Been trying for the past 3 months, yet not very intentional about it... And then the urgency probably hit me when the younger sis received a positive result last weekend.
Since then, I've been bouncing between "i don't wanna think about it and potentially stress myself / set myself up for failure" vs "come what may". I'm at the longer end of in between two periods and I seem to have symptoms pointing to positivity (anything but the morning sickness thinggy). The easiest way to find out is just to take a test right? But the innate fear of failure is preventing me from taking it. And also as long as I don't see a result, there is still hope it's a positive.
This limbo stage is so interesting. At some times, I'm googling and googling "does --- mean that I'm pregnant" or "is --- a signof pregnancy" - and essentially, it seems like any symptoms lead to chance of pregnancy - and other times, I'm convinced that my body is probably stressed or something that's why my period is delayed. I mean I just played tennis this evening, quite a good session in fact =D , how could I have something growing inside of me.
The plan was to wait for the weekends to test. But i've just boiled some water now, waiting for it to cool... Should I just gulp some water and do the test tonight? I've already taken the first (big) step of purchasing the kit.
//edit: oh wait. A negative result does NOT mean failure. Me repeating that throughout the week didn't ingrain properly lol.