: ****zz im missing and loving b2 0506 like madddzzzz, obs, longest day, founders, teachers day, every lesson, pe, class party, teacher's dayssszz, everything other single little thing.!!!

I LOVE 4B2 :) I HOPE WE CAN MEET AGAIN SOON. AND YESS I MISS THOSE EVENTS. HAHAHA. OBS.I RMB WE WERE SO BORED DURING E FIRST DAY.THEN WHEN E GIRL ASKED US WHY LOOK SO TIRED?OR THE ACTIVITIES NO KICK FOR YOU ALL? WE ALL AGREED.TO THE LATTER OF COURSE. HAHAHA :) LONGEST DAY ! FOUNDERS;AMANDA E SEXY ;D OH YA. PEEEE. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA PEE. JK. PE WAS FUN.


29 Apr 07, 16:00
henry korkor: xiaomei. How are you now? is your leg ok? wanted to talk to ou today but your mom is there. hmm. nvm. Continue to perserver on. Jia you.

HELLO HENRY :) TALKING ABT MY LEG... WHEN I APPLY PRESSURE ON MY RIGHT ANKLE, IT HURTS. SIGH... BUT IT AINT AFFECTING MY RUNNING LAH. JUST TWISTED IT. IT AINT A SPRAIN THANKFULLY. AND YOU COULD HAVE TALKED TO ME.MY MUM WONT BITE. THANKS FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT

29 Apr 07, 15:33
tricia: haha ac promotes crossers too. i guess cos crossiessounds rather girly. hahahah.

I THOUGHT IT'S SOME GUY THING TO LIKE TO ACT GIRLY...HMMM... HA.

29 Apr 07, 14:16
jamie: hey dear! =) how life in rj... hahas. miss you... and everyone... loads... <3

HELLO BALLERINA ;D;D;D;D;D HOWS LIFE IN RJ? NOT BAD..JUST THAT I'M TRYING TO COMPLETE MY HW WITHIN ONE WEEK OF OVERDUED DEADLINE. HAHAHA... AS USUAL.. BUT A BIT DIFFICULT COS MY CLASSMATES SCOLD ME 'DONT BE SO SLACK LAH...' AND AIYAH IT'S JUST QUITE DEMORALISING. AT LEAST WHEN YOU SCOLD ME, YOU STILL SLACK WITH ME ;X BUT WE DO E WORK IN E END ! HOWS LIFE IN YOUR SCH? WHERE ARE YOU? PJ RIGHT??? YOUR UNIFORM SO BIG LIKE PYJAMAS. THEN PJ LIKE PY; PYJAMAS. HAHAHA :) HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON

great. there was a reason i wanted to blog. wanted to post some really cool quote or analogy or smth. but i cant rmb what it is...hahaa...

so anyway. for the past 2 trg's , i've been very inspired by a fellow runner and classmate, clarisse. no doubt she had sports history but she is still a very good runner. and when i was shown her blister, and still see her performing, i'm in awe. determination. that's what she said. i agreed.

(this is e part i'm going really random cos my sis is staring at me to let her use e comp) it reminds me just of ants. their discipline and all. it's like. say you see so many ants on e talbe or smth, you blow at them and they scurry in all directions in hope of trying to save their lives. then (if you are) you get pissed and try to smack them ants. (i dont usually do that but i'm in a foul mood tdy. blame math) so i smack one ant and look at my palm. okay i managed to paralyse this ant but i still see it wriggling, seemingly trying to break free off my palm. but it cant, because of whatever forces you need physics to explain. and then you just end off its life by sweeping it away.

much as ants irritate me cos they contaminate and dominate my sweet food when i accidently forsake them, i respect their determination man. i always ask myself why God'd made ants in that way. (if you dont believe in God, then you wldnt agree with my view . i believe everything created in this world is for a reason; for God's reason ;) ) why did he make them so insignificant in size yet so big in determination? maybe one thing hes trying to convey is that God picks the available , not the able; to do his work since he himself is able.

God chooses the imperfect to show his perfection.
i like that phrase. got that from last sun's sermon. on to another note, it's amazing how the pastors or church leaders can alwyas come up w so much to say each week. like when i'm preparing for a presentation...a project; it's just once and we hav so much probs etcetc. but e leaders up there can talk and tlak (and make sense ;P) for so long every week. amazing. imagine how much God talks to them! so nice.

alright jan is gonna take over.

math here i come! or maybe i'll do smth else.