"beneath this facade, you are ,after all, human." ......



for once, i'm speechless.

it is not like i've nothing to say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wskT6YfVB6E
hahahahhaha . i'm not looking forward to christmas almost as much as that video suggests.\i'm not lookingforward to aft a's actly. then itll be no excuse for me to settle everything up that barrel > : \

i kill you hahah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1kXOg23pGeA
HAHA.

i really shld have treasured my time in crosscountry :(

Paperthin Hymn
Anberlin

When your only friends are hotel rooms
Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight

These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends

August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight

You never know what temporal days may bring
Laugh, love, live free and sing
When life is in discord
Praise ye the lord

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
Over and over
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends

i'm actly hesitant to put this up.because of the 'hymn' and 'praise ye the lord' phrases... if they are blasphemy please tell me i'll take this down.
other than that i really like this song/ ill be honest i dont get the true essence of this song because, i suck at inference. with two wks to a's, i still regret dropping lit...

debbie, now that you know what kind of boys i go for, dont snatch from me ah ;) HAHA. and i dont know what sci pracs youre talking abt !??!?! i heard your usa room is a MESS. tsk tsk... rmb to come back to sg with more jokes :)

hello seet. how did you know he was making fun of you to me?i didnt say anything...he said everything. hahahah which was super funny. eh next time take us for a ride! i wanna witness firsthand policeman asking for your ic and the disbelief on his face hahahahahahha.

i'mbeingan ass today. well....by doing what i'm doing, 'after a lvls' will come longer than 1 mth. will it help elevate matters ?

justsyk, i got the 'too hard on yourself' phrase from someone else using it on me. and when you said all those, i see my thoughts being amplified.

dead woman: i have to return back to earth to settle some matters!
dead reverend: why do you want to go up there when everyone's dying to get down here! ?

hahaha.

';i love you but youre not mine to be.'
aww man..

Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?Tell me,ah,ah,ah,are you patient,understanding?Cause I might need some time to heal the holes in my heart and II've tried every remedy And nothing seems to work for meBaby, (baby)this situation is driving me crazyAnd I really wanna be your ladyBut the one before you left me soDamaged, (damaged )Damaged (damaged )I thought I should let you know That my heart isDamagedSo DamagedAnd you can blame the one beforeSo how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix itHow you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)Do Do you got a first aid kit handy?Do Do you know how to patch up a wound?Tell me,are,are,are,are you patient,understanding?Cause I might need some time to heal the holes in my heart and IYou try to gain my trustTalking is not enoughActions speak louder than wordsYou gotta show me somethingMy heart is missing some piecesI need this puzzle put together againDamaged,( damaged )Damaged ( damaged )I thought I should let you know That my heart isDamaged ( so damaged )So DamagedAnd you can blame the one beforeSo how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix itHow you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)Can you fix my h-e-a-r-tCause it d-a-m-a-g-e-dCan you fix my h-e-a-r-t

what a song....................

http://ietv.co.uk/2008/03/06/a-walk-to-remember/ JESSENICHOLASKUMARCHAN! heres's the link for a walk to remember.

anw, jan youwere the 'younger than me' person i was talkinga bt last time...(on that agitated sounding post). now you know what you can do to me.

i've been thinking about it.. yeah ,i'm not worthy to be called one.

i'm not worth it.

how should i redeem myself

and to be honest, when i think abt other fellow runners and know of their stories-of disappearing/fading away from the competition scene, for whatever reasons, my heart aches.

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j2farewellassembly was i cant rmb. i just rmb the crazy girls i hang out with PRANCING on poor griffles upon laying their hands on him.HAHAHAHA. poor j1 boy. he sounded so traumatised. it was *#(@)#*(@ hilarious i was laughing my guts out i couldn't summon enough energy to join in the terrorising. ahahhaha (they were) like a bunch of out of control children all hell break loose whn they lay eyes on their next target at a carnival.

but the song we sang, our batch song thing, it brought back hell lot of memories man...from j1.mostly before i transferred class. i was in a dominated rg/ri environmentbut they were still good times...they were part of the nice harmless pple in their secschs. and during orientation, audrey and thaddeus were always 10 feet away so it was easy to disturb them..

