i cant bring myself to do it today...

:/ :(

He thinks that I don't care. Today I learnt that he thinks I "never put much thought into it" .. It's kinda hurtful yet really insulting to me. I feel very offended in fact. .. I'm thought so lowly of. They never had a good impression of me. I'm just a quiet "nice pleasant " girl outshone by my younger sisters in every way. Rachel is v filial, loving to Ryan and responsible. Janell is strong headed, opinionated ,smart and rly intelligent. Me? I'm a nice girl I guess.. But she went to sim aft graduating frm Rj. She doesn't know what she wants. She's 20 but still acting like a kid. She's not pretty, doesn't know how to dress up and put make up on. I'm just someone who doesn't care. Abt anything. Yep i know that's how I'm seen. Maybe it's because of this perception people have of me that is so evident and strong tts why I act so. Or sometimes I give the occasional rebellion-magnifying my flaws- jst so that I'd be different from what people expect of me.

It's far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason.

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=435703785332&id=838833331

if that can be seen...

was asked an innocent question today but because of the circumstances it was fit in, it ... plainly put, affected me. haha not that i showed it .

today i went home early

oh and ps. i've been wanting to upload a video, JUST BCOS I'VE AN ACCT..hahaha it seems i'm the only loser ard with too low a reputation to afford it ;|

there's a saying that we should follow our heart... but if my heart is broken, which piece do i follow?

. ranted abt some nagging issues in my life ( A FEW TIMES )for quite some time... and i realise i nvr did anything abt them...

anw i was in the sun two days back and came up with four gross things abt myself :
i am
1) lazy
2) insecure
3) anger-ful
4) prideful

wow thts quite a lot of nasty stuff gng on... haha. and to think 4 years ago i was described as a 'sweet angelic girl'.

to you: i dont know who you are.. but anyway, i cant wait to see you.. :/ :) hope you are too..

(PS. OMG IF YOU ARE MY GD FRIEND, DONT TEASE ME ABT WHAT I SAY ON MY BLOG LEHHH. i get rly shy abt ittttt zzz haha)

been feeling so tired since exams ended!!!!!! it has been a week since it ended now.... do you think it is possible that i'm still suffering post exams syndrome... cos this tiredness overwhelming me is crazayyyeeeee. i feel like i'm just existing =/

got the time but am lazy to pack my room and do admin stuffzx that i shld do to clear my life up....... hhahahah sianzxz.

dno what i'm even looking foward to now =/ dno whether to still go ahead and pursue my wtv or just live as per normal..

i'm starting to fear that i bcm like dgm and be in the same situation =/

i dont wna think so much but a part of me is like so messed up and, while sth can be done for the others, this can nvr be resolved. i'm not given enough time to change. you're not being fair.

fangfang bought candy floss for meeeee :))))))) makes tdy's sucky day kinda btr..