haiyah. it's the only way i can stop myself from offending more people. sorry. sorry God.

have you ever felt so helpless? because what you say or ask is purely out of curiosity but people take so much offence to it.
or if it's not out of curiosity but just pure fooling around, they still get offended.
if not for you, at least for me, i'd feel so helpless and hurt. no matter how many times i apologise and the other party says it is okay, i'd feel so guilty. i'd feel so remorseful...so much self-hatred against myself. then i'd regret what i said. i'd regret that i joked with that person. i'd regret for being so unthoughtful. and i'd think to myself, "why the hell did you say that? why didnt you think before you said it? don't you know how much hurt you're causing to people? you're such a disagree. you're not fit to be in that society. you might as well just leave there and go to an entirely different place where people will not care about it."

sorry. sorry to youknow who you all are. i'm causing so much distruction in other people's lives;esp to mine. you have no idea how i hate myself now. i just nvr learn to think before i speak.