I MET A SUPER CUTE BOY TODAY after sv j2farewell.(wow, been a long time since i went to westmall) he's -(shows four fingers ), mummy says 'shou liang ke qi lai', (down to two fingers)- two years old! he even has a yandao pose. he has nice eyes. gna be a handsome boy. but most imptly, he stays opp church.... ;) see, theres worth in persisting on churchgoing.

(hahahah jkjk. srysrysry)

anw that song was 'meant to be' by liberty x.

s said i sound mean in my replies to the person on the tagboard. so. sry , got no space to put emotions...

i spent the whole night looking for something in my room. i was so frantic i was on the verge of tears. i cursed -, cursed myself for being so damn stupid..... whoa my whole world went upside down. i retorted against my mum when she came into my room and didnt bother to apologise. i didnt even turn to look at her while she was talking to me.

i lost the prize i got for winning that only one competition. ha....

oh well.i found it. and i'm so relieved. but the lostness of it was so overwhelming that the relieved ness was kinda negligible....

and ,well, while recovering frm that, i talked to some friend who sounded so pissed off at me. and YOU. YOU again....you did it again.argh...

does anyone of you get affected when someone shoots you a pissed off look?

:(

i sound so emo, bitchy...wtv. basically a typical post i frowned upon...(past tense cos it was only last time i went ard kpo ing abt other pples lives so i can laugh at them)..but .... sigh, maybe i know how those girls felt then... conclusion : receiving such treatment and feeling like this every other day sucks!... unless of course youre dramatising your life. if you are, back to what i've felt towards yall, losertwkdkfl! haha kidding :)

i feel better now. because i just got an update on deb's united states life. and it sounds extremely exciting.i feel so happy FOR YOU! DEBBIE LAMMMMMMMMMMM. i was thinking abt you this afternoon anw =p i sound so les but whatever. I MISS YOU DEBBIE. ARE YOU HERE? DO YOU HEAR ME? the one who condemned me to hell =x hahahahahah jkjkjkjk..... omg i'm kidding ah. hahahah.
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maybe all this shit i'm receiving now is self inflicted........
that's why i feel that my future husband must be more authoritative than me. HA.

i've not heard this in a long while : long run. long run long run long run... no not long run cost curve or whatever the word is. but just the blatant words : long run.

i was having dinner this evening at a pizza place that had fantastic chicken wings. anyway, an old song suddenly came to mind. but the only line and tune to the song that came was

cos you and i were meant to be.

i have no heck of an idea what the before and after might sound like. but thanks to technology, i went to yahoo.com it . and found a gazillion and one different song lyrics with that one phrase
'cos you and i were meant to be'.

i went through seas and mountains, pressing a gazillion websites then selectively cancelling windows when i didnt think the rest of the song lyrics fit... and finally came down to this one song with these specific lyrics that seem actly rather lame...maybe that's how falling in love is like=/ BUT ANYWAY,

i dno if this is actly the song that i sang in my head. and i so badly want to hunt down this song that suddenly pop into my head while i was having my chicken wings.... (almost as bad as i wanna know who that stupid anonymous caller was . if youre here, quick tell me who you are!but i've done my fair share of hunting and i dont really care so this aint on top of my list now... )THIS SONG IS ON TOP OF MY LIST.

the problem now is that ,i have this set of lyrics which i think is the song that i'm searching for. but i've internet-alised high and low and dry for it to no avail. then i rmb technology and invention of blogs. so i'm gna post the lyrics here and if any of you ever have this song, please send it to me!!!!!!! thanks .give you one smiley in advance -> :)

At 2am
I'm driving home from being with you
Playing back our favourite song
Turn it up
Wonder if you're listening too

Know it's late but I gotta call
Cos I know You'll be there
Whenever I'm hurting
Whenever I fall

And the love that we share
Did it happen by chance
Or was there something more?

Cos you and I were meant to be
It maybe was our destiny
Staying together
Is a certainty
Like the sun and the rain
Like the night and the day
We were meant to be

2am and I'm still thinking of you
I can't get you off my mind
When you call to say you're missing me too
Wish that you were here tonight
Do you know I'll be there
Whenever you're hurting
Whenever you fall
And the love that we share
Did it happen by chance
Or was there something more?
Cos you and I were meant to be
It maybe was our destiny Staying together Is a certainty Like the sun and the rain Like the night and the day We were meant to be I remember When I first laid eyes on you I knew you were the one for me I knew you were the one I don't know how to explain it But it's plain to see That you and I were meant to be It maybe was our destiny Staying together Is a certainty Like the sun and the rain Like the night and the day You and I were meant to be It maybe was our destiny Staying together Is a certainty Like the sun and the rain Like the night and the day You and I were meant to be It maybe was our destiny Staying together Is a certainty Like the sun and the rain Like the night and the day We were meant to be

thanks!
when m and r talk abt r-ing.... suddenly this one last mth to a levels doesnt seem so crucial =/ after all i am a girl and i dont intend to go uni next yr ..... arafjakldfjaksdfj. stop it.

on a side note,
happy birthday beverly ,maverick ,cedric! :) bev said we can earn a lot of money if we sell the photo we took just now cos the latter-est guy is in there. hahahah that was funny.

OMG. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA. that's on the person who saw janell running across the road the other day. haha!

human says:
a kid who can drive
human says:
sigh
human says:
i bet the cops are gonna pull him over someday
human says:
and when he shows them his driving licence their going to arrest him
human says:
for having a fake id

is this for real?.....

that is some 'frozen sea' thing

... But we tend to forget that our parents have sacrificeda lot for our sake to see us happy, so it is our responsibility toensure that their dreams are realized and what they failed to see whenthey were young, it is our responsibility to ensure that theyexperience all those ...

i found this story rather interesting:

One day a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief, was walking in the woods. As he thought about his life this day, he knew many things were not right. He thought about those who had lied about him back when he had a job.His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his things and cheated him.He remembered family that had passed on. His mind turned to the illness he had that no one could cure. His very soul was filled with anger, resentment and frustration.Standing there this day, searching for answers he could not find, knowing all else had failed him, he knelt at the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would always be there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed:'Lord- You have done wonderful things for me in this life. You havetold me to do many things for you, and I happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive. I am sad, Lord, because I cannot. I don't know how.It is not fair Lord. I didn't deserve these wrongs that were done against me and I shouldn't have to forgive. As perfect as your way is Lord, this one thing I cannot do, for I don't know how to forgive. My anger is so deep Lord, I fear I may not hear you, but I pray that you teach me to do this one thing I cannot do - Teach me To Forgive.'As he knelt there in the quiet shade of that old oak tree, he felt something fall onto his shoulder. He opened his eyes. Out of the corner of one eye, he saw something red on his shirt.He could not turn to see what it was because where the oak tree had been was a large square piece of wood in the ground. He raised his head and saw two feet held to the wood with a large spike through them.He raised his head more, and tears came to his eyes as he saw Jesus hanging on a cross. He saw spikes in His hands, a gash in His side, a torn and battered body, deep thorns sunk into His head. Finally he saw the suffering and pain on His precious face. As their eyes met, the man's tears turned to sobbing, and Jesus began to speak.'Have you ever told a lie?' He asked?The man answered - 'yes, Lord.''Have you ever been given too much change and kept it?'The man answered - ' yes. Lord.' And the man sobbed more and more.'Have you ever taken something from work that wasn't yours?' Jesus asked?And the man answered - 'yes, Lord.''Have you ever sworn, using my Father's name in vain? 'The man, crying now, answered - 'yes, Lord.'As Jesus asked many more times, 'Have you ever'? The man's crying became uncontrollable, for he could only answer - 'yes, Lord.'Then Jesus turned His head from one side to the other, and the man felt something fall on his other shoulder. He looked and saw that it was the blood of Jesus. When he looked back up, his eyes met those of Jesus, and there was a look of love the man had never seen or known before.

You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know

All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend

Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close,
So close...
And still so far

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsuvCZvE3pE&feature=related ( argh. lost that cd